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Prompt Summary (from a tumblr user): The reunion of Eren and Mikasa after Eren comes back from Grisha's memories. Even though Eren's head got blown away xD, I think that he will transform into his Titan Form. After reading the latest chapter I Think Eren will apologize to Mikasa for everything he did to her after the time-skip and will probably tell her not to join that Kiyomi and the Hizuru Kingdom. Thank you!
Eren wouldn't let Mikasa leave for Hizuru because he knows that she loves him and that her love has nothing to do with her Ackermann genetics.
Takes Place after the war is finally settled. When Eren apologizes to Mikasa and Armin and ofc to all the members of the 104. Squad
I don't think that Mikasa will accept his apology immediately since she is the Person that got hit the hardest by Eren's deeds and especially his words in chapter 112
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To Note: Please read Author's Note at End.
It was over.
It was finally over. The war, the chaos.
Eren Jaeger really did it. He ended it, the war, the chaos. But alas, that wasn't all he did. He had also left scars in people's trust, in people's minds and in people's hearts. In order to succeed, he had to hurt others—at least, that was what he thought. Even if he never meant this façade of a betrayal, even if he never meant to hurt others, the words he had said, the actions that he had done could never be taken back now. It would still take time to assuage the pain.
And unfortunately, despite all his efforts, he couldn't save everyone as he intended to.
He still remembered the day he found out about Sasha's passing, her death. It was excruciating, for him… for everyone. Could it have been avoided… if he had told others about—?
It didn't matter now. He couldn't change it anymore. It was over. Everything was over now, right?
After the chaos, Eren apologised. From the bottom of his heart, he apologised to Mikasa, Armin, Jean, Connie, Levi, Hanji… and the list goes on. (He apologised to Sasha too. Though, he wished he could've told her that face to face.) Some accepted his apology, some were sceptical, and some still had a tiny bit of distrust despite the change of events which proved Eren wasn't at all the villain, despite it all coming to an end.
Though, as he said out his apology among the people that were his comrades, he noticed how one of them looked…what was the word? Well, before he could've even think of a word to match the expression she wore—the expression that caused his heart to throb—she had turned her back and left the moment he finished his long apology. She didn't wait to listen to his answers and explanations when the others question him, nor did she stay to voice any of her own questions. She just… left.
It was an awfully familiar scene he was witnessing. It reminded him of the day he left, too.
Ever since that day, Eren hadn't seen nor heard of Mikasa Ackerman since.
Perhaps he should've chased her the moment she left. But at that time, something told him not to— and to instead give her some space.
Was this how she felt? He had wondered as he watched her walk away. This feeling of agony clawing at your heart when you see someone you care about leave and disappear, without a word?
Admittedly, if he could right now, he would leave to find her. For the most part, he already had the brief chance to talk to everyone—everyone but her. Ever since the chaos ended, he hadn't gotten the chance to even speak to her personally. However, as much as he wanted to search for the raven now, he couldn't. Because right now, he was being detained behind bars of steel. And he wasn't allowed to leave until after interrogation which purpose was to ensure that he wouldn't do anything that could lead to something disastrous.
It was quite ironic that the supposed hero that saved Paradis from the monsters known as titans, was to be treated as a criminal—for now, at least. There were still some soldiers and even civilians who still strongly distrusted the male. And Eren couldn't blame them, really. Anyone would be suspicious of a person who switched sides and switched back, regardless of the reasoning.
All he could do now was wait. Of course, if he was that desperate, he could easily break out of jail. However, he wasn't that doltish to not know the consequence of doing as such.
On a different note, he hadn't seen any of his squad—well, ex-squad members during his detainment, which was almost two weeks by now. He wasn't sure if any of his ex-squad members were even permitted to visit him. He wasn't even sure if they wanted to see him. And again, he couldn't blame them.
He pondered on what the others were doing… what Armin was doing… what Mikasa was doing…
He hadn't had the chance to have a private conversation with Armin as well. After all, by the time he was done with his apology addressed to the group as a whole as well as answering the questions that they bombarded him with, he was immediately sent to be detained. Granted, he and Armin did exchange a few words when he was answering everyone's questions, but nothing personal was exchanged. Something like that should be done privately, after all.
As for Mikasa… he hadn't even heard her voice after this war ended.
Eren remembered though, the mixture of relief and conflict in Armin's eyes. He wondered if she had the same look in her eyes when her back was turned as she walked away. Whatever it was, he was pretty sure those two would definitely be the last people he'd expect to visit him.
So, it caught him by surprise when his guard today wore a pair of familiar ocean blue eyes, accompanied by golden blonde hair.
Eren's emerald orbs met Armin's blue hues, they exchanged looks but not words. And yet, Eren knew what he had to say. He had the same conflicted yet relieved look in his eyes after all.
There was a desk situated near Eren's cell where Armin then placed the bag he brought along down before taking a seat down on a chair. Without a word, he began to pen down some things. It wasn't long till the silence was broken.
"Do you really forgive me?" Eren was the first to speak. From his tone, one could either conclude he was remorseful or exhausted… maybe both. The brunette's emerald orbs look towards the blonde who didn't stop writing. His blue hues were still fixated on whatever he was writing on that paper.
"I do." He finally responded, albeit looking away.
"Do they forgive me?"
