Damon Salvatore was in love with his girlfriend's best friend. The woman that had become his own best friend and who he had grown super close to. He had grown closer to Bonnie Bennett than he had with anyone outside of Stefan. There bond was solid and strong and they had become almost inseparable always finding ways to spend a ton of time together hanging out as friends or working as a team to defeat the latest problem. The latest problem which was trying to save the town of Mystic Falls from his Mother and her 'family' of heretics.
At first his feelings toward her were that of a close friend and he had loved her dearly as a friend. But with the more time that he spent with her the more he started to notice that he was beginning to feel things for the witch that were more than just friendship. And for two months now he had been in love with Bonnie Bennett and was growing more and more in love with her each and every day and she didn't even know it. Because on the outside he kept acting like the man who just loved her as a friend. He had been good at hiding his true feelings for her.
He knew that there was no question that he was in love with Bonnie Bennett his best friend by the reactions that he had around her and with her for the last two months. Every time she would walk into a room his heart would do a vampire version of skipping a beat. When she smiled he would get that warm, special feeling inside of his heart that he had only felt a couple of times before in his entire life time. When she would look at him with her stunning green eyes he would feel this intense feeling like his breath was being taken away. And he would just stare at her longingly whenever she wasn't looking or noticing him looking at her as if she set the sun and the moon and all of the stars in the sky.
Feeling more than friendship for her didn't settle in the fact that he was in love with her and had developed deep feelings for her. There was also the physical aspect of him knowing that what he felt for her was more than friendship. Whenever they were alone he would have this urge to grab her and kiss her until she was breathless. He thought about doing things to her and with her that a friend wouldn't think about doing with someone who they honestly considered just a friend.
More and more over the last two months he found himself wondering what it would be like to make love with the witch. Several times waking up sweaty and with a hard on because he had sex dreams about her where they were both naked and she was riding him or vise versa and was left with this need to have her. To get rid of his hard on from these dreams sometimes he would take a cold shower and other times he would use his hand to relieve himself with her name at the tip of his lips as he came. He wanted her more and more with each day that passed.
And because he had these feelings for Bonnie Bennett the guilt was eating away at him. Elena was sleeping a a coffin and would be until the day that Bonnie died. He had promised to Elena and himself that he would wait on her and give his heart to no other. So that when they reunited in 60-70 years he could live the life with Elena that he always wanted to. He thought that he could manage to do that after all 60-70 years was nothing for a vampire. So he would wait and Bonnie would be allowed to live a long and hopefully happy and fulfilling life.
But when he had fallen in love with the witch a major and unexpected wretch had been thrown into his plans of waiting on Elena. He never thought that in a million years that any woman could make him question his decision on being faithful and waiting on Elena. But Bonnie was that woman who had managed to break that barrier and grab a hold of his heart. Damon wasn't surprised that a man could fall for Bonnie Bennett. After all she was special and had this incredible strength about her. She was kind and compassionate. She was funny and witty and warm. And had this amazing aurora surrounding her. She was fierce in everything that she did. And physically was one of the most beautiful woman that he had ever seen in his almost two hundred years on this earth.
So he could understand why a man who fall in love with her. She had everything that a man who fall for in a woman like her. But it was him whose heart she had captured. And because he was feelings those types of feelings for her Damon felt guilty because he was in his mind betraying Elena in a way. As if he was cheating on her with her best friend. Not physically because nothing physical or sexual had happened between him and Bonnie. But emotionally with knowing that he was in love with her and with his thoughts of wishing that he could get hot, sweaty and naked with Bonnie he felt like he was emotionally and mentally cheating on Elena.
And while he didn't act on his feelings yet he really wanted to. He was a loss at what to do for his feelings for Bonnie. But he knew that he couldn't act on them as much as he wanted to. It took a ton of willpower to fight what he was feeling for the witch. But a couple of nights ago that willpower had been broken. It was when Bonnie had come over to the boarding house for one of their movie nights where they hung out just the two of them and watched movies on DVD's as they ate snacks. Stefan had taken Caroline out on a date so the two of them had the boarding house to themselves.
