The place was just like I had remembered it. The only difference was it had a lot more people and no one on the miniature stage this time around. I was still as nervous though, that all I wanted to have a drink to calm my nerves.
When we reached the bar, a different bartender was working, this time. It was a girl… In fact it was the girl who was on the stage the last time… Jane, I think, was her name. Rosalie noticed my confused stare "The people who work here like these things and they sometimes participate." She shrugged.
I nodded looking around, worried about something, not sure what. Jasper must have felt me tense up. He was behind me, resting his head on my shoulder, holding my waist down "We can have a drink and you can calm down or I can calm you down? What do you say beautiful?" his hand was snaking down to my butt. I was still tense, but I knew that what Jasper had in mind would help me relax.
"Should we go to the bathroom?" I whispered at him.
I could feel him shake his head softly "No… No bathroom. They're strictly off limits." His hand was still traveling around my body, squeezing my ass, almost painfully, but just below real pain.
I licked my lips "Where?" I was ready for him.
"Here." He tried to push my body out of the way to get to me, but soon found out that there was a special hole for his evil ministrations "Oh, you truly are a little whore aren't you? What if someone else had found out?"
I wanted to push away from him and tell him that I didn't want to do this in front of everyone. They would see. Rosalie and Emmett and the girl behind the bar, and everyone who was here. It wouldn't be like in the alley, where it was just an if. I could feel people looking at us, peeking at us through the conversations they were having. I knew this. And I couldn't step away from Jaspers offer to help me relax. He wouldn't be doing this if we couldn't.
"It's only for you, sir." I whispered loudly enough, not able to speak up louder.
He pushed a finger in and I gasped in surprise, that I truly was letting this happen, not the amazing feeling of him inside me.
"Is it?" he started to pump it in and out "I should mark it then, don't you think? So, any of these hungry fuckers don't even look at you."
"Yes." I moaned louder now, closing my eyes. I could feel myself relax and let go of whatever I was holding before.
His other hand, that was on my hips, was hugging me around the waist now, pushing me into him as his fingers were pushing inside me.
"Whose whore are you Bella?" he kissed my neck "Tell me."
"Yours, sir!" I was gasping shamelessly as I was nearing a release, but not there yet, thinking about everyone's eyes on me. Everything being a tad bit too much.
He started pushing his fingers faster and faster bringing me the place since I wasn't 'meeting it' on my own. He was going to make me cum if I wanted to or not… I could feel the sweet tingly feeling in the pit of my stomach as he whispered, "Stop resisting."
As the feeling came over me and took everything with it, I cried out in gasps and moans, no longer shocked at what I did but instead it was relief that I had let Jasper make the decision for me. He was still holding me, as I was slowly coming down, and opening my eyes, looking at the ground, trying to come around.
"Darling?" Jasper asked, this time not a whisper "You want to go sit down?"
"Yes." I blinked and finally moved my eyes upwards. Not one person was looking at us. I stood up straighter, Jaspers hand still around me.
Jasper led us away from the bar and to one of the tiny tables in the back and I choose to rather sit in his lap, wanting to feel closer to him. He of course let me, slowly caressing my back. He was murmuring that I was a good girl and sweet. I needed this more than any other after care. No one even bothered to stare at us, just a passing look maybe but nothing that I imagined would be. Jasper made it better being so understanding and of course everyone's reaction helped me as well. The last time there was a spanking and it was on the stage. I guess a mere fingering, without skin, wasn't as interesting to them.
At least I thought so. A woman, with dark hair, wavy up in her ponytail, wearing a tight small black dress came up to us. She seemed familiar but I couldn't understand where I've seen those dark eyes.
"Long time no see Jasper." She addressed him, not even looking at me. Even that felt familiar.
"Maria. It's been a month isn't it?" He answered, tad bit colder. Maria! Rosalie told me about her… And I remembered her. She had ignored me, the last time, when I had come up to her and Rosalie. She was still ignoring me, but now it just made sense. I understood. That didn't mean I liked her attitude. She needed to check herself.
Jasper continued "You remember Bella." He said his cold tone softening up a bit.
"Not really, no." she said coldly "But the marking, that I saw." She was getting more emotional and I could feel Jasper tense up.
"Maria? Bella and I are enjoying some time together, if you don't mind?" the tone reminded me of his dominant voice a bit, and the first time I didn't get wet but jealous hearing it. I wanted her to leave.
I looked at Jasper hoping my eyes would tell him everything. He looked at me and smiled a tight smile, reassuring me a bit. I was glad about this silent, understandable exchange.
"You know what? I don't want to go, what I want is-" She was getting louder and louder attracting attention that no one wanted.
"Maria." Jasper said though his teeth almost menacingly "Fucking. Go. What do you not understand?"
Now I got wet.
He could be so dominant, so sweet and such an asshole if he needed to be one. No wonder I was sporting a huge crush on him, wishing for something I didn't let my mind think of now.
Maria looked at me, up and down, biting her lip. Looked at Jasper, with her cheek high, turned around and left. She looked like she wanted to tell him off, burn me and spit on both of us but she left anyway. Jaspers dominant voice was not only sexy as hell but authoritative.
