J.R. POV

I had Jayce come in the medbay and lay on the bed with me. I was thinking of moving back to the couch, but if we don't want Jamie to know about this shit and Jayce can't stay calm for long. Some T.V. on my tablet will do until Jayce gets anxious. Drift is unsure if he should stay in case I need help or go back to Jamie's room.

"Go, I'll text you if we need help," Crosshairs tells him, and Drift leaves the room.

Crosshairs sits on the chair by the bed.

A half-hour passed before Jayce gets anxious. I don't know if she's thinking about all this shit, or she gets anxious out of the blue. Crosshairs gets up and stands by the bed.

"Relax, everything is ok."

Hmm, I have an idea.

J.R.: Jayce is anxious. Can I call you so you can talk to her?Drift; yeah, Jamie is still asleep, and I can go in the hallway.

Drift calls my phone.

"Put me on speaker," he says before I can say anything.

"Ok, you're on speaker."

"Jayce, listen to me, Jamie is ok, and she's been doing better the past three months. She's doing what she loves to do but dealing with the usual shit. You know she always worries about her friends being injured. I stay with Jamie, you know she's safe. Ok, now I'm so used to staying with her, waiting for her to wake up."

We all laugh at Drift's last sentence.

"I think she's also used to it," I comment.

Jayce calmed down. I wasn't expecting Drift to switch to video call. He showed Jayce Jamie sleeping, which seems odd, but it's something that helps Jayce. Drift brought up going out later today though I'm not sure if it's a good idea considering how unstable Jayce is; he is aware.

"I know she's unstable, but I think outings help her. She sees how happy Jamie is. We know Jamie can't fake being happy," Drift explains to me, no longer on speaker, "we know the early signs of her getting anxious, I can take her to my alt mode if that happens. Come on; you know we make sure we have detailed plans for almost everything. Everything will be ok; she'll recover."

With that, Drift hangs up.

Jayce is resting her head on my chest.

Oh boy, I don't want to tell her to get off.

I watch Crosshairs prepare an IV bag.

"If we're going out later, you're going to need this," he says as he hangs the bag. He connects the tube to my IV, "normal rate instead of slow."

Crosshairs tells me Jayce fell asleep ten minutes later and asks if he should move her to the other bed. I worry she's going to freak out if she's not on me when she wakes up, but my pain is returning. He moves her to the other bed. I know I'll fall asleep soon.

Crosshairs POVJ.R. fell asleep fifteen minutes later. I make sure the two girls are covered with a blanket before going upstairs to Jamie's room.

She's Awake, and Drift is holding her while sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Close and lock the door!!" I tried to scold. This still gets them both to laugh. The room quickly becomes silent, and we hear Jamie's stomach.

Drift and I laugh before he carries Jamie downstairs. Jamie wants to go to the medbay, but we're able to convince her to leave Jayce and J.R. alone. I sit on the couch with her while Drift makes their tea. What we need is Jamie's playful mood. That has to be a good part of Jayce's treatment now that Jamie isn't as depressed. We hope Jayce can fully recover, but aware she might end up being like Jamie. Anything is better than the nightmares, panic, and anxiety attacks.

Once Drift is sitting with Jamie, I go back to the medbay. I think I better stay here even if Jayce sleeps for another two hours.

Jayce wakes up at twelve-thirty, not as scared from her nightmare as she has been. Standing by the bed, I take her hands.

"Shh, you're ok."

Jayce looks over at J.R. before sitting up to hug me.

Once she calms down, which was quick, I suggested she take a shower.

Jayce hugs Jamie before going upstairs to get clothes. Jamie watched her go upstairs, unsure of what to think.

"She's ok," I tell her before going upstairs.

Jayce POV

I didn't know Crosshairs followed me to my room until I saw him standing in the doorway.

Damn, I've scared everyone to where they don't dare leave me alone. Crosshairs has seen J.R. nude many times by now. Is he no longer bothered and will stay in the bathroom as I take a shower?

Crosshairs followed me downstairs but not into the bathroom. I waited five minutes before turning on the water and undressing.

Standing under the running water, I start thinking about all this shit. I can't believe what this has turned into. I finish my shower and turn off the water before sitting on the floor and let myself cry. I know I've been in the bathroom for twenty minutes now. Won't be long before the others worry about me.

I don't know how much time passed before I hear the door open and close. Drift came in; he's trying not to look at me as he grabs a towel. He looks up at the ceiling as he walks into the shower and covers me with the towel before looking at me and pulling me up onto my feet and wrapping the towel around me and hugging me.

