Chapter 1
Emily Prentiss sat infront of Supervisory Special Agent Aaron Hotchner for her assessment after her 6 month long probationary period had been completed. Everyone thought she had joined from the Chicago field office to take the vacant profiler slot. Emily had just finished a eight month period of leave becoming SSA Emily Elizabeth Prentiss again, she had spent three years posing as Lauren Reynolds the sadistic arms dealer after Valhalla. She had been trained to seduce Ian Doyle an ex IRA operative.
Emily had been gay since she became interested and attracted to blue eyed blonds of the same sex. She had never even slept with a man until she had attended the CIA's version of the Russian's former sparrow school. After the intensive practical course she could use her sexuality to bend most men's will to her bidding. She had even exceeded expectations within 6 months she had found out Doyle was in fact Valhalla. Her handlers extended her mission for three years while they destroyed bad guy after bad guy. Emily was a prisoner of her own success, her handlers wanting just one more. Emily eventually took maters into her own hands.
Emily had cooked him a very romantic meal and taken him into her bed for the last time. She had administered a liquid drug into his brandy at the end of the meal. Whilst they made love Ian Doyle had stopped thrusting into Emily and fell to her side limp. The drug Emily had administered to Doyle would keep him in a locked in state for the rest of his life. He was paralysed completely still able to breathe by himself. Emily's handlers where furious with her but had no option but to end her very successful undercover operation.
Emily completed her mandatory psychology examinations and passed them all without any problems.
"Agent Prentiss?" Hotch asked
"S-Sorry sir." Stuttered Emily dropping her eyes to the floor
"I'm afraid I don't think your suited to our BAU team Emily. You second guess every decision you make in the field, endangering your fellow team members. You make too many mistakes second guessing yourself. Your indecision has caused two UnSubs to escape capture and injured two Leo's in their escape, you where lucky they where captured before they could kill again. Your going to be placed in the the BAU bullpen doing my teams paperwork consults only. You are a good profiler Emily, your not suited to field work, just paper consults only. You are one mistake away from killing someone Emily, I am sorry maybe in time you could apply again." Hotch told the distraught profiler
Emily allowed some tears to spill down her cheeks as she left Hotch's office. She went straight into the bathroom and leaned against the vanity unity looking despondently into the vanity mirror.
"Arghh, get at grip Emily, it's only a job, look at your self crying. I could deal with him for you if you let me loose." Lauren Reynolds told her
Emily's trouble with her undercover persona of Lauren Reynolds, it never left but still shared her mind equally with Emily Elizabeth Prentiss. Two strong personalities shared the one Brian constantly in a battle for dominance. Lauren knew enough to allow on the surface in company for Emily to be only present. Being laid medicated in a hospital bed wasn't good for Either personality.
Lauren missed her days of drugs, men, murder and mayhem, life as a boring self righteous FBI agent wasn't for her. So she sabotaged Emily's BAU 6 month's probation at every turn. Who wanted to work next to a god damn goody two shoes. Emily had to keep her self well hidden whilst undercover allowing for Lauren to be the dominate personality for nearly three and a half years. Emily wasn't suffering from dual personality's she was more like conjoined twins in one body.
EJ
Emily sat on her settee after the humiliating demotion at work. She finished pouring her brandy into her glass and reached down and took a long satisfying sip.
"Damn you, you know I hate damn Irish Whiskey. It's me that was humiliated at work this afternoon." Emily shouted at Lauren. After drinking from the glass of Whiskey Lauren had poured.
Sat on the coffee table where two glasses one with whiskey and one with brandy, the conflicts didn't stop there coffee or Irish tea. Emily was interrupted from her internal argument by the door bell.
Emily opened the door and smiled
"Jennifer. Nice to see you." Emily smiled
"How are you Emily?" Jennifer asked walking through the door.
JJ sat down on the settee and looked at the two glasses on the table
"Oh, you got company Emily, I can go." JJ asked a little miffed
"Can't wait to hear how you explain this one you 'Yale Bulldog' to Blondie." Lauren taunted
"No Jennifer, I couldn't decide what to have, I drink Irish Whiskey If I'm upset. Can I get you a drink?" Smiled Emily at JJ.
JJ smiled back at Emily " I can't stay Emily I've got to get back to the kids. I just stopped by to see if you are alright after this afternoon's demotion?" JJ asked her friend
Jennifer Jareau was the teams media liaison, she was a young widower at 31 after her husband had been killed by a bomb strapped to him by a bank robber in an attempt to escape. A team member Elle Greenaway tried to diffuse the bomb but died with William her husband when she failed to disarm the device, triggering an anti tamper device detonating the bomb instantly
. Jennifer had two children with William, Henry aged 6 and Elizabeth (Lizzy) aged 3. Jennifer was the only member of her former BAU team that took the time to befriend her. Jenifer looked past her faults and could see a good looking brunette who needed a friend and someone to talk to. Henry and Lizzy adored their aunt Emily.
