I take a drink as I open the folder labeled 'Fucking Sasha'. I giggle at the name. Whenever it opens there are 5 videos that are all labeled. 'Being Drugged' 'Sasha breaks in' 'Christian supposedly drunk' 'Rape'

The last video is labeled 'I love you' The thumbnail is a picture of Christian. He must have personally made that video for me.

I smile and take another drink of my wine. I decide to start at the beginning. I open the being drugged video first. It shows Christian and Sasha sitting in a booth together, but she starts out across the table from him. Throughout the video, I can tell that she is obviously flirting and Christian looks obviously annoyed.

He stands and walks away from the table. She pulls something small out of her purse and pours something in Christian drink and stirs it while anxiously looking around before she slides it back over to where he had it. She continues to scoot around the booth, getting closer and closer to Christian as he drinks his alcohol. I see the uncomfortable look on his face, the closer she gets. He seems to be getting a little more sluggish as she moves closer to him.

Finally, she is sitting right next to him and won't stop touching him. I am already infuriated at this point in the video, but I have to see it through. She finally grabs his face and turns his head to face her. She kisses him, obviously against his will but his body turns and he puts his hands on her arms and appears to reluctantly return the kiss. It lasts for less than a minute before he pushes her away and stands up and you an tell that he's yelling at her. Okay, so he did not lie about that. This is reassuring.

I close the video once it ends and refill my wine glass and think over what I just watched. Maybe this was all just a plot that this crazy bitch set up to try to get pregnant by him again? I don't know, but she is CLEARLY out of her damn mind.

I open the next vide as I continue drinking my wine. At this rate I will be drunk by the time I finish. This is obviously CCTV footage at the penthouse. The camera is pointing directly at the emergency exit. After a few minutes the door opens slowly and low and behold, Sasha walks in. What in the actual fuck?

After she walks down the hall, it shows her going into a bedroom down the hall from ours.

I close the video after it finishes and take another drink. I open the next video. It shows the elevator open at the penthouse and Christian comes stumbling in. The timestamp shows that it's only 20 minutes after leaving the restaurant so he didn't have time to go out and get drunk so this must be from whatever she put in his drink. Taylor helps him up the stairs and walks him into the bedroom and lays him down. From the camera in the hall pointing at the room, you can see him sprawled out on his back, obviously unconscious. Okay. So, he was unconscious, the bitch broke in and she drugged him at the restaurant. The puzzle pieces are starting to fall into place.

The next video shows her sneaking out of the bedroom that she was hiding it and tip toeing down the hall. The video in the hall in front of our bedroom shows her looking around nervously before sneaking into his room. She makes the mistake of leaving the door open. She strips out of her clothes first, before she starts to strip the clothes off of his obviously limp body. The only part of him that isn't limp is his cock. I see where this is going. After struggling and finally succeeding at getting him out of his clothes, I see her setting up what looks like a camera before climbing onto the bed on top of him. I see her slide down onto his cock and she starts to ride him. I can see Christian's head start to move and it looks like he is saying something.

She says something back and continues to ride him. I wonder if she told him that she was me. He puts his hands on her legs weakly as she continues to ride him. Finally, I see his body jerk and she throws her head back and her body starts to tremble. His hands drop back onto the bed. She leans back down and it looks like she is saying something before she gets up and climbs off of him. She picks up the camera and she smiles and puts it back down for a moment. She puts her clothes back on and I see her pick up her panties and stick them under the sheets on the other side of his body before she takes off out of the room and back down the emergency exit. That bitch really did rape my husband. Ooh! I'm super pissed now. Once the video stops, I close it out and refill my glass and I get up and pace, quickly drinking on my wine. I cannot believe her. I'm almost certain that her intention was to get pregnant and keep me out of his life permanently now.

Keeping me out of his life almost worked. I hope the pregnant part didn't, but I guess we will have to wait and see. That woman doesn't want a child. The whole time that she was pregnant with Phoebe, she called her an it and a thing. After all of this, she certainly doesn't deserve to be able to have more children. I wonder how Christian reacted to all of this.

I finally sit back down and refill the glass of wine that I already emptied. I click open the last video and it's Christian, as suspected.

"If you're watching this, Ana, I hope that you had the chance to see the other videos and that you understand what truly happened that day. I know that the videos are hard to stomach. I'm sorry about that, but I needed you to see the truth and all of that needed to be included for you to see the full picture.

I love you, Ana. It has ALWAYS been YOU! There is no one else for me. There never will be.

I understand that your Dad moved there with you. I'm glad that you're not out there alone. I just wish that I was with you. I hope that you believe what I told you after seeing these videos. I swore I wasn't lying and Taylor and I worked tirelessly for days to acquire all of this footage. I did this for YOU. I didn't want to admit I was raped because I'm a man and no man wants to admit to being sexually assaulted. I saw my therapist and explained everything to him and he helped me to admit to myself what happened and I immediately left his office and went straight to the police with a copy of these videos and reported the assault.

