As I walked up the sidewalk to the stairs of the porch I was thinking of a million things to say but I couldn't think of just one. Do I just say Hi? Do I just walk in and not say anything and let her beg? What do I do? As I reached the top step I decided that I wouldn't say anything at all and just let her talk. Let her get everything off her chest. I made it to the door and went to knock but it opened. I looked up and saw Bella standing there with swollen eyes. My heart broke some more. She was hurting and I didn't like it one bit.
"Jacob," she cried out. I stepped back so that she could open the screen door and she ran into my chest, clinging to me for dear life. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I could smell that vampire on her but yet I could still smell the flowers. It calmed me instantly and I wrapped my arms around her. We stood there for I don't know how long. Bella was crying so hard, I didn't want to move her. Her tears started to slow down and she started to kiss my arms and started her way up my neck.
I looked down at her and her brown eyes were surrounded with redness. I leaned in and kissed her softly. She moaned when our lips hit each other. She tried to deepen the kiss but I stopped her. I pulled away and whispered, "We need to talk first." She sighed and nodded her head. She grabbed my hand and interlocked our fingers. She took her other hand and wrapped it around my arm. She was scared I didn't love her anymore. She was trying to tell me that she loved me.
We walked into the house and went and sat on the couch. I didn't know what to say or where to start. I was giving her a little bit of a cold shoulder. Finally after a moment or two Bella spoke in a shaky voice, "Jacob I just want to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry about the night that I came back. Edward told me that I was calling for him and that you were upset about it. I don't know why I was doing it but I guess I was afraid that I would lose him. I still love him Jacob but not the same way I love you." She moved her hand from my arm and pulled my face to look at her.
"Please Jacob, say something." I sat there looking into her eyes as tears welled up in them again. I didn't know what to say. I got up and walked across the room. She started to cry again. I whispered, "Bella I don't know what to say or do. I love you so much and this situation is making it really hard. I know you still have feelings for Edward and I can't be the second choice again." Bella was sobbing by the time I was done. My heart was breaking more with every tear that she cried. "Bella, please just tell me what happened so that I can leave." She looked up at me in shock and I knew that my words most have stung. I didn't move from my spot while she fidgeted with her shirt. As she began her story she looked down at her shirt.
"Well, we went to Italy and got Edward back, as you can tell." She looked up at me and I nodded for her to continue. She started to whimper and cried out at me, "Please Jacob. I need you right now I'm scared and you're being an ass." What the hell is she talking about, being scared? I was scared the whole time she was gone. I was scared the past day that I lost her to that vampire. Scared! She has no idea what scared is.
"Bella, I'm being an ass because you have shown me that you still love your vampire. In your subconscious that you still want him. I'm being so cold because I'm protecting myself. Now, please continue your story so that I can leave and your vampire can return." Damn, that had to be the hardest words to ever escape my lips. I wanted to run to her and hold her, but I didn't want to be burned anymore. I stared into her brown eyes and I saw anger. There was no more pain, or love. It was pure anger.
"You...you....ASSHOLE!" Bella started to turn red. "How dare you assume anything? How dare you tell me what I feel or thinking? How dare you!?" She was screaming at this point. She stood up and crossed the room to where I stood. "Just so you know Jacob Black, I did nothing but talk about you the whole time. I worried about us, the whole time. Edward knows everything. EVERYTHING! Edward has taken the place in my heart that you use to hold. You have taken his spot. I never once thought of Edward in a romantic nature when I was gone. I dreamed of you every night I was away. I wanted you beside me when we stood in front of the council. I wanted...." I put my hand over her mouth and looked at her confused, "What? What council?"
Right then there was a knock on the door. I hadn't been paying attention to my surroundings; I then could smell the Cullen's. They were all outside the house. Bella moved away from me to answer the door. I heard Dr. Cullen's voice ask to come in. Bella stood aside and the whole family came in. Dr. Cullen looked at me and smiled, "Jacob, I'm glad you are still here. We all need to talk. The future has changed and we need to discuss it. I would like to see if Sam could come and be involved with this." As soon as he finished his sentence Edward said, "He's said he is on his way. He was in the woods waiting on Jacob. He went to get some clothing and will be in." Dr. Cullen nodded and went over to Bella who was still hugged the big vampire, if I remember correctly his name was Emmett.
"Have you told Jacob what happened?" Dr. Cullen whispered to Bella. She cried some more into Emmett and shook her head no. Dr. Cullen sighed and rubbed Bella's back. I wanted to snap his hand off and throw it into a fire pit. I felt a wave of calm and my eyes shifted around the room. I saw the tall blonde smiling at me and he waved. "Jasper," I nodded to him. He nodded back.
Dr. Cullen most have sensed the change in the emotions too because he turned to me, "Jacob, please let's sit and talk about what happened in Italy." I nodded and went and sat down on the opposite end of the couch. Dr. Cullen started with the events from when they left. He told me that Edward had planned on walking out into public with his shirt off, which would have exposed what he was.