"I feel devastated Jennifer, I tried so hard but obviously I'm just not good enough for the BAU. I will work my hardest to improve whilst I'm in the bullpen doing the paper consultations. It's all I can do, the BAU team was my perfect job. Are we still on for my watching Henry and Lizzy while you go to the spa with Garcia on Saturday?" Emily asked her only normal friend
"If that is still ok with you Emily?" JJ hoped she would say yes
"Of course, I love spending time with them." Smiled Emily. "No chance, I hate them" Lauren quietly complained.
Emily did love Henry and Lizzy as she did their mother. For some reason when she interacted with Henry and Lizzy it kept Lauren quiet. Emily enjoyed their innocence it reminded her of the time before she became Lauren, carefree and only one voice in her head to listen too.
EJ
Emily sat at her new desk in the Bullpen three desks from SSA Derek Morgan, to add insult to injury Hotch had kept her attached to the team to complete paper profiles as he wanted to keep her close. He found her fascinating, but his years of training was telling him Emily was hiding something. He wanted to know what because she was setting off his well trained UnSub alarm.
Emily watched Morgan sat at his desk while he chatted with Garcia and joked with Reid. Emily flashed back to the time she nearly got him killed during a raid
Flashback
"Agent Prentiss take the right side of the warehouse and clear as we go, keep your eyes on a swivel." Morgan told Emily like she was a trainee agent
Emily moved to the right side of the warehouse in the gloomy light, she moved in unison with Derek on the left side. Suddenly Emily caught movement in the corner of her eye along the middle of the warehouse. The UnSub had her gun trained at Morgan's head, Emily raised her weapon and aims at the UnSubs head, she hesitated
"Let him die, Emily. Don't squeeze that trigger." Shouted Lauren "don't you dare!"
Emily fired after her internal struggle and hit the moving UnSub in her shoulder, she dropped her weapon but not before she fired hitting Morgan on the outside of his right shoulder. The bullet grazed him breaking the skin but not causing any serious damage, it just bleed profusely making it look a lot worse than it actually was.
Morgan turned and looked at Emily with fire behind his eyes.
"You fucking hesitated, Prentiss. She had the drop on me and you should have killed her to protect your partner and not wait. Look at me!" Morgan shouted at Emily
Rossi and Hotch arrived to take the UnSub into custody. Rossi handcuffed the women reading her rights as she was escorted out the warehouse. Hotch looked at Prentiss and then asked Morgan if he was ok.
"No Hotch, she hesitated and neary got me killed, she is dangerous and doesn't deserve to be on this team." A pissed off Morgan told his boss.
"Go get checked out Derek the ambulance is out side." Hotch told him
Hotch turned to look at Emily his face unreadable as normal. He indicated for her to walk with him
"Tell me what happened Prentiss?" He asked.
"I didn't see her until late it was very dim over there. I fired as soon as I had a safe shot and hit her in the shoulder disarming her. Unfortunately the bullet impact caused her to squeeze her trigger and hitting SSA Morgan in his shoulder." Emily told her boss
"Liar, Liar pants on fire, you where having an argument with your evil twin who wanted her to let the lovely woman kill your partner. It's a damn shame he is a Federal Agent because I would love some of his Honey." Lauren teased
Emily physically shuddered at the thought, the shuddering was noticed by Hotch and Rossi who had just returned.
"Write up your after action report before you leave Quantico Prentiss." He told her
"Yes, Sir." Emily replied
"You screwed up Supervisory Special Agent Prentiss. Don't you think being bad and carefree full of narcotics and killing indiscriminately is much better. Just stop fighting and let good old Lauren free." Laughed her killer twin
Emily walked out the warehouse to the ambulance to check on Morgan. She approached and could see Reid and Jennifer standing outside the ambulance
"How is he?" She asked the two
"Their washing it out it hardly broke the skin. A few paper stitches and he will be fine, just stiff for a few days." JJ replied
"Good, I'm going back to write up my report whilst it's still fresh in my mind." Emily told Reid and JJ
JJ put her hand on Emily's shoulder "Are you ok Emily? I will drive you back."
"I'm fine thanks." Emily smiled. JJ was the only member of the team that used her first name everyone else used her surname,
End Flashback
Emily returned to her files and diligently worked until lunch time. She watched Jennifer and Garcia walk out together for their lunch. Emily wanted to be more friendly with Jennifer but Garcia hated her for nearly getting her Adonis killed by her negligence. She couldn't go out for team drinks with them whilst she was on the team, as she drank alcohol she lost her control over Lauren. She had woken up next to men, not remembering a thing that happened. She had nearly vomited a few times when they had tried to kiss her good bye. She now only drank in the condo, as Lauren had a very high libido and a love of illegal narcotics. She had to just accept her time with Jennifer and the kids.
Emily had looked into things to help her with her Lauren problem, she obviously couldn't go back to the CIA for help as they would force her back out under cover and allow Lauren to become dominate. The FBI would most likely have her sent to a mental hospital as her undercover work was classified higher than the majority of people in her unit where cleared for.