After watching the videos, they arrested her and she was given numerous charges and they said that she will NOT be out anytime soon. Unfortunately, they contacted me shortly after she was arrested and notified me that she is pregnant. The conception date and due date line up with the date of the assault so most likely, it is mine. I'm so sorry, Ana. They told me that she will probably still be locked up whenever the baby is born so they will give me custody whether she wants this baby or not. Considering her actions last time that she was pregnant, I highly doubt that she actually wants a child. I'm pretty sure that she was just trying to trap me again, hoping that I wouldn't find out about her deceit and the attack.

I know that you will probably still need some more time after this to decide what you want to do about us, but I want you to know that I will give you all of the time that you need to decide. I hope and pray that you come back to me, but ultimately, that is up to you.

Again, I love you with EVERY single piece of my heart. I am YOURS now and forever. Please keep me posted on how you and the kids are and contact me whenever you are ready. I hope to talk to you soon."

By the end of this video, I am sobbing. I honestly don't know how to feel right now. I feel terrible that I didn't believe him. I feel terrible that this happened to him and terrible that I didn't give him the chance to explain. I'm glad that he took the time to gather all of this proof for me, but I'm upset that he didn't tell me before I found out from Kate about the kiss. He obviously didn't know about the rape so he couldn't have told me about that.

I'm glad that the truth came out finally and I'm glad that insane bitch is behind bars. I have so many conflicting thoughts. I still need more time to think about it, but I think I want my husband to stay with me tonight and love me before he has to head back to Seattle. I NEED the release. Maybe it will make this stupid attraction to Gideon go away.

I close my laptop and lay it on the nightstand and I take my wine and walk out onto the balcony off of my bedroom to sit on the lounger out there and think about all of this.

I must've fallen asleep, because I wake up startled whenever I see the tops of buildings in front of me and realize that I'm outside. I grab the now empty wine bottle and walk back into my bedroom. I put it down on my nightstand as well and go into my bathroom and freshen up before going back out into the living room where my family most likely is.

Whenever I get back to the living room with my empty wine bottle and glass, I find my husband sitting on the couch with Liam and Phoebe watching that darn dragon movie that he loves so much and I inwardly giggle as to not get their attention. I find my Dad in the dining room eating a sandwich. He sees me and I smile at him. He smiles back, obviously noticing that I'm much happier than I was when I went into that bedroom. I sneak past the movie watchers into the kitchen and throw away the bottle and wash the glass.

I go back out into the living room and decide to sit on the other side of Phoebe and watch the movie with them. I glance at Christian and he is already staring at me. I smile genuinely and wink at him. His smile widens at he winks back and I go back to watching the movie and he does as well. Whenever the movie is over, it is late whenever I realize that both of the kids fell asleep watching the movie. I go to pick up Phoebe, but Christian stops me. "I've got it. You go and get us some more wine so that we can talk after they're both tucked into bed." I nod and smile and move out of the way and watch as he puts both of the kids to bed. I've missed having him around.

I finally go and grab more wine and wine glasses before he returns from Liam's bedroom. My Dad announces that he's going to bed as well so I go and give him a hug and kiss his cheek before he leaves the room. I make my way back to the couch and have a seat by Christian, who is pouring us both a glass of wine. He hands me mind and takes his own into his hand. I sip on the wine this time because I already got myself plastered and I'm just now starting to recover. I set my wine glass down and scoot closer to Christian. I look up at him and he is already staring at me. I smile sadly and I gently put my hand on the side of his handsome stubbly face and look into his beautiful eyes. "I'm so sorry that happened to you." I tell him and he looks away.

"It will be okay, baby. I didn't know about it so the only part that bothered me was just seeing that it really happened. I literally hated myself the moment I saw that I had an erection in that bed whenever she came in. I feel like I really did cheat on you and for that I'm truly sorry."

I lean up and kiss him sweetly on his luscious lips. "I love you, Christian. I still need time to work through all of this new information, but I do believe you now. I hope that you understand my need for time."

He nods. "I do. I understand. I thought about it and I thought about how I'd feel had that been a man in the picture with you and your reaction is COMPLETELY reasonable. I would've probably reacted a lot worse." He puts his hand on the side of my face this time. "I will wait a lifetime for you, Ana. I will never give up and I will never even consider trying to be with anyone else or taking on a sub. I want you to be my only one of both of those things and to me you are now and always will be just that.

"Christian." I start and I look down at my lap and back up at him. "I still need time, as I said, but I want you to stay with me tonight and love me if you can."

His grin widens again and he kisses me sensually for a little bit and he pulls back. "I would absolutely love to do that, Ana. I'm able to and I want to. I need you."

"I need you, too." I take his wine glass out of his hand and I set it down next to mine and I climb onto his lap and sit astride him and my lips crash into his. "I want you to take me to bed now, Mr. Grey."

