One Hell of a Nanny

by HeinousWriter

*Warning: INCLUDES MANGA EVENTS* Rina was taken in by Vincent as a child and has been raised as a nanny/maid for his sons. She is from the future, but she has accepted this as her new home. Watch as Rina's relationship grows with the Phantomhive family and the upsetting events that come into perspective in the near future and their effects. SebastianxOC!slowburn *RATED-M LATER-ON*

59. Easter

a/n

Hello readers,

I know it is has been a while. I sincerely apologize. I've been off and on writing this somewhat short chapter. I've been busy with college work and just work in general. I've been trying to find my way in life for quite a bit. I meant to post this on Easter day but time escaped me once again. So happy belated Easter.

School arc is next if anyone has any ideas or anything they want to see from Rina. Let me know.

Thanks for reading, guys. Hope you have a good week.

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Pacing down the hallway, I tighten my hold on the skirts of my dress. Actually, I'm going to refer to it as the Death Contraption from now on. How many skirts does a woman need again?! This is absurd! I glance behind me to find I lost Elizabeth finally. I stop with a huff, the corset making me breathless. I put a gloved hand against the wall and my other one on my back. Leaning forward, I attempt to catch my breath. I blanch at the sight of the overly pink and yellow dress Elizabeth squeezed me into it.

It's hideous in my eyes but to her, it's the epitome of cute. Her squeaky gushing voice enters my thoughts and I wince at the offending sound I had to tolerate for an hour. Maybe I should have stayed in the future...haha. Smoothing my skirts down, I presume a walk to the greenhouse. I believe Mey-Rin informed me that my brother was in there. I groan as the corset rubs against my chest uncomfortably. Why is it so tight? I'm going to die, I cry internally.

After five minutes or so, I arrive at the greenhouse. I push the door open and find who I was looking for instantly. Sebastian is standing to Ciel's right whilst settling tea down on the table for me. I gawk at what sits on his head. I wander closer all the while staring at the demon as my brother continues to examine the morning paper.

"What the hell are you wearing?" I ask as I attempt to hold down a laugh.

"Lady Elizabeth ordered the servants to where them for Easter." Sebastian explains and reaches up to touch a pair of bunny ears attached to his head.

"It looks ridiculous on you." I comment with a snort.

"As does your attire." Sebastian teases, eyeing the pink frills and the yellow ribbons. I groan and flop down in the chair.

"Don't remind me, I know it's hideous."

Ciel smirks, "You look like a clown."

I scowl at him in response, "At least I don't act like one."

He glares back at me, "What are you insinuating?"

I shrug and reach for a danish on the tray of pastries. Best not to start a fight so early in the morning. I completely forgot about the holiday known as Easter though. Until Elizabeth slammed the door to my bedroom open, exclaiming her joyous nature of the occasion.

I hum as the pastry melts in my mouth as I take a bite. "This is gorgeous!" I glance at Ciel's paper and I grimace at the image on the front cover. There is a headline about Viscount Druitt surviving the ordeal. "Oh, you got to be kidding me."

Ciel sweat drops, having already seen it. "He is quite persistent." he comments.

"Persistent? The man never dies! It's like impossible." I wave my hands about in emphasis.

Sebastian picks up Ciel's empty teacup and begins to refill it with a smirk. "It was a rather terrible maiden voyage, wasn't it?" Sebastian adds on.

"Terrible doesn't even cover it!" I scowl and toss my half-eaten danish on my plate. "The whole ship went down. Never mind the causalities! Zombies on the replica of the Titanic to top it all off! Does the real Titanic even exist or am I actually crazy?"

"I opt for crazy." Ciel mocks.

"Shut. Up." I growl at him, shaking my danish at him as I pick it up again. My blood pressure does not need to rise so early in the day.

"Now, now, my lady," Sebastian starts with a slight smirk. "...no need to be so rude."

I feel my eye twitch, "I'm not! I wish to not hear more from him is all." I defend.

"Either way, Elizabeth's been noisy all morning." Ciel speaks up, interrupting our casual daily banter. "What's she been doing?"

Sebastian smiles and places a hand on his chest. "If you have finished breakfast, I was told to take you to the second floor."

"Let's go."

Ciel and I stand up as Sebastian leads us out of the greenhouse toward the stairs. He takes us to one of the many living spaces in the manor. Opening the door, Ciel and I peek inside curiously. I could hear chatter through the door.

