AUTHOR'S NOTES: I apologized for the super late update of this story. Sadly, this story had reached its end already. I hope I gave a proper ending. :) ENJOY READING. :)

CHAPTER 10

With a loud thump, I lay on top of my bed. My feelings for Brittany get a little more confusing in each passing day. Sometimes I could feel that she wants me, but most of the time, she confused the hell out of me. But come to think of it, am I allowed to be confused? I'm going to be a nun and how would I face Mother Superior with these confusing feelings swirling around me?

Ugh. These damn feelings are making me crazy.

A loud knock on the door startled me. "San?"

I stood up and opened the door. "Quinn? Do you need anything?"

Quinn smiled at me. But I could tell she was contemplating on something.

"Quinn?" I repeated.

"Uhm… I just want to… you know… invite you to watch a movie tomorrow, uhm if you just would like to?" The she shrugged, "I just want to make you feel better."

I nod. "Sure. I would love that Quinn."

Quinn's eyes smile widened. "Okay then." She cupped my cheeks and kissed me on my forehead. I blushed hard. Then I noticed her cheeks reddened too as she walked away. I was left speechless.

I furrowed my eyebrows. There's no way AN JELL Quinn Fabray likes me right? Or I mean, Santino? And I thought Quinn likes girls? She doesn't even know I'm a girl.

The next day, Quinn and I spend the entire afternoon together. She was so nice with me that I realized that I should tell her my secret; that I'm not really Santino. Besides, I'm leaving anyway. I already decided to leave. I don't want to lie anymore. I need my life back and these feelings that I felt towards Brittany should be buried.

"Quinn, I need to tell you about something." I started while we were eating ice cream near the beach.

I noticed that Quinn stiffened.

"Are you okay?" I asked, concerned.

"I need to tell you something too, but go on." She said, after a while.

I took a deep breath. "I- Actually, Quinn, I am-"

My phone rang. I looked at Quinn and she nodded so I excused myself. "Hello?"

"Hey San. I'm back. Can you pick me up at the airport? I can't seem to contact Will."

My heart soared in excitement as I heard my brother's voice.

I ran towards Santino at the airport the moment I saw him. He hugged me back. "Hey, hey. I missed you."

I couldn't help but cry when I saw him. I hugged him tightly. "Mother is gone, Sanny. She is never coming back."

Santino pulled away, "How did you know? Who told you?"

"Our Aunt." I lowered my gaze. "She told me everything." I sniffed. "I'm sorry."

Santino hugged me tight and I could tell he was crying her heart out too. All hopes and dreams of finding our mother just disappeared into thin air.

My brother and I were at the hotel waiting for Will when Brittany called. Her voice was furious.

"Where are you? It's already late! Why didn't you call me? I'll pick you up."

I furrowed my eyebrows. "I told Quinn to tell you I have important matters to attend to. I'll be back tomorrow morning." I lowered my voice as I realized I would probably not go back because my brother is already here. "Probably." I added.

"What do you mean by that?!" Brittany huffed. "Tell me your address and I'll come pick you up. And why do you need Quinn to tell me when you can call me by yourself instead?!"

"I was with Quinn this afternoon. I told her that-" I explained but Brittany cuts me off.

"JUST. Just tell me where you are. Now."

I furrowed my eyebrows at her demanding tone. I was about to respond when Santino called me, telling me that Will is already here.

"Who was that?" Brittany asked, still on the other line.

I breathed deeply. "My brother. He came back."

Brittany was speechless for a while.

"Brittany?" I asked.

"You're leaving?" She asked, her voice different.

I exhaled a deep breath. "I guess. It's for the better." My eyes began to water as I realized I probably won't see Brittany again.

"You have to come back. I need to tell you that-"

"San!" My brother called me again. "You have an important call from Mother Superior."

"I need to go, Brittany. I'll call you in a while." I said, ending the call. "Who is it again?" I asked my brother.

"From the convent." He replied and that made my heart beats fast.