"Shhh, it's ok."

I can't stop crying. Drift waits five minutes before starting to dry me.

"Can't stay here in a towel. Come on, let's get you dressed and up to your room."

Damn it; now I know how embarrassed J.R. feels, but she needs the help.

Drift carries me to my room, Crosshairs following him. They both sit on the bed, and I cry again. I can't take this anymore; I want this shit to stop. I hate how Crosshairs and Drift keep saying the same thing over and over. It's so not even helping me.

Six hours later

Drift POV

We had a good time out. J.R. wanted us to do something fun, but she's still recovering and was in a little pain by the time we headed back to base. We returned at six and turned on a movie. Crosshairs started another infusion, so hopefully, J.R. wouldn't deal with intense pain while we're watching the movie. She insisted on Jayce sitting next to her. She kept Jayce in a hug for a good hour before her arms got tired. Jayce leaned on her once J.R. let go.

We watched the live stream Jamie likes to watch most nights until Jayce and J.R. fell asleep. I had Jamie go to her room and resume watching the live stream while I put Jayce to bed. I didn't know Crosshairs waited for me in the hallway.

"What happened earlier?" He asks as I closed the door.

"I don't know; I just knew I had to check on her. I found her sitting in the shower, crying. She was still soaked. I couldn't just leave her in the shower, nude."

"She tires of this shit and thinks this is permanent. She seemed to make some progress with J.R. there's got to be something we can do that we haven't tried."

"Maybe revisit Bumblebee's idea once J.R. heals? I don't think she can tolerate going out to dinner several nights in a row."

With that, we went back to Jamie's room. Crosshairs stayed until Jamie fell asleep at three in the morning, which neither of us liked.

Eight in the morning, I discover Jayce is already awake and in the medbay. Crosshairs and Hound tell me J.R. wanted her in the medbay. Hound waited until six in the morning and how Jayce didn't have a good night. J.R. had Jayce laying on her and is rubbing her back.

"She's already struggling," Hound sighs.

Hound POV

Jayce struggled with nightmares and nocturnal panic attacks. She still can only sleep for two hours before waking up, panicking. I did what J.R. wanted me to do, knowing Jayce would struggle. J.R. can get her to relax, but it seems Jayce can't stay relaxed for long. Crosshairs tells me to relax though I question how much relaxing he's done in the past two months.

I watch Crosshairs, Drift, and J.R. comfort Jayce for a few minutes. It's like she has three therapists. It's hard to know if this is working. Even if this is working, I don't think this is something we could have done four months ago, and this shit wouldn't be dragging on.

This is more like the last piece of Jayce's recovery. Jamie is back to her usual struggles that we're all used to helping her with. Jayce's brain is not processing that everything is back to the way we know minus Buddy but Jamie is doing ok with this change.

J.R. POV

This is complicated; Jayce can't stay relaxed for over three hours. Having three of us talking to her seems to help, but we can't say for sure until her anxiety becomes less frequent. I think her nightmares and nocturnal panic attacks will take the longest to cease. I worry the longer she deals with this shit, the more likely she's thinking suicide again.

I can't let her lay on me for long. She's not light like Jamie and with three broken ribs. Drift took her off me, holding her as he sat on the chair by the bed. Not even eight-thirty, but she's struggling.

"Ok, time for a therapy session with me," Drift jokes as he leaves the room, carrying Jayce.

"He'll do better than me."

"No, she needs all of us, just like Jamie. Now, about your pain. How was the ice pack yesterday?"

"Caused more pain."

Crosshairs didn't like hearing this and had a concerned expression.

"I don't know what we're going to do. I think outings are also a good part of Jayce's recovery, but I can't do anything."

It's no surprise I'm crying.

Cade comes in, not liking what he's seeing.

Now I'm the one getting a therapy session.

Cade POV

J.R. is too worried about Jayce, and I think it's causing her healing to go at a snail's pace.

I can tell J.R.'s pain is increasing as she's crying. Crosshairs tries to calm her down while I prepared an IV bag of pain medication.

"Jayce is being taken care of, and you're helping her, but you need to relax to be able to completely heal," Crosshairs says as he holds J.R.'s hand. She's in too much pain to be moved onto his lap. I start the infusion before looking at her chest and listening to her breathing. Her lung is healed by the sound of her breathing, but her oxygen level can still decrease.

Crosshairs can handle J.R., and I'm hoping to see how Jayce is doing. It looks like Drift took her out. How difficult is she already?

