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Chapter 9
"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck," Heidi hissed, her fingers moving desperately between her legs as she brought herself closer to another orgasm. She groaned in relief in the confines of the bathroom, only to hiss in frustration when it still wasn't enough to calm her. The ache in her core came back with a vengeance, only slightly less tortuous than after her last orgasm. Was Heidi ever going to be able to calm down?
After having fled from Bella before doing something she would regret, Heidi had tracked down a human and drained him dry in hopes of gaining control of herself. When that wasn't enough, she had drained another human. When that still wasn't enough, Heidi had hid herself in one of the many private bathrooms of the castle and decided the only way to regain control of herself was to orgasm.
Only problem was, she had six releases so far, and it still wasn't enough. She needed Bella, her body demanded it. She needed to fuck the girl and be fucked in return, needed to take and be taken roughly, or she was going to lose her mind. Heidi's hand wouldn't be enough to soothe the vampire, not after all that.
Obviously, this was something she couldn't do, but her body and beast sure didn't seem to care. Every time she tried to remind herself of all the reasons she shouldn't fuck Bella, her mind would take a turn to Bella's mouth, her teeth, on Heidi's breast. The spot Bella had bitten would feel extra tingly, almost warm, and despite no mark being left behind, it was all too easy for Heidi to trace Bella's bite with her fingers. It was so much more sensitive than the rest of Heidi's body. Save for her aching core, anyway.
There had to be a way to speed up Bella's acceptance of her. If not, Heidi was going to lose her sanity, and there was no way Bella was going to want to be mated to an insane vampire. Even Heidi probably couldn't pull it off and make crazy sexy.
Heidi let out another tortured groan and squeezed her legs together as the ache only worsened the more she thought about Bella. She had always been a kinky bitch, but even Heidi had to draw the line at this kind of torture.
There was a loud knock at the door. Heidi hissed in frustration and fixed her clothes before storming to the bathroom door she had locked. She threw the door open, leveling a glare at whoever dared interrupted her.
"I know we don't pee, but this is still the girl's restroom, Felix," Heidi said flatly. To her irritation, the big guy just grinned at her.
"Ooh, it's rare to see you being a bitch. I like it." Felix hopped back at Heidi's snarl, just in case she would decide to lunge at him. "Just thought I'd let you know that Bella has been weird all morning and isn't eating her breakfast. You should probably-" Heidi was already gone, blurring down the hall to her mate. All horniness was forgotten. Instead, all she could do was worry. Why wasn't her mate eating? Was it Heidi's fault? Someone else's? Was the food not to her liking?
Heidi arrived at the rarely used kitchen, but even setting her sights on Bella didn't make her slow down. She managed to slow down just in time to stop herself from crashing into her mate. However, her sudden appearance made Bella yelp in surprise and jerk away, and had Heidi not caught her, she would have fallen out of her chair.
"Oh my god, Heidi, what the hell?" Bella asked, breathless for all the wrong reasons as she became painfully aware of Heidi's body pressed against hers. She kept her eyes averted in embarrassment. She could only hope Heidi would contribute her pounding heart to her little jump scare. "Maybe you could warn a girl next time before you decide to randomly pop up next to them?"
Heidi tightened her grip on Bella. Even in her worry, her body craved the contact and she was going to milk the moment for all it was worth. "I heard you weren't eating. I…" Would it upset Bella to hear the truth? Or would she simply not believe it?
"What? You can't try to tell me you're actually worried about me, are you?" Shit, this wasn't how things were supposed to go. Bella had been planning to apologize when she saw Heidi again, not snap at her. How had she planned to apologize again?
Heidi frowned as she stared down at Bella, who still wasn't looking at her. Fuck it, she wasn't going to second guess herself, not this time. She took Bella's chin in her hand and turned the girl's head so that the human had to look at her. Immediately, Bella blushed a bright red, and it was hard not to purr as her mate's scent became more pronounced. "Yes, Bella, I worry about you. Despite how I've acted toward you in the past, I want to make one thing clear; I do care about you deeply. More than you could know." She had meant to be serious, to convey how much she meant those words. Yet of course, Heidi just had to be Heidi, and her voice took on a husky, hungry tone despite herself. Heidi could only hope that Bella still understood how serious Heidi had at least been trying to be.