"Ah finally!" Elizabeth exclaims with a happy smile and claps when she spots us. Agni and Soma turn towards us with beaming smiles as well. "You're late you two!" Soma laughs.

I take notice of everyone in the room. So many freakin' people. Not to mention, bunny ears on everyone's head! It takes everything within me not to snort. Edward, Elizabeth's brother, appears the most ridiculous if I am, to be honest. The servants are all here too. Even Nina to my surprise.

"Why are they here?!" Ciel cries with a paling face as Elizabeth literally lunges at him for a hug.

"I thought we could celebrate Easter together!" Elizabeth informs giddily. "Though, my big brother came of his own accord." she adds while glancing at a said sibling.

"We have a different faith, but we can celebrate with you." Agni adds with a smile.

I smile back at him, finding that a bit generous of him. Ah, Agni, the friendly giant with a fist full of faith. Literally. "So, what is this Easter holiday?" Soma asks, grinning also.

"It's a holiday where we celebrate the resurrection of Jesus Christ, three days after he was crucified." Sebastian explains with a pointed finger.

"Or, a holiday where you stuff your face with chocolate and jelly be—I mean, candy." I correct myself. "Oh! Don't forget about the egg hunts!" I add on quickly, feeling like a child again. Soma's face shines with childish enthusiasm as he hears my explanation.

"That is a rather simplified version of the holiday, my Lady." Sebastian quips. "On this day, we line the tables with food made with plenty of eggs, milk, and butter. We also play games with Easter Eggs such as the egg hunt and egg tapping. It's also become popular to exchange cards that have Easter bunnies on them."

I scowl at him, "Must you overtop everything I say?"

He sends me a closed eye smile, full of total bullshit. "I am simply giving more details to which you lacked."

I feel my eye twitch with irritation, "You're about to lack something if you don't—"

"And, and!" Elizabeth cuts me off with her high-pitched voice. "Easter is also a time when everyone gets dressed up in new clothes and hats."

I glance down at my apparel with a distaste for said fashion. "Sadly." I murmur my misfortune.

Soma grabs his jacket in horror, staring down at it. "What?!" he gasps. "I had no idea, so, I came in my regular clothes..."

Nina begins to chuckle darkly and an evil-like smirk, "That must be my cue." she cries. "Let's unveil the new Spring collection of Nina Hopkins, the tailor that makes the season!"

Before I know it, a new dress and a hat are shoved into my hands. I gladly take it, ready to get out of this frilly monstrosity. Everyone travels to their rooms to change or rather a room in general. I take off my current dress once inside mine. The thing can burn in the fire for all I could care. The one dress Nina made me is more my style of preference. I smile happily and begin to put it on. It was a light green dress, which reminds me of Spring. It is sleek and fits my form rather nicely. A light pink bow sits above my chest. I grab a piece of white ribbon and tie it around my neck. Oh, I look good now. I'm a creative genius, I swear. The hat is white with a pink ribbon wrapped around it. Iris's stem from it rather beautifully. Nina really went all out.

I decide to braid my hair back but leave the rest of my hair down. I put the hat on and examine myself in the mirror. I do a little twirl, feeling satisfied with my appearance. I sneak on my Go-Walks, forgoing the heels. If we're going to be roaming around outside, I'm not doing it in heels. I wander out of my bedroom after I was done and travel back to the living space. All the men are already dressed and waiting.

I step in slowly, rather abashed, "Sorry I took so long." I murmur shyly. Everyone turns to look at me with smiles. Nina bounds over to me with a hyper dance in her eyes. "Oh my! You look marvelous!" she thrums.

I blush at the compliment and tug at my fingers. "Thanks for making me this dress, Nina. It's lovely."

She nods and I toss a smile her way. I glance at everyone else, mainly the boys in the room. "Oh, you guys look handsome." I comment.

Agni blushes a little and avoids my gaze. I raise an eyebrow to that but dismiss it. Edward simply scowls at me with his arms crossed. I curl my lip at him in retaliation. I don't need his shitty attitude today, thanks. I find Ciel seeming indifferent to the attire in general. Typical I think with an eye roll. Soma is practically bouncing in his spot with excitement. Well then, today should be eventful.

"I agree!" Elizabeth shouts with a large grin and a clap of her hands. "Everyone looks so cute!"

Nina seems proud of herself, "Excellent! Gentlemen really should be extravagant as well."

