Oh my God have I been OOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTT of the loop. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHA. It was giving me a MAJOR headache not writing anything for SOOOOOOOO damn long, but now I am back. This time around I chose Twilight. This story is going to be major femslash. I just want to say sorry to all of those who have been waiting so long for updates on my other stories, but I just like lost the inspiration juice for those. Maybe if it comes back, I'll write more, but as of right now "My high school from hell" and "Someone's always watching" are on a hiatus. Obviously in quarantine I did what every other gay 2000s gen z-er did and re-watched Twilight like ten million times. So, I thought to my self in the midst of all of my crappy personal shit, which is why I haven't been writing for so long, I need to get back in the game and write some shit if I'm going to try and finish my book.
I also want to write SOA fanfiction, but those characters are so complicated that I would probably butcher it because I can never even think about writing anything close to Kurt when it comes to those guys. Everything recognizable as Stephanie Meyers' is hers. Without further ado... WELCOME TO THE LAND OF GAY TWILIGHT!
Chapter 1
"My safety? My...safety?! Edward my safety is in you! You make me feel safe! You and your family both make me feel incredibly safe! Why can't I go with you?" I know he was worried about what his bother Jasper did. I already smelled different to any vampire I come into contact with, but add to that the fact that Jasper is an empath; that he can feel the bloodlust of six other vampires, his own struggle trying to conform to the vegetarian diet was enough. Add in that I'm Edward's singer? I was surprised he hadn't leapt at me sooner.
"Bella, you're my mate. My soulmate. You are the one for me; the one that was intended for me. I just want to protect you. If something were to happen to you because of my family and myself...I don't know if I could ever live with the guilt that that would bring."
So, this is about how you feel and not about the incredible decision that is going to affect me for the rest of my life? What about my feelings? What about how heartbroken I'm feeling right now!
"I- Edward, I don't- "
"It's okay Bella. I know this is hard. I can't live without you, but I can't stand the thought of something happening to you if I were to stay. We're leaving. We're not coming back. You are just going to have to move on and have a normal human life without me."
"Edward- "
"Goodbye Bella." That's when he kissed me one the forehead. I looked up from the ground and he was gone. I don't understand! If we were supposed to be together forever then why did you just leave! If he can't stand a little trouble and work it out with his family...if he can't talk it out with Jasper and figure out a way to get past this... What if something else had happened? What if this was a sign? If he can't stay now because of a little trouble, then what would've happened if someone else came after me? Or worse, what if the Volturi had come for some strange reason? I don't even understand...
"Fine! If you can't stay because of a little trouble, then I never wanted you any way!" Bella began walking home, angrier at herself than anything. Why did she even think for a second that a vampire and his entire family want to be anywhere around the likes of her. She stumbled a little after tripping over a medium-sized rock. Stupid clumsy gene! I can't even storm off after a bad break up without tripping over everything! She began crying. It started with a small tear, but before she even realized what was happening, and entire flood of tears were rolling off of her face. Ugh! Why the fuck am I crying?! I don't even understand it! I knew somewhere deep down that I didn't even like him! She stopped walking. Love. Love? She couldn't even say that she loved him. Leave it up to your subconscious to always tell you the truth. I'm better off without him anyway! I don't need him! If only he could read my mind!
"I don't need you." She looked up and into the forest. "Did you hear that? I don't need you; and I never did!" She tripped again when she started walking. This time it wasn't just a simple rock. She lost her balance and fell to the forest floor. What the hell? "What?" She looked back by her feet. She saw the obnoxiously large branch laying there, teasing her as if it were proud to be a hazard in the middle of her foot path. Her face scrunched in annoyance. She looked back in front of herself to remember where she was on the trail. She needed to get up. Bella could already feel all of the cold air and frozen ground seeping into her t-shirt underneath of her small, yellow raincoat. That's when she noticed the small rock in front of her, or rather the rock indentation and the scattered footprints next to it. Had she been here before? Ugh, you've got to be kidding me! Great, just great! Now she was lost. She was in the forest, behind her house; somewhere! And now, thanks to Edward, she was lost.
"Great! Just great! A wonderful way to end the even more fabulous evening that I've been having- " Snap! Bella quickly turned her head to her left, towards the location of the strange noise that she heard far off in the forest. Snap! There it was again. She quickly turned her head to the right to try and catch whatever it might be that is making these strange noises. Crack! There it was again; closer this time. It was nearly right in front of her! A normal person would walk away or blame it on the wind. Maybe, if they could somehow keep calm in a strange, dark forest at night, they might blame it on a small animal or a deer a little further back in the woods. However, Bella is not normal. Bella also knows that there are things in this world that are also not normal. So, when she heard these noises, she did the only thing she thought any normal person would do:
"Hello?" Silence. "Is anyone there?" Crack! "Hello," she questioned a little louder, albeit a little more anxious, into the dark wilderness. Snap!...Pop!
