AN: Sydney's having some family problems and is letting out her emotion on paper.
Dear Diary,
Ahhhhhh! Family is so frustrating! I mean how can you love them yet hate them so much at the same time? It's annoying! It's vexatious! It's family. I guess other people could relate in some form but I think the situation I'm stuck in overrules all their family issues. Imagine this. Well I guess you can't, your a diary and don't have to protect the innocent humans from a world of evil creatures of the night. But give it a try. I'll try and and put it into a more realistic sense considering humans may read this in the future.
Okay, so...your born into a family of, lets say vegetarians. Crazy? I know, but there's nothing else I can think of at the moment. Anyway, so you've been brought up a vegetarian, always have, always will. Your older sister was never the one the be a vegetarian being the eldest sibling in the family (not my excuse about Carly but you get the picture) and your younger sister was not supposed to be one being that only one vegetarian is required per family and having a father who's one is already pushing expectations.
So, when you are sent out to promote being a vegetarian and stop innocents from knowing about carnivores (moroi=carnivores?) and you find yourself getting closer to the enemies, what do you do!? You can't tell your parents or you'll be banished from the family (banished=re-education?) and you can't get any closer in fear of liking them you only have one thing to do. Ignore all you can and stay away from them while still continuing your job. Hard to do you imagine? You have no idea.
Then you find out that your little sister has become a vegetarian (vegetarian=alchemist?) and is coming to help you on your mission. To make it worse, over the course of time you have found yourself liking a certain carnivore and there is nothing you can do about it. You can interact with them behind your sisters back but what if she finds out? It's a one way ticket to being disowned from your loved ones.
Whenever in down or am feeling like I could be disowned any minute I refer back to what my mother always told me;
Funny thing family is. Sometimes you love them because you love them and other times you love them because you have to. You may like a family member and think they like you back but in reality you are their least favourite. Between love and hate is a huge gap that may have you wondering if you really love them or if you're doing it just to get their approval, like it's the most valuable thing that person can give, more than love. But trust me, my little angel, I love you to the moon and back. I always have and always will.
At the time I had no idea what to make of those words but now that I have grown in knowledge and understanding I realised that her words may not have been far off to the relationship I have with my father. I mean he's my father, but do I really love him, or am I doing my best to get his approval. He is the other vegetarian in my family and my mother was never one to be. She even fought with my dad to stop me and my sister from becoming vegetarians but to no avail.
Wow, long story but I think you get the picture. Forbidden love and family controversy are the main themes in my life. What about you? Like how did your life end up being here? Which press shop were you made in? What cotton are you bound in? Why am I talking to a diary? I'm delirious. I need sleep. So here I leave you for another day my life wrapped in leather.
Love Sydney xox
AN: chapter complete! luv ya