I'm at COLLEGE! Its great. I'm only a little homesick! But my dorm mate is AMAZING! She's so cool. So that's good.
Thank you all for the reviews. I know I kinda left a cliffhanger. So the next few chapters are when things start to get revealed. I will try my absolute best to update as soon as possible. But I'm still getting used to this college thing.
SM owns Twilight.
"Dude, what's your fucking problem?" Embry asked I drove us back to our apartment.
"Nothing!" I snapped.
"Jake. Something happened. You were in such a good mood at lunch. Hey, did you order tickets by the way? I mean, we could wait but all the-"
"No. I didn't." I interrupted him.
He sighed. "What happened?"
"Nothing!"
"Jake, I-"
"Fuck you, Embry! Shut up!" I yelled in the alpha voice. I kinda felt a little bad about snapping at him. But I was not in a good mood.
He shut up for the rest of the ride home.
As soon as we got into the apartment, Embry took it upon himself to inform Seth and Leah of my mood, "Something happened. I don't know what. But he's in a pissy mood."
I didn't respond, I just went into my room and laid down on the bed. It had her smell everywhere.
So I laid in my bed like a pussy while pain shot through me. Apparently she was still pissed at me. I sent her numerous texts: I'm sorry, I love you, I know I'm a dumb ass and I'm so sorry, Please come here tonight, Will you please call me or text me back baby, Please? I love you, and so on.
She didn't reply at all.
At about 8, Leah knocked on my door. But ultimately ignored my requests to go away and came in anyway. "My shift starts in 20 minutes. Lets go get you drunk."
Humm… Drunk sounded good. It always dulled the pain before…
Seth and I threw back shots until about midnight. I was sufficiently drunk off my ass by the time I decided to run a patrol by her house.
I crept into my favorite hiding place outside her bedroom window. She was crying on the phone speaking in Spanish. I tried to recall the one and a half years of Spanish I took. All I got out of her entire conversation was something about danger. I had no fucking clue what she was saying. I should learn.
Anyway…
She and who I assumed to be Maribel stayed up for hours talking in Spanish. Carlie's crying didn't stop once.
It was a terrible night for me. I was drunk and my imprint was pissed at me, which caused me physical pain.
Carlie finally fell asleep at 5am. Great. She would be cranky tomorrow too. And I defiantly couldn't put off taking to her another day.
I took off as soon as she woke up. Embry, Seth, and Leah were all in the kitchen when I stumbled in.
"Whoa, Jake." Embry said, catching me when I tripped over nothing, "You can't go into work like that."
"I'll take a shower and I'll be fine." I had to talk to her today. No way I could wait.
"Jake-" I didn't hear what else Leah had to say, I ran into my bathroom and quickly took a cold shower. It sobered me up a little bit…
As soon as I saw my reflection in the mirror, I knew I probably should have just stayed home, my hair was sticking up all over the place and my eyes were bloodshot. Great.
I walked into the kitchen with out tripping and went to our medicine drawer. We may or may not have stolen a stash of vicoden and morphine; it came in handy if we got hurt somehow. I popped a few vicodens and drank some water.
"Jesus, Jake." Leah said with disgust, "Are you going to revert back into being a drunk, womanizing jackass just because of one fight?"
"Fuck you, Leah. You don't know the pain-"
"Yeah, yeah, yeah." She snapped, "I know. When a wolf's imprint is mad at them its physically painful. Suck it up and apologize. If you do this every single time she gets mad at you, she's going to realize how fucking unstable you are and dump your ass."
I was going to fight back, but I just didn't have it in me. Everything hurt. And she was right. If Carlie knew I got drunk when the littlest thing went wrong, she'd dump my pathetic ass. And I can't let that happen.
I sighed in defeat and moped out the door to my car. Embry followed silently.
"I thought you were gonna rip her head off." He commented as we drove to work.
I shrugged, "She's right. I'm pathetic."
"Nah. I mean, I don't know what its like to imprint or have an imprint. But you're walking like you were flattened by a vamp again."
I nodded, "That's exactly what it feels like. I have to make it right."
He was silent for a few moments before he went there, "So what was it about?"
I growled. "None of your goddamned business."
He shut up until we got to school. "Well…I hope you didn't fuck up to bad." He said before sprinting away.
I shuffled into the gym and decided basketball would be the sport where I had to do absolutely nothing, so basketball it was.
I sat down on the bleachers and thought about what to say. I had a flash back to the Monday after we fucked for the first time. Bad memories.