It started out as the typical hanging out, friendly friends type of date. Until a emotional part played in one of Bonnie's favorite movies and she cried over it some. At first Damon just snorted making fun of her like he often did when she would get emotional over a movie. They were snuggled up on the couch sitting close together. So close that parts of their bodies touched and he could smell how good she smelt. And his thoughts towards her remained friendly at that moment despite the times before where he had dreamed about taking her over and over again.
Then he turned his attention towards her when he heard her sniffle and saw a few tears quietly running down her face. He grasped her face in his hands and used his thumbs to wipe her tears away and suddenly their eyes connected green. At that moment the friendly thoughts were washed away and replaced by the reminder that he was deeply in love with this woman. The thoughts of wanting her returned and for an intense moment his eyes had fallen down to her lips and he had the strongest desire to kiss her breathless.
He wanted to kiss her and then proceed to strip her naked and fuck her on that couch and every other surface of the boarding house until she was a quivering mess in his arms. He wanted to make her say his name over and over again while he used his mouth, hands, and cock to take her to her peak repeatedly. Images of having her in every position that night entered into his mind and made him hard. He was a second away from acting out on his feelings and thoughts. A second away from kissing her.
But he was reminded that Elena was sleeping a box waiting to be reunited with him. And that although she had told him that he should live his life he was sure that she didn't mean that by hooking with her best friend. So before he could act on what he wanted to do Damon quickly separated himself from Bonnie to put some space between them. Hopefully before she would notice the growing erection in his pants. He wasn't sure if Bonnie had felt that moment too. If she had then she didn't say anything or was a hell of an actress as she didn't seem as hot and bothered by the close contact like he was. They went on watching the rest of that movie as if it were just the typical friendly movie date night between them.
After the movies were over with Bonnie left to go home and Damon was left alone to go and take a cold shower to ease the affects of what Bonnie had on him. He realized that was wasn't going to be able to be around the witch for much longer before he acted out on his feelings for her. He was Damon Salvatore and an impulsive man and knew that it was only a matter of time before y ihe would grab Bonnie and kiss her and do much more than kissing with her if she would allow him to. That meant that he would be cheating on Elena not just emotionally but physically now.
He was afraid of going there with Bonnie not just because of his guilt over Elena. But also because he didn't want to face starting anything with the witch just to have to watch her grow old while he stayed immortal and knowing that the day would come where she would die and he would have to grieve for her. He already would because she was his best friend and he would lose his mind if anything happened to her. But his grief and mourning for her would be heightened if he started a romantic relationship with her just to have to face with losing her.
Then after she died he would have to deal with Elena. He would be happy that Elena was awake and thrilled about it. But if he had some romantic relationship with Bonnie then his happy reunion with Elena wouldn't be so happy. It would be complicated by the fact that he had fallen for her best friend. Then Elena would find out about his relationship with Bonnie and Damon could imagine that she would be hurt by it and feel betrayed by him and Bonnie. What a place to be in to wake up and find out that your boyfriend carried on an affair with your best friend while you spent the last six or seven decades in a coma. Damon didn't want to do that to Elena.
There was only one way that he could think about solving this complicated problem. It was extreme beyond extreme. But he couldn't handle the guilt that he was feeling or the feelings that he had for Bonnie. The only way that he could think of was to dessicate himself and lock himself in a coffin where he would sleep and wait until Elena woke up.
It was the cheap and easy way to handle all of his feelings when it came to Bonnie and Elena. But that was what he was going to do. Stop eating blood and lay down in a coffin where he would wait on Elena. His mind kept telling him that he was being foolish and a coward for going in this direction. But he countered that by telling himself that he wasn't only protecting his relationship with Elena, but protecting Bonnie as well.