It took a moment for Bella to restart her brain. It was just...those words. How Heidi was touching her. The way Heidi's eyes darkened. It was all too overwhelming for the human, and she had absolutely no idea what to say or how to react.
Of course, just because Bella's brain restarted, didn't mean it would start working well. Bella could never hope for that much.
"I'm sorry I bit your boob! I was asleep, but it was still super inappropriate."
Heidi blinked for a moment, startled by the sudden topic change. It was hard not to smirk or tease her mate when the human tried to look away. Of course, seeing Bella react like that still wrecked her control. Her hand slid down Bella's neck, cold fingers trailing along overheated skin. Heidi delighted in the way Bella swallowed and shivered, the way her heart skipped a few beats at Heidi's touch. Lightly gripping Bella's throat, Heidi brushed her lips along Bella's jaw until she reached her ear.
"I love when you're inappropriate with me, Bella," Heidi purred. It took a lot of willpower to not nip at the girl's ear or press a kiss to her jaw. She had to constantly remind herself that sex wasn't the way to win over her mate, regardless of how Bella reacted to Heidi and her touches. It didn't help that Bella was currently discovering a new shade of red, she was so embarrassed, and it made her look delectable. It made Heidi want to eat her. Not in the vampiric way, of course, but in the "spread Bella's legs and use my mouth to make her scream" kind of way.
"...I thought your boob was ice cream." Bella's borderline petulant mumble effectively broke the mood, and Heidi released Bella with a soft laugh.
"Some day, I hope you want to put your mouth on me for other reasons than that. Now, let's focus on the topic at hand; Felix told me you weren't eating?" Heidi hopped up on the chair across from Bella and rested her chin in her palm. She had put some distance between them in hopes that it would make Heidi less handsy. Heidi found that in doing so, there was now a downside; she wasn't surrounded by her mate's scent anymore, and it was hard not to wrinkle her nose as the stench of cooked food almost overpowered her mate's smell completely. Something must have shown on her face despite her attempts not to react, because Bella ducked her head with a small smile on her face. The smile didn't last long, as soon Bella was chewing on her lower lip anxiously.
If she likes it when I touch her, then why won't she sleep with me? She says she cares, but she could have anyone, I'm nothing special. And the way she flip flops all over the place is crazy. She says sexual things that I know she knows I react to, and then doesn't push it. Doesn't even give me a chance to respond before switching topics. Does she keep me off kilter on purpose? Does she like to confuse me like this? Or does she actually care? It's all so frustrating, she's driving me crazy! Ugh, why can't I just… Images of throwing Heidi against the nearest surface and shutting her up with Bella's lips on hers, hands roaming Heidi's body as she released her frustration on the too gorgeous vampire, flooded her mind. It was hard not to shake her head in denial, even as she imagined Heidi whimpering her name, murmuring sweet words against Bella's mouth. No! Bad Bella, not like that! She's still an enemy, you're just here to let her sleep with you until she gets bored, and then you'll be sent back to the Cullens. You shouldn't want her this much no matter what she does, and especially not like that. She wants you for sex and nothing more; she doesn't actually care about you.
Cold fingers caught her chin, Heidi's thumb pressing on Bella's lower lip to free it from her teeth. When Bella glanced up at Heidi with surprise, Heidi offered her a wry smile, smoothing her thumb across Bella's bottom lip for a moment. It almost looked like she had to fight with herself to let Bella go.
"You looked like you were about to hurt yourself, you were chewing so hard," Heidi said in explanation. Her eyes were still dark, but in that darkness was clear concern Heidi didn't even try to hide. "Is it really that hard for you to tell me?"
No, it's just hard to stop thinking about you. Bella looked down at her plate to hide her expression and hopefully stop being so affected by Heidi's. She picked up her fork and started moving the eggs around on her plate. She knew it tasted good, but her stomach was too busy doing flips to let Bella eat. "Not really. I just get lost in thought sometimes."
"Then why are you not eating? Surely you're hungry. If your dreams are anything to go by, that is." The tease slipped out before Heidi could stop it, and she was pleased when Bella didn't snap at her. She only blushed a little more at the reminder.
