Wow guys, thankyou soooooooo much for the amount of reviews on the last chapter, they make me happy. I know that Rosalie is acting like 'Hoesalie' (lol) right now but can I just say that I actually love Rosalie, I mean, not so much in this story, but in the actual twilight books I think that's awesome, her acting this way just fit for the story. And I know that you more than likely want to throw stuff at me right now but I was away on family stuff and am enjoying the holidays and my temporary freedom from school work, even though writing that sentence just reminded me that I have two assignments that I need to finish by the end of the week. Oops.

Anyways, on a lighter note, I have started to write chapter sixteen and I am seriously considering putting up an outtake as a different story. It would be chapters or sections of chapters from other peoples point's of views but the fight would be in their from Bella's point of view. Tell me if you would be interested in reading that.

However, enjoy and review!

"Only you would think of that."

"It's like take away for vampires; we can call it 'McVamps.'." I grinned and was greeted with laughter from her and from other various parts of the house. I saw Emmett run to the forest with a backpack on his shoulder that I presumed was full of water bottles. I suppose that they just never threw away the ones that I used here.

We were silent for a little bit and I couldn't hear anything else from the rest of the house. "What happened?" I asked her quietly.

She sighed and took a deep breath. "Do you really want to know?"

I nodded without hesitation. "Definitely." She looked at me blankly, before turning away and taking a breath.

"She stared when I got back. I was earlier than the others and just the three of us were here. She….you remember what she said the last time, when we were talking about the hunting trip?" She looked at me with pleading eyes, but I didn't know what she wanted.

"Yes, she said that we, well, mostly I, couldn't miss you like vampires miss their mates, because I'm not a vampire." I replied.

"And about how the extra eighteen hours wouldn't be a big deal." I nodded. "I probably over reacted at first, this is all my fault really….."

"Bella!"

"What?" She looked at me, stunned.

"This isn't your fault!"

"Not just my fault but if I had of been calmer maybe then the fight wouldn't of gotten so bad, or Jasper would have gotten home before she did this." She nodded to her arm and I flinched.

"Still not you fault. But tell me what happened."

"Yer right….um, when I got back home she said something like 'wow, one night apart didn't kill you then?' And, after the hunt our instincts and emotions are so much stronger – so much harder to fight back, that's why I usually give myself some time before I come to you."

"You do?"

She shrugged. "Just an hour or two, but it's alright because that gives me enough time to get home, talk to the others, get calm and to get cleaned up. "

"Oh." Hadn't known that. "So, what happened then?"

"I snarled at her, and that just riled her up and she said that - ." Bella stopped there and her jaw clenched, her eyes narrowing and her lips pursed tightly together. There was still enough room for me on the bed on her good side, so slowly, as not to startle her I got up to lay next to her. She rolled slightly, wincing as the movement stirred her arm, to lay her head on my chest. "She said that maybe it would have been better if the separation had actually ki – " She took another breath and closed her eyes tightly, her good hand closing into a tight fist. "If the separation had actually killed you because then we could be safe again – we wouldn't have to worry about the secret." I tensed under her. I knew that Rosalie didn't like me, but she hated me enough to want me dead? I couldn't honestly say that that didn't hurt a little, but the hurt was quickly replaced with anger.

What the fuck did it matter what she thought? She was selfish and vain and would give up her mate for a snot nosed little brat that would probably be just as conceded as her. How dare she hurt Bella like that, her own 'sister', just because she was jealous? What kind of sister was she?

So what if she hates me? I've got news for you Rosie – the feelings mutual .

I felt sorry for Emmett.

But I was still kinda pissed.

The prick.

"Edward?" Bella's sweet voice brought me from my thoughts. "Are you alright? I am so sorry that she said that – ."

"Don't apologize for what she did, besides, it's no big deal. It's common knowledge that she doesn't like me – " I snorted. " even the other 'stupid humans' can see that." I sneered, looking to the door as if I could see her.

I heard a snarl from the second story and then Carlisle's voice chastising Rosalie, I assumed that she was the one at least.

