Hello, Everyone!
This my first fic, so I would love to know what you think about it. Reviews and suggestions are welcome!.
I'm not a native English speaker, so is there's any mistake, please let me know
One-shot. Unless you like more chapters, let me know, please!
*Chapter revised for grammar and Minor details.
B. M. Adams
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Disclaimer: I don't own anything about R&I, just the plot.
She was at the bathroom of the morgue, looking intently to the positive pregnancy test in her hand; rubbing her forehead, she was confused about what to do with this information. Jack had left a few weeks ago. Utterly overwhelmed by this hit, she thought to keep this for herself for now. Maura thought that avoiding it would be easier than explain it to her friends. She had been feeling weird the last week, feeling nauseated, a dull headache during the day that worsen at night, the lack of her period, and fatigue. She was debating with herself if to tell Jack and how to say to him, they had just broken up, he was living in Seattle now, more than 3000 miles away.
Feeling a little tear welling up at the corner of her eye, she decided to bury herself in her work to stop going in circles about the fact that she just discovered she was pregnant. They had caught a rather difficult case, so she attempted to start the autopsy but felt instantly sick when she entered the morgue. Not knowing what else to do, she began to catch up on her paperwork, trying to keep her head busy while she tried not to lose her mental sanity over this. The logical and calm Dr. Isles was now in complete distress.
A couple of hours later, Jane arrived in her office. "Hey, Maur. I'm going to have lunch, would you... Don't get this wrong, but you look awful," Jane said as a joke to get Maura's attention that seems a little off herself.
"Thanks, Janes. I appreciated" she said, not even lifting her head off the papers.
Jane looked at her with worried eyes, "Maur, what's wrong? You look upset"
She held her head up. "I'm fine."
"O-kay..." Jane acclaim, knowing her too well to believe in that. She continued, "So, would you like to go and have some lunch? I'm sure my Ma is trying some weird new recipe at the cafe."
"I'm not hungry, but I'll accompany you," She said, clearing up her desk and grabbing her pursed both women walked by the elevator, not saying a word. In the meantime, Jane did nothing else than think about what could possibly be bothering her friend. They arrived at the Caffe, where Angela greet them, as always. "Hey, girls, how are you?".
Maura just says hi and passed by them, something pretty strange, because Maura was the politest person the mother-daughter couple had ever met. Angela looked quizzically at Jane and said, "Is there something wrong with her?" Jane shrugged and walked to the table Maura had picked. "Maur, talk to me. What's wrong? You are definitely not okay".
"Can we talk later? I'm no feeling ok. I'm going home. Bye Jane" She grabbed her purse and left, leaving a worried sick Jane sitting there completely confused by what just happened. Angela sit on the empty spot Maura left and asked what had just happened, and yet again, Jane just shrugged in confusion.
Late that night, Maura was sitting on her couch, looking through some baby boutiques on the internet, with her hand rubbing her forehead, scrolling the pages; she couldn't think of anything else than how to tell Jack and Jane about this. A few minutes later, the blonde heard Jane walked in, causing Maura to close her computer violently. "Hi, what are you doing here so late" she said, seen it was past eleven.
"Hi, I just left work...I've been worried all day, what it's going on with you, you're not talking, not picking up my calls... Jeez, I sounded like a jealous boyfriend" Jane exclaimed, making both women laugh, a sound the detective had missed. Jane walked by the kitchen island counter and sat beside the blond on the couch. "So.. what's going on?"
The M.E. looked at her friend, then looked at her hands in her lap "Jane, it's that... I'm...I'm pregnant" she said, fumbling with one of the pillows. Jane stood still, just looking at her. The brunette took Maura's shaking hands in hers, looking lovingly into her eyes, saying, "Maur, That awesome... But obviously, you're not so happy about it, what's the matter?"
Tears welled up in the blonde's eyes, and they started to run down her cheeks, whipping them away; she looked at Jane. "This must be the mood swings" she commented, showing a sad smile, making the detective laugh sympathetically. Then, she continued, "I don't know how to tell this to Jack, he just left, he can't leave Seattle... but, this is way too much for me to take by myself," she said, burying her face in her hands.