"Are you sure you want to leave, San? You could always come back. I'd tell everyone the truth and asked them if you could live with us." My brother asked once again. He wanted me to live with him so we won't be apart with each other anymore.

"I need to do this. I need to leave. But I promise, I'll come back and visit you, Sanny." I told him. My decision was final. I just received a call from Mother Mercedes. She was admitted in the hospital and she asked for me. There are things that I realized when I was out here exploring my new world, or I would rather say, Santino's world, that I need to reevaluate myself. Alone.

"Is there something you want to tell me, San?" Santino asked, his eyes looked worried.

I shook my head. "I'm fine, brother. I'll be fine."

Holly walked towards us, "I already booked a flight back to Spain. One-way as you requested." She said, then she hugged me. "I'm going to miss you."

I hugged her back. "Me too. Just don't fight with Will anymore okay? And please support my brother the way you supported me."

Holly wiped her tears away. "I will."

I turned to look at William whose eyes were red and puffy. I let out a wide smile at him. "Thanks for everything, Will."

"Take care of yourself, Santana." He said before hugging me tightly.

I would definitely miss them.

"What about Brittany? Quinn and Sugar? Do you not want to see them before you leave?" William whispered.

I felt guilty. "Quinn and Sugar doesn't know that I'm not my brother. But Brittany… uhm" I swallowed hard. "It's for the best, I guess. Just tell her I'm extremely grateful that she kept my secret. And thank her for me… for everything." I tried to hide my blush but William smiled knowingly. My cheeks burned. Does he know?

Lucky for me, William didn't probe. He just nodded in understanding.

"Why are you pacing around like a man woman, Britt?" Sugar asked me with her usual cheery voice.

Quinn was drinking tea regally by the couch while watching her favorite TV series. I rolled my eyes. I wanted to confront her about her 'date' with Santana but I don't know where to start.

I have this feeling that Santana isn't coming back but the other part of me thinks that she won't leave without saying goodbye.

The doorbell rang so I went straight towards the door. I opened it and imagine my relief when Santana appeared on our doorstep

"San!" Without thinking, I hugged her tightly. "I'm glad you're back."

"Of course, San will be back. Brittany, are you sick or something? Where will she-"

I pulled away from Santana, I looked at her and without uttering a word, I leaned towards her and kissed her lips.

"What the fuck!?" I heard Sugar cursed.

But then something was wrong. The feel of Santana's lips was different. I pulled away and stared back at her. I could tell that she was in a complete shock and then that's when I realize something.

Fuck!

"You're not Santana." I said. It was a statement, not a question. I gritted my teeth. "Where is she?"

The person in front of me regained back his composure. He glared at me. "You're the reason she left. I knew there was something wrong. And I know now."

"What are you talking about?" Sugar exclaimed while I'm having a staring duel with… Santana's brother.

"You knew?" It was Quinn's voice.

"What is this?" Sugar interfered again.

I looked at Quinn, "And you knew too?" I glared at her.

"Guys, what are you talking about?" Sugar was now confused as she watched me and Quinn glaring with each other.

"Santana is not Santino. This is Santino. She was pretending to be her brother." Quinn replied, still glaring at me.

"Who?" Sugar asked.

"SAN!" We answered in unison. And then I turned to grab the original Santino's lapel, "Where is she? I need to see her and talk to her!"

"She left." Santino answered.

I breathed deeply. "I have to go!"

Quinn beats me out of it. She ran towards her car and drove away first. Damn it! So, I ran towards my motorbike and followed.

I need to see Santana. Fast.

It's time.

I picked up my luggage and then started walking towards the line. I have to admit, I kinda feel sad that I haven't had the chance to say goodbye to Brittany, Quinn and Sugar.

Brittany…

I'm so sorry…

But I have to do this…

I have to leave and go back to my previous life.

I closed my eyes as I remembered the kiss.

She leaned in and captured my parted lips.

My lips were unmoving. I don't even know to do this. I just savored the feathery touch of her lips with mine.

