Chapter Three

Crushed Reality

Ichigo woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't get back to sleep. He tossed and turned for a little while, then got out of bed, grabbing a yukata from the dresser and slipping it on. He was lonely, he guessed, at least that was the closest thing he could come to knowing what he was feeling. So, considering he was tired, too, he wandered to Starrk's castle. He knew Coyote would be asleep, but that was fine. He entered and went over to the piled pillows and found him laying on his back, snoring lightly. He got down and crawled into the pile with him, snuggling down beside him and grabbing the light blanket he slept with. He moved and wrapped an arm around him and Ichigo sighed, starting to drift to sleep immediately.

He slept soundly with him for a while. It was comfortable and comforting for him to lay there especially since his mind was still racing with thoughts about the human woman. He wanted to go back to talk to her again, and he intended to when he got up, no matter what the others thought. He had to know more, and she was the only one who could tell him anything about this confusion he was having. He woke up and found Coyote had wrapped around him pretty well during the night. He sighed and hugged him against him. Coyote moved and tightened his grip, surprising Ichigo because he thought he was asleep still.

"You're awake?" Ichigo asked.

"Hmmm, yeah." Coyote yawned a little. "Lilynette is with Harribel and her girls."

Ichigo smirked, sliding out of his arms and going for the waist of his pants. "Oh?"

"Yeah. No one else is here," he said, putting his arms behind his head and looking down at Ichigo.

Ichigo nodded, knowing how rare this moment was. Usually, when he was at Coyote's place, Lilynette was up kicking him out as soon as she woke up, but not today. Today, he could take his time and do whatever he wanted. So, he pulled him free of his hakama and went down to lick gently at the head of his rapidly hardening arousal. Ichigo knew he couldn't do much with his mouth because while Coyote wasn't as long as Grimmjow or Ulquiorra, he was bigger around and to take him in his entirety was hard to do. He still went down on him as much as he could, feeling him spurt pre-cum into his mouth immediately.

After a few moments of sucking and licking, Coyote reached down and patted his head. Ichigo came up off him, already knowing what he wanted. He moved up between his legs and then climbed up on him, straddling him, feeling his cock against him under the yukata. He huffed a breath and reached under himself, sliding fingers into himself to prepare for Coyote. After a little bit, he felt like he could take him, especially as much pre-cum as he was leaking. He reached down and stroked him a few times, coating him as well as he could, before he grabbed him and positioned him at his entrance.

There was always a moment of hesitation because it would never not be uncomfortable at first. He slipped his cock in, wincing a little at the stretch as he slid down slowly on him. It wasn't quick enough for Coyote, though, because he bucked his hips and shoved himself deeper.

"Ah!" Ichigo gasped, holding himself above him until he could slip down all the way. Coyote was smirking at him.

"There's a good boy," Coyote said as Ichigo got settled down on him, feeling him inside him hard and full.

"You're so big around," Ichigo sighed as he began to use his legs to bounce a little on him.

"Hmm, yeah, but you like it," he said sliding his hands up the inside of Ichigo's thighs.

"I didn't say I didn't like it," Ichigo commented, pushing himself up and dropping down again.

Coyote grabbed Ichigo's cock and stroked him a few times, making Ichigo drip himself. He hadn't really been with Coyote in a while, so it was really kind of nice, especially since Coyote liked him to get on top and ride him, which the others weren't interested in very often. They were more interested in a fast, hard fucking. Coyote was always slower and lazier when it came to it.

"Did you know I'd come by?" Ichigo asked, starting to moan a little more as he found a good angle against his prostate.

"No, but I thought you might." Coyote slid his hands up and down his thighs as he rode him, sliding up and stroking him now and then.

Since Ichigo was in control, it took longer for him to bring Coyote closer. He didn't seem to mind, grunting now and then and continuing to touch him, bringing his head down to kiss him a few times. Coyote liked kissing more than the others, so they let their tongues tangle with each other slowly as Ichigo stilled, holding him inside as he kissed him. Coyote reached up and ran a hand down his neck.