I loop an arm around her shoulders, "Really good job, Nina. It looks great."

I watch as Elizabeth places a pair of bunny ears on Ciel. I snicker as a small blush dusts his cheeks. She dances over to me, thrumming with her positive energy. She takes out another pair and offers them to me. I shake my head with an amused smile and bow my head down. I feel her place them on my head. I stand straight once again and I reach up to touch them curiously. I'm not used to headbands.

"Then, let's start the egg hunt!" Elizabeth cheers afterward, her arms up in the air. "Today, I brought father's special Easter eggs!"

She dashes off to grab a basket off the floor. I examine them closely, finding them to be decorated quite well. A very artistic and creative bunch of eggs. She picks one out of the basket and shows it to Ciel. "Look Ciel! Isn't this flower pattern nostalgic?" she asks with a smile.

Ciel tilts his head as if he did not recognize it. "Huh?" he voices, a bit lost.

I walk forward and stare at the egg curiously. The flower pattern is intricate and bright, a light blue color with pink flowers to accompany it. "Huh?" Elizabeth repeats back, a bit frozen if I would have to say.

Ciel tosses a cagey smile with a sweatdrop. "Ah...indeed it is," he says and looks away from her. "Well, I'll go and tell the servants to hide those."

Elizabeth watches him go as if stunned by something. I narrow my eyes at her, wondering what she was thinking. I lay my hand on her shoulder and she startles at the contact. Her eyes flash to mine, they are blown wide with fear and sadness. "You alright?" I ask.

She nods slowly before a full grin replaces her slight frown. 'That's right!" she cries and claps her hands. "I thought of something great!" she shares. She turns toward everyone in the room and takes out another egg from her basket. It has a beautiful ribbon on top, producing various light colors. The design of it is rather ornate. "I made this one, isn't it cute?! Let's have the person who finds this egg, hidden amongst the others in the mansion, be the winner!"

I hold my chin in thought, rather than finding this idea fun. "Ooh! So, this egg hunt works like that?" Soma realizes in awe.

I sweatdrop and smile wirily, "It's not usually a competition, but I rather like this idea."

Elizabeth dive bombs for Ciel and wraps him in a hug, "You would always find my Easter egg first, wouldn't you, Ciel?"

I feel a small pity for him. Have fun with that you little shithead. He sweatdrops and I enjoy his subtle misery. I walk around them with my arms crossed. I notice Sebastian lurking in the background with a calculative look in Ciel's direction. I come to his side by the window and stare at the young couple as Ciel flounders for a response. Then, Edward jumps in with envy, fighting for Elizabeth's egg. I roll my eyes at the scene; Edward is such a weirdo.

The sound of something outside distracts me momentarily. I stare at the window with a furrowed brow. "Sebastian, do you hear—"

My question is cut off as Earl Grey smashes through the window whilst holding rope to swing in. Sebastian grabs me by the arm, pulling me away from the shattering glass in time. His expression is a bit startled as if he did not expect that himself. I hear the occupants of the room gasp in surprise around me when Grey lands on his feet. "Earl Grey!?" Ciel cries with wide eyes.

I scowl at the new arrival of said man. Man, I hate this snow bitch from last time. I rest a hand on my hip as Phillps dangles down from the rope and climbs in through the window behind him. "Long time no see." Phillps greets stoically with a wave.

"Even Master Phillps?!" Ciel shouts in shock. "What are queen Victoria's butlers doing here?"

Phillps settles on the floor finally and I notice a basket in this hand. "A delivery from her Majesty."

Elizabeth comes forward with interest, "Waah! How cute! As expected of the queen!" she coos at the eggs.

"No, I painted those." Phillps replies blandly.

Grey stalks closer to us, appearing innocent with a small smile and narrowed eyes. His hands are clasped behind his white suit. I feel my scowl deepen, not enjoying his presence. "Ah, I overheard that you have to get your fiancées Easter egg first, don't you, Earl?"

Ciel doesn't respond, he simply stares at him with a sweatdrop. His presence is rather abrupt and a bit concerning. I'm already on my guard. This fucker killed Sebastian last time or rather thought he did. The silence is full of tension. Until Grey raises his arms to fold them behind his head with a broad smile, "Great! I'm participating too, then!"

"Really? Aren't you busy kissing the queen's feet?" I snap, becoming irritated with his nonchalant behavior.

