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"Teddy bear, I'm sleepy," Rosalie crooned in that honeyed tone that made Edward's ears pop and made him want to spray them both with kerosene." (1)
They had finished wrapping all the presents and it was past four in the morning, and the girls had, of course, come home tired from work.
"Hum, Bella, would you mind if my honey bear and I went to bed?"
His wife pursed her lips, God only knew whether she was holding back a smile or feeling acid on her tongue like he was.
"No, not at all."
After saying goodbye, the couple left them alone and the mood immediately changed. Bella for some reason smiled nervously at him, making everything somehow more awkward.
"It's time for me to go too," he commented, reaching unnecessarily into his pocket for the keys his brother had given him. "In a couple of hours the kids will be running downstairs and I don't want to miss that. I bought them some bikes; they're going to love them."
"Oh, Edward," she sighed, "will you be here to help them with that?"
"Absolutely. I'll be here every day until they master them, we had plenty of practice in Forks." The young woman sighed.
"I bought them some board games they wanted, but now I'm sure I'll be overshadowed by your present." Edward laughed.
"They're going to love that too." Bella smiled and rolled her eyes.
"If you say so," she sighed, looking at Edward, who found himself drawn to her easy smiles." Merry Christmas, Edward," she whispered, taking him by surprise as she took a step towards him and suddenly her small arms wrapped around him, making him blink in confusion before returning an otherwise robotic hug.
"Merry Christmas, sweetheart."
Damn the hell. He didn't trust himself when she touched him, how in the world could she ever have thought he didn't desire her? He saved himself a snort. Whoever said women were the weaker sex was an idiot, because Isabella exercised more power over him than anyone ever had.
"I must leave now." She sighed, nibbling on her lower lip.
"Since it's a couple of hours before the kids get up, and it's getting so cold... I was wondering if you'd like to... stay," she murmured, her cheeks flaring, as if they were a couple of high school kids.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, um... of course only if you want me to."
"Of course, then I'll sleep on the sofa."
"No." He shook his head. "If the kids wake up first, I don't want them to find you sleeping on the couch, it'll be... weird." He sighed. "I can lay down in the guest room... where I'm gonna stay, you can sleep there."
Right, because sleeping together sounded kind of alien now. Edward spared his thoughts and nodded, happier anyway than he had been in many a night. As he entered the room, Bella began to prepare a spread on the floor for him. She was thin, and as sleek as he had known her all those years ago, even more beautiful, and though she was now giving him all the appearance of a strong girl, he knew first-hand how soft and pliable she became under his caresses. He had experienced the way her slender hips accepted his powerful thrusts and the way her long legs wrapped around him to make the penetration as deep as possible.
And her scent... Edward took a deep breath. She gave off a scent that drove him completely insane. Lightning flashed outside, followed by a foundation-shaking clap of thunder, bringing him back down to Earth where she had already finished and was looking at him in a strange way that made him throat-clear, embarrassed.
"Ah... do you want me to wait in the hallway while you get dressed for bed?"
"I'm going to take a shower, so I'll get dressed in the bathroom." Edward scratched the back of his neck.
"Well, I'll take the opportunity to change then."
Isabella nodded on the way to the bathroom and the copper sighed. This felt like a big step, yes, but somehow, as she threw a pillow onto the makeshift bed, it all felt absolutely wrong.
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For the first time in weeks, Bella again tensed as she showered. She wasn't sure what she was doing yet, but when she came out and saw that bed on the floor with Edward, she hadn't expected her heart to clench like that. The storm outside was in full swing, making the house cold despite the heating, maybe it would be a snowy Christmas, nothing new. She turned off the light and quickly climbed into the freezing sheets. Would the floor where her husband was lying cold?
"Are you comfortable there?" She asked impatiently after a couple of minutes of silence.
"I'm fine, thank you for letting me stay."
When she heard him move, Bella rolled onto her side to look at him, her cheek pressed into the pillow. He was huge, bulging muscles stood out against his dark t-shirt and he really, really didn't fit in the small space, but he didn't complain, Edward rested his head on his hand, staring into her eyes.
"Can't you sleep? Would you like me to go?" She sighed, her heart pumping hard inside her chest. God, was she really going to do it?