"Ulquiorra again, or Grimmjow?" he asked, smiling.

"Both, I think," he said. "Though Nnoitra was nuzzling me too. You know how he gets."

"Should I leave a mark or two?" he said, pulling his face back down again for another kiss, then moving to bite at the chord of his neck.

"You know you can," Ichigo said, bucking his hips to get some friction.

Ichigo sat back some and began to speed up because he could feel the sensations building and knew he wouldn't last much longer. He knew Coyote would last until he came; he usually did. The Primera was perhaps the gentlest of the Espada, which considering he was the most powerful, was significant. He moaned out suddenly.

"I'm gonna come," Ichigo told him.

"Go ahead," Coyote said, sliding both hands up on his ass and gripping him tightly. "I'll follow."

Ichigo nodded, feeling Coyote's nails dig into him as he bounced faster and kept going for a few moments until he felt the orgasm crashing into him. Coyote tightened his grip and slammed his hips upward a few times before he released. Ichigo fell forward on him, grabbing him around the neck and hugging him suddenly. He felt Coyote's hands hesitate, then he embraced him too, resting against him for a moment until Ichigo climbed down beside him.

Coyote reached over and brushed his braids and loose hair out of his face. "Hmm, thank you for coming."

"Thank you for making me," Ichigo said with a wink as he rolled off of the pillows to the floor. "I have to go bathe. I'll see you later!" he said, leaving Coyote and heading out of his castle.

He headed back to his room and took a long bath. It felt nice and he actually fell asleep in the water. He supposed Coyote had tired him somewhat. He woke with a start and found the water turning cold. He got out and got dressed, leaving his sword in his room.

He didn't care what the others said. He was going to talk to the human woman again.

He avoided other Arrancar as he went to the room she was held in. He waited until the Arrancar on patrol passed and then he went to the door and knocked.

"Yes?" she said.

Ichigo opened the door and went in, moving to stand out of view of the window in the door.

"You again?" she said, smiling a little.

"Yeah, I wanted to talk to you again. What do you mean by the idea I'm human?" he said, crossing his arms over his chest.

"Aizen stole you. You're supposed to be in the World of the Living. He took your soul and used the hogyuku on you. At least, that's what we think. He did something to make you more like an Arrancar. But he couldn't complete the transformation, and that's why you don't have a hollow hole or a mask." She tilted her head to the side and stepped forward. She reached out and touched his neck. "Do you love him?"

Ichigo blinked. "You mean Ulquiorra?" he asked. "I love him as much as the others, I guess. I mean, he's just a partner."

"The others?" she said, frowning. "What do you mean, the others?"

"You don't think Ulquiorra's the only one I have sex with, did you?" he said, waving her hand away.

"I see. But do you love them?" she asked. "And do they love you?"

"I mean, I love having sex with them. But I don't know what you mean by loving them. They're just my partners," he said, shrugging.

"Love. You know, feeling like you want good things for them, and want to see yourself with them in the future, not just… sex."

Ichigo wasn't sure what to make of that question and statement. "Well, I mean, I don't want anything bad to happen to them."

"But it should be more than that," she said. "What does your heart tell you?"

"I'm an Arrancar, I don't have one!" Ichigo insisted.

"That's not true. You know you're not one of them, not really. You're a human still. And you can go home and live a normal life." She looked him over. "I know your family would accept you."

"I'm not leaving Las Noches and the Espada. They're everything to me," Ichigo frowned, shaking his head, arms still crossed.

"You have to know how much you're loved by your family," she said. "You have to know—" her words were cut off by the door being opened.

Ichigo turned and his eyes widened a bit. "Aizen-sama?"

"Ichigo-kun. You weren't told to come here. Come with me. We have some discussions to have," he said, motioning for Ichigo to follow him.