He immediately glares harshly at me and his smile becomes forced, "Butlers do get breaks from time to time, miss."

I huff and turn my nose up at him. It might seem rather pompous. However, I could care less when it comes to this man. I won't ever forgive him. He's a sketchy character as it is. Phillps is a mystery to me though. He doesn't speak much, unlike his counterpart. He leaves me feeling mystified most of the time. They are rather strange partners.

"There're no rules other than 'the one who gets that egg first wins', right?" Grey asks out loud and points at Elizabeth's special egg which lies in her hands. "This'll be fun." he continues with a hungry look.

"Please wait a second." Sebastian interjects suddenly with a raised hand and his fake smile.

Grey stares at him with fake astonishment, "Wow...I've heard the rumors but," he drifts off, obviously in thought before he opens his mouth again. "...you're really alive, huh?"

"Thank you again for that time." Sebastian bows his head slightly and places a hand on his chest.

I feel a low growl build up in the back of my throat. It is foreign to me, but I tamp it down. When did I growl exactly? I shake those thoughts away and return my focus back to the conversation at hand.

Grey huffs slightly, "So? What does a butler who cheated death have to say?"

"I'd expect there would be injuries if we didn't have any rules between these members. That is why," Sebastian reaches inside his jacket with a curled smile and takes out a white egg. "...why don't we establish some more rules involving these?" he asks. "We'll divide everyone up into teams of two and have one of them carry a raw egg in a ladle during the egg hunt. One can freely exchange the egg through the use of these ladles. A team is disqualified if, for whatever reason, the raw egg breaks."

I hold my chin in interest, "That actually seems kinda fun." I ruminate. Sebastian tosses me a side smirk and I smile back at him.

"I see. You added rules like those in egg tapping into the egg hunt." Phipps simplifies.

"Because egg tapping is also a traditional Easter game." Sebastian explains. "But to make it easier to decide the game we'll be using raw eggs."

"Tch. Boring." Grey snarks whilst blowing a raspberry.

I roll my eyes at him, "Stop being a baby." I retort.

Before Grey can reply to me, Sebastian moves in front of me with a fake joyful smile. "Well then, let's decide the teams!" he cheers.

I glare at the demon's back for cutting of Grey's response. I want to fight the man. Maybe even kill if allowed, he really is irritating.

Before I know it, everyone is partnered up as a team besides me and Tanaka. I glance at Tanaka, but he seems too content with sipping his tea. Damnit, I don't have a team. I cry internally as I glance at Elizabeth who appears more than happy with the setup. I speed walk up to her with a hopeful look in my eyes. "Liz'! Can I help you with anything?" I ask.

She tosses me a mega-watt smile, "Course' you can silly!" she laughs. She shoves a basket full of eggs into my arms. "Can you hide these for me?" she asks until she gestures for me to lower my head. She cups her hands around her mouth and leans toward my ear, "Place mine on the chandelier in the dining room." she whispers.

I nod with a slight smirk and leave the room hurriedly. Everyone is waiting on me after all. I run around the manor, putting eggs in some easy and difficult spots. I dash outside next, putting eggs in bushes and the like around the area, completely hidden. I'm down to the last egg and when I grab it, it's blank. No design or anything on it. I tilt my head in thought until I feel an evil smirk crawl across my lips. I run back inside with a gallop in my step. I don't think I've ever raced up the stairs so quick in my life. I make a mad dash for my bedroom and slam my door open upon arriving.

I walk over to my suitcase tucked into the corner and unzip it. I rummage around all the clutter, searching for the item. I hold back my cackles at my evil thought. I find the black Sharpie with a victorious cry. I take the cap off with my teeth and decide to write a bad pun on it. This egg is meant for Sebastian and him only. I cackle at the thought finally and begin to write the bad pun on it. I draw an easter bunny on the other side when I'm done. It appears like a child's drawing but that's okay, I'm talented enough for it to look okay. I grab my perfume after, one I wear every day. It smells like lilacs, sweet but sharp.

Once I smother it in the scent, I take the egg and wander out of my bedroom. I rush back outside near a tree and dig up a small hole to place it in with my hands. I put the egg inside the dirt bed. No one will notice this. As I put the dirt back, I smirk, and another laugh escapes me as I walk back to the room where everyone is waiting. I dust my hands, trying to get the dirt off my hands on the way back. I grab the doorknob when it's mostly off and open the door. Everyone turns toward me with an expectant look.