Elena used to be this sweet, loving, and kind girl. That was before she got into a relationship with her. Where she changed into a more selfish, self absorbed, reckless kind of girl who cared less about her friends and put most of her focus into her relationship with him. And Damon liked it that way because it was how he was able to get the girl that he had wanted for so long, even while she was with his brother to be with him. Damon knew that he was toxic for Elena and that their relationship was together toxic. That they were codependent on each other. Even telling her how he was bad for her. But that didn't stop them from being together and the selfish part of Damon would have rather be with Elena then to let her truly go so that she could thrive and be healthier emotionally without him. That was him being codependant on her and not being able to let her go even though he knew that it would have been best for the both of him if he had.
He didn't want to ruin Bonnie the way that he had with Elena. Although he told himself that it was bullshit. Bonnie was so different from Elena that she wouldn't be affected in the same negative ways that Elena was from their relationship. His relationship with Bonnie wasn't toxic and out of the two his relationship with Bonnie was far more healthier over his relationship with Elena. But Damon needed himself to believe the lie that he was doing this to protect Bonnie from himself. To ease how awful he felt about the fact that he would leave her behind once he put himself in that coffin.
Just like how he needed to believe that desiccating himself was what was best for him, Bonnie, and Elena. So he made his plans and in a couple of days he would leave for Brooklyn, New York where he would find a coffin that was in a storage building and he would lay down in it and close it over himself and starve himself to the point where he would only be woken up when Elena woke up. Something that he was going to do even if he had to spend decades in that coffin. It was the only option that he felt like he had.
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The next day he was preparing to go to New York where he would carry out the final stage of his plans. He wasn't going to pack much besides what he needed. When you were planning to spend a long time in a box there wasn't much that one needed to pack to go on the trip that they were about to go on. Still there was a big part of him telling himself that he shouldn't do this and that it wasn't right. That part of him had him feeling in a broody and pissed off mood. He kept telling that part of him to shut up and that he knew what he was doing.
Since he needed someone to wake him up once Elena was awake he had told Stefan about his plan. Stefan of course immediately objected to Damon's plan asking him what was wrong with him.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?" Were Stefan's exact words.
Damon told him that it was for the best. Stefan debated with him for hours that he shouldn't be doing this and that what he was thinking about doing was the worst decision that he could ever make. But Damon remained firm and stubborn in his stance telling his brother that his mind wasn't going to be changed and just making Stefan agree that he would wake him up once Elena had woken up.
He had lied to Stefan saying that it was all about Elena. How he just couldn't leave the next sixty years without her and how it was too much for him to think about Elena in that box. So to bind his time he was going to sleep in his own coffin until it was time for him to reunite with Elena. Stefan brought it not knowing the real reason that he was doing this wasn't solely because of Elena but because of his feelings for Bonnie and this was some last resort desperate attempt to avoid acting out on them.
He was in his bedroom preparing to go on that trip to New York. There was a knock on his door he knew who it was before he even saw who it was because he could hear the sound of her heart beat and had spent so much time with her that he knew that the pattern of her heartbeat could only belong to her.
"Come in." Damon stated wondering what she was visiting him for.
Bonnie stepped into his bedroom looking stunning and beautiful even though she only wore light makeup on her face. Her long hair swept over her shoulders and back. Damon noticed how stunning she was and his heart did that skip a beat thing and he kicked himself on the inside for having these feelings about his comatose girlfriends best friend.
Damon spoke. "Hey witchy. What's up?"
"We need to talk." Bonnie started.
Damon heard the tone in her voice. "Oh?"
She eyed him. "I just got through with talking with Stefan."
The blue eyed vampire sighed and rolled his eyes. He should have known that Stefan wasn't going to easily accept him desiccating himself without trying to do more to stop him. And Damon guessed that Stefan hoped that Bonnie could get through to him where he couldn't.
"Did he now." Damon went with some annoyance directed towards his brother.
"He told me that your were planning to starve yourself to desiccation and lock yourself in a coffin for decades." Bonnie paused. ".Is this true."
