Ugh! the last two chapters have been soo irritating! but I hope this makes up for it cuz there is some drama going on in this chapter! and i actually attempted Povs! but I believe I failed miserably...
I can honestly say I despised the last two chapters, and I aplogize for it, but I hope this one makes up for it!
and tysooo soooo much for the reviews! they truly keep me happy!
Disclaimer: DNON
It happened again. I wished upon a star hoping it was a dream, but even wishing couldn't change the facts.
I suppose I wanted to immerse my self in the giddiness I haven't felt in a long time--you know? To get rid of the worries? I only wanted a moment where my mind wasn't constantly thinking of
Condoms…
Babies…
Pregnancy Tests…
and Sasuke.
Was that really too much to ask? I do believe I have been through a lot and a little help from this thing, this thing that is considered illegal until the age of 21, could help me become really happy, and Dammit! I really deserved some form of happiness, no matter how it came.
Watching Juno had hit me really hard, so much harder than the first time I watched it.
Just watching Juno's mental development and her problems terrorized me, I became afraid of the test I had hidden underneath my mattress.
Every night, I could feel the slight lump underneath me every time I lay on what used to be called a comfy bed and now it became my anxiety - it just wouldn't let me forget about what could be going on in my stomach.
I had stopped by a bookstore hoping to find a book on Mahatma Gandhi for my history report.
Ever since I was little, this man has been my idol-he was just so strong emotionally and by himself he gained the respect of people all over the world.
I wandered through the isles searching Gandhi, when I came upon a section, a section I thought I would enter much later on in life. The section was pregnancy/childbirth.
Normally, I would just pass through this isle giving a curious glance at the pregnant women on the covers, but this time, just this time, something in my heart made me stop in front of the section. The Pregnancy Bible: Your Complete Guide to Pregnancy and Early Parenthood
This certain book caught my eye…early parenthood. Curiosity overcame my strong desire to just walk past and so I found the book in my hands; the bags I had held earlier on the floor.
I took a glance left and right and saw I was alone, all by myself in this isle.
Naturally human nature wouldn't let me just stare at the cover, so I found myself hesitating as I opened the book. I told myself I would only allow myself one glance.
One glance couldn't hurt.
The book opened and my eyes became immersed in a world I was afraid of.
There was talk about mood swings, retching, the growth of the baby.
It amazed me so much that it scared me, I had known about all this before, I had taken Health so this shouldn't have come to me as a big surprise, but it truly amazed me. The little baby starts so small, no eyes, no hands and feet, and then it grows. Pregnancy truly was the miracle of life. I was so immersed, so into the book, I found myself sitting cross legged on the floor, forgetting the real reason I was here. My eyes widened at the small cute facts that would make a woman happy.
The sound of footsteps broke my concentration. An expecting woman was standing next to me looking at the same book I had in my hands.
I stood up, and she turned and smiled a knowing smile at me.
Hmph. What did she know? I wasn't even pregnant.
She placed her hands on her stomach and I hated how immediately I became jealous of the way she loved her enlarged stomach.
I began to tear up and I placed the book back where it belonged.
I stooped slightly to grab the bags when another book caught my eye. It pained my heart. The book was called Your Pregnancy for the Father-To-Be: Everything You Need to Know about Pregnancy, Childbirth, and Getting Ready for a New Baby.
Tears silently fell out of my eyes as I walked out of the bookstore without buying the book I needed.
It was time for me to take the test.
My plan to take the test failed when I was forced to go partying.
Ino and Tenten refused to listen to my pleas and even Hinata had said it was time for me to stop living in the past.
I just wanted to yell at them, I had something important to do, but they wouldn't hear of it, thinking I was just making excuses.I wasn't living in the past! I was going to move on.
Naruto looked upset when I first made eye contact with him. I flashed a smile at him and I received an uncertain one in return.
I made a mental note to ask him what was wrong; he was a friend I could trust with my life.
I forced the other three girls to get up and dance while I took a break.
I was sitting alone, just watching the flash of colors when I saw him again. I didn't hate him, I couldn't, my heart knew that he didn't know what had happened to me because of him.
We had polite conversations now and then, and I think we had reached the level of acquaintances, maybe even friends. I even learned of his past, of how messed up his family had been and I had been sympathetic.
Seeing him again somehow made me think of if I was going to need to buy that book.
I would find out later, but as for now I just wanted some peace. I took a drink.
Haziness.
I knew what I was doing, but didn't know.
All I knew was what I wanted and nothing else mattered, my morals, my values tossed away for the night. I wasn't going to think about the future, this was now, and I was going to live it.
I don't know how much time had passed, but I found the somewhat familiar hands on me again.
His large warm hands were running down my sides as his tongue worked its magic on me.
There was no embarrassment, nothing like the first time.
His tongue and my tongue clashed creating the sensational feeling I had wanted to feel for quite some time.
