Disclaimer: I own nothing of the Vampire Diaries which includes both the book and T.V. series. Only L.J. smith owns the character's and anything affiliated with the Vampire Diaries series. I merely am writing a fanfiction plot I came up with and any made up character's that aren't affiliated with Vampire Diaries I do own.
Summary: No more longing for the moon, no more longing for the sun. No more can she curse for the things she has done. Reaching for what she once had, she leaves destruction, suffering and bodies in her wake. She is the Ripper. Is salvation a possibility for her, who will be the one to offer it to her? Prince charming on his white horse or the dark knight who will kill for her.
Author's Note: Here we go another plot idea surfaced from the depths of my mind, I promise to reveal many things along the way. I can't promise that everything will be clear at first but through each individual or every few chapter things will gradually reveal themselves.
This is an idea I'm playing with and I hope you all enjoy reading it.
Also please thank: Torn Two Ways for being my beta for this story, because of her this chapter can really be great.
Note: This is chapter is best read with: The Future Starts Slow by The Kills.
The afternoon air was warm and sweet, tinged with the floral scent of lavender, lilac, and the earth.
Everywhere the blades of grass touched, bare flesh tickled, but sent a sense of calm.
She laid spread out on the green expanse, limbs lazily flung out as her pores soaked in every inch of sunlight that reached her skin. The rays of light sent rushes of warmth that were absorbed into her skin and sunk into her bones, relaxing her muscles.
Her body felt like it was melting into the earth and climate in the most pleasurable way if that was even possible. With closed eyes, she arched her back with a pleasant crack and shift of her bones.
Birds sang sweetly from the trees nearby, the cricket's chirped making music to communicate with each other scattered about in the grass.
She felt this connection with nature, which soothed her and made her forget almost everything.
All that was important was the now.
But from deep within her, she felt an unease stirring, a foreboding or premonition.
Even in the most peaceful of moments, there was always the storm brewing on the edge of the horizon, waiting to awake her to reality.
She had run, and she had tried to hide.
But, try as she may, neither were good enough and both proved fruitless.
Her constant struggles were wearing her down bit by bit, and she didn't know when it would all be enough.
Even with the most polished and cool facades, even if she could fool everyone else – the real person she wished to fool was herself.
How desperately she wanted this, she couldn't express entirely in words, because at least if she fooled herself, just maybe she could assuage some of her suffering and sins.
In some moments, she thought maybe, maybe she suffered because of past wrong doings. This was the price of eternity, of her actions, somehow.
Because nothing ever really came free, there were always hardships, lessons, and prices; she had learned that in her past life.
Humanity was something she could say even she had taken advantage of.
Now…humanity could be a dangerous weakness.
So, in these moments that were often a rarity, she let herself be a glutton - enjoying all that nature was providing her with at the moment.
She lost herself in the picturesque scene and feel of the nature surrounding her until she felt as if she herself had joined it in all its beauty.
Countless tears she had cried and often she ended up crying without tears but just the sting of her eyes and the emotional aches and pains that manifested into physical aches and pains in her chest.
Ones that made it hard to breathe and move. Ones that caused her to just lay still, crumpled like a sheet of paper, until she berated herself for the weakness and dragged herself to her feet.
Sometimes, there were days when she just had enough and thought of doing what she'd seen happen to many people; she had enough strength to break her own neck.
Just a quick twist and then nothing, no suffering.
It was simple, and because it was so simple she didn't do it.
Something pushed her along the rough waves and kept her on her feet even when she was alone.
It came from deep inside her.
She was the girl that had prided herself in putting herself on the line for other's safety, not letting or even just despising the very thought of someone she loved sacrificing themselves for her, risking it all and putting themselves on the line for her.
She prided herself on her strength and independence; she tried to make herself look strong in front of others.
It was that spark and fire, the burning flame that she inherited down the line from the women in her family – you could say down to the very woman she despised but couldn't help respect and be grateful for that fire and stubbornness.
It was her spunk.
She'd hold on in hopes for a new dawn, for a new day.
In hopes someday she'd be in control of the monster holding reign inside of her.
Even if she feared it was turning her into someone unrecognizable.
She'd numb herself and be strong.
She'd flick the switch and wait it out.
Even as a little voice told her the demon in her was getting more bloodthirsty and strong.
The monster rattling in its cage to be let free, even in moments of silence like this.
She ignored the killer for this moment, to enjoy herself before she left a wake of destruction and bodies behind her.
She knew, soon the force of a change was heading her way, whether she liked it or not.
This was a luxury she didn't, experience regularly after all, and because of this she wouldn't give it up until she was ready.
So, for now, Elena let herself and nature just be.
Elena drifted into sweet unconsciousness.
No more longing for the moon, no more longing for the sun.
Authors Note: Again, I want to thank Torn Two Ways for betaing for me!
I also want thank those who've read this and I hope you enjoyed it!
I only ask for you to review so that I know your opinions on this chapter so, if you don't mind...please do!