A love like no other!
A/N: I know this topic has been written and used already. But from what I have seen never fully finished. There for I decided to take a crack at it with my own twist! Hope you all enjoy comment below let me know if I should continue.
WARING: Possible trigger warning! Will have adult language, sexual content, and violence. Read at your own risk! No this will not contain rape.
***I have adjusted the time line to the story to make it fit better. In this story Tobias is 18 years old. Tris is 16 years old. Choosing ceremony will be moved up to 18 years as well.
This story will be given between both Tris and Tobias P.O.V. As well as possible other P.O.V's
I do not own or take credit for the Divergent series! All credit and owner ship goes to Veronica Roth.
About:
What if Tris and Tobias knew each other from Abnegation? What if all along they planned for when the time comes they would transfer to Dauntless. But what they never planned was a unplanned pregnancy, what they never planned was for Andrew to kick Tris out, forcing her to live with Marcus or become factionless. Will Tobias ever know what is really happening back in Abnegation? Will Tris still transfer?
"One Choice
Decides your friends.
One choice
Defines your beliefs
One choice
Determines your loyalty
Forever!
One Choice
Can transform you"
Chapter 1
Tobias' Choosing Day
Tobias P.O.V
Choosing day... For a typical eight teen year old, this day should be an exciting day. A day where we can choose what and where we want to carry out our lives, it's a day where we are no longer considered dependents but instead considered our own persons. The typical eighteen year old would wake up excitedly, get dress, head down to the Hub and decide your fate with a cut to the hand. Typically.
But for me today is a choice I know I can't take back. I know I must leave. I can't stay. I know if I stay my life, my choices, my body will not be claimed as my own. I wish my choice is to be an act of selfless, but really it is to be an act of cowardice.
My father, Marcus is the leader of Abnegation. To many of it's members look up to him, praise him, worship him in his ways. But to me he is a monster, a devil really, disguised as what they think is a Angel from God. My mother passed away by his hand when I was nine. All believed the lies he told, she was ill, she was sick for a long time... Of course they believed him, he kept us away from society when our bruises showed. Making those that questioned our absence believe that we were simply too ill to attend social functions. Poor Marcus!
The night of her funeral was when it all began for me. Up til than my mother took his beatings, as I was locked in a closet, forced to hear my mothers screams and cries for help. But once my mother had passed, I was left to endure his hatred alone. The scars on my back tell the stories of a thousand beatings, my fear of confinement and darkness tells the emotional scares and torment I have had to suffer for close to ten years now.
Today this all will change. Today will be the day that I will be free of him. Today is the day my suffering will end. But to gain my freedom, I must suffer the lost as well. Beatrice Prior, Bea, my Bea, she will have to be my sacrifice. Since she isn't of age for another two years, I must choose between her and my freedom. She is the only reason for my second guessing my choice. The thought of loosing her, to wake up in another faction and not have her by my side, frightens me. She has always been there for me, to love me, to care for me, to be my everything. She is everything. My choice kills me at the thought that I might loose her permanently rather than just temporary. The only hope I have left, is when the time comes for her to choose, she will to choose to follow me to Dauntless. She will choose to be with me. Just like she promised me last night. I know she loves me, just as much as I love her. The love we shared last night showed more passion, love, devotion any one person can ever hope for and yet not enough to hold me over, I can never have enough of her. Well along hold me over for the next two years until we meet again. But it will have to do. There is no other way. If I stay, yes I will have Beatrice by my side tomorrow. But that leaves my life, our life in the hands of that monster that calls himself my father. As well as in two years, Beatrice will choose her fate and I will not be the reason for her to stay behind here in Abnegation. Not for me. Not because I was to much of a coward to go two years without her by my side.
"Just two years of lost, for a life time of happiness." Her words continue to play repeatedly in my head. It's what gives me the strength to do this today. For the one day we might be together again.
I walk with my father down the streets of Abnegation, heading for the heart of our city. I know this will be my last walk down the familiar way. After today, I will no longer have the need to look at this man in the eye and plea for mercy. Even knowing my soon freedom is right at my finger tips, I don't let my demeanor slip. I will not signal any clues to my transferring until the moment my blood spills on the coals. I can not risk him trying to figure out how to hold me back.
"You know what you have to do." Marcus spits out. He doesn't even bother to look at me.
"Yes, Sir." I say my automatic response.
"The minute your initiation is over and done with... you will seek out the role of leader in training. You will move back home with me. Don't try anything other wise or a lesson will be paid." He says.
"Yes, sir. I will not disappoint you." I say hoping my face doesn't betray me.
We finally reach the heart of the city. As luck would have it my eyes land on the blond headed hair just a few feet ahead of us. My heart sinks to my stomach knowing that these are last moments I will see her. It pains me to know I wouldn't be able to have that one last touch, last word, last kiss. Although last night continues to replay in my mind. It was not enough. It will never be enough.
"There are the Priors. Lets say hello. Try to remain pilot, Tobias." Marcus says.
"Yes, Sir." I say.
"Andrew, good morning." Marcus says as we gain speed to catch up. Thankful for any distraction that takes Marcus' attention from me.
"Good morning, Caleb, Beatrice." I say walking on Bea's side other side.
"Good morning, Tobias." Caleb says not giving me a second glance.
"Good morning, Tobias." Bea says giving me a quick smirk that hopefully no one notices. I wish I can touch her, hold her, kiss her again. Tell her I love her and only her. That I will wait til the end of time, until we can be together in Dauntless again. I will work hard to make sure everything is prepared for her to join me. My efforts for the next two years will be for us and for our future.
But for now we can't risk any one suspecting us more than acquaintances. Bea still has another two years until she can join me and our new lives. Two years that can easily become torment in the eyes of the leaders of Abnegation. I will not want to make things more painful for her than they already are and will be.