His tongue roamed my mouth and the swish and flick here and there created an embarrassing response from me. I shivered and in response my chest puckered sweetly against the hands that had cupped the soft mounds barely covered by the skimpy top.
His lips left mine causing me to whimper. The lips that were trailing down my jaw smirked.
I tugged his hair pulling his head up to look directly into my eyes. I met his dark smoldering gaze and I took a moment just to stare into his eyes breathing harshly.
I couldn't tell you what I was thinking to save my life; I just wasn't thinking.
His warm breath fanned my face and before long, that moment turned into a heated session as he placed his lips on my swollen ones once again.
My slender legs wrapped around his waist and I could feel him, all of him. There was nothing scary, not one bit; all I could feel was the growing excitement and want.
There we were in the dark, secluded corner where no one could see. I was the one who wasn't thinking, and he was the one who had happened to be there to satisfy both of our needs.
Each caress, each kiss, each tug nearly drove me over the edge.
The passion became a bit more heated, so much more heated, when his hands roamed up my shirt and made contact with the outer rim of my bra. He paused there, just paused, and pulled back, just barely, to watch my face.
My face had been a mix of pleasure and want, a face only he had seen up to now, but when he pulled away it turned to confusion. I wanted nothing more than to continue what we had been doing.
"Say my name," his voice was husky and I was the one who made him that way. His hand was holding the base of my neck and the other had left my chest to tangle itself in my pink hair.
"?" What was he talking about? Why was he still talking? I just wanted to feel his lips again, to taste him. I arched my back, trying to go back to the moment of bliss, but he wouldn't comply.
"Say my name Sakura." His voice held the clear ring of clarity and finality.
I was utterly confused, even in my drunken state I didn't know what he was talking about. He didn't budge from the two inch proximity when I tried pulling his head down.
Flashback
"Sa..U-Uchiha-san!" He raised his eyebrows at me and I let go of his shoulders as if I had burnt myself. I flinched staring at his eyes. "I-Gomen," I said quietly and moved to walk back to where the others were standing.
He grabbed my wrist and smirked at my flinch. "I think we've long passed the formality stage."
End Flashback
"Sas…" I was cut off as he was pulled away from me.
Naruto
When I found out what had happened between Sasuke and Sakura-chan, I didn't know what to think.
I had looked at Hinata hoping she would just laugh and say just kidding, but she hadn't, and I hadn't expected her to do so. The matter had been too serious to be joking about.
I spent the time after Hinata left thinking about what to do.
I wanted nothing better to do then just punch Sasuke, but he was my best friend, and I knew he had been drunk. I didn't like the attitude of my best friend. He truly wasn't a bad person, he never had been.
There were many a times in my life that I wished I could just read his mind, just to know what he was thinking. He was such a stoic bastard, but the stoic bastard also showed his friendship in the most unusual ways.
I sat on the sofa with my head in my interlaced fingers, just thinking.
What was I supposed to do?
What was the right thing to do?
I had to do something. Sakura-chan had been hurt, I knew she had. She never would have wanted to sleep with him, so I was pretty sure she hadn't been in the right state of mind.
Sasuke knew too keep his hands off of girls like Sakura-chan who actually valued their virginity, and it wasn't like they hadn't talked before because they had. Sure they hadn't had a great friendship or anything, but they had talked and held a conversation that lasted a good amount of time.
Once he had expressed that he thought Sakura-chan looked fuckable one night and I had clearly moved punched him, but he side-stepped it. He knew not to mess with my friends.
Though most people viewed him as a hundred percent arrogant selfish bastard, I knew he respected my wishes and the girls'. All they had to do was say no and he would back off, but that day was yet to come.
I had walked into the party still confused as to what do to do, when I saw Hinata and her friends walk in, the familiar flash of pink hair stood there.
I didn't know what to say to her. The person who said "ignorance is bliss" was truly right.
In all honesty I didn't want to know what had happened, but what kind of friend would I have been if I had ignored her behavior?
So when, she flashed me a smile, a smile that held anxiety and nervousness, I didn't know what to do so I returned the smile hoping she wouldn't see through it. She did see through it and had sent me a questioned look.
Though I was dancing with the woman I loved, my gaze kept traveling to Sakura-chan.
Hinata had felt my anxiety and had reached up to cup my face to turn my face towards hers.
She smiled softly and had taken my hands and pressed them towards her heart whispering, "she's stronger than you think Naruto-kun, she'll be okay." I don't know why, but I had felt so much better when she whispered those comforting words. I let my heart focus on the one dancing with me, though my mind still wandered to the thoughts of Sasuke and Sakura-chan.
The song had ended and I smiled at Hinata saying I would go and get a drink.
I was coming back holding a cup of beer for me and Sprite for Hinata when a sight in the corner made me drop the two things that held the beverages.
They were hidden in the shadows, but some people were laughing and pointing at the scene. This hadn't bothered me, but the flash of pink hair tangled in the pale hands of my best friend infuriated me. Sasuke and Sakura-chan were literally making out. Her leg was wrapped around his hips and I couldn't see whose hands were whose.