He could have denied it but knew that if he did that Bonnie wouldn't have believed him. So he signed. "Yeah it is."
Bonnie seemed perplexed. "But why the sudden turn in your decision? You seemed fine a couple of days ago."
"It just something that needs to be done." Was Damon's answer.
"You're doing this because of Elena?" Bonnie questioned.
Damon just nodded.
Bonnie frowned. "What happened to you waiting on her?"
"This is me waiting on her." Damon said "Just in my own way."
"You know this is not how Elena envisioned your waiting. She wanted you to live your life." Bonnie pointed out.
"Well Elena is not exactly here to stop me." Damon returned tone a little snarky.
"But this is extreme for you to do. Turning to desiccation." Bonnie told him. "You sure that you don't see any better ways for you to be able to handle Elena's absence"
Damon shook his head. "No I've tried living without her and now I think that desiccating myself is what I should do to wait on her."
She took a step closer to him. "I get it Damon that life without Elena is difficult for you. It's difficult for us all because we all miss her. But you know what she would want us to do live our lives to the fullest and be happy with living it every day. It is what would be for the best for all of us who loved her and who she loved in return."
"Maybe for the rest of you." Damon quietly said. "But my way is what is best for me."
Bonnie could tell that he was dead serious and set upon doing this. Because of that she felt a little panic rise inside of her because she knew that Damon going through with his plan would mean that she would never get to see him again. That her best friend in her entire world would be resting away in a box where she would be unable to see him and because she needed him so much in her life Bonnie couldn't bare to think about having to life for the next six decades or more without him. She had learned to manage to do that without Elena but she didn't know if she could do that without Damon. So she tried to think of ways where she could get him to change his mind.
"What about Lily and her 'family'?" Bonnie questioned. "They are out there being a terror to Mystic Falls and the only way that they are going to be stopped is if we do it."
To be honest Damon had thought about that. The fact that there was his crazy ass mother and her crazy ass family left to deal with. But he figured that they would eventually be defeated without his help and because they had a Bennett witch the most powerful one on their side.
So he answered her by saying. "You are a badass, with Bennett witch running through your blood Bon-Bon I'm sure that you will have the situation handled."
"Yeah I'm a Bennett witch sure." Bonnie stated. "But that doesn't mean that I can fight this battle on my own."
Damon gestured. "You don't have to fight the battle against my Mother and her freaks alone. You have others to help you. Stefan, Caroline, Alaric, and Matt for example."
Bonnie confirmed. "Yes all of them are doing everything that they can do help. Still me working with them is not the same as me working with you. You and I we are team badass remember."
That last comment with her preferring to the two of them would have made him smile it it wasn't for the situation that he was putting himself into.
"Come on, Damon." Bonnie went on. "If I'm going to be able to defeat the heretics then I'm going to need you here by my side while I do it."
"I'm sorry, Bonnie." He directed feeling more awful with each word that was coming out of her mouth. But trying to remain firm in his decision. "But I can't."
His answer left her feeling disappointed, "But just a few days ago you were talking about how you were ready to kick some ass and make Lilly pay."
Unable to handle the disappointed that he saw in her eyes Damon turned away and shrugged,. "Things changed."
Starting to feel frustrated towards him Bonnie sighed. "I really don't understand this. This seems like such a rash decision. You were fine with living your life without Elena before and now all of a sudden it's just too much for you? Is it as simple as you're trying to make it sound or is there more to it?"
Damon felt the urge to yell out to her that she was what had changed. And the true reason that he was going to put himself to sleep in a coffin was because he couldn't handle his feelings for her and the only way that he could prevent himself from acting out on them was to lock himself inside of a coffin. But she could never really learn the truth.
"There's nothing more to it." Damon continued to avoid eye contact with her. "I'm doing this for Elena."
Hearing that he was doing it "for Elena' for some reason really bothered and irritated Bonnie. "That's it you're just going to leave your brother and friends behind to lay in a coffin for the next sixty years or so?"