"You don't like what I'm saying then don't listen!" I said slightly louder.

I heard Carlisle's voice again but couldn't hear what was going on so I turned to Bella. "She wants to come up here but Carlisle won't let her." I nodded.

"So what happened next?"

"I attacked her, to me, that's like she's threatening my mate."

"You just….pounced on her?" I asked confused. Bella never seemed like a violent person to me.

"Yep. But then she pushed me off and we started to scream at each other. I argued that she was just angry that the attention wasn't on her and that she was acting like a child and the whole Emmett thing and she said that you could expose us all and that I was being selfish by keeping you around not only to us but to you and that you deserved a human life, which, admittedly is right, and then other shit happened and I attacked her again and then Emmett got involved and then next thing I know my arms off and Jasper's tackling the others." And then she shrugged as if this was the most normal thing to happen.

I was reeling, and started to question her almost immediately. "What do you mean that she was right?" I could in no way see how Rosalie was right.

She looked up at me with glassy eyes. "Do you have any idea how selfish I am being by keeping you?" She said quietly.

Oh fuck no.

I tried to chuckle but kind of chocked. "Selfish? How are you being selfish, If anything, I am the one being selfish."

"Because I am keeping you from a normal life, from the human life that you deserve. You want to be a vampire and that's not natural Edward! We aren't natural! And I'm selfish enough to consider taking away everything that you have, and everything that you could have just because I want you. Don't you see how wrong that is? Rosalie is right, it would be best if we just left!" Her voice had gotten steadily louder and louder until she finished abruptly. I had stiffened under her as she said that lest bit, and now my heart was beating almost painfully against my rib cage as the numbing shock wore off only to be replaced by a choking fear. She wouldn't leave me, she promised me that we would always be together!

"But I can't." She said, quiet again as she place her cool hand over my pulsing heart beat. " I can't leave you, that's a lost cause. I am altered. I can not live without you anymore. And, my kind is essentially selfish, I need you and would do anything to keep you, even take your humanity, if you consented that is." She pressed her lips to my clothed chest and I knew that she would still be with me, but still, her past words echoed through my head, reinforcing my self doubts. I knew that she loved me and I knew that she would stay, but no matter what happened I still never knew why. She gave me reasons whenever I voiced my insecurities or whenever she sensed them but still I couldn't comprehend why she would want me.

"And how, Pray tell, are you being selfish?" She chuckled.

"You deserve so much better than me." I said quietly, wishing that the rest of the family wasn't hearing this, but knowing that she needed to know what I felt. "I'm just a human, and I know enough to know that I'm gunna be a pain in the ass after you change me. You shouldn't have to do that. If you had somebody else they would already be a vampire and you wouldn't have to teach them anything. Apart from that there are a million different reasons why you deserve somebody else. But I can't let you go. I am altered too, you know that right? I don't ever want to go back to the way that I was before you, so I should let you go, I should let you leave, but I would do anything to stop you, unless that was what you really wanted."

She looked up at me all quiet and gassy eyed and whispered my name, reaching up to cup my face.

"Well, isn't this conversation depressing? How come we get two people so intent on destroying their own happiness in this family? Bella you never used to be this bad! Pfft, at the luck that we're getting here Eddie boy will turn out to be telepathic or something." Emmett rolled his eyes. He was holding the back that looked considerably emptier now but by the way that Bella's eyes had snapped to the door but rested right on the bag, I knew that there was still blood there. "I brought you a snack, ma' lady. There is deer, deer, deer or yer, pretty much just deer. I didn't go to far, wanted to get back as soon as possible, you know. But this will do, 's cold so 's gunna taste like shit anyways." Emmett shrugged and walked over with the bag.

"Do you want me to stay?" I asked Bella, hoping that she would let me but knowing that this would make things harder.

"If you are still comfortable with that, the blood is cold and there was no hunt so the instincts aren't too bad." I nodded, ecstatic that she would let me stay.