"You didn't have to bring that up again, I'm already embarrassed enough as it is," Bella grumbled, her words lacking any heat behind it.
"Trust me Bella, I do. My tits have been compared to a lot of things over the years by many different people, but no one ever compared them to ice cream. Did you have a particular flavor in mind when you were asleep? Was my tit in a bowl or a cone?" Bella seemed to curl in on herself, and Heidi realized she might have gone too far. She caught Bella's hand with hers, pressing a kiss to the human's knuckles. "I'm sorry if I upset you with my teasing. I didn't mean to offend or humiliate you. I found what happened last night cute." It only took so long for Heidi to find the humor in the situation due to her body's initial reaction to her mate's mouth on her. Now that she was calm-as calm as she could get around Bella, anyway-she was able to laugh at what had happened.
"No, it's not that." Bella hadn't been upset at the teasing, only mildly embarrassed. It was just the idea of other people looking at Heidi's breasts that got her worked up, and Bella didn't want to think about the reason why. She might have broken up with him, and regardless of whether Edward was her mate or not, Bella loved him and he loved her. Heidi obviously didn't. No matter what she may or may not be feeling for Heidi, the facts wouldn't change.
"Then what is it? What has your beautiful mind in such a tizzy?" Heidi reached out and tentatively brushed the hair out of Bella's eyes. The girl didn't flinch or pull away, or even appear to consider it. She still wasn't sure where she stood with the human, but what happened last night had certainly changed things between them. "Does it have something to do with why you won't eat?"
Stop acting like you care about me, please! Go back to the horny bitch you were when we first met. I don't know if my heart can take this.
Bella swallowed hard. "The reason I didn't eat is just because of nerves. When I get too nervous, I get nauseous, and food doesn't really appeal to me even if I'm hungry." She saw Heidi grow even more worried, and she rushed to reassure her. "It's pretty common among humans, we get over it pretty easily once we calm down. Don't worry."
"I see. What made you so nervous this time?" Heidi could only guess at the answer. Not because she had no idea what could have caused Bella's nerves, but because there were too many for Heidi to know where to start.
"You. Apologizing to you, I mean. I wasn't sure how to go about it, what to say, how you would take it, if you were angry at me, if I would-"
Heidi leaned over the table as if she was about to kiss her, and for a moment, Bella felt like her heart had stopped. Instead, Heidi's hand covered Bella's mouth to stop Bella before she could ramble even more.
That was close. I almost kissed her. While that was one of the best ways Heidi knew to shut someone up, she didn't want to potentially spook the girl or ruin things between them. While Heidi walked a thin line and probably crossed that line more times than she could count, she was sure kissing her would be more like destroying the line altogether. Besides, she wanted Bella and Heidi's next kiss to be when Bella knew that Heidi truly cared about her. Luckily for Heidi, she remembered she had hands before she could make things worse and aborted her makeout mission before she could fuck up.
"Bella, I don't want you to be nervous around me." Wait, that wasn't completely true. Heidi should probably rephrase that. "Well, I do but I don't. I love seeing you get nervous when I touch you or come close. I love seeing those nerves, not born out or wariness or fear. I love seeing that I affect you the way you affect me."
Bella's eyes widened at the admission. Is Heidi telling me I make her nervous? Her? Miss sex on legs? The vampire who could give Rosalie a run for her money? She couldn't mean it. Why would I make her nervous? I'm just another human.
"However, I don't want to make you nervous for any other reason. I don't want you to feel like you can't come to me. I'm brash and think with my clit more than anything else, and I know I'll probably drive you crazy more days than not. But no matter what happens, no matter what kind of fight we have or how stupid we act, I never want you to be afraid to approach me. I will always be here for you, Bella, and I will always be here to listen regardless of how ridiculous you find your own words. I promise that I will never leave your side as long as you want me there."
Bella's jaw almost dropped as she stared dumbly into Heidi's earnest eyes. Holy shit, that almost sounds like a-
At that moment, Didyme walked into the room. It only took a glance at Heidi and Bella's bond to make the woman freeze and gasp in shock, effectively destroying the moment. However, Didyme was too focused on the way their bond looked to care.
"Oh my."