"I'd rather you came to sleep here with me, how weak does that make me?" Yup, it was he blinked a couple of times before speaking.
"I told you earlier that I wasn't making a plan to get back together. And I really want to hold it." He reached out to take her hand, his palm, as always, huge between hers. "But you know I'd be lying to you if I said I wasn't dying to sleep with you too, if I have to get down on my knees to get you to agree I'd be happy to, and how pathetic does that make me?"
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Bella sighed, her large eyes, normally full of emotion, were now unfathomable. She let go of his hand as well. Shit, if only she wasn't messing up their situation any more... She pushed the blankets aside, her body shifting in the small space.
"Get in now before I regret it, and I'm warning you, don't try to overstep yourself."
He didn't have to be told twice. Edward quickly climbed in beside her, pulling her into his arms as they shivered, waiting for her body heat to warm the space between his skin and the blankets. It felt so incredibly good to have her like that again, she was small but full of curves and could always support his weight, it was amazing. Now he just had to find a way to stay without giving in to his desire for her. Somehow, he had to pretend that being with her was easy, no big deal, when the truth was that being close, but not inside her, might be the hardest thing he'd ever done. Shit, maybe he should never have agreed to sleep with her.
"I missed this," he confessed, kissing her throat, pulling her closer so he could bury his face in her neck.
Bella rested her small hand on his back, it wasn't exactly a hug, but it was enough. Edward took another breath, trying to breathe it in, so that the moment would linger in his memory.
"I remind you that it was because you didn't want to be with me" He growled at that.
"I didn't want to be with anyone. Not after what happened with... with everything.· Edward grabbed her by the hips, pulled her close to him and looked into her eyes. "I was a complete fool, I know."
"I'm not going to argue with you." And before she could say another word, he kissed her. Hard. And he poured as much emotion into the kiss as he could. Because if there was one thing Bella had made clear to him, it was that with her nothing was safe, this could very well be the last kiss they would ever share.
"How could you think I don't desire you? " He reproached her between kisses. Suddenly, she tensed in his arms, her eyes as big as a deer's as she pulled away from him.
"I don't... I don't think I can do this, Edward, I shouldn't have rushed, I shouldn't have made you feel as..." she interrupted herself, trying to break free.
He didn't want to restrain her, but if resisting to release her meant avoiding the suffocating pain in his chest, it made sense to keep holding on. He didn't want to give her any more time, he couldn't take it anymore.
"I can't do this," she said again. The copper knew what she meant. Being together like this, living like this, living in fucking uncertainty was heart-breaking, so he couldn't let what they had then end now.
"Then don't do it," he pleaded against her skin. "Don't fight us. I swear there's nothing I regret more than wasting so much time... And if you don't want to be with me, I understand. I'll give up... I'll live with the consequences. But for the love of everything, if there's a chance, for whatever reason on your part... Spite, curiosity... Shit, even if you let me be with you one more time and never, ever, again for the sole reason of getting revenge? I'll take it... I'll take you any way you want to let me. Just, please. I can't live like this anymore, Bella." She inhaled shakily.
"You don't even know how you really feel about me, Edward, and it scares me to death." Suddenly her eyes were flooded with tears; the copper hated to make her cry, as he gently ran a hand down her cheek, brushing the tears away.
"Don't be afraid of this. If there's one thing I know, it's that I'm not good enough for you, Bella. It's clear to me. Yet there's nothing else I want more in this world than to be with you and the children, just let me prove it to you, let me get you back."
Bella shook her head, not sure whether in disagreement or anger at his poor answer, but it was the truth. Minutes later his wife took a deep breath, resting her head on his chest. Edward knew she deserved better, a worthy husband, a guy who could shout that he loved her to the four winds. Who the fuck was he to take that away from her? And yet, he pressed her tighter against his chest, sinking his nose into her hair... because after all, he was just a man.
1) Kerosene: (also called paraffin) flammable hydrocarbon liquid commonly used as a fuel.
Okay, this ending almost made me cry. Poor Edward! It breaks my heart seeing him this way.
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So, next update is going to be on MONDAY, basically because on Tuesday, if every goes according to the plan, I will have my wisdom teeth taken out so… yeah. I dont know how I'm going to be :D