Emmett opened up the backpack on the end of the bed and continued to extract numerous bottles of the red liquid. Together, Emmett and I helped Bella to sit up and I took the lid off of the bottle for her. She smiled at me timidly, before breathing through her nose and lifting the bottle to her lips.

I started, entranced, as she started to drink from the bottle, at first with a small moan. Before a minute had passed she was done with that and was reaching eagerly for the next one. Emmett passed one to her and then one to me and I twisted the cap off of my one so that it was ready for her.

The more that she drank I could see her now open eyes starting to change their colour. The blackness was leaving her only to be replaced by the gold that I loved.

When she passed Emmett the last bottle he smiled at me. "So, what do you think? Sure, that's nothing like actually hunting, but still…"

"Pretty cool." I nodded, not sure what else to say.

Emmett just snorted then walked away with a wave. "I'm gunna go check on Rosie." He threw an apologetic glace over his giant shoulder at us. "I am sorry about what – "

"We know Emmett, it's alright." How was it that Bella could be so forgiving?

After Emmett had left I knew that she would want to talk about everything that had happened, about what I had just said but I really didn't want to have this conversation in a house full of vampires. But Bella, God love her, would not want to let me go on thinking like that. She would not wait, and whilst I knew that most of the family would try to not listen I also knew that they would not be able to completely help what they heard.

"You weren't serious about what you just said were you?" She asked me as soon as the door had shut from Emmett.

"Yes." There was no point in denying it.

"You really think that I could get better than you?"

"Yer."

"But that's so stupid! And even if I could I don't want a different mate! You're absolutely perfect for me! That's what mates are, we're soul mates, parts of two wholes, all that stuff! Honestly Edward how could you even think that – " I cut her off by kissing her, taking her surprised gasp as an opportunity to let myself taste her lips before pulling away, knowing that her instincts might still be a bit to hard for her to handle having a tasty human in her mouth.

"I know all of that, honestly I do, and I feel the same way, but I can't help that I think that. "But if all of that stuff is true for you, then it is for me too, were a mated pair Bella, a pair. It's the same for me as it is for you."

She grinned up at me. "So we give up on all of this moody self sacrificing shit?"

"We can try," I sighed. "But no promises." I rolled my eyes. She just sighed and settled herself into my chest. "We have school tomorrow don't we?" Sometimes being so involved in this world really messed with me. I had difficulty keeping up with things the days of the week and the time and the month.

"Yes, today's Sunday."

"I assume that you won't be going tomorrow." I stated it like a fact, Jasper had said that she wouldn't be fully healed for a few days.

"I probably won't be back till Tuesday or Wednesday."

"Do I have to go tomorrow?" I wouldn't be going even if she told me to but I thought that I might as well ask.

"You should but I won't make you."

"Thankyou Bella."

We talked for a few hours and the time was going by faster than Ii would have thought considering how worried that I was. To say that I was shocked when we got our next visitor would be an understatement.

"Edward," Alice said, after she appeared at the doorway. "your mother will be expecting you home soon." The expression on her face let me think that she regretted telling me this. She must have known how much I wanted to stay. The draw to be with Bella was always strong but with her in this weakened state it was even stronger. Not that I could do a whole bunch to help her fight anything that could do damage to her.

I shook my head at Alice giving into the pull. "I want to stay."

She nodded immediately, her eyes flickering to her sister. She gave me a look that made me think that she wouldn't fight me on this, that she knew where I was coming from.

"Let's take you to your house first so that you can get stuff and to tell Elizabeth."

I nodded and smiled my thanks but was still hesitant to leave Bella. "We can leave in five minutes, I will meet you at the car." Then she disappeared again.

I looked at Bella while still gripping her hand tightly.

"You know that I will be alright, right?"

I nodded but admittedly was a bit upset – did she not want me to stay?

"I mean I love to have you with me but I just need to know that you know that."

I nodded, I seemed to be doing that a lot lately.

"I know that but I still worry. And can you blame me? If you were human this would have killed you."

She looked like she wanted to say something else but refrained from doing so. She just nodded and smiled up at me.

"Alright, " I said as I leaned in to kiss her gently. "I will go to meet Alice and I will be back soon."