Her only hope was paying privately under a alias she had used as Lauren. Her research suggested the only possible cure was electric convulsion therapy with a experimental cocktail of drugs. It was still no guarantee, she could return cured or a mixture of both personality's. The worse result she retained both personality's without any control over either.
EJ
Emily knocked on JJ's front door with her large bag for her play date with Henry and Lizzy. She heard the two children cheer as JJ told them it was their Aunty Em at the door. The front door suddenly opened and two excited children flew out and hugged Emily.
"Hi Guys, are you both ready for a fun afternoon?" Smiled Emily
Both kids smiled and pulled her inside JJ's house
"Morning Jennifer." Smiled Emily, a warm feeling swirling around her chest
"Hi Em, I won't be late, I promise." She smiled
"Take your time, we have a pirate castle to build and I brought a few other things for us all to do. I'm in no rush, just enjoy yourself." Smiled Emily the kids cheering in the background
Emily pulled the pirate hats out of her bag and passed them out. She slid her eye patch on and gave her best pirate impression.
"Well shipmates, we need to build our pirate castle, Henry you get the blankets, Lizzy your with me we will get the supply's and the grog." Ordered Emily
Emily and the kids spent the afternoon building a huge fort in the front room. They had spent hours fighting sea battles and making Emily walk the plank. The trio now slept cuddled together sleeping after they fell asleep watching Pirates of the Caribbean.
Emily felt total at peace with Jennifer's children and wanted to spend more time with them, she felt whole again. This afternoon playing pirates with them had just made clear what she needed to do.
Emily started mumbling 'Lauren' her vail of control dropped as she slept, but sleeping peacefully was impossible when your own personality's where at war.
Dream
Emily walked into the bullpen with her go bag. She sat down and opened her bag pulling out her machine pistol and two hand grenades. She donned her gas mask just as Morgan looked across at her with a questioning look on his face. She pulled the pin on a CS gas grenade and tossed it down on her desk as the gas exploded out. She shot Morgan in his knees and proceeded to execute every FBI agent in the room. She walked into the round table room.
She found the remaining members of Hotchner's team coughing and spluttering from the gas. She knees Rossi in his groin and shoots him in both his hands. Reid gets shot in the head.
"That's for six months of irritating and pointless facts. you needed to get laid doctor Reid." Lauren tells the dead genius
She turns and sees JJ and Hotch guns drawn, unable to focus enough to find a target. Lauren laughed at how they choose to follow FBI procedure and only shoot if they had a clear target. She shoots Hotch in his knees and disarmed him. She knocked Jennifer out and handcuffed her hands behind her back.
"I'm so sorry SSA Hotchner no one demotes me, I'm the submissive evil half." Lauren laughed as she shot him in his hands. Pouring lighter fuel over him she threw a burning match at him and watched him burst into flames.
She grabbed Jennifer and dragged her to the roof and sat her on the edge. Suddenly Emily appeared and pushed Lauren of the roof saving JJ and regained control
As Lauren drifted slowly down to the floor she laughed, "I'm getting stronger Emily, it won't be long before I'm strong enough to overwhelm you." She smiled.
End dream
Emily jolted awake and instantly looked down and checked on Henry and Lizzy. Both children still slept soundly. Emily took deep cleansing breaths trying to Center herself. Emily felt exhilarated and wanted more, she remembered how she felt after Lauren had gone on a rampage in a bank killing everyone. They both felt sexually aroused not just Lauren, Emily still craved the feelings again.
"I'm getting more dominate Emily, why don't you just accept the inevitable and just let go. I will even keep Blondie and her brats alive for you. Do we have a deal?" Lauren asked, slightly amused
"Never, I'd sooner get strapped to a hospital bed and medicated for the rest of my life than let you loose again. You had three good years of death and mayhem just accept it that's all your getting." Emily snarled
JJ returned looking beautiful, even more radiant than normal. Emily felt the flutter in her heart and she felt a aching between her legs. JJ looked at her two sleeping children and smiled.
"Nice castle Prentiss, what else are you good at with those wonderful hands?" JJ asked with a smile
Emily smiled, was JJ flirting with her. "Well that. Will cost you wine and food to find out." Smirked Emily
"Deal," smiled JJ. She felt her heart quicken
Henry and Lizzy woke and Started telling their mother what they had done while she was gone. Both children refused to remove their pirate hats and foam swords until they eventually went to bed. Emily excused herself and went home smiling, really smiling for the first time in what seemed like years.
"When I take over again Captain Emily your blonde is going to suffer, let go of me and I promise to be good I won't kill too many FBI agents. But Hotchner and wimpy Reid have to go I am afraid." Lauren excitedly told Emily
Emily definitely had strong feelings towards Jennifer Jareau but couldn't take them any further in case she lost control of Lauren and she hurt Henry and Lizzy.