"I'm sure that all of them can do fine without me." Damon said feeling the need for a glass of bourbon right about now. "Especially Stefan he's a vampire sixty or seventy decades is nothing for him."
"What about me then?" She asked barely above a whisper. "You think that I would do fine without you?"
Damon didn't know how to answer that and couldn't so he didn't.
Bonnie added. "I get that you miss Elena but that's what we are here for. To help each other through for each other. Because that's what friends do they help each other through the difficult times. And you're my best friend, Damon."
It was the pleading in her voice that made him look at her again. He saw that plead in her eyes that was begging him to change his mind and to not to do this. He wanted to take her in his arms and hold her close to his body telling her that everything was going to be okay. He felt the urge to brush his fingers through her hair and to prevent himself from touching her he had to grasp his hands firmly to his sides.
"You're my best friend too Bon." Damon softly told her.
"Then stay." Bonnie insisted. "We can work through whatever we need to work through together."
"I'm sorry, Bon but I can't do that." Damon told her sadly. "Even if you don't understand why I have to do this."
She pressed her lips together in a firm line. "So that's it I guess there is nothing that I can say that is going to change your mind."
He confirmed. "No there isn't. This is something that I need to do for Elena to be there for her when she needs me."
Bonnie began to get angry with him. "My bad in thinking that Elena wasn't the only important person in your life or the only one that needs you." She needed him Bonnie thought but he seemed to blinded by Elena to even see that.
"You know that she's not the only important person in my life, Bonnie." Damon returned.
"Well that's what you are acting like right now." Bonnie folded her arms over her chest.
His response was a jerky, impatient shrug. "Don't know what else to tell you. I've made my decision."
Being angry with him Bonnie could feel herself wanting to lash out. "I took you for a lot of things Damon Salvatore however one of them wasn't to be a coward…..until now."
Those words made him whirl around on her. "Excuse me? I'm no coward."
"Yet here you are deciding to desiccate yourself while leaving me, Stefan and the others to clean up the mess that your Mom made." Bonnie told him with cool undertones. "Plus instead of dealing with Elena being in a coma like a man who and trying to fight for a happy life with your brother and friends you decide to go to sleep in a box for decades. Because that is the easiest way out for you instead of working your way through your emotions of missing her. Fits the definition of a coward to me."
The daggers she threw at him hit him square in his chest. Because what she saying was true and what he had told himself when he came up with this decision. That he was being a coward instead of dealing with his feelings for the witch like a man would. It was her fault in a way for making him fall in love with her. Even though that wasn't what she set out to do.
So he took that guilt that he and the misplaced anger and used it to lash out at her. Damon sneered. "You're just mad that I'm all about Elena and that you are enough to get me to want to stay. But I won't apologize for choosing the love of my life over my best friend."
She glared at him lifting up her chin. "Nice try Damon but you deciding to make asshole comments towards me because you don't know how to handle your hurt feelings is not going to make me go away. You are stuck with me whether you like it or not. So quit it with your bad, man pain jokes."
"Who's to say that I'm joking, Bon-Bon." Damon smirked. "You ask me to reconsider my decision and I'm giving you my answer. This is me choosing Elena over you and telling you that she's more important to me so perhaps you need to learn how to deal with that."
Those words had her moving past angry into the area of hurt. "Stop it, Damon."
But he kept going stepping up to her until they were standing inches apart face to face. "Can't stop the truth. You're lucky that I choose you over Elena in the first place on the day that Kai made me choose between the two of you. I could have chosen to let you die and on this day had Elena in my arms but I didn't" Damon said tone harsh. "So feel lucky that you get to live your life. Because yes I rather desiccate myself and wait for her instead of spending the next sixty years with you. Not my fault that you can't handle rejection or the fact that a man once again has choose that he would rather pick another girl over you. Kind of like how Jeremy did with Anna."
