As I had my hand at Edward's throat squeezing harder and harder, he never pushed me off. He just stood there letting me do this to him. What is he thinking? Fight me you bastard. He just looked into my eyes and I saw the pain. He wanted me to kill him.

By this time Emmett and Jasper had their arms around me pulling me back. I was still staring at Edward, trying to figure out what his plans were. "I have no plans Jacob, but I will die before I see Bella changed into one of us. Do you understand me?" I was still enraged and nodded, shrugging off Emmett and Jasper. A wave of calm hit me and then there was a knock on the door.

Carlisle yelled, "Come on in Sam. You are more than welcome here." Sam, Embry, and Paul walked into the living room with us. With all four of us in there, the living room felt very small. I felt a hand on my shoulder, "Are you okay?" Sam asked softly. I nodded my head keeping eye contact with Edward. His eyes never flickered from mine as we both stared deep into each others minds.

"You think I'm going to take Bella from you?" Edward blurted out. "Yes, some way or another, you will take her from me." Edward broke the eye contact and shook his head. He turned and walked over to the chair and sat down. His eyes came back to mine, "If she leaves you Jacob it will be on her free will. I have been staying away as much as possible to make this easier on all of us. She was the one that wanted to come here. She has feelings for this family, not just me. I will not force myself on her nor on you. Just remember, she decided to come and see us, not me!"

I had to give him some credit, he was right. She wanted to come here to see them. It wasn't him asking her or me asking her, it was her asking us. She wanted us to be friends to see beyond the werewolves and vampires. She wanted us to get along. Edward nodded his head. I really hate when you do that Edward. He chuckled and motioned for us to sit down.

I looked behind me to Sam and he nodded. He moved to sit in the chair across from Edward. I sat down on the couch. Embry and Paul stayed back to watch the vampires. Carlisle had moved to stand behind Edward. Jasper was still standing close to me, I'm sure to make sure I didn't lose it again. Emmett was standing beside Embry, whispering so joke to him.

"Alice and Bella should be back very soon, Sam. No worries." Edward spoke up. Sam looked a little confused and then nodded. Sam must have been wondering where Bella was. "So, let's get Sam and the boys up to date on everything." Carlisle chimed in. As Carlisle explained the visions and my dreams I continued looking at Edward, which he did the same.

The front door opened and I smelled my Bella. I jumped up to go to her side but stopped mid stride when I saw her. Her face was streaked with tears and eyes were red. She looked up at me and then to Edward. Her eyes came back to me and she started to cry again. I got to her in two strides and wrapped my arms around her. She started to cry harder and was pushing me away. I pulled back to look at her. She pushed me fully away from her and ran to Edward. He looked just as shocked as I did. Edward looked over at Alice and she looked horrified. Jasper was by her side and he whispered, "What is it, love?"

Alice shook her head and said in a quiet voice, "Things have changed and they are not making things easy for Bella, Edward, and Jacob." My heart started to pound even harder and I could hear ringing in my ears. "Jacob, please! Sit down before you pass out." Edward yelled in my direction. I looked over at him and he was trying to soothe Bella. I moved around to sit back down on the couch. Edward moved Bella to sit beside me. He turned to walk away and Bella cried harder and reached for him. He turned and smiled at her but continued to walk away.

Bella turned to me red eyed and tears running down her face. I reached to wipe a tear and she moved away from me. "What is wrong Bella?" I looked deep in her eyes and saw the sadness, the fear, and the anger. I was totally confused by this. "You....you kill him Jacob. How could you kill Edward?" I looked at her really confused now. "What are you talking about? You just saw him, I didn't kill him."

Alice walked forward and started to rub Bella's back. Bella buried her face into Alice's lap when Alice sat down on the arm of the couch. "Jacob you lost your temper with Edward when he refused to save Bella. I'm still seeing Bella getting attacked and you begged Edward to change her, to save her. He refused to do so. When he kept refusing and you both heard her last heartbeat you attacked Edward. You killed him. Now this is just a vision, things can change. Remember Bella, the visions can change. There is no reason to be upset with Edward or Jacob. They both know now, and won't let it happen. Right, Jacob?" Alice looked at me with those golden eyes. I looked down at Bella who was now looking at me for an answer. I nodded my head, "On my life Bella. I will not kill Edward. I promise you that."

She came at me like a lighting bolt, both crying and saying thank you. I kissed her forehead and scooped her up to sit on my lap. I didn't want us to be apart any longer. I needed to feel her, to smell her. Our future was not going the way that it was planned. I planned on marrying her and having three or four children. Not fighting off other vampires and her possibly dying. No, this was not in the plans at all.