First- I had to figured out what I was apologizing for. I just care about her. Is that so bad? I guess eavesdropping wasn't smart of me. So I would apologize for that, I guess.
But I really didn't understand why she flipped her shit. I mean, all she did was threaten to kill or have someone kill her ex.
Shit. I would do it myself if it mad her happy. He was talking about getting her pregnant! Who the hell does that!
But it was wrong to listen in on her conversation. I should have waited and then maybe she would have talked to me about it.
Now…how to go about apologizing. Beg?
No. To desperate.
The best way is probably to just mean it. And I was really sorry for listening in. But…
I'm her boyfriend. Fuck! Her imprinter! My main job on this fucking planet is to keep her safe. And this Demetri fucker is a threat to her safety.
She didn't come in early like she normally did. She came out with Leslie and the other girls. And…well, she of course looks gorgeous all the time…but, today, she looked like she had been crying all night. Her hair was kinda disheveled and her eyes were red and puffy from the constant stream of tears caused by me.
More pain shot through me.
The…pack of girls made their way over to me, Carlie at the back. Her friends didn't even notice she was obviously upset over something. What bitches.
I tried to catch her eye, but she refused to look at me. Damn. Homeroom or after class or something, I guess. "Ok, basketball." I croaked. Shit. It's really apparent that I'm hungover. Great. I cleared my throat and stood up, "Split into two teams. Justin, Cook, your captains."
The two meatheads started to pick their teams, I approached Carlie, but as soon as she saw me start towards her, she full out glared at me. It was enough to send another wave of pain through me. Then I noticed what she was wearing. A small white tee shirt (if we were in a better place I would have commented on the fact that it was tight in all the right places and just a little to small) that said 'Don't talk to me.'
Not. Even. Kidding.
That's exactly what it said.
She raised an eyebrow, daring me to go over there and talk to her.
I quickly retreated. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm a pussy. But I figured it would be better if I didn't piss her off more, right? If I just gave her a little more time to calm down. Homeroom. Or After school.
Yeah. After school. Well, maybe not right after school… but sometime today. Tonight. Tomorrow?
First period was fucking torture. I had horrible flashbacks to before we were dating and I felt like a perv for getting a boner while watching her play basketball in little shorts. Which, incidentally, was happening again.
As soon as I dismissed them, she shot out of the gym with out looking back. I shuffled to my office and booked our flight to Seattle.
I would make this right. So there would be no reason for us not to go.
I had planned on calling Rachel and telling her of our travel plans, but she would know something was wrong and then that will lead to questions and me getting yelled at for eavesdropping.
So I moped around more until homeroom. I waited of a few minutes to see if she'd come in, but she didn't. So I went out.
She was sitting silently next to Leslie looking miserable while Leslie prattled on about something.
"Jake." Shit. I didn't even notice Embry come in the gym.
"What?" I turned to face him. He had and uncharacteristic frown in his face.
"You really pissed her off." He snapped.
"Why? What happened?"
He scoffed, "She was texting someone during class and I figured it was you until I overheard her tell Leslie it was Maribel. So I gave her detention-"
"You what!" I yelled. Shit! She's gonna think I told him to!
"I gave her detention." He repeated slowly.
"Shit."
"Relax. Now you have an hour after school to talk to her." He said simply.
I groaned, "No! Fuck! She's gonna think I made you give her detention in a desperate move to talk to her alone."
Embry rolled his eyes, "Well whatever you did really set her off in a bad move. She stormed out of class when I gave her detention."
"Fuck!"
"You need to relax and get this shit taken care of. I can't take anymore bitchy high school girl drama." He said before walking away.
I froze. He did not just call her a bitch.
Before I made the conscience decision to do so, I tackled him. "You don't even know what its about! And she's not a bitch!" I hissed in his ear before letting him up.
He groaned before rolling on to his back, "What the hell, man?"
I helped him up, "She's my imprint. I don't care what she does. Don't call her a bitch."
"Jesus. Fine. I take it back. Just fix this shit soon, ok?" he said before leaving.
"I will!" I called after him.
I was glad to see that no students had taken notice of our little scuffle. I ran in my office to get my phone to text her.
I didn't tell him to do that! I promise!
As soon as I sent it, I heard a knock on my office door. Thinking it was Carlie, I sprang up and ripped the door open. "Oh. Hello Miss Steeves." I said with out enthusiasm.
She smiled, "You can call me Leslie, Mr. Wolfe." She laughed.
"Ok, then, Leslie, what can I do for you?"