Ichigo nodded, walking out the door after him without another word. The woman came to the door and watched as they left. Aizen led him back to his rooms without speaking, and Ichigo had to wonder if he was angry at him for talking to the woman. He closed the door and turned and stared at him.

"When the time comes, I plan to use the hogyuku on you again," he said.

Ichigo blinked. "What will it do?" he asked, frowning at him.

"It will complete your failed transformation to an Arrancar," he said and Ichigo spoke before he thought.

"I'm fine as I am."

Immediately, he saw the flash in Aizen's eyes. He knew he'd made a mistake; he just didn't know how much of one yet. He swallowed and started to say something else but the look on Aizen's face stopped him.

"You're fine as you are?" he said, eyes narrowing. "As you are now, you are nothing but the Espada's whore. You are barely worth the time I put into your creation with the hogyuku, and you have yet to begin to prove yourself to me. You spend your days as half the Espada's fuck toy, and you believe you're fine as you are."

Ichigo looked at him, unsure what to say. "I don't want to change anymore. I want to be who I am now."

Aizen was eerily quiet for a moment. "You are mine to do as I want. I brought you here. I will be the one to determine who you are to be."

"You stole me!" Ichigo said. "The woman, she said she saw my human body, so you stole me from my life before this. So, now you say you own me, but you did nothing but steal a human's soul, didn't you?" Ichigo had no idea where it was coming from, but he couldn't stop it. "I want to be myself, not what you determine who I am to be. I determine that! I'm not just something for your hogyuku to do whatever you want with!"

Ichigo didn't know what he was doing, but he was going through a lot of emotions, some for the first time in a long time, and he wasn't going to just let Aizen tell him what he was going to do with him. He was done with that.

Aizen looked at him a second, then held up two fingers and said, "Sai."

Ichigo gasped as his hands were twisted and bound behind his back. "What?" he managed.

Aizen stepped forward and grabbed him by the top of the head and twisted his head down. "You do not tell me what happens to you, whore. You like being one so well, I'll treat you like one."

Ichigo's eyes widened as he realized what was happening. "No, don't!"

"Still trying to tell me what to do, are you? You are nothing to me now but a worthless whore and that's how you'll be treated from now on," he said. "I was kind and made you my protégé. That is no more," he said, twisting him over to the bed and throwing him to his stomach.

He tried to get his arms free, but he couldn't break whatever binding was on him. Aizen shoved his face into the bed and ripped his obi off from behind, causing his hakama to fall off. He struggled against him, but he couldn't get any purchase with his feet.

"Stop this, Aizen-sama!" he managed as he felt tears building in his eyes. He had to stop the tears though; he couldn't cry.

"No, I'm just giving you the treatment you desire. I've seen the Espada with you. You like it rough, don't you?" he said, and kicked his legs out from under him completely standing between them. "I'm not doing anything different, am I? Or is this different? You'll let them fuck you freely, but I do not get that privilege?"

Ichigo bit down on his lip as Aizen thrust forward, painfully breeching him. He yelped at it because even rough, the Espada were never this way. This was in no way pleasant for him. He thrust back and forth harshly, aiming to cause the most pain it seemed like. He knew Aizen was angry, but this was more than he expected.

"Just stop!" he begged, still trying to pull his arms off his back.

"No," he said simply, "I'll make you bleed for me since you believe yourself better than your station. One way or another, I will take my payment in blood."

He continued until he stiffened, and Ichigo could feel him throbbing inside him. He pulled out and then grabbed him by the hair again, twisting him up and back.

"Now, you understand who owns your soul."

He threw him forward and turned, pulling his hakama up and tying his obi before leaving the room. Ichigo sat on the floor, half naked still and the kido still binding his arms. He didn't know what just happened and he didn't know how to handle it.

