Bella has been quiet and withdrawn since I dragged up so many painful memories with my blasted piano playing and cursed lullaby. If I could have lied, made an excuse, gotten out of it somehow, then this could have been avoided, but I cannot lie to her and she was quite insistent. I should have run away.
We are supposed to be conquering my fear of the anatomy of a lady tomorrow, I do not ever remember being so nervous in all of my existence. I am shaking quite badly as I write this.
Alice gave me strict instructions to be on my best behaviour and not to embarrass myself, the family or Bella by acting like a nincompoop. I suspect that is precisely what shall happen.
Perhaps I can remove my hands somehow and then I will not have to go through with it…
I am going out now to hunt and search for Bella's pen. It has to be somewhere in Forks, surely!
A/N: Please leave a review! Thanks so much to my wonderful beta wh1teow1, please show some love and read Moirai, a reimagining of Twilight for the new decade! What on Earth is up with Bella?