These time it was his turn for his daggers to hit and they landed on their mark. His words made her furious and even more so they were like a punch to the gut and her heart emotionally felt like it had been ripped in two. She wanted to cry but held back her tears.
"I get it now you are too blinded by Elena to care about anything else in your fucking life." Bonnie snapped out at him. "So you win Damon. I'm going to leave you alone to do whatever the fuck that you want to do. If you are going to desiccate so that you can spend your pathetic life in a coffin then do it. I will no longer try to stop you or bring myself to care about you or anything that you are going through. Go ahead and do what you have to do because you don't deserve my friendship."
When he had seen how crushed that she was by his words he regretted it immediately and felt like the biggest asshole and piece of shit on earth. He shouldn't have said those things to her just because he wasn't mature enough to know how to deal with his feelings. He wanted to apologize and tell her that he was sorry and that he really didn't mean those things. But what could he say that would be able to make up for the harsh words that he had just told her?
Damon opened his mouth. "Bonnie I….."
She held up her hands cutting off what he was about to say glaring at him with unshed tears in her eyes. "Say no more there's nothing left that I want to hear from you. Our friendship is over Damon Salvatore. I'm going to get over this and have one hell of a life without you. The biggest thing that I regret is allowing myself to care and form a friendship with you. Because you just proved that you are the same jackass that you always been."
Her words made him wince and they hurt even though he knew that he had deserved it from what he had just told her,
Gathering up herself emotionally Bonnie stormed off towards the door and paused to look back at him. "Hope that you have fun rotting away in that coffin." She added with a icy tone. "Goodbye forever Damon Salvatore." And with that she left slamming the door behind her so hard that it rattled on it's hinges.
He stood there now alone in his room swallowing hard with his jaw clenched. It felt like an invisible stake had just been buried deep within his heart. For a moment he wanted to forget all about his plans and put aside his guilt about Elena to run after Bonnie. He wanted to run after the witch with a thousand apologizes on his lips and tell her the true reason that he had plans to desiccate himself that he was in love with her.
He wanted to confess his love and all of his true feelings and tell her that he had changed his mind and that she was the reason why and that he would stay here with her because he loved her. That he wanted to be with her and explore a romantic relationship with her. And hoped that even though he knew that she would be pissed with him for a good while that she would too confess eventually that she had feelings for him as well and all would be right in the word once he made it up to her for acting like the biggest jerk on planet earth.
Damon laughed bitterly to himself. But he was still too much of a coward for that because the guilt and not wanting to betray Elena won him over. So the next day he took that trip to New York and carried about his plans on dessicating himself and waiting on her.
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Three years later
Stefan rushed into the storage building in Brooklyn frantically searching for his brothers coffin. When he found it he opened it and saw his brother lying there like he was sleeping but his normally pale skin was gray, dried out and lifeless.
Stefan took the blood bag that he had brought with him and pressed it to his brothers lips. At first Damon wasn't responding. "Come on, wake up."
He still didn't respond.
The younger Salvatore squeezed more blood into his brother's lips. "Damn it Damon, wake up."
After about a half of minute Damon gasped, his eyes flew open and his skin returned to its normal pale color as the blood worked it's way through it's system. Damon sat up to see his brother frowning down at him.
"I thought I told you not to wake me until Elena wake up." Damon snapped out.
"Change of plans." Stefan returned. "I had to wake you because something urgent has happened."
"Really, brother." Damon snarked "What could be so urgent that you would wake me from a peaceful nap."
Stefan eyed Damon with a tone of concern in his features. "It's Bonnie."
The tone in Stefan's voice put Damon on edge with concern and worry. "What about her?"
"She's missing….Bonnie's missing." Stefan said expression turning grim. "Someone took her and we don't know who."
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It's been awhile since I wrote something. I haven't updated my other stories in months. But the new season of season 7 gave me a new muse and an idea to write this as a story. I apologize for any grammar errors and hope that you will enjoy this story. Please let me know if you would like for me to go on!