I was furious.
When the man I had held was literally ripped from my hold and I didn't know what had happened.
All I wanted was to go back and continue doing what I had been doing. I was sure I had let out a small whimper as his warmth left me.
There was a growl that sounded similar to the one of Naruto's and then there was a punch.
My head cleared up as my morals and values came crashing down on me.
Oh my god, what had happened? Had I just…?
The sight of two fighting men came into my view.
Naruto…Naruto, he had pulled Sasuke off of me. Oh god, what would have happened if he hadn't been there?
I pulled my hands up against my mouth, in shock. Did I just…? What was I doing? And with Sasuke? I didn't have tears in my eyes, all I could feel was the numbing sensation of the shock.
The cold air hit my body and I started trembling uncontrollably, trembling with widened eyes.
No one noticed me, I don't think they did, but all I could think was 'this has to be a nightmare, any minute now I am going to wake up.' I chanted this over and over again in my head, just waiting to wake up from this nightmare. I didn't wake up.
What I had almost done hit me hard.
I had just almost lowered myself down to one of those people I had once looked at in disgust-a slut. My back slid down the wall and my bottom hit the cold hard floor. In that instant Naruto was at my side holding my numbed figure.
I heard him shout at the crowd, barking at them to leave. I think it was Hinata who was holding onto Naruto with wide eyes.
Ino was on the floor next to me patting my back and in my faint mind I heard her shouting vulgarities at Sasuke.
Oh god, why won't you let me wake up from this nightmare?
Sasuke
Naruto punched me and hell broke out.
There was commotion around us. People were shouting and the two of us just stood there facing each other.
Hinata had come running up from behind and had held onto him, soothing him, but he just pushed her away.
He shot me a look of disgust before heading over to the girl who I had full intentions of doing.
Her name was Haruno Sakura. The first time it had happened, I didn't know what was going on.
People do things they normally wouldn't do when they were drunk.
I had known her throughout high school, and she and I weren't great friends, but she was someone I had enough respect to not touch.
It was a mistake the first time, but this time when I drank the alcohol, the memory of her trembling figure all saddened the next day came back to me. The memory of her saying she was going to forget what had ever happened affected me in a reason unknown.
No one had ever regretted it, I made sure the girl knew I wasn't in for a long-term relation, but she, the girl full of pink hair, was a mistake, an accident.
I don't know what possessed me to walk over to her, but I had. I didn't know what would have happened, but somehow I was hoping that I could apologize to her.
Instead we had ended up in a corner, doing the very thing I hadn't planned on.
Hinata
When Naruto-kun found out, the only thought I had in mind was, 'I hope Sakura doesn't get angry.'
It was the wrong thought to have.
I watched as Naruto-kun grew angry. I followed his gaze and it shocked me to see Sakura's pink hair. I wasn't angry with her, I just couldn't believe that it was her, she just wouldn't be in that position.
From the corner of my eyes, I saw Neji-nii-san hold off Tenten.
I had to stop Naruto-kun from doing something he regretted later on.
Most people saw him as an idiot, and even I have to say that sometimes he was just…Naruto. I had admired Naruto-kun for a very long time. The fact that each bond he formed was important to him just made me love him soo much more. I had been in love with him for as long as I could remember, and the girls had teased me so many times, but I knew that it was him I wanted. He respected me.
I ran up to him and I grabbed his arm whispering, "C-calm down Naruto, just calm down…"
He looked at me and his angry expression softened only slightly. He shrugged my arm off and muttered, "Jackass," at Sasuke before going over to console my best friend.
I ran over to her, not knowing what I should do.
Sakura
Naruto whispered to me saying it was all right, it was okay, but it wasn't okay. What had I almost done?
He sighed and said that it was time we talked it out. He dropped his jacket in my lap, and pulled me up.
The crowd was still there and when I looked over at the people,
I didn't have any thoughts in my head…no embarrassment, no anger, I was just empty. I just stood there as Naruto left me with the other two girls for a moment.
They were awkward and didn't know what to do, so they did what any other friend would have done, they patted my arm and said, "It's okay, it's not your fault." But isn't everyone responsible for their own actions?
I heard Naruto's disgruntled voice arguing with a much lower one, but I couldn't quite comprehend what he was saying. The voices stopped and Naruto and Sasuke stood in front of me.
Immediately I flinched and moved to move as far away from Sasuke as possible.
Naruto grabbed my hand and firmly said, "It's time to talk."
Phew! The chappy is done! I was hoping for her to take the test in this chapter but when I started writing, I had this whole new idea and well this was the result of that idea!
I need a BETA for this story! anyone up for the job?
And seriously, if it sux do tell, because it will help me improve so much more! Ugh... I hate writing Sasuke's Pov... I just don't know what he would be thinking, in the anime I know he was always thinking 'must kill itachi, must kill itachi,' but what would he think of this situation. So if you have any sasuke analysis then please do share ur analysis with me!
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