"...Boo!" She ran. Screamed and ran. That was all she could do. It didn't matter if she knew that most things could out run her, or that she might trip over what's right in front of her in the next ten seconds. All she knew was that she had to get away from whatever was chasing her. Whoever was chasing her. At least she thinks it's chasing her. Ugh God! Shut up Bella! You have the worst inner monologues at the most inopportune times! She wasn't just running now. It was a full-on sprint. She didn't know how long she had been trying to escape her terrorizer, all she knew was that it was the longest time she had ever gone without tripping over anything. Smack! Down she goes. Just as she thought it, Bella tripped over a narrow branch of to the side of the path and landed face first on the ground. She heard a sickening crunch and then felt a sharp pain. Great! First you get lost and then you break your nose! What's next? You decide to go cliff diving?! Ugh shut up Bella!
Something grabbed her leg and she let out a blood-curdling scream. Something, no, someone had her by the leg. She was sure she would have a large hand print-shaped bruise covering the back of her calf tomorrow when she got out of this. If she got out of this.
The person dragged her off of the path by the back of her leg. Mud and dirt and sharp, little twigs were getting all up underneath of her shirt. There were probably going to be a few scratches and deep little gashes when she looked later. If she were to get out of this. She couldn't see anything. Not even when whoever had her by the leg flipped her over on her back. She tried to look up to see anything recognizable about this person, but nothing stood out. They were the same as every body else. They were just normal. She used all of the muscle she had to sit up and try and hit her attacker wherever she could reach. Again, she heard a sickening crunch and felt the pain a moment later when she attempted to hit them in what she assumed was their stomach. Unfortunately for her, she now had a broken nose and right hand. She is also now aware that the rock-solid flesh she attempted to injure could only belong to the only things that seemed to be constantly after her: Vampire. Great! At this point Bella realized that she only had one option left, which, she thinks isn't really going to work considering she has no idea where she is in the forest.
"Help! Help me!"
"There's no way anyone is going to hear you all the way out here!" She looked back to where she figured he was standing and turned to see two red irises staring back at her. Out here? How far are we?! Are we really far, or is the house really close and he's trying to play tricks on me?!
"Please don't hurt me!" The vampire leaned down and got right in her face and closed her eyes to await her doom. When nothing happened, she opened them again. The blond man leaned over top of her, inches away from her face, and gave her an eerie smile. All of his too-perfect white teeth shined brightly, even in the darkness that surrounded them.
"There you are. Let me see those beautiful browns of yours." His smile grew even wider, if that were possible, and his voice got even quieter. She looked away the closer that he got; at least she tried to, but he grabbed her by the jaw to make her look back at him. "No, no don't look away," he laughed. A deep, haughty, sadistic laugh. "We're just getting started! I want you to scream! I want this to last! I want you to sweat and bleed! You're going to die slowly. Very, very slowly; grow tired and, just when you think you've had enough, I'll replenish you and do it all over again!" He laughed much louder this time, and much, much haughtier. "Doesn't that just sound like so much fun? Doesn't it? I can't wait! So, let's get started, shall we?" He reached down to the juncture between her neck and shoulder. Bella tried to fight him off even though she knew it would be useless, but at least she wouldn't die giving up. He grabbed her hands to restrain her and bit her on the neck. The slight pinch she felt on her skin didn't hurt as bad as she thought it would, but she needn't dwell on it for too long. As soon as she noticed the pinch, she noticed the burn. The fiery pain that supposedly came with a vampire bite. The venom that was in their system was everywhere. That she knew. It acted as their blood and it was used when they killed. It coated their teeth and took the place of their saliva; so, as soon as the strange and psychotic vampire bit down on her skin, the venom was already released. She just didn't, no, couldn't imagine it being this bad. This amount of pain was almost unbearable. She screamed. It was the only release that she had. She knew it was futile considering no one had come to save her yet, she assumed no one would. This she was sure of now.
She wasn't aware of how much time was passing, or if the pain was receding or getting worse. He had already let her sweat some and she felt nauseous earlier. After it went away, she assumed it was because her blood was replenishing itself, but after the number of times that he bit her, sometimes repeatedly in the same spots, she gave up trying to figure out what was happening to her body and what was not. She wasn't sure anymore. She just wanted it to stop; just wanted it to end. She couldn't really see due to the pain blurring her vision severely, but she could tell that it was getting lighter outside. She could also see the horrible creature lean in towards her neck again. Bella didn't think she could take another bite. She wasn't sure fighting for life was something worth doing anymore. Then she heard it; the growl-like noise. Maybe it's here to finish you off. Bella, if you make it out of this, then you are definitely going to have to tell Charlie about the gigantic creatures in these woods. Charlie! Oh God he's probably worrying out of his mind right about now. It was dark when you left with Edward! Edward...did they leave yet? Why are you worrying about them leaving? They never loved you to begin with apparently! Does Charlie know that they left yet? If he knows I'm missing does he think that they might have something to do with it? Has anyone told him yet? Why would they have to tell him Bella? I guarantee he knows you're missing. Focus Bella! The pain hurts too much! I can't-
She felt another bite at her neck. Shit! Why won't he just stop already! Please! I can't! Stop! Just...it, just make it stop! Whatever this is! Whatever you're-
"...doing..."