Eren didn't need to explain who 'they' was. It was quite obvious, after all.
"It takes time to heal," Armin started, "Eventually, they will. I know what you did had our best interest in mind, but… the things you said, the other things you did still, the things that could've possibly been avoided if you had told us your plan from the start, they… you …" For once, Eren witnessed him struggling for a longer than expected time to find the right words. Wanting to save him the trouble, he responded, "I know."
From his side view, Eren noticed the blonde parting his lip, as if to retort. But just as fast as his lips parted, they closed. He didn't see a reason to pester him for an answer, at least not now.
And just as the silence was about to engulf the room, Eren asked another question.
"Does she forgive me?"
This time, Armin halted in his writing. And slowly, he turned towards Eren. Their eyes met again. And even if Armin did truly forgave him, it was undeniable there was still some sort of tension between the two. But who could blame them? They hadn't had a proper conversation since everything was over.
"You're free to go tomorrow," Armin finally spoke albeit ignoring his other query. "Earlier than expected. Basically—"
"What happened to Mikasa?" Eren asked again, this time sounding more assertive. The look of remorse now shifted into a frustrated frown. The fact Armin seemed to be avoiding the subject of Mikasa concerned him—his avoidance of the subject of her couldn't mean anything good.
Armin bit his lip, before taking a deep breathe. There was no dodging the bullet, Armin already knew that. Eren wasn't the only one who noticed Mikasa's disappearance the moment he was done addressing his apology. Armin had too. Aside from the two of them, no one really took notice of her absence. However, unlike Eren, Armin only noticed her leaving when he witnessed a shift of expression on Eren's face back then.
When he gave his apology, he looked genuinely apologetic, sincere, guilty and so on. But, then he suddenly looked so… pained. That's when he noticed Mikasa walking away. Perhaps, Armin thought, I should've grabbed her hand and stop her from leaving, so that she'd at least have the chance to say something, anything to him.
But he didn't. Because that was something Eren had to handle, not him.
" 'I don't know. I haven't spoken nor have I talked to her since the day you apologised.' " Armin stated before sighing, "That was what I'm supposed to tell you."
Before Eren could interrupt, he continued. "Mikasa might kill me if I tell you. I promised not to say a word. But I figured I wanted to do both of you a favour… and—"
"Spit it out already." Eren's growing impatience was crystal clear. Some things just don't change, huh? He always seemed to recklessly charge straight ahead before anything else… and always preferred to get straight to the damn point.
"Mikasa's leaving for Hizuru tomorrow with Miss Kiyomi."
Eren's eyes widened upon hearing this new news. And as Armin anticipated, he was in denial about it. "What do you mean? You're lying. She wouldn't just leave Paradis when…"
When I hadn't gotten the chance to speak to her properly. That's what he wanted to say. But the moment Armin removed a familiar red piece of fabric from the bag he brought along, Eren found himself at a loss for words.
"She told me to return this to you after she left," He muttered, before he walked over, holding the red scarf close enough for the brunette to take it. "She also said she was leaving because she wanted to return back 'home'…" He sighed, before shaking his head. "If only she could be more honest with herself…" Armin mumbled to himself—and he was sure that Eren would know that much, that Mikasa's reason of wanting to return back 'home', wasn't really the real reason.
"I know what you said to her, about her, were things that you didn't mean… things that weren't true. I know what you said was meant to keep us away from you, so we wouldn't be in danger…" Armin said as Eren took the scarf from him. It really was Mikasa's scarf, he could tell… from the almost unnoticeable stitches on it—he remembered how she'd often sew the scarf back when it'd tear during trainings and such. He remembered how he said he'd get her a new one, without considering the irreplaceable meaning behind this scarf she wore. He remembered the sad look she had after he had said it.
He felt his stomach twist. Why was she returning this scarf to him now? She had always wore it… as if it provided her with some assurance, so why did she…?
"However as for Mikasa… she's… confused? Lost? Conflicted? You know how she is, she isn't the best with emotions. She… still thinks what you said may be true." Armin sighed before continuing, "So I hope tomorrow morning, you'll be able to open her eyes, to the fact that she isn't 'cattle'. "
Eren flinched when the blonde had said 'cattle', because he knew what he meant to say was slave—but it was the blonde's attempt of lessening the salt being rubbed into the wound, by censoring that hurtful word he had said… well, more or less.
"…How do you know I'll be able to stop her…?" Eren mumbled out subconsciously. Undoubtedly, he did want to stop her. He… couldn't bare the idea of her leaving, especially when he hadn't had the chance to speak to her. But given the fact she had given the red scarf back to Eren, he wasn't even sure if she wanted to see him, or if she'd even listen to him at this point.
Armin only scoffed, which was followed by a small smile that formed on his lips. "Because you're Eren Jaeger… you would never let someone you care about so deeply, leave for a reason like that."
Author's Note: Hello! This will be a 3 part story. I want to apologise to anyone reading in advance if the characters seem Out of Character at any point of time. It has been a while since I last wrote Attack on Titan Fanfictions and stuff. So, I also apologise if my writing has become worse than it already was haha; Plus, I'm still not over my own moody angst after my painful exams sigh lmao so I hope that won't affect my writing haha
Ps: If you're reading my other two fanfics, Bloodlust and Love, I'm writing them real soon, expect an update this month (hopefully ahah)
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