-oooooo-OOOOOO-oooooo-

Grimmjow hadn't seen Ichigo yet, and that had him a bit worried that he'd gotten overly interested in the damn human woman. It would cause no end to trouble if he was, so he headed to his rooms to see if he was there. As he came near, Aizen was walking away from them. He locked eyes with Grimmjow.

"You should keep a tighter leash on your pet. He's wandering places he shouldn't," he said, then walked on past him.

Grimmjow watched him leave and wondered what that meant, then he sped up to see what was happening. Ichigo's door was partially open, and he pushed it the rest of the way. He blinked because Ichigo was sitting against the bed, hands behind his back, apparently bound somehow, sitting in a puddle of bloody cum.

Grimmjow wasn't the nicest of the Espada by any means, and when he saw that he knew what had happened, and he saw red.

"How dare he," he growled, stepping forward and grabbing Ichigo by the arm. "How could you let him?" he said, staring at him.

Ichigo just stared at him, eyes wide and not responding. Grimmjow growled again and bent Ichigo over the bed, holding him by the hands where they were bound on his back and shoved two fingers inside him, pulling them back somewhat bloody and with Aizen's seed on them. He would rid him of that bastard's essence.

In anger, he pulled himself out of his pants and slammed forward into Ichigo, getting only the slightest whimper out of him. "I'll fuck his cum out of you, fucking bastard. He thinks he owns everything in this place!" he said, roughly thrusting into him. "You belong to us, not him, and he needs to learn that!"

It didn't take long before he felt the sensation of coming close come over him, and he realized Ichigo's hands were unbound now, but he was just laying there with them on his back as he fucked him hard and rough. It flashed in Grimmjow's mind that this was wrong, but the orgasm slammed into him and he came into him, in his mind, flushing out Aizen's essence.

He pulled back, realizing that what he'd done might not have been good because he heard sniffling now and he had a sudden moment of remorse. He'd been so angry that Aizen had dared touch him, he wasn't thinking clearly. He sat down beside him and pulled his face up and saw the tears streaking Ichigo's face.

Ichigo didn't cry.

He'd done this. "Ichigo? I'm sorry, I am. I got angry," he said.

Ichigo didn't move, and that worried him. Tears just kept streaming down his face, and he kept staring at him with wide eyes like he wasn't really seeing him.

"Ichigo?" he said, cupping his face. "Come on, say something."

Grimmjow got up and got a washrag out of the bath and came back and cleaned up the mess he was in, noting the bright red blood still leaking. He hadn't helped that, he knew. He reached down and pulled him up onto his lap. It was easy to do because he was still limply moving wherever he was positioned. Grimmjow pulled his head toward his chest and began petting his head and rocking him.

"I'm sorry," he whispered. "I'm really sorry," he said. "We'll do something about him. We will. He can't do this to you. He can't."

-oooooo-OOOOOO-oooooo-

Karin was glad when word came that they could go to Hueco Mundo. Uryū and Chad were ready, and they headed out as soon as the way was opened to them. She was anticipating what they would encounter, and as they were about to leave, they heard someone call out to them.

"Hey!"

Karin turned to see Rukia and Renji coming toward her. "We told the Sou-Taichou you were going, and he decided he'd let us go on our own if we wanted to. They've got to prepare for the possible attack here, so they're not sparing anyone else," Rukia said. "We'll come."

"Good, let's get to Las Noches!" Karin said and led the group through the portal.

On the other side, there were trials getting there, and friends along the way such as the child Arrancar Nel and her two friends and the great worm hollow Bawabawa. They made their way to the gates of Las Noches together, knowing that they had to rescue Orihime. What they didn't expect was to be stopped outside the gates by an Arrancar who did not attack them. He was standing there, with a white outfit on, eyes on them immediately. He had brown hair and clear blue eyes.

"Are you here to stop us?" Karin said, raising her blade at him.

He lifted his hand and pulled the glove off to reveal the number one on the back of it. Karin's eyes went wide. He was the first Espada.

"I am here to aid you."