I move away from the door and gestured to it with a smile, "Go get 'em!" I cry.

They all rush out the door in a hurry with their eggs in ladles already. I notice Ciel's determined look as he walks out with Sebastian. I smile and put my hands on my hips. Good to know he's at least having fun. Elizabeth comes to my side with a smile also when everyone leaves the room. "Did you hide them well?" she asks.

"Yep!" I laugh as I pop the 'p' in the word. "I wonder if they'll find yours." I hum.

She snickers and places her hand over her mouth in a lady-like manner. "I hope so! I want Ciel to find it!"

I shake my head at her cuteness.

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I walk along the halls as I hear screams of horror or unfairness. I smirk as I glance out the window to find Snake corralling Grey with his snakes. I full-out laugh at the sight and take out my camera I grabbed it when I went back to my bedroom again. "Oh my God, what a wonderful sight." I snicker. I take a few snaps of them. This is too good.

I decide to wander back outside. I sit down on the steps, watching everyone interact. It's rare to find a nice day like this. Despite the outcome of guests, I'm surprised Lau isn't here. It feels weird, I'm used to his random presence. I begin to hum a tune until it turns into a whistle of sorts. I spot Finny with a few eggs with a happy smile. I chuckle at the sight, that kid deserves happiness. I decide to lean back and enjoy the sun in my spot. The warmth surrounding me like a fuzzy blanket.

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Sebastian p.o.v. (third-person)

The young master must be eager to find lady Elizabeth's specially made egg. To help is simply his job as a butler. He sighs a little whilst searching through a bush. Someone must have found the egg in here already. He can recall Rina's scent briefly through the leaves of the bush. Her scent powerful; a mix of lilacs and her own. She gives off a specific smell, all naturally her. Of course, most humans don't notice their own scent. However, a demon's nose is a delicate thing. It is the smell of petrichor. A very odd scent for a human. He must admit it is quite appealing in a way.

Her scent becomes rather strong in the wind suddenly. He stands straight, keeping the egg in the ladle steady. He finds the young master searching in another bush nearby. Feeling his curiosity peak, he wanders over to a tree. Her scent is quite strong considering how long she may have lingered out here a half an hour ago. He gives the tree a glance over here and there. Though, he deducts it is not the tree giving off the smell. He peers down and finds a small patch of dirt that has been messed with. He narrows his eyes, wondering if it is an egg. It must be. Crutching down, he moves the dirt out of the way and finds a mostly plain egg.

He picks it up to examine. An ugly doodle of a face with horns and a smirk is on it. He scowls at the drawing; it looks like a child's doodle. How obscene. A sentence sits below it. It reads: "Why did the hawk sit on the church's steeple?". He sighs, this woman is so immature sometimes. He twists the egg in his hand to find her handwriting scribbled on the back also. "It was a bird of pray!"

His eyebrow twitches with irritation and his hand clenches into a fist. The egg crumbles into tiny white pieces, the yolk splattered all over his glove.

"Sebastian, did you find one?" Ciel asks from behind him.

Sebastian swivels his head toward him slowly, a closed eye smile taking place on his face. "Yes, however,"

Ciel comes to his side and stares at said destroyed egg in his hand. "Why on Earth did you crush it? We need them to win!"

Sebastian shakes his hand in the air, trying to rid himself of the mess he created. "It was a dud."

"How? It's an egg."

"Ask your sister." he practically growls out before walking away.

Ciel stares after his butler with a look of annoyance. "What did she do now?" he ponders out loud before following after the brooding demon.

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Rina's pov

I sit at the table, nibbling on tiny chocolates as we wait for everyone. Elizabeth is next to me, so are Nina, Edward, Mey-Rin, and Bard. We're waiting for the other defeated teams to trickle in. I grab another chocolate; it's filled with raspberry paste. I hum at the flavor and suck the chocolate off my fingers mindlessly.

"You're gonna get fat if you keep eating those." Bard comments randomly.

I take my finger out of my mouth with a glare in his direction. "I exercise more than you." I rebuke.

"Do you let your servants talk to you like that?" Edward pipes up at my side.

I send him a scowl, "Do you always poke your nose in places where it doesn't belong?" I snark back.