He quickly picks me up as he stands and I wrap my legs around his waist. "As you wish, Mrs. Grey." he says with a smirk and his lips crash into mine as he carries me into the bedroom in his strong arms. I don't know how he knew that this was my bedroom, but in this moment, I could give a fuck less.

Once we're inside the room, he closes and locks the door. he sets me down next to the bed and he kisses me sensually intermittently as he sensually strips me out of my clothes. After he is done, I do the same for him, as usual and he picks me up and lays me down in the center of my bed and towers over me. "I'm going to love you well tonight if that's okay with you, wife."

I smile back. "Your wife would very much like that, Mr. Grey. Love me, please."

He grins and his lips crash into mine and he kisses me sensually as he slowly slides into my core. As soon as he fills me completely, my body immediately tenses and a remarkable orgasm crashes through me. "Good girl, Mrs. Grey." He whispers against my lips as he continues to sensually stroke me, repeatedly hitting that sweet spot. "Look into my eyes, Ana. I want to watch you come." I smile and look into his eyes, but he keeps the pace with his thrusts. "I love you, Ana." and that is my undoing and my insides clench around him and I come hard around his talented cock.

"Fuck! I love you too, Christian." He smiles and continues to stroke me for a while as he looks into my eyes. He makes me come 4 more times while he continues to tell me how he loves everything about me and that if it was possible, he would impregnate me and keep me that way for as long as he possibly could. I love that. I hate that I can't have his babies, but I love that he wishes I could.

After another orgasm courses through my body, he says, "Come with me, Ana." in his lusty voice and my body immediately responds to his command again and we come undone gloriously while maintaining eye contact and it, once again, feels as if we are fully connected in this moment. Heart, body and soul. I love this man with everything in me. Our family is my life.

Once we are spent, he collapses on me and kisses me sweetly before burying his face in the crook of my neck and kissing it, causing yet another contraction within my core. He smiles against my skin. "I still love what that does to you."

I giggle. After a little bit, he kisses me sweetly and goes to pull out but I think quick and wrap my legs around his waist, keeping him inside me and he chuckles.

"I want you to fuck me now, Mr. Grey." I tell him.

He grins and I immediately feel his cock harden again within me. "Okay, but you have to keep quiet. I don't want your dad or the kids to hear you."

I giggle again. "I've got it. If I start to get loud, cover my face with the pillow or give me your hand to bite."

"I won't put a pillow on your face because it will feel like I'm suffocating you, but I will allow you to bite my hand." He says as he is already stroking me, slowly getting harder and faster. He fucks me properly and, as promised, he puts his hand on my mouth for me to bite whenever he sees that I'm about to get loud.

The experience was magnificent, despite having to muffle my screams. I love when I have the freedom to be as loud as I want to, but I will take him any place at any time as long as no one else knows what is happening. This will forever be my man.

As we're laying in a post-coital embrace, I decide to talk. "I want to come home to you, Christian. BUT, I have just acquired a new property here to expand GP and I have to at least get that off of the ground and running so I need to stay here. Can you get a stable and a pony for Liam set up before we come back?" He looks at me questionably. I giggle again. "I promised Liam a pony IF he didn't tell anyone his real last name or our real names while we were in Ohio. He fulfilled his end of the deal, so, I owe him a pony."

He chuckles. "I can make that happen." I look up at him and put my hand on the side of his face again.

"I wish you could stay here with me, but I am well aware that your business needs you and I understand that."

"I will come and visit as often as possible. I even have my own apartment up on the 19th floor. I've had it for a while for whenever I'm in town. Is Liam enrolled in school here yet?"

I nod. "I got him enrolled last week. He starts this coming Monday."

"Okay. I was going to say that if he isn't, I could take him home so that he can go back to school there."

"If I hadn't already enrolled him, I'd agree to that. But, I have so I want to stay here until the school year ends in a couple of months. Would you object to me buying us a home here so that they have a yard to play in here instead of being all cooped up in this apartment all of the time?"

He smiles again. "I have absolutely no objection to that at all. In fact, I encourage it. It's a great idea. I look forward to seeing what you get and what you do with it. Not to sour the mood, but we need to discuss the new baby."

I half smile. "I need to think on that, but I hope that we can be this baby's parents just like we're Phoebe's and Liam's parents."

He smiles back. "I hope so, too, baby." He kisses me sweetly as he pulls out and lays down beside me. "Let's go and have a little more wine and something for dinner, since I noticed that you did NOT eat this evening."

I completely forgot to eat. "I'm sorry. Let's go do that. I'm actually hungry, but my mind was elsewhere."

He smiles and gets up and helps me up. He puts just his pants back on and I throw on my robe. I didn't get anything for him here.

We go to the kitchen and he sits at the breakfast bar and he talks to me as I cook us something up to eat. After we eat, he takes me back to bed and makes love to me again before we drift off to sleep, safe and sated, in each other's arms.