Chapter 1
I woke up and tried to open my eyes. I looked around the room. It was not mine. First I thought about Stefan´s room but then it hit me and I felt the pain again. I couldn´t be Stefan´s room, because we broke up…
I felt the pain like it was yesterday, even though it has been a month since then. That day, I wanted to surprise Stefan with a visit. He thought I was shopping with Caroline, but she broke up with Tyler some days before. She felt bad and I wanted to help her, but she wanted some time alone. So I came by and as I opened the door, I heard some noises from the living room.
I went in and what I saw broke my heart. Bonnie and Stefan were lying on the couch hugging and kissing and first, they didn´t even notice me. Then, Stefan looked up and saw me.
"Elena…"
Bonnie suddenly went of him and he wanted to go to me.
"What are you doing? … I mean … how long are you two? …"
I tried to speak in full sentences, but my voice was broken by the tears that ran down my cheeks. Stefan tried the usual excuses like "It´s not what it looks like …", but then I told him, that I wanted to know the truth for once.
Bonnie saton the couch in silence and Stefan started to explain. We finished our last school year two months ago. In that night, we all went for a huge party and I had to go home, because I was too drunk. Stefan stayed and Bonnie did so too and obviously since that night, they had been meeting secretly.
"How could you do this to me?" Those have been the last words before I turned around and left the house. Later, Stefan and Bonnie tried to call to excuse for everything, but I didn´t want to listen to him and neither to Bonnie. I went home and told Caroline everything and she was there for me.
She just shook her head about Bonnie. We were friends since we were in the kindergarten. I never thought she could betray me like that. Even Damon showed up in the evening. Stefan had told him everything and he came by to ask how I felt. Jeremy and Jenna weren´t at home so I was supposed to stay alone. But Caroline slept at my house and we both cried about our broken relationships until we fell asleep.
The next day, I explained everything to Jenna and Jeremy when they came back. Jenna just hugged me and Jeremy started to grumble about Stefan. I felt really sorry for Jeremy, because I knew he sort of still felt something forBonnie and it wasn´t easy for him to deal with the fact that she was with Stefan now.
I had to pick up my stuff from Stefan´s place so I drove with Caroline to the boarding house. We entered the door and there I looked around and saw a sad looking Damon in the living room with a glass of bourbon and a paper in his hand.
"Hey Damon, are you ok" Caroline asked.
"Stefan left this piece of paper … nothing else" He didn´t look into mine or Caroline´s face, he just continued drinking. I took the paper out of his hand and as I read it, my heart dropped down.
Dear Elena, dear DamonWe, Bonnie and I, wanted to tell you about us a long time ago. I´m sorry for hurting you Elena, but we are going to leave town. Bonnie is going to college and I´m moving with her. I hope you can forgive us for not saying goodbyeBonnie and Stefan
Tears were running down my cheeks again. First he cheated on me, with my best friend and the next day, he left town with her. Caroline hugged me and told me, that she would go upstairs and get my stuff for me. As she went to Stefan´s room, I sat next to Damon and he gave me a glass of bourbon.
"You miss him, don´t you" I asked him
"What should I say Elena, he´s my brother. After Klaus and his hybrids left, we had some months in peace and I thought everything would be ok now. I haven´t seen him for almost 15 years before I came back and I was kind of happy to have him around me … But we can´t change it if he´s so stupid … What about you?" Damon mumbled.
"Sure, I miss him, I never thought he could to something like that to me"I whispered.
Damon laid his arm around me and I laid my head onto his shoulder, while I was crying. None of us said something. We just sat there and waited. About half an hour later, we heard Caroline coming downstairs. With her vampire speed she was really fast at packing. She rushed down the stairs with three cardboards in her hands.
"I´m sorry for interrupting … Are you ready to go?"
"Sure" I gave Damon a hug and whispered a thank you, before we left. We went outside and sat into the car.
"Thank you Caroline, really. I know you also have to deal with your breakup, but the fact, that you help me with mine … That´s really nice from you. You´re a good friend"
Caroline smiled at me and nodded. She helped me to get my stuff upstairs. It was just about midday, but I felt so tired, that I went to bed after Caroline had left. In the evening Jenna came into my room. I had not been able to sleep, so I just stared at my ceiling. My aunt sat down next to me and stroked my hair.
"You know sweetheart, if he does something that stupid, he doesn´t deserve you. You´ll find someone much better. A person, who is there for you and never leaves you … If you want I´ve cooked some dinner." She smiled at me and I thankfully nodded.
"I´ll be downstairs in a couple of minutes"
I stepped out of my bed, brushed my hair a bit and then I went to the kitchen. Jeremy was sitting at the table and smiled at me.
I was really thankful for so many persons, which were there for me. During the next weeks, I sometimes had to cry myself into sleep. Everyday someone showed up. Sometimes it was Caroline, sometimes Damon.
I felt better, with every day, which had passed. Sometimes I also visited Damon at his house. We often talked and sometimes we just sat there in a comfortable silence.
But then I started to remember. Yesterday evening I came by and Damon was drinking. I joined him and we had so much fun. And I don´t really remember when, but anytime we started to kiss.
In that moment, I knew exactly, who laid next to me. I turned my head to the side and saw him … Damon. He laid next to me and it didn´t took me long to understand, what has happened.
"Oh my … what have I done? What should I do now?" I thought in panic.
A thousand thoughts were in my head. But I couldn´t just sneak out, that would be wrong. So I picked my clothes up from the floor and got dressed as quiet as I could. I went downstairs and right into the living room. There I sat onto the couch and waited for him to wake up.
A couple of minutes later, I heard something from the staircase. I turned my head around and saw Damon with a smirk in his face.
"To be true, I thought you left."
"That wouldn´t be ok. Listen I know that we were drunk and …"
"Elena, it was a beautiful night, and we should let it be that. It is not a big deal. We were drunk and made a mistake, that´s ok"
"Alright, that is exactly what I thought. Goodbye Damon"
"Goodbye Elena"
I went to my car and as I started to drive, I felt tears. Why was I crying? As Damon said we made a mistake and that was ok. So why the hell was I crying? I made my way home, happy to see, that neither Jeremy nor Jenna were at home.
Sure, I didn´t want to let everybody know about me and Damon. But anyhow I had to tell someone. I took my mobile phone out of my pocket and dialled a number. As I looked down I saw it was Bonnie´s and I started to cry again. I missed her so much. Sure, I was angry about her betray, but I couldn´t help myself about missing her. Then I took a deep breath and dialled Caroline´s number. I had calmed myself down, so I was able to speak.
"Hey Elena, what´s up" Caroline said in a melodic voice. She has also been better about her and Tyler.
"Hey, could I visit you. I did something probably stupid"
"Sure, I´m home. Come by whenever you want"
"Thanks, I´ll be there soon"
As I drove to Caroline´s house, I saw her standing outside. She told me to come in and offered me some water, before I started to talk. I thought about, how to tell her and took the direct way.
"I slept with Damon last night. And I don´t know why, but as I drove home, I started to cry, I mean why? It didn´t mean anything" I started to cry again. Caroline held me and whispered "Maybe it did"