"Um. I kinda wanted to talk about college. Carlie said you're really helpful. And I know I'm not graduating this year, but…um, I just figured it would be good to get a jump start on things, right?"
What the fuck did I know about getting into college? Carlie did that shit all on her own.
"So, um, could I come in?" She asked with a smile on her face.
I moved out of the doorway and sat at my desk. I gestured for her to sit down in the chair across from my desk.
I honestly didn't even think about her ulterior motives. But they became abundantly clear when she shut the door tightly. Shit.
"So…" she began sauntering over to the chair, "Your office is pretty cool."
I nodded, "Uh, y-yeah. I like to keep it…c-clean."
She gave a small laugh and sat right on top of my desk, making sure to give me a view of what was underneath her short black skirt. Gross. "Are you nervous for some reason, Mr. Wolfe?" she whispered. I could tell she was trying to be seductive, but it just made me want to puke.
"Honestly, yeah. What are you doing, Miss Steeves?" I asked, pushing away from my desk.
She twirled around on the desk and walked over to me. "Leslie." I threw up in my mouth a little bit when her breath washed over me as she whispered that in my ear. It smelled like rancid fish.
I shot out of my chair and to the other side of the room. Who the hell is she to come in here and hit on me! I'm pretty sure I have made it abundantly clear I was not into fucking students! Well…one. But Carlie doesn't count. She's my imprint.
I was finding it very hard to control my anger. My fists were balled up and my eyes squeezed shut, trying not to phase.
"Miss Steeves, I think you should go." I said before returning to my deep breathing.
One Mississippi…
Two Mississippi…
Three Mississippi…
I calmed down just enough to open my eyes and see Leslie kneeling in front of me and reaching for my fucking pants.
I was frozen. I could feel my anger rising and as much as I didn't want her to ever touch me or look at me…I couldn't just phase and kill her. I protect human life.
Leslie rubbed my dick through my sweats. It physically hurt when she did too.
Her hand was defiantly on me when the door silently opened.
FUCK!
Wide chocolate brown eyes met mine just as Leslie untied my sweats. Carlie's eyes filled with tears right away when she saw the situation. I heard her exhale twice before she quietly shut the door and ran away.
I was too fucking shocked at my bad luck to move for about two seconds after she ran off.
Leslie was finishing untying my sweats when I finally became fully aware of what just happened.
I bolted away from her and pointed to the door, "Leave. Right. Now." I growled out.
She smiled mischievously, "But Mr. Wolfe, don't you want me to-"
"No!" I roared, "You need to leave and don't try this again."
"But you were pretty into it a-"
"No, Miss Steeves, I was shocked that you would throw yourself at me this shamelessly. Leave."
She huffed and walked out of my office.
Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.
Carlie most defiantly saw Leslie with her hand on my junk and me frozen. Not looking good for me. She would believe me if I just explained…
Fuck. More pain washed over me when I thought of her eyes. She looked so hurt and betrayed. Ohh, god!
My knees buckled from the pain I felt and I stayed on the floor until I got a text during 4th period.
This was a mistake. Don't go home until I clear all of my stuff out. It shouldn't take long. I wont tell anyone about what we did.
NO! FUCK!
Before I could even get off the floor, my phone rang. My heart leapt, thinking it was Carlie, "Hello? Carlie? Baby it wasn't-"
"Jake! It's Leah! What the hell did you do! She is moving all of her stuff out!"
"Fuck! It- It was just a misunderstanding! I'm on my way! Don't let her leave, Lee!" I said before snapping my phone shut and running out side to the woods to phase.
I made it to our apartment in minutes. As I raced up the stairs, I heard both Seth and Leah trying to talk to her.
"Carlie, he loves you. I don't know what happened, but he loves you more than his own life. Yeah, he can be a dumbass sometimes, but, really, what man isn't?" Leah said.
"Just-" Carlie took a deep breath, "This whole thing was a mistake. And I can't do it anymore."
"Carlie, you two are perfect for each other. I honestly believe that you two could be happy together forever." Seth said just as I burst through the door.
"Please leave." Carlie said to Seth and Leah.
I passed them in the hall leading away from my room. "Carlie! Baby! Please just listen to me!" I grabbed her hands and prevented her from throwing more of her clothes into her bag.
"No!" she jerked away from me and ran into the bathroom.
"Baby, its- It's not what you think!" I pounded on the door after she slammed it in my face.
"What the fuck is there to explain, Jake!" she yelled, voice cracking through her tears, "Leslie had her hand on you and you weren't doing anything about it! How are you going to talk yourself o-out of th-that one!"