A loathing glare is sent my way and I barely acknowledge it. The wind ruffles my hair a little. The day is gorgeous and the scent of oncoming Spring tickles my nose. All in all, perfect Easter day. It's not my favorite holiday, but it's not the worst either. My bottom lip sticks out a bit, a pout of boredom. I sigh and rest my cheek on the palm of my hand. I could fall asleep right here. That's how nice the weather is right now.

Someone sits down next to me and I find it is Agni. I toss him a friendly smile and he returns it without effort. "How are you doing, lady Rina?" he asks.

I lean back in the chair, "Not too bad, I think. How was the Easter egg hunt?" I ask in slight interest.

He sinks in his chair, his shoulders hunched. "Sebastian and master Ciel got us."

I snort at that, "I'm not surprised. I bet it was fun though."

I tap my fingers against the tabletop. We're still waiting on Ciel, Sebastian, and the queen's butlers. I bet they're dueling each other now. I wonder if they found Elizabeth's egg. She hides her own in a special spot I presume. The thought of my egg makes me speculate if Sebastian found it or not. I snicker, imagining his reaction. The food set out on the table entices me. I stand up to survey the delicacies before me.

Not that I'm really hungry, but I have a dirty habit of eating out of boredom sometimes. I grab a cupcake with small fruit stacked on top of the white frosting. I pick off a blueberry and place it in my mouth. I hum at the tart taste. I notice a mop of white hair coming closer to the table. I find a defeated Charles and Phillps slowly making their way in. I muffle a laugh with the back of my hand. Nothing more beautiful than seeing Charles's irritated expression. If anything, it's the highlight of my day.

I spot Ciel and Sebastian behind them. A smug look is plastered across my brother's face as he saunters in. Sebastian carries the ladle still with an egg in it and a basket full of eggs. I shake my head at his slightly preened posture. Leave it to a demon to appear proud for simply finding a bunch of eggs and winning a game.

Elizabeth stands up from her chair with a noise of surprise and a wide grin. She paces toward him and Ciel holds out her specially made egg toward her with a shy look, "Here you go." he says.

Elizabeth pulls him into a bear hug with a giggle, "You did it! You got it first after all!"

I chuckle as a notice a blush spread across my brother's cheeks. A quiet confirmation flying past his lips at the same time. He pulls Elizabeth away from him slightly with a small smile, "Yes, as always."

I cross my arms at the exchange, noticing the bare minimum of happiness coming from Ciel. What a rare sight. I smile softly at it, sealing it in my memories forever. "May this Easter egg brings you lots of happiness!" Elizabeth cries joyfully, another giggle comes from her.

I take a bite of my cupcake dismissively. The weird feeling of calm overtakes most of my being. Another rare thing appearing in one day. I'm not used to so much positivity surrounding me or my family. A spark of shock takes hold of me at the mention of the family though. I glance at everyone in the vicinity. They all are chattering away without a care in the world. No impending danger, no depression, no hate, nor any death. I lower the cupcake from my mouth, and it slips through my fingers.

This is one hell of a family. One I'm not related to in any degree. But still, they are what I call home. Some more so than others. I'll never call those queen's butlers family but everyone else has a special place in my heart. I feel my eyes sting with tears. I barely notice Sebastian's presence next to me until a gloved finger pushes against the corner of my mouth. I make a noise of protest and the pressure vanishes quickly.

I find Sebastian studying his finger and I notice a dab of frosting on the tip. "You are quite messy for a lady." he clicks his tongue with a reprimand. I watch as the digit disappears into his mouth. He makes a noise of disgust before removing his hand away from his mouth. "I will never understand how you humans consume anything."

I stare at him with wide eyes. My brain is in such a state of blankness. I don't know what to make of my reality anymore. Maybe I'm becoming bipolar or perhaps insane. I feel a couple of tears trickle down my cheeks. Sebastian's eyes widen in confusion, "My lady? What is the matter?" he asks.

I can't stop them.

No wail comes from within. Just an empty response. A response to something I'm not even sure of. It's indescribable. "I—" I croak out. I swallow harshly, my throat feeling raw. "I don't know." I respond and clutch at the skirts of my dress. I bite my lip and turn away from him.

How much longer until everyone leaves? How much longer until I die? HOW much longer until I'm no longer myself? My past is way different from my present. I've changed so much. I don't even know who I am sometimes.

Where are I and my family going exactly from here?

Ciel strolls up shortly after with a letter between his fingers. A serious stony gaze set on Sebastian and me. "We've got work to do from the Queen."