The members of Abnegation ride the elevator while the dependents take the stairs up. I'm grateful for this time with Bea, it's our final moments, it's all we have. Caleb seems to be obvious to everything as he takes the lead up the stairs. Bea on my right glances at me while we climb. I take our last moments to form words that can not be heard with my mouth "I love you." She grins and forms the words "Me too."
When we arrive at the room for the ceremony, I take a deep breath. I know what I need to do, I know it has to be done. At the corner of my eye, I see Bea frowning. I know it pains her as much as it pains me, knowing that tomorrow will be the first day in ten years we won't have each other to lean on. But "Just two years of lost, for a life time of happiness."
The ceremony begins as I tune out the words that are being spoken. This year Dauntless presents the ceremony as their leader Max repeats the words that have been said every year on this date for the past two hundred years. But I don't care, as others take in every words anxious to start their new lives. I want to freeze time, to grab Bea and never let her go. But I know I have to be strong, I have to be selfless, for her, for me, for us.
"Tobias Eaton." I hear Max call out my name. I feel every nerve in my being shake has I stand and make my way to the five bowls. I pick up the knife bringing it up to the palm of my left hand running it along my skin. I feel the skin split under the blade. I know this should pain me like the others. But not like the others this doesn't hurt me. I have had to ensure fair worst than this. One thing I can thank Marcus for, he taught me how to endure physical pain. Something I'm sure I will need in Dauntless training.
I put the knife down, holding my palm close into a fist as I make my last choice. A never ending battle continues with in me. Pick dauntless. Pick Abnegation. My freedom. The love of my life. "Just two years of lost, for a life time of happiness." I hear her words again, and with that the blood spills over the coals causing the sizzling sound.
"Dauntless!" Max says and the Dauntless crowd cheers and roars welcoming me.
The rest of the ceremony goes by as a blur, as I feel the burning star from my father. I can almost feel the heat that boils his blood from his seat. I want nothing more for this ceremony to be over and done with. I know he won't cause a scene. He wouldn't want the members of Abnegation or the whole city for that matter, to know his true monstrous form.
We run fast heading for the train tracks. I know the only reason I am able to keep up is because of the secret training Bea and I would go through secretly in the late hour of the night.
We get to the tracks just in time to hear the engine of the train approaching. We all take off running grabbing the side bar to pull ourselves in. When I look back after claiming in I notice two Candors didn't make it.
"Hey, I'm surprise a stiff made it." I look up to see a boy smiling, trying to be friendly with a joke.
"Yes." I say nothing more.
"I'm Zeke." He introduces himself, holding his hand out for me to shake. I nod not wanting anyone to touch me. Abnegation rules. "You got a name?" He ask when I don't offer one.
"Just call me stiff for now." I say. He doesn't need to know more. I'm sure most people here have my name still fresh in their brains.
"Alright, Stiff. Welcome to Dauntless." He says smiling. "You going love it." I nod again not wanting to say any more. I stare outside as the city passes, the only thing on my mind is what I am forced to leave behind. My chest tightens at the thought of not seeing her for two years.
Flash back
The house is crowded with people dressed in their gray robes. They all try to give me a sympathy smile and tell me my mother will be missed. But I just want to be left alone, I don't want to be with anyone. I sit down in the corner of the room, in hopes the large furniture can block me from anyone view of me. No one knows the truth. No one knows my mothers pain, my pain. I remember her cries, her screams and then there was nothing.
"Hi. I'm Beatrice." I hear a small voice coming from above me. There standing in front of me is a small blond girl with grayish blue eyes.
"Go away." I say almost a whisper.
But she doesn't leave, instead she sits on the floor next to me. She doesn't bother saying a word. She sits Indian style, her back mimicking my own resting against the wall. Then she surprises me with her physical action, her arm that is closes to me stretches out and wraps itself around my shoulder. Again she doesn't say anything. She doesn't have to. She sat there for what felt like hours with me, her small gesture comforting me. It's all I needed. When her parents called out for her, signaling it was time to leave she stood up and turned to me.
"Friends?" She asks and I nod not wanting to be verbal right now. "I'll always be your friend, until the end. I live that way two doors down. You come see me." She says pointing her finger in the direction to her house. "Bye. Bye, Tobias." Just like that she left.
Just like that she snuck her way into my life. After that every day we would talk, play, walk to and from school together. We would find a way to be together. Just like we will continue to find a way to be together always.
End of Flash back
"You look heart broken, man. Come on today the first day of the rest of your life. Cheer up." Zeke says smiling widely as we approach the Dauntless compound. "Ready to jump?" He asks.
Jump? But before I can verbally ask what he is talking about, I see everyone stepping back and preparing to run a few feet and jumping off the train. Holy shit! I have no time to second guess what is happening, other than forcing my self to push any fears aside and follow.
"Listen up. My name is Max. I am one of the five leaders of Dauntless. In order to enter Dauntless you have to prove your bravery. Any volunteers on who wants to go first?" Max says standing on the ledge.
"Lets do this." Zeke says stepping up the ledge. He turns around faces us, and jumps backwards over the ledge. My heart sinks at the thought. I hate heights.
"If you do not jump. You are factionless." Max says when no one else volunteers to go next.
I run my hands through my hair, anticipation getting the best of me. I can't do this. I can't do this. I can't do this. But I have to. If I don't, I can't enter Dauntless. I won't be here when Bea transfers. This will all be for nothing. I know now I have to set all fears aside and get through the next ten weeks of hell. No mater the cost. I can't let Bea down. I take a deep breath, step up to the ledge. Don't look down I tell my self before I step off the ledge and allow myself to fall. Not for me, not for Dauntless. But for her. For my Bea. I will not fail her.