"Will I ever get to read those journals of yours?" I asked as I joined him in the bed.

"Is there something you wish to know?" He asked without breaking his stride. I loved that he took his time, writing at a human pace for his thoughts.

"I just am curious to know your thoughts and how you view me and our relationship. It's just another way for me to get inside your head."

"I'd be more amenable to letting you read these if I was able to get inside you head and hear your thoughts."

"But you always ask me and I tell you."

"You always edit." He had me there. I flushed with embarrassment of some of the thoughts I've been having lately; especially about Edward.

"Some of them are inappropriate and don't need to be voiced." I said as a way to defend my silent brain.

"Same here." I groaned and flopped on the bed.

"Ok, you have a point there. I was just curious, but I won't push the issue. If you want to share them, I will read them, but if not, then that's fine too." I turned to my books and started to study. Edward finished his entry and sat silent for a long time. I figured he was debating with himself whether or not to let me read his journals. He basically had all of my memories locked in his head and I had told him honestly what was going through my mind when I shared my memories with him so he could write them down. If I could type or write as fast as he could, then some of my thoughts would still have been withheld from him. It's not like I would remember them anyway, during the change, most of your human memories fade away, or so I've been told. I put my books away, kissed his cheek and curled up in bed. I didn't have to worry about an alarm clock, because Edward never slept and would wake me in the morning. He automatically curled up behind me.

"Bella?"

"Hmm?"

"You've shared so much with me lately and after your change, if you want to read my journals, then you may do so. I share my life with you and I don't want any secrets between us."

"Ok, remind me after I've been changed." I said sleepily. It honestly didn't matter if he shared them or not, I was just curious. He kissed my head and held me while I slept. While the Volturi were here, he refused to leave my side, as he normally would have while I slept.

EPOV

How am I going to keep myself control around her when her hormones kick into high gear? I was proud to see her beat me at chess and accepted defeat graciously. When we got to our room and she did all of those wonderful things to my body I almost snapped. I knew when she took me seriously because she leaned down and told me what she wanted to do. I just about lost it right there, hurting her and ruining my pants. I was glad when Emmet burst in and hid my chuckle when she growled at him. Emmet infuriated her more when he called her a kitten. I'd be good to remember her temper after she's been changed because it's a bitch to reattach a limb. I did feel her pain when she was crying and I was at a loss as to how I should comfort her. I left to get her homework and once again almost ruined my pants when I saw her in nothing but my clothes. She was really making me rethink this waiting until we're married clause I had set in place. I was six weeks away from the glory land and it's been pushed back eight more months, so yeah, I get why she's frustrated.

When Mike left, we talked with the family for a bit. Kate and Charlie walked in and I was jealous because I could smell what they had been up to. Bella seemed oblivious and I was not about to tell her that her dad had just done the very thing she's been wanting to do with me for a year. That's suicide. Bella announced she was tired and I carried her upstairs again. I had noticed that she wanted to be alone with me more and more; I liked it, but it worried me a little. I wouldn't do anything about it unless it got worse. It could be just because of our guests.

I was stumped about how to answer her when she asked about my journals. She played it off like it was no big deal, but I knew she really wanted to read them. I thought about it while she finished her homework and made my decision. I could trust Bella. I know she would read these and not judge me. She would read these and it would never be mentioned again. I told her she could read them after her change if she wanted to. When she asked me to remind her later, it made me rethink her motivation. Did she truly want to read them or just see if I would let her? I tended to underestimate her so this time I took her at her word and would remind her after she's been changed.

I looked at her sleeping form. Normally I would leave her at night and go hunting, but because of our guests, our human eating guests, I never left her side at night. I was startled out of my musings when Alice walked in after mentally telling me that she was coming in.

"Hello Alice."

"Hello, you and Bella need to be at school before Mike tomorrow; or better yet, go to his house now."

"Why?"

"He's going to tell people he was at our house and there will be questions. Someone moved a little faster than human pace last night and he noticed it. He's also going to say it felt creepy over here because someone was staring at him like he was something to eat. I'm not going to reveal names, but it could ruin everything. People will believe him."

"Stay with her and I will go talk to him and then hunt afterward."

"Ok."

"I mean it, do not leave this bed. I think you know why." She nodded her head in understanding. We both knew that the visiting Volturi members have been behaving regarding the humans constantly around, but it didn't mean that we trusted them alone with our humans. Aro himself said that he was thirsty for Bella when he saw how her blood tempted me. I leapt out the window and ran to Mike Newton's house. I would deal with Tanya later, but I had to get to Mike before he opened his mouth. I wanted to just go to his window, but since he didn't know, I had to settle for the door. His mother answered; a bonus for me.

"Hello Mrs. Newton."