I breathed slightly making my lips move against hers. And then she moved her lips, capturing my bottom lip with hers.

So, I followed her lead. It felt amazing. Her lips were so soft and I haven't felt this way ever.

She opened her mouth and something wet brushed my lips. Oh!

"SANTANA!"

I opened my eyes and look around. My heart skipped a beat when I saw her, Brittany S. Pierce, panting and running towards me.

"Where are you going?" She asked, breathless. Her hands caught my shoulders. "Why are you leaving all of a sudden?"

I looked away. "I need to leave. I need to go back, Brittany. My brother is-"

But she cuts me off. "I don't care if your brother is already here, Santana!" She said firmly. Then she lowered her voice, "I want you to stay. Please stay."

"I c-can't-"

"I like you. I really really REALLY like you Santana." She said, her cheeks burning. "I'm in love with you." She declared that made my eyes widen like saucers.

She is in love with me?

Brittany S. Pierce, AN JELL leader, is in love with me?

I felt the burning gaze of the people around us. We can't be seen in a public place like this. AN JELL fans are going to crowd us.

"Say something." Brittany said softly.

Our gazes met. I saw the determined look on her face.

I was confused. I don't know what to think and say.

So I settled for the truth. "I'm going to be a nun, Britt. It was my dream since I was a child. I can't-"

I wasn't even finished when Brittany released me, her eyes filled with hurt.

A rush of guilt surrounded my entire being. I never planned to hurt her. "No, listen to me, please. I don't want to hurt you Brittany. But this is all confusing for me. You confused me. And I need to find myself first. I need to be alone for a while. I need to know if this is what I want. If-"

She shook her head, "You don't want me."

I shook my head too. "No, as a matter of fact, I want you." I admitted shyly. "But I have a calling. I can't just-"

Brittany cupped my cheeks and softly caressed it. "I understand." She said softly, but I could already see the tears building up in her eyes. "I'll just be here. I'll just wait for you."

Now, it was my turn to caressed her cheeks, "No, I don't want to do that to you. It would be unfair for you if I decided to-"

She cuts me off by leaning towards me, giving me a soft kiss on the lips. "Stay safe." She murmured against my lips.

That broke my heart. My tears started to fall down as she pulled away from me and started to walk away, her head lowered.

I watched Brittany walking away from me, knowing fully well that I broke her heart.

I turned around but then at my right side, not too far away from me was Quinn standing, she probably watched the whole scene.

She walked towards me and I was about to say something when she hugged me so tightly. Her voice was trembling, "Goodbye Santana." She said.

I gasped, "You knew?"

She chuckled lightly. "I already knew for a long time, San."

"But you didn't tell me that you knew?" I asked, pulling away.

"I was waiting for you to trust me." She said, tears in her eyes but she wiped it away, smiling.

I lowered my head. "I'm sorry. I was about to but-"

"It's okay, San. I just wished you well. You will always be my bestfriend." She almost choked at her words that I felt the need to hug her tightly.

"You will always be." I replied.

"There you are! I was looking all over for you!" It was Sugar's voice. She walked towards us, her eyes look angry. "Why didn't you tell me? Am I the only one who doesn't know?"

"Sugar." Quinn's voiced laced with warning.

"It's okay Quinn." I walked towards Sugar, then hugged her. "I'm sorry Sugar. I never meant to deceive anyone. I just did it to help my twin brother."

To my shock, she was crying too. "And now you're leaving?"

I nodded.

She started to caress my cheeks, "No wonder your skin is so soft." She said, her eyebrow rising.

I chuckled at that.

The voice prompt called one last time for my flight so I picked up my luggage again, "I have to go. Take care of my brother okay?" I kissed Quinn and Sugar on the cheeks and I noticed that their cheeks were burning. I chuckled at that.

With a heavy heart, I bid my goodbye.

EPILOGUE

SIX MONTHS LATER…

"Brittany. Are you ready?" Sue Sylvester asked me, I just nod my head in response.