Right then Sam and Embry walked in. They stayed near Emmett and Bella. Bella still had her arms wrapped around Emmett, sobbing into his chest. My heart was breaking more and more. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I turned to see who it was. It was Jasper, he smiled and I felt a wave of calm again. Dr. Cullen turned back to me after acknowledging Sam and Embry. He continued to tell me that after Bella ran to push Edward back and out of the sun that him and Jasper came in to help the situation when some of the Volturi showed up.
"Who is the Volturi?" I looked at him puzzled. "They are the leaders of us. As you have your elders, we have ours. They are why you hate are kind so much. They are why you hate are smell so much. They are true to the word vampire. We are different from them. They feed off of humans, and as you know we don't. I have known them for years and had lived with them when I was first transformed. That's why I want with Bella; I knew there would be problems."
I looked over at Sam and then back to Dr. Cullen, "What kind of problems?" Dr. Cullen sighed and looked over at Bella. She had finally stopped crying but was still holding on to Emmett. He was rubbing her back and whispering that everything will be fine and will work out. I was confused by the jester and the content of his words. I looked back to Dr. Cullen and he was still looking at Bella. "Dr. Cullen, what is the problem?"
His eyes came back to mine and my breath was taken away. His eyes where the color of butterscotch but that wasn't what shocked me. It was the love that came from them. He loved Bella as he loved his own daughters. He was concerned about her. Edward spoke up then, "We are all concerned about Bella because this problem has to do with Bella." I didn't like that way he said problem with Bella's name. Anger started to well up in me but the hand on my shoulder squeezed a little and I felt a wave of calm again. I didn't even look back but I nodded my thanks. He patted my shoulder to let me know that he understood.
Dr. Cullen continued, "Jacob please, call me Carlisle. What happened inside the Volturi was unbelievable. They were happy to see Bella, Jasper, Alice, and me. They said that they were hoping that we would show up in time to save poor Edward from exposing our people. We told them about what had happened and explained how this was a misunderstanding. Bella and Edward had to act like they were still together to help us get out of there. Aro, who is the leader, is similar to Edward, that is, he can read minds. He has to touch you, and he can get to your memories and thoughts. Of course he tried Bella but he couldn't see anything from her."
I looked over at Bella and she had her eyes on me. They were so swollen and red that I knew she had to be hurting from the lack of moisture in them. I looked back at Carlisle as he went on. "This intrigued Aro and he asked if Edward was going to change her." I snarled then and I felt that wave of calm again. "Edward told Aro no, that he wasn't going to change her. Aro stated then, that for our family to leave and live, that he needed to do so." I looked over at Bella and she was sobbing again. She knew that this would be my final straw to it all. Carlisle touched my hand and it felt like ice on a hot summer day. I cringed away from it and looked at him.
"We tried all we could to get out of it Jacob but they insisted on it. They are giving us a year to change her. We know that this is hard but when Edward saw your dream..." I looked over at Edward and interrupted, "What does my dream have anything to do with this?" I looked over at Sam and Embry. Embry looked as shocked as I did but Sam didn't. Sam stepped forward, "Jacob are people have always had an ability to for-tell the future in our dreams. Carlisle believes that your dream showed the future of Bella. From the sounds of it, I'm starting to believe it myself."
I saw Bella move out of Emmett's arms and walk to the backside of the couch. She whispered in a crackling voice, "What did you see Jake?" I shook my head no and I stood up and walked over to her fireplace. I put my head down on the shelf and closed my eyes. This can't be happening, this is a horrible dream.
"Jacob Black, what did you see in your dream?" Bella yelled at me. I cringed at the tune in her voice. She was angry at me for not saying what it was. I didn't want to tell everyone about my sexual dreams. It's embarrassing and it's my dream.
I didn't answer her and Edward spoke, "Bella, he saw you as a vampire." I heard Embry and Bella gasp. I wanted to cry, right then. I didn't know what to say or to do. I felt arms wrap around me. I wrapped around the tiny little waist and just hugged her. She was crying again and the warm tears were soaking my shirt. I kissed the top of her head and looked around the room. Everyone was talking and moving into the kitchen. They were trying to give us sometime alone.
I took my hand and pulled her chin up so that I could look into her eyes. She finally opened them and they were so inflamed. "Bella you look exhausted," I cooed to her. She whispered back, "I haven't slept since I left you Jake. I woke up right after you left and I was scared. Edward tried to help me sleep by humming to me but still couldn't sleep. I've missed you." I leaned forward and brushed my lips across hers. They weren't soft like normal; they were chapped from all the crying. I licked her lower lip and she sighed. I kissed her deeply and with all the love I could come up with. She squeezed me tighter to her and moaned.
Someone cleared their throat in the doorway. I growled and looked up, it was Edward. "There is more to tell you. Please come in here, when you are done." He lowered his head and left the room. I looked back down at Bella and whispered, "What more can they tell me love?" She sighed and took my hand and led me to the kitchen. She's not going to tell me. What is going on? What is next?