It's been 12 days 6 hours and 13 minutes since you've talked to her. She's been in class but she's taken to sitting a few seats away. She avoids your eyes every time you try to catch her attention, she arrives late and leaves as soon as class is dismissed, guaranteeing that you don't have a chance to corner her. You hate that you miss her so much.

You can't sit in this apartment anymore, you're done waiting for her to wake up. You stand up and stomp around your room with a scowl on your face. You're going to her apartment and you're going to … you're not sure yet, but you're going to do something. You've spent too long letting her control the pace and depth of your relationship and you're done. You probably look like shit right now in your messy bun and old sweatpants but you don't care, you grab your keys and head out the door. It's 6:45, so she should be in the library. You roll your eyes and hate yourself a little bit for knowing that.

You walk into the library with fire in your eyes and swivel your head around looking for a shock of blond hair. You see her over by the Engineering Sciences section, laughing with a redhead. The blood in your veins blazes as you make your way over. You press your hand on her shoulder and put a sickeningly sweet smile on your face "Would you excuse us for a moment, we need to have a chat" you grind out to the girl at the table. Blue eyes look frightened and that makes you smirk a little. She gets up and follows you to a study room where you turn and close the door.

"Uh, what are you doing here?" she mumbles out, while still avoiding your eyes.

You walk towards her and she backs up until her ass is at the edge of the table, you press your body forward and pull her into a bruising kiss, all tongue and teeth and god you've missed her. She's dazed when you pull back and you take a step back to point a finger at her.

"You're going to sit there and listen to what I have to say without running off, okay? I don't want to hear anything until I'm done, and if you want to leave after that, then I won't bother you again."

She looks up and watches you pace the small room.

"I'm in love with you Brittany, I don't know how it happened. I know this was supposed to be fun and carefree and that we weren't supposed to get attached but we are. We are and I'm tired of feeling used every time you leave before I wake up. I don't want this to be an arrangement anymore, I don't want this to be for fun. I want all of you, every tiny imperfect piece. I don't know what you're so scared of but I'm tired of waiting for you to tell me. You don't have to tell me everything but I need you to tell me whether this is going anywhere. Now is the time."

She's got her head down and you can see that her ears are red.

"Santana... I... I'm... I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you, I just.. I'm so scared of this. I've never ever felt this way, I've never felt so wholly connected to someone and I am so scared that I'm going to fuck it up. I am currently fucking it up. I mean you're gorgeous and perfect and everything I've ever wanted. I just.. I don't know how to be in a relationship. I wasn't looking for that. I was looking for no strings attached but then you came into the picture and knocked me on my ass. I knew I was in trouble after the first day of class. And then it just kept getting stronger and I… ran"

You're a bit shocked that she actually said anything much less the truth. You expected her to just brush you off and walk out, but this... this is something else entirely.

"Britt, I'm scared too. You think that I've been in this situation before? I haven't. This scares the shit out of me, but not being around you scares me more. The last 2 weeks have been miserable. I don't want to be without you, but I can't keep doing this to myself."

"I know, I know and I don't want you to." She whispers out. You suck in a deep breath and prepare for the worst, you aren't going to cry in front of her. You won't do it.

"Will you go on a date with me?"

You stand there with your jaw unhinged for probably 10 seconds.

"What?"

"Will, um, will you go out with me? On a proper date? I know we did things all out of order but I really want to take you out. If you'll let me"

She looks adorable with her blushed cheeks and her feet kicking under the table.

"On one condition"

She looks up and meets your eyes with furrowed brows.

"Okay… what condition?"

"We have to start talking, if you need space, then just tell me. Don't run away. Talk, Brittany."

"I'll do my best"

"Okay then, pick me up Thursday at 6."

"You'll go? Shit, really?"

You giggle out a yes and lean in to kiss her cheek. You turn to walk out of the room and cast a glance over your shoulder.

"Now, don't you have some studying to do? And tell the redhead to get lost if she hasn't already" she flicks her eyes up from staring at your ass.

"She's just my lab partner, you don't have anything to worry about." she mumbles out, flicking her eyes from your face to your ass.

You cock your eyebrow and stare at her until she holds your stare.

"What? I missed you too" she smirks.

You roll your eyes, "Get back to work, perve"

You leave the library and think that you might have saved something really amazing. You should dominate Brittany more often. You trip on the sidewalk at the mental image you just got. Yeah you should definitely do that too…