Drift POV

It's not too cold out, and I can take Jayce for a walk after I get her to calm down. Ten minutes pass before she's calm, and I take her for a short walk. Jayce didn't talk during the walk, which isn't like her. We return to my alt mode fifteen minutes later. I didn't expect her to hug me and start crying again. Ok, so the walk didn't help her.

"Alright, time to go back."

It's early enough that I shouldn't get caught holding Jayce as I'm driving back to the base.

She's making progress, though rather slowly. She wants to be with J.R., and possibly Jamie, more.

Four hours later

Jayce POV

After a three hour nap, I had an hour of what I think is J.R.'s idea of a therapy session. Lying on her as she runs my back, repeating what has been said to me so many times the past five months. I told her I don't want to cause more patients n, but she insisted I lay on her. While Crosshairs and Drift sit by the bed. I laid on her until we heard Jamie returned from the house. J.R. is noticeably in pain as I get off her and the bed.

"I'm fine," she says before I can say anything. Crosshairs starts another infusion before picking her up and carrying her to the couch as I wheel the IV pole.

Jamie is already sitting on Drift, who's sitting on the couch. Crosshairs puts J.R. on the couch next to Drift, at the end of the couch. Though I think Crosshairs should be next to J.R., I will say nothing. I sit on the other side of Drift once I position the IV pole, and Crosshairs sits next to me.

"I just started the infusion; she should be fine until bedtime," Crosshairs whispers to me, "it's you I worry about. You need to relax."

Two hours pass before Drift and Jamie move. J.R. tells me to move closer to her. Drift takes my spot next to Crosshairs.

"You're ok," J.R. whispers as she side hugs me with one arm and holds my hand with her other hand.

Was I showing signs of anxiety? I don't feel anxious.

Jamie doesn't seem to question what just happened.I lean on J.R. to stay relaxed as she rubs my arm. She does this for twenty minutes, but she hugs me until we're done watching T.V. three hours later. Jamie had fallen asleep by the time we stopped watching T.V.

"The only good thing about Jamie being stressed is she's going to bed at a good time and not three in the morning," Hound comments.

"Take her, Bee," Drift says, before kissing his girl and handing her to Bee. Without question, Bee carries Jamie upstairs to her room.

Don't tell me you're changing your routine for me, Drift. I know you, even though Jamie is asleep, you'd be cuddling with her until you fall asleep.

"Come on," J.R. says, clearly in pain as she stands up.

Saying nothing, Crosshairs picks her up. Drift grabs my hand and wheels the IV pole behind Crosshairs. J.R. is quiet during the short walk and as she's laid on the bed. Drift has me sit in him as he sits in the chair by the bed. Close enough that J.R. can hold my hand. I'm hesitant to ask if I can sleep here or not. If Drift will use sleep aid.

J.R. is out within an hour: Crosshairs starts another infusion but sets it to last all night.

Crosshairs and Drift talk about using sleep aid. The problem is I'm able to sleep all night, but then they don't know if I'm still dealing with nightmares. They're going to have to stop using the drug at some point, plus I can become dependent on the drug. They decide to use the drug and let me sleep here even if I'm drugged.

Crosshairs POV

"You know we can't use the sleep aid for much longer?" I ask Jayce, "We'll need to stop for at least a week."

I hate how her nightmares and nocturnal panic attacks made her afraid to sleep. I wouldn't count that as proof she's dependent on the drug.

"He's right; we'll need to stop using it soon. Also, how are we going to know if you're recovering if you're drugged? You understand the nightmares and nocturnal panic attacks are part of your mental struggle?"

We didn't want Jayce to cry, more proof these nightmares and nocturnal panic attacks frighten her.

"Alright, we'll use sleep aid tonight," I say without talking to Drift, but I know he agrees.

He lays Jayce on the other bed while I prepare the syringe.

"I can't believe how much this is affecting her," Drift comments once Jayce is asleep.

"Both of them," I add while looking at J.R., "and the one who we thought would be a challenge still isn't."

Drift said nothing; I know he's worried about when Jamie will be a challenge. Not particularly during this situation, but she goes through periods of having a hard time mentally and emotionally for a while, along with more frequent struggling for a few hours or the entire day. Every time this happens, everyone is reminded how no human in this dimensions l wants to know Jamie and be friends with her. How mental health is ignored.

A few minutes pass before Drift leaves. I'm tempted to follow him, but I also think he needs to be alone.

I feel like we have an additional problem: J.R. wants to help Jayce, and she'll ignore her pain to help Jayce.

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