"Hello Edward. What can I do for you?"

"Is Mike here? I'd like to talk to him for a minute."

"He's here, but it's getting awfully late for visitors. You do have school tomorrow."

"I understand and I promise it won't take long. My father wants me home too, but he said I could come by real quick." It was total BS; Carlisle probably had no clue where I was right now.

"Alright, come on in. I'll go get him for you." I stepped inside, thanking her with a charming smile that worked on most humans; including Bella to a certain extent. She usually figured out what I was trying to do and averted her gaze. She's a smart one, that fiancée of mine. She went upstairs and a minute later, Mike was following her down the stairs.

"Hey Mike."

"Hey Cul, Edward." He corrected himself.

"Can we talk outside for a minute or two?" I motioned with my hand toward the door; indicating that this needed to be a private conversation. He nodded and opened the door for me. I walked to the edge of the lawn, knowing that he would follow.

"Listen Mike, I'm glad that you and my cousin Tanya are hitting it off so nicely."

"Thank you."

"However, there is a reason that my family is so secretive. You can't tell anyone about being at our house."

"What's the reason? Does Bella know?"

"Yes, she knows. We can't tell you until we know that we can trust you. I'm sorry if that hurts your feelings, but the secret is just that important. If something is bothering you, you can talk to either me or Bella and we would be happy to help you as much as we can. When you do learn the secret, then we will be there to help you. You have to trust me when I say you do not want to rush into anything with her."

"What are you talking about? What is going on?"

"Look, I know I'm being cryptic, but right now, it's for the best. My family doesn't talk or make friends with people out of necessity not because we don't want to. You can trust me Mike."

"Alright, why did that guy Aro keep staring at me? I felt like a piece of meat; the same way you used to look at Bella?"

"He's curious about you. He's…protective over my family." I guess that's one way to put it.

"He's come to accept Bella, but it was tough for her to win him over." I added for kicks.

"That's hard to imagine, she doesn't have a mean bone in her body."

"I know. It's one of the things I like best about her. She accepts me for who I am." Ah, just wait until you know the whole truth Mike. I smiled to myself on the inside.

"When Bella beat you, I'm pretty sure I saw Emmet on one side of the room and in the next instant, he was on the other. How did that happen?" Crap, how do I explain that one?"

"He's been working on the magic of illusions. Pretty cool, huh?"

"Yeah, I guess. I feel like you're not telling me everything."

"I'm not, but again, I can't until you prove yourself trustworthy. If you talk and tell people not only that you've been to our house and then what you saw on top of that, you'd never be able to see Tanya again. Would you want that?"

"No."

"Ok, then you see why you can't say anything?"

"Not really, but I won't say anything." He assured me. I looked into his thoughts and they were genuine that he was telling the truth.

"Hang in there, Mike, I promise that you will find out soon enough. Tanya is special and I've known her for a long time. I've never seen her act with a guy the way she is acting with you. If you really care for her, then you have to go with the flow for now and trust us." It was true; before now, Tanya viewed men as toys for gratification and nothing more.

"Ok, we're cool. I'll see you tomorrow." I nodded and walked away after he was safely in his house. I made a mental note that he had noticed I didn't have my car with me, but Alice would be watching him. I could only hope that he heeded my warning.

Bella was still sleeping soundly after I had returned from hunting. Alice was still on the bed as I had asked. She smiled at me and assured me with her thoughts that my mission was successful. He would ask me why I didn't have a car with me, but it was nothing that I couldn't handle. After graduation is when he would find out and that suited me just fine. We would break it to him slowly; which meant that I would show him my gift first. Bella would be there to help him adjust and remind him that he had to keep the secret. Tanya was an effective threat because he was already in love with her and wouldn't want anything bad to happen to her. Alice left me alone and I cuddled against Bella's blanket covered back. I rested my hand on the little bulge that was getting more noticeable by the week. She wouldn't be able to hide it for much longer. I had to beat Alice to the punch because Alice was chomping at the bit to take Bella shopping. I know she was already looking at baby items on the internet with Esme, trying to pick out a neutral theme. I knew Bella had decided against learning what the sex was and that Alice was upset about it. Several arguments were ahead of us because both of these women were equally stubborn. I, of course, would side with Bella. No one else would really side with Alice, but they wouldn't side with Bella either. They couldn't because they didn't know what Bella had decided to do with the baby. Only me, Alice and Jasper knew. Jasper would be smart enough to stay neutral in the battle of wills. I wanted to warn Bella, but I knew that there was nothing I could do. Bella would have to fight this battle on her own.

A/N: The next chapter will go right back to Bella's POV, she has some fun with Alice. Reviews are wanted and appreciated. Have a great day! Kelly