Jane took her chin and made her look into her eyes. "Maura, look at me... No matter what, you are in no way alone in this; I'm here, we are all here for you, okay" The blond just could hug her friend, as tight as she could. They stayed in the same position for a while. "Hey, it's almost midnight. Why don't you go to sleep? It would be best if you rested, it'll do some good for both of us. Come on," taking her up the stair. She was about to say her Good-Nights when her friends stopped her. "Can you stay? I'll appreciate some company," Jane showed a loving smile, got into the room, and took off her boots, laying beside the blond. "Thanks, Jane" The M.E. said. Jane was rubbing her friend's arm. And a few minutes after, both fell to a restful sleep.
About 4 months have passed. 2 days ago, she told her friends that she would be the mother of a beautiful baby girl. The duo prepared the baby's nursery after Maura carefully picked every single item for it, from a marble white crib to wooden letters, spelling out Katherine, the name that she had chosen for the little girl.
Jane was finishing assembling the crib when she saw Maura leaning against the door frame. "Maura, what's wrong? You seem a little off," the Italian detective said whilst she raised from the floor and walked to her friend. Maura waved away, trying to ease Jane's worries. "It's nothing."
"I don't think it's nothing, Maur. Come on, what going on" She pushed her friend a little.
"I don't think I can do this, Jane... I'm not going to be a good mother" she said, sitting against the wall. Jane did the same, saying "What, Maura, are you crazy!" a little to harshly "You'll be the best mother this little princess will ever wish for" placing her hand in her friend's belly "You'll make her eat all healthy stuff, read her things, teach her all of your weird facts about everything...where do all these insecurities come from. Has this something to do with the fact that Jack said that he would no be able to be here?"
She nodded and said, "Partly, but I'm just not sure about all this... this may sound odd, but I was thinking about adoption" she rubbed her forehead with the tip of her fingers.
Jane look at the wall across the room and began to speak, "I know the feeling" Maura look at her with a puzzled expression. "I was 16 years old, too young, and too dumb to realize what I had done. When I knew that I was pregnant, I was on the verge of a mental breakdown. I sat on the floor of my bathroom and cried for hours. I couldn't stop thinking how the hell I'll say this to my parents, and I was lost" She looked at the blond. "I even thought of suicide" Maura's eyes went wide, and she tried to say something, but Jane was faster. "I ran to his house, I told him, and he just said that that was my problem, not his" Maura wiped off a stranded tear from Jane's cheek. "I knew for sure that I was alone. I went back home, and during dinner, I just sat there, playing with my fork...Ma was worried; I never skipped a meal, not even when I was sick" the brunette showed a sad smile " That night I told her, she went mad, so, so mad for my dumbness. I cried a lot... And the rest is the story"
Maura just laid her head on her shoulder and started to rub her friend's arm. "What I'm trying to say is, that you are a grown woman, stable, the smartest person I've ever met. The lack of Jack means nothing. Yeah, maybe a man by your side would make things easy, but you have no reasons to give Kathy up for adoption. I'm pretty sure you love her already with all of your heart" Maura nod against Jane's shoulder, tears welling up in her eyes. "You are not alone in this Maur, I'm here, for you and for anything" Placing her hand in the blonde's belly, "For her, too."
Both stay in the same position for a while, both comforting each other. Suddenly Maura said, "Jane" the brunette hummed, looking at the M.E. "What happened" she asked carefully, hoping she didn't push too far.
Jane looked at her and said with her usual smirk "Have you heard of the Cinnamon-ginger tea?" trying to be funny and warm up the environment.
"Don't do that, Jane" she said earnestly, some sadness showing in her eyes. "That doesn't matter now. The only thing that matters is that you need to understand how amazing you're going to be as a mother. You already are an amazing friend" Jane said with a reassuring smile on her face.
"You cannot know that, Jane," Maura said, holding her head up and looking at her.
"Oh, yes, I know!" The detective commented. "How are you so sure, Jane?" Maura asked in disbelief.
"Just because it's you, Maur. You're amazing. I know for sure that you'll be a great mother too... End of discussion" She said strictly.
Maura put her head back in her shoulder, snuggle in close. "Thank you, Jane" she said. Jane kissed the top of her head, "Always" resting her cheek on Maura's head.