"Carlie, please come out and talk to me, please!" I begged, pounding on the door.
"No, Jake! I mean we- We're just- You're so much older than me and I guess we just want different things in life and-"
"I want a life with you!"
"Apparently not!" she yelled through the locked door. "You're a…a playboy, Jake! I know you slept with Miss Bronwell and from the amount of numbers scribbled on scraps of paper on your desk, a shitload of other girls, too! I need someone who wont hurt me! And based on your actions today, its not you!"
Not me.
Those two words hurt me more than getting flattened by the newborn ten years ago.
I ripped the door off its hinges and went into the bathroom. She immediately got up from the floor and backed away from me as I approached her. "I did fuck a lot of girls! But as soon as I met you, that all stopped!"
I stopped right in front of her and she looked terrified. "Get away from me." I hated the way her voice shook with fear. Fear that I'm going to hurt her.
"Carlie." I whispered gently, "Do you remember the promises I made you?"
"Jake, let me go. I told you not to-"
"I promised you I'd protect you. I promised you that you can always trust me. I need you to trust me right now." I placed my finger under her chin and lifted her face to meet my eyes, "Please?"
She jerked her head away and ducked under my arm to proceed packing her girly bathroom shit. "She was touching you and you were standing there with your eyes closed! Like you were fucking enjoying it! You probably were! 'Cuz what guy would turn down a blow job from someone who has probably done it to three thousand guys!"
"She didn't blow me!" I yelled.
"Don't yell at me!" She whirled around and yelled that directly at me.
"Maybe I wouldn't have to yell if you would just calm the fuck down and listen to what I have to say!"
I reached out for her, but she darted away from me quickly. "Don't touch me! Who knows what kinds of diseases you have from fucking around all the time!" she snarled at me.
My rage bubbled over and the alpha wolf came out, "Sit down and listen to me!" I growled in my alpha voice.
It took her a second to resist the power that came out with it.
"No, Jacob!" Carlie zipped up her bag and threw it over her shoulder, "I don't have to listen to you anymore! I'm leaving, I'm breaking up with you, and I'm transferring out of your goddamn gym class and useless homeroom! Fuck you! I hate you so-"
Without thinking about it, I pulled her to my lips and slid the bag off of her shoulder. It took her a second to realize what was happening. But my arms were already around her pulling her into me when she tried pushing me off.
"When she touched me I was so fucking pissed off I was frozen trying to keep from ripping her off me by her neck. I love you. You, Carlie. Yeah, my past isn't so clean. But I swear I haven't even looked at another woman since you came here. I never had sex with anyone since I first saw you. I love you and I'm sorry." I whispered in her ear when she stopped resisting.
"For what?" she said softly after a few moments.
"For listening to your conversation yesterday. You're right. It's your business and I don't have any right to know why you're talking to him. I trust you. And I'm sorry for saying those awful things yesterday. I didn't mean them. I'm sorry I didn't react fast enough when Leslie tried to rape me. And I'm sorry you had to see that. I'm sorry for scaring you and yelling at you. And I'm sorry for forcibly kissing you against your will." And I meant it.
She replied by kissing me. "I'm sorry for over reacting yesterday. He just puts me into a bad mood. And I'm sorry for yelling at you when you were just trying to help me. And I'm sorry for not trusting you. And I'm really sorry for hitting you yesterday. I love you, Jake."
The pain washed away from me as soon as she said it back. "I love you so much, Carlie." I said before kissing her again.
She pushed me back onto our bed and, regrettably, our lips lost contact, but it was ok because she only separated us so she could take her shirt off and climb on top of me.
She kissed along my jaw line and ran her soft, talented fingers across my chest and stomach under my shirt. My hands immediately went to unclasp her pink cotton bra. As soon as she whipped it off, I brought one peek into my mouth while she worked my shirt over my head.
She abruptly pulled away from me and stood up, shedding her sweats as soon as she did. I took that as my cue to take my pants off.
I kind of half expected her to lay down on the bed, but she surprised me by climbing right back on top of me. She had only been on top a few times before, I knew she preferred other positions. As soon as she guided me onto her opening my eyes rolled back into my head.
I was balls deep and I'm pure fucking heaven. I was so much deeper with her on top. I guess she felt like she had more control and I knew she wouldn't do anything that would hurt her like I was always afraid of doing.
She was bracing herself on my chest as she rode me. My hands were gripping desperately at her hips and drawing circles around her clit.