"What? Was there a word or two actually coming out of your mouth? Did I ask you to say anything? What is it you're trying to say little pet?" He leaned his ear down towards Bella's mouth for exaggeration. "You know, I'm surprised. Nobody can really do anything other than scream when they've got venom in their system. I'm surprised sounds stopped coming out of your mouth at all!" He laughed again. This time, however, it was cut short by a large howl; and then there were no more fun and games. It was like a switch had been flipped inside of him. She could hear it, feel it in the air around her. For some reason, whether it be normal human instinct or the already abnormal amount of adrenaline and paranoia that was in her system, she had jolted to. The burning was intense and it was all she could focus on. Until:
"Damn, and I was so close to finishing my meal! Well, I guess you're just going to have to suck it up cupcake and stay alive a little while longer. I've got some business to take care of, but I'm sure I'll be home for supper. Ha!" He laughed. Giggled even. He actually had the audacity to do so! "See what I did there? Anyway, I'll be back. Don't start without me!" He sped off. She was alone. The vampire had left her alone; not that she had wanted him around, not by any means, but now nothing was there to distract her, keep her away from the pain. The pain that that sadistic being had created, keeping her from going to Charlie, her father, and comforting him, telling him that she was alright; that she's safe. The pain that her supposed soulmate, the word now tasting foul in her mouth, had caused; leaving her alone in this forest, to find her way back home, which she had assumed was him until he finally decided to shatter her logic.
What was she supposed to do now? She couldn't just get up and move. Someone would have to come and find her. There wasn't anything that she could do. She didn't want him to come back. Who she was referring to now, she didn't know. If Ed- he came back, Bella wasn't sure if she could handle it; if it would be worth it. The physical pain and anguish that she was feeling now, that, that, she could handle; but add something emotional into the mix and she'd be done for.
She actually wanted that sick vampire to come back. If he did then he was more than likely going to end her. At this point she was ready to greet Death as an old friend. She couldn't imagine a world without anyone she loved and trying to navigate it alone as a newborn. She couldn't do it. She wouldn't be able to. She didn't think that she'd be able to.
As Bella thought this, she didn't realize that her inner thoughts had made her focus on something besides the volcanic flames that she was feeling running up and down her entire nervous system. But when she tried to find the pain again, to let her know that something was there for her, that at least that would be constant, she couldn't find it. As hard as she tried, even though she knew that it was a really bad idea, she just couldn't seem to find it. That's when she figured she should open her eyes to find out what was going on.
Its dark outside. Was the daylight really a hallucination? Was it all just in your head? Was it just a way for you to escape while you accepted your fate? She was seeing bright lights everywhere and there was and overwhelming scent of pine and fir trees. Did Charlie leave the back door open because he burnt something again? Focus Bella you know you're outside! That you can remember. Then what are these- Stars? Are...are they stars? Is that why they're so bright? Are they closer than normal? She needed to sit-
She was already up. Before she could even think it, before it even crossed her mind, she was in a sitting position. What the hell? Why was she-
Bella looked at her hands. She was pale. Paler than normal. Either she's dead already, or the vampire came back and finished her off without her knowing. You were completely out of focus for a while there...Then why was she...okay? Fine? What was the word to use? She was better than fine, she was insanely spry for someone who's nose and right hand are broken, and who has just gone through copious amounts of torture. Torture. It tasted foul; off. She didn't like that word. Bella wasn't sure she'd ever use it again. She looked at her right hand; the one that she had used to attempt to harm her attacker. It wasn't bruised. In fact, it was perfectly fine. She could bend it and everything. She smelled water nearby, so she went to see if she could get a good look at herself and what was going on. Again, she was up and doing the things she wanted before the thoughts even crossed her mind. Wait a minute... smelled? You smelled water? Water? What the hell is going on with you Bella? She found the source of the scent she was looking for. As far as injuries went, well, she'd have to worry about addressing those later. They didn't hurt right now and she was just thankful that that thing hadn't come back to hurt her. All she wanted right now was to go back home, relieve Charlie, shower, rest, and then afterwards, eat a ton of bullshit that she knows she shouldn't be putting into her body.
She ended up in front of the medium-sized puddle and decided to attempt to wash off some of her blood. She didn't want to mortify the man she called father. The only one who ever really, truly, cared for her. But when she looked down into the water when a few drops of her blood had fallen, all she saw where blood red irises staring back at her; and they didn't belong to the vampire who had been harming her before.