This will be deleted once a new chapter is posted. I'm posting this on all the sites I run on so everyone can be updated on what's happening.

Okay, so I know something I've been terrible at is communication to my audience. At least, when it comes to my stories. I know I've never set an update schedule, so I've never promised anything (which will continue, as a set update schedule is just pointless). But, when it gets to the point of 4 months without a chapter of "Thank You" and soon to be 2 months without a chapter of "An Insecure Violet", it's just unacceptable.

To those telling everyone asking for updates to leave me in peace, thank you. As much as I love your enthusiasm and adoration for my works, the asking sometimes just makes me feel even more guilty than I already do.

Now, this isn't to tell you I'm quitting. That's definitely not happening. I will continue writing, "Thank You" will conclude in due time with a proper ending, "An Insecure Violet" will continue on for the foreseeable future, smaller projects, so on so forth.

What I'm here to do is explain myself. I won't go into deep details and such, but a vague outline. Life for me since about 2016 has...not been kind. I'm not saying my life is the worst, or that I have it worse than anyone else's. I'm better off than so many, and I'm grateful for that. But, like Kyouka said in AIV, everyone's issues are their own. My spirit has just been slowly degrading over time, and recently I've just hit what is likely my lowest point. My motivation has been heavily damaged, a lot of things I loved to do just make me depressed and angry, and things I want to do I don't think I'm capable of. My hopes and dreams are in danger of being tossed aside, my family life is questionable at best, and a smattering of personal problems continue to plague my mind.

As much as I want to blame this on 2020 and the low points everyone hit, not just with the virus, but also going stir crazy or depressed from being inside for too long, I know this has been happening for a lot longer.

And this has also caused burnout on my part. Burnout comes so much easier, and TY has taken the brunt force of that. Writing that for so long, sometimes it would consume my day for weeks on end, my mind eventually just began running on fumes. And chapters for that started to take longer and longer because I refuse to give lackluster content. But my mind is starting to take longer and longer to recharge, because it's just so tired. I love TY, I love all of you that read it, and I'm very sorry it's been slowed down.

The same goes for AIV. While that has had more chapters consistently as of late, it's never received the same speed TY did in the early days. And that's especially painful because IzuJirou is my favorite (sorry TY fans. It's true), and I have such big plans for that story that I want to see come to fruition.

School is also not helping, as the stress from that is piling on to my regular stress and anxiety, just overwhelming my brain. And when it gets overwhelmed, I just kinda shut down. And with school, comes people expecting you to do so much you don't think you're ready for.

I've just stopped believing in myself. I don't think I've believed in myself in years, but the weight is finally crashing down on me as life is really starting to hit me with full force.

Please don't take this as a pity party, or excuses. I just think the least I could do is give you all an explanation instead of silence like I've been giving you. And a half-hearted explanation just raises more questions.

I'll live. I'll continue to write, as it truly does give me joy, and you all give me joy seeing you read it. And I know almost all of you have already given me this, but patience and understanding is all I ask for. Because all I want is to give the best work I can possibly give to you. To all my readers, thank you for all the support. You've helped me realize that a hobby has become a true passion.

More chapters are to come. I hope to be with you all again soon.