"Don't take to long." She grinned.

"And if Rosalie – "

"If she does anything I will just ignore her. Plus everyone else in on alert now, " She rolled her eyes, showing her distaste at being 'babysat'. "and you know that they won't let anything."

This at least reassured me. "And Thank God for that." I muttered as I leaned in to kiss her again before carefully getting up from the bed as not to jostle her. She wasn't fully healed yet and I didn't want to take any chances.

I made my way to the garage giving Esme a hug as I passed her and smiling at Carlisle. Alice was sitting on the hood of Bella's car and when she saw me she gracefully hopped off of the hood, landing lightly on her feet and making her way to the drivers side.

"I really do need to get my own car." She said as she got into the car. "I love to drive so it makes sure that I should have a car, right?" she looked a time expectantly and I nodded with a nod and a well placed 'right'. Her logic did actually make sense. "The others all get really picky about their cars and don't like to let me drive them, even Esme gets a bit weird sometimes. I saw this new Porsche advertised that is about to be released..." She started to ramble on about the car and I got the feeling that she was trying to avoid talking to me. Had she seen me ask something that she didn't want to answer? The only thing that I was thinking about was how much time Bella and Rosalie would need to be able to be in the same room together, let alone both fully functioning members of the family. I felt guilty again, if I had not have intruded n their private life than none of this would have happened. I wondered if Alice had seen how long, and if she liked the answer.

We were at my house in no time and when Alice pulled up she turned to me with a serious expression on her face. "I can't yet see if your mother will let you stay, I think that she will, but you need to be really convincing. Act really worried, which shouldn't be to hard because I talked to Jasper and you are actually really worried, and I don't think that that's just about Bella." She sighed and rubbed a hand over her face before looking upwards and leaning back against the seat, looking more tired than any vampire should. "And I can not blame you for that." She closed her eyes and rubbed her pale fingers in circles against her temples, before sighing again and opening her eyes.

"But, let's get on with this, I will help when I can." There was only light rain and I faced upwards and let the rain wash away some of the stress that I was feeling.

From the kitchen you can see the doorway, my mother way evidently in the kitchen and the look of shock on her face when she saw the worry on me face and a matching expression on Alice's face, add to that the absence of Bella was startling. She had more than likely jumped to a rash conclusion.

"What happened?"

"Bella got hurt." My voice sounded strangled. I knew that she was alright, but having to deliver the bad news was a lot harder than I had expected.

"Is she alright?" My mother asked as she walked towards us from the kitchen. Her voice was calm but I could tell that her mind was racing. I looked at Alice, who nodded, and made my way towards the stairs. I cold faintly hear Alice start to talk as I started to walk up the stairs and could feel my mother's eyes on me.

"She went for a walk last night – I told her to stay away from the forest but – " Alice's lithe voice carried up the stairs. I grabbed a bag from under the bed and threw boxers, a pair of pajamas and clean clothes in the bag, before adding the contents of my pockets and my bag of toiletries.

When I got back to the hallway, Alice was nowhere to be seen.

"She's in the car," I turned to see my mother back in the kitchen. " You can stay the night and I don't expect you at school tomorrow, but I will see you tomorrow night alright." She gave me a stern look that left no room for arguing.

"Yes mother."

"Alright, good, now go take care of your girl." She gave me a kiss on the cheek and then shoed me towards the car. "Good night!"

"Goodnight mum!"

Alice was grinning at me from the front seat.

"You, my dear boy, are an excellent actor." She said in a posh tone before giggling and starting up the car.

"Thankyou Alice."

"That's Alright. Now, to more serious business, do you think that I should get that car, and if so what colour?"

I mulled over this for a minute, trying to ignore the tugging. She's close now, you will be with her any minute now. I thought. "Get a yellow one." I said eventually, and she turned to me and grinned.

"Why yellow?"

"Because you are always so happy and yellow is such a happy colour."

She looked at me curiously for a moment. "You know what, you're right." She sighed, then grinned again. "I love the colour yellow."

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