Sue left and I continued to stare at the mirror infront of me. It had been six months since she left. It had been six months since I declared my love for her and basically got rejected.

I exhaled a deep breath. She was probably not thinking about me while I'm stuck here thinking of her.

And it's also not helping that I'm with her twin brother who looked exactly like her.

"Hey Brittany. The show is about to start. Could you atleast look more decent for the fans?" Santino asked making me roll my eyes in annoyance. Speaking of the devil.

Basically Santino and I aren't friends. Well, just sort of. We're like cat and mouse because I wanted to blame him for Santana leaving and he is also blaming me for Santana leaving so yeah, feeling is mutual.

"Can you not atleast bother me for one second?" I asked, my voice filled with sarcasm.

He crossed her arms. "Well, I will always bother you when it comes to things like this. Besides, there are a lot of girls in the crowd. You could atleast pick one." He said that made me stood up and towered over him.

"You don't have the right in any position to interfere with my personal life, Lopez.

"Oh yeah? When it's about my sister, I have the right to interfere." He said, smug in his voice.

I gritted my teeth but said nothing. I don't want to fight with Santana's brother anymore.

So I stepped out of the dressing room and left him there.

Xxxx

The crowd was massive. The girls were screaming while we performed our last number for the concert.

They all love every single one of us. Even me.

If only she was here… Then my life would be complete.

To be honest, as Sugar said, I was a walking zombie ever since Santana left. I never cared anymore about my career but Quinn, Sugar and yes, even Santino pushed me forward. Even fake-dating Rachel Berry wasn't successful because my mind wasn't into it. Anyway, Santino and Rachel hit it off so I'm still kinda happy for them.

My eyes roamed around the crowd and that's when I saw her.

Her.

Santana Lopez. Here in the crowd.

I blinked furiously just to make sure I wasn't dreaming. She smiled at me, and then she waved her tiny AN JELL fan to me.

With my eyebrows furrowed, I looked back to Santino. And he was smiling at me, nodding his head. It's kind of like an approval or something.

Quinn and Sugar waved to Santana too and my heart skipped a beat or two when one of the bodyguards led Santana towards the center of the stage.

I recovered from my shocked state as I climbed down from the stage. The fans were screaming with enthusiasm but my eyes were only fixed to the gorgeous brunette who was standing before me.

"You're here." I softly said.

"Yes. Am I still welcome?" She replied, smiling at me.

My heart beats triple fast as I stared at her kind, gorgeous face. "You always are."

She nodded, and lowered her head. Her cheeks reddened.

"Why are you here?" I asked, cupping her chin so she could face me again.

"I miss AN JELL." She said, smiling.

I furrowed my eyebrows.

"I miss my brother." She said.

I pouted.

Then she leaned forward to whisper against my ear, "I miss you." She said softly.

I let out a wide grin.

"I miss you too. So badly." I admitted.

"Yup. My brother mentioned it to me yesterday." She said, leaning forward so we could hear each other.

"You were already here yesterday?" I asked.

"We all wanted to surprise you." She said, smiling. "And also, they said it serves you right for being all grumpy and stuff."

I shook my head. "I'm going to-"

She cuts me off by pressing her finger against my lips, "No more being grumpy, Ms. Pierce."

I nodded.

Then she mumbled something.

"What? I didn't quite catch that." I said, leaning forward again.

"I said… I'm in love with you too." She said, her cheeks reddened.

I smile widely then leaned forward to capture her lips against mine. I could feel her smiling into the kiss, and I can't help but smile too.

"I love you." I mumbled between kisses.

"I love you too." She replied.

Then the fireworks display started as soon as the last song of the concert was finished.

The crowd screamed and clapped but my mind and heart focused only on one woman who is in my arms.

"Wait, what did Mother Superior said?" I asked, curious at the reaction of the nun in particular.

"I told her the truth. And she said…"

"What did she say?" I asked, worried.

"Love is love. And I should follow my heart."

I smiled at that and captured her lips once again.

THE END

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