Bella started to calm down and started to look around the room and listening to everyone talking about what to do. She looked up at me. I leaned forward and kissed her lips lightly. She sighed and whispered, "Sorry." I shook my head and whispered back, "Nothing to be sorry about love." I kissed her again this time with a little more emotions and I heard someone cough beside me. I broke the kiss and looked over my left shoulder. Edward was standing there. "I was wondering if I could talk to you Jacob, alone please." Edward turned around and walked slowly to the front door. I looked back to Bella and whispered, "I'll be right back love." She nodded while biting her lower lip. She didn't like us being alone together. "Don't worry; we will both come back unharmed." She nodded again, still biting her lip.

As I followed Edward out the door, we continued to walk until we were about mid way in the woods. Edward stopped and turned to look at me. His eyes were intense and all to knowing. They were remarkable, almost amazing how they seem to suck you in. I gave us enough space so that the temptation for attack from the both of us wouldn't be there. Edward chuckled at my thought and still stood there look at me.

"What do you want Edward? I really should be with Bella right now. We both should be with her right now." Okay, I was a little shocked by my last statement and so was Edward. "You mean, you are okay with me seeing Bella now?" What was I saying? "Hell, Edward. I don't know anymore. All I know is that Alice is having these visions and I'm having these dreams. I mean, it seems like everything is pointing us to change Bella. Everything is pointing to her being a vampire. I just don't know what to think or do anymore. Everything is against us right now." I wanted to hit something. I needed to get this built up anger out. So I turned and hit a tree.

There was a crack and then it slowly fell to the ground. I sighed at the little relief it gave me. Edward moved to stand in front of me again. He was a little closer than I would have liked, but he stared at me. "So, you are worried not that you will lose her to death or to me, but just in general. You don't want her to become one of us." I looked at him stunned, "Neither do you!" I yelled back at him.

He smiled, "The only reason I didn't want Bella to become what I am is because it's the most painful thing you can endure. I didn't want to watch her be in pain and I not able to help her at all." Sighing, I understood then how he must have felt. "Now Jacob, the reason I wanted to talk to you is this. I saw what Alice saw and yet again she is not telling all that she saw. She saw Victoria attack Bella. She saw you and me fighting Victoria while Bella laid there about to die. The family and the pack arrive just in time to finish off Victoria and we both go to Bella. It's gruesome what Victoria did to her so I will not tell you." If a vampire could turn green, Edward would have. He had the look of degust on his face. He continued on, "Carlisle tells us that we can save her if we change her. You begged me to change her but I refused. We continued to argue when Bella took her last breath."

He looked me dead in the eyes, "I ran because the love of my life was dead. I ran because I wanted to die along with her. You came after me to make sure I was okay. We have become good friends by this point. You were crying, if I could have cried I would have and would be now. I begged you to kill me. I was on my knees begging you to kill me. You didn't want too but you were grieving too. You planed out killing me and then my family would kill you and we would all be better. We all wouldn't be hurting." Edward closed his eyes and breathed out a deep sigh. "As you can figure, Alice hasn't told Bella the whole story. She only knows about you attacking me and killing me. She doesn't know that you die right beside me when one of the young vampires kills you. Bella also doesn't know that the Volturi comes and kills my family too."

I gasped and felt tears running down my face. This is just too much. I don't know if I can do this. The fear, sadness, and forgiveness in Edward's eyes brought me back. He was just as scared, and worried as I was. "What do we do Edward?" I whispered. Edward looked up at the trees and as if preying to the gods above he said, "I'm asking you to help me. I'm asking you that if Bella does get attacked that you make sure I change her. I can't live with out her even if she's not mine. Knowing that she dies because we were both to big headed. We need to protect Bella the best we can, so that we don't have to worry about it. If it does happen...," he stopped and looked back down to me. He sighed again, "Jacob you most know something though. If I do change her, she will become even more attached to me. That is I have to share my venom with her, which means she will have a part of me going through her veins. There is a possibility that she will want to either be with me or be very close to me."

I understood right there the other problem. That is why he didn't want to express in the vision within ear shot of everyone. He wanted to let me know that I could still possibly loose her. "I'm sorry Jacob. That bond between the seer and their other is very powerful. I wanted to let you know this before you agree to allow me to change her."

I stood there looking at the fallen tree that I had hit only a few moments before. I needed to get away. I needed to think. Edward nodded, "Do not be gone to long. Bella will begin to worry and think I killed you." I smiled and said back, "Wouldn't happen, I'll kill you first." He chuckled and said, "There is a nice cave up the hill there. I sometimes go there to think. It might help." I nodded and whispered thanks. He was gone in a flash.

Could I let this happen, if it does happen that way? Can I allow him to change Bella to save her, just to loose her? I took off in a run. I didn't want to change because I didn't want to pack to know what was going on just yet. I needed to clear my head and think of the pros and cons on this. As I ran to the cave it started to rain, a very cold rain.

***Sorry, another cliff hanger. I wanted to say thanks for all the love and support in this storyline. I'm really having a lot of fun writing this and having you guys enjoy it. I'll keep up the good work as long as I can. Of course the chapters are only going to get more interesting with all the conflict. I really hope you all are enjoying it. Thanks again, for all the love! Bethy99***