Ohh, Christ. I wasn't going to last much longer. Especially now that Carlie started moving her hips in a circular motion, letting me feel all of her.
"Baby…" I groaned out just before she cried out my name and clenched around me. I followed right after.
She collapsed on my chest and placed soft kisses on my neck. I pulled the sheet over us and wrapped my arms around her. Everything was so much better when we were together. I finally got Leslie's sick, fishy smell out of my nose and breathed in Carlie's wonderful lilac scent.
"How did you take the door clear off its hinges?" she laughed after a little bit of silence.
Uhh… "Floor hockey." I replied.
She laughed and snuggled closer, "Did you tell them you were leaving?"
Shit. "No. I kinda left in a hurry. But I'll call in now. I'll tell them Seth ran into door again."
"Hey! Tell them it was Leah this time!" Seth yelled from the other room.
I quickly called in and told Nadia I wasn't going to be in for the rest of the day. She insulted me and called me a dick. Typical.
Carlie and I cuddled up in bed and took a nap. I know she didn't get any sleep last night, and I know I didn't either. I felt so much better having her in my arms while I slept. So much happier.
When Carlie left to go to work, I decided it was a good time to call Rachel and tell her of our summer travel plans.
"Hey Jakey. How's Carlie?" Rachel answered the phone.
"Well, she's pretty excited about our travel plans the week after graduation." I said casually.
Rachel gasped, "No! You're not! Oh my god! Jake! Are you!"
"Yeah. All 5 of us are getting in June 10th."
"Holy shit Jake! That's in like… 6 weeks!"
"Yep. Is that too short notice? Sorry."
"No no no no no! Its perfect! Oh my god! Jake I'm so excited! Paul!" she yelled. "Paul! Go phase and tell everyone to come here! Its an emergency!"
I heard Paul run out of the house. "So wow. I'll see you in six weeks!"
"Yep."
We were both kinda silent for a few seconds. "We miss you, Jake."
"I miss you too, Rach. I'm looking forward to seeing my niece and nephew." I laughed.
"Oh! They're so excited to meet you! They bug me everyday about when they're going to meet Uncle Jake."
"Yeah. Hopefully I'll be around more."
"So what are your plans for after she graduates?" Rachel asked. I could hear the hopefulness in her voice.
"Well, uh, she said she wants me to go with her to college. So, I'll either try to find enough cash to go to school, or get a job. Embry, Seth, and Leah are moving back to La Push, and hopefully I can manage to visit a lot."
"That's great Jake."
"What's the fucking emergency, Rachel?" Sam asked from the back ground.
I heard the footsteps of the pack in the background. "Oh! No emergency, just great news!" I could practically hear Rachel's smile. "Jake and Carlie are coming!"
"No way, man! When?" Quil asked.
"We get into Seattle June 10th at 9pm."
"Awesome! Are you going to rent a car, or do you need a ride to La Push?" Sam asked.
"We'll probably rent a car. That way if she… isn't ok with my wolf side, she can-"
"Shut up." Jared said. "Yeah, the imprints are a little freaked out at first, but she'll get over it."
"If you can just guarantee me that she wont go run off with a vampire, I think I'll be ok." I laughed.
"I think only one girl is stupid enough to do that." Paul said.
"Where are you going to stay, Jake?" Rachel asked.
"Probably dad's. Seth and Leah can stay with their mom and Embry can sleep where ever he finds a place."
"We have an extra bedroom. As long as he doesn't stink up the place, he can stay with us." Blake said. "But he has to deal with Addie waking up every few hours."
"Yeah. He'll be fine with that. As long as he doesn't have to deal with sleeping on a couch." His last visit to La Push ended up with Embry sleeping on a small couch in the small apartment Brady, Collin, and Jenna shared.
"He complains to much." Collin grumbled.
"Ok, you'll get in pretty late, right?" Rachel asked.
"Yeah. We get into Seattle at 9 if there aren't any delays. And then we still have to drive the four hours to La Push."
"Ok," Rachel went into planning mode, "I'll talk to Emily, but I'm thinking the next day we, or Sam and Emily, could have a party for everyone to welcome you back into La Push. Then the next night we could have a bonfire and tell her the legends. Sound good?"
I sighed, "Yeah, Rach. That sounds fine. Who are you going to invite to this party, though. There are some people I don't want there."
"Oh, Jake. Like who?"
"Anyone from Forks. None of Bella's friends." I growled.
"That's not going to be a problem, Jake." Sam laughed.
"Good. Aright. I'll talk to you guys later, ok?"
They all said good bye and I hung up.