Jasper just embraced me a little harder but didn't say anything. I kind of expected him to tell me that she was his ex and they had a falling out. But he didn't tell me anything about her. He didn't even tell me she was his sub. I wondered why he did that… Perhaps he was just protecting me and didn't want to ruin the moment…
I didn't have long to wait for someone to come again since Emmett came up "Drama?" he asked, joking, a drink in his hands.
"Is this place always like this?" I asked before Jasper could say anything, not that he was going to answer.
Emmett laughed and sat down "Well, you meet people, you get involved, sometimes their personal life spills over. That's life, Bella." He shrugged "How are you doing?" he smirked.
I laughed a bit, coming slowly back to life "I'm…" I thought about it, wanting to be as truthful as possible "Feeling better. A little nervous still, but." I shrugged.
Emmett smiled at me, "Well, the first time Rosalie did something public here with me, I thought I was going to shit myself." He leaned in closer "So, I was afraid everyone would judge me here and I was restless, barely able to relax. But the thing is, this is safe space, where we can do what we want, what we feel with our partners, safe, sane and consensual of course. We don't have to hide from anyone." He leaned back out "I mean the drama can happen, but it stays with us. Here." He got up and padded my shoulder and left to where Rosalie was, talking to someone, her back to us.
I leaned harder in Jasper, relaxing against him. Emmett was right. This was a safe space where Jasper could be my sir in public, if he wanted to and I wanted him to be, and act as we wanted to without repercussions. We didn't have to hide. Of course I had my worries and fears but not one of these people seemed to care so much to tell us off, which was probably the fear that was seeded in me, since it wasn't socially acceptable to mark someone as submissive by fingering them in the middle of a café.
I turned my head in Jaspers neck and kissed him, wanting to show him some appreciation as well. I needed something sweet now.
"What was that for?" He asked and I could hear a smile in his voice, that warmed my heart.
"I never thanked you for the orgasm."
He kissed my forehead "Oh, you will thank me, trust me."
The moment was so perfect and intimate I didn't want to ruin it and I hoped that no one would as well. Including Jasper.
He didn't and neither did anyone else, for a long while.
Jasper and I just laid around, cuddling in public. We didn't really talk, rather just enjoying each other. It made me think what Emmett said. That this safe place. Well, the thing was that Jasper and I could cuddle here, and it made me realize we couldn't do that in public. I wished we could, but for now I was alright with this.
"I need to go to the bathroom." I told him, not wanting to break our moment but not able to hold it in any longer. Someone had to burst the bubble – better us than anyone else.
"I'm going to get us drinks." he said as he got up with me, holding my hand.
It was almost like I was walking around the place as if I was here for the first time. I truly was too drunk last night. I was just having some flashbacks from the place. The girl, wasn't getting herself back together in the toilet and when I left it, I didn't have to stumble out of it to find Rosalie and Jasper ex sub. The place was actually very cute and even if it seemed small it wasn't. The things that change when I'm not too drunk.
I walked out and I saw him there, looking fantastic in his suit. Fuck the drinks, I wanted him, not some juice with ice in it. I had a tad bit of a déjà vu feeling seeing him Caius. Him, I remember now. They seemed to have some kind of a beef, that I never got around asking Jasper about.
I walked closer and I could hear them speak. Jasper was mid-sentence ".. isn't caring. I don't share Caius."
"She seems too sweet not to share Jasper. Oh, and she's here! Hey there, Bella, right?" Caius smirked at me and my stomach turned.
I stood next to Jasper and he gave me something that looked like water. I guess he ordered the drinks with Caius standing next to him. I wanted to tell Jasper that I wanted him to fuck me, but Caius was asking me a question as soon as I had the water in my hand.
"Bella, we were just here talking-"
"You were talking." Jasper said matter of fact.
Caius smiled at that, not paying attention to Jaspers annoyed voice "- that what if you had multiple partners?"
It was so uncomfortable, the silence that fell after it. Jasper looked at me and I knew I had to answer, "No. I don't want that at all." And multiple partners huh? I had enough when I was with Edward and trying to get Jasper to even notice me. I was alright with just him for now, no need to complicate it with anyone else. Especially if they had beef…
"Jasper," I looked at him and Caius "I wanted to talk to you alone."
Jasper had the smallest of smiles "You have to go Caius."
He just nodded and left. At least he didn't stay when Jasper asked him to go.
"So, what did you want to tell me?" He looked down on me, towering over me.
I smirked, pushing my palm against his hips, leaning in "That you really look amazing and sexy and I want you to fuck me." I said with a sly smile, innocently.
He laughed and took my hand "Let's get out of here."
I almost felt like kissing him but that seemed too intimate. I knew it was funny and sad in a way to say that a kiss is more intimate than fucking each other raw but I truly felt like it was. There was no part in me that thought otherwise. A kiss was something I hoped to achieve with him, but I wasn't going to voice it now since I knew what had happened to the last person.
We had just exited the café, when I had my jaw almost break off.
There she was, standing in the middle of the road, with tight jeans, and an overly fancy coat, that looked like a Russian rug. Alice was looking at us, with the bitchiest face I've seen on her face yet. I gulped. I had a bad feeling.
I didn't think we were a secret, Jasper and I, but this definitely wasn't the way to go. Alice just snapped a picture on her phone and got in her car and went her way. Jasper and I were left speechless, not sure what that meant or what that was about.