The F #K%*! Heartbreak
January 27, 8:38pm. Friday
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The small device beeped and the gates opened.
She went inside, carefully balancing the bowl of porridge on her right hand while her bag and couple of fever medicines on the other.
"Oppa , I have food and medicine for you." she called out as she enters his house.
There's no response. He must be at his room, sleeping. They're suppose to meet at the skating rink earlier to start their anniversary celebration but Su Pyo texted her he might not make it. Ga Eul offered to take care of him when he told her he's having a slight fever but he refused. But of course, she will never let an opportunity to take care of him pass. He needed hernow more than ever.
She went to the kitchen and prepared his food and puts the porridge on a china bowl then made a glass of freshly squeezed orange juice, placed them on a tray with the medicine and went upstairs.
"Ah! Ah! Ahhh! Fuck! Yes!"
That sounds like a female voice. Is he watching porn right now?
"Oppa?" she slowly opens his door.
The food tray fell to the floor.
The two people in bed stopped rocking their body as they stare at her.
"Hon, who the fuck is she?!" says the woman, she stopped moving her hips on top of him as she looks at her with disgust.
"She's my maid, don't mind her." he didn't even look at her. He started moving his hips upwards to the woman. It caught her attention then the two of them went back to their doing.
She was left there at the door, standing. She doesn't know how long she stayed there in her feet as she watch them cry in pleasure. When she can't take it anymore, her body started moving. She run outside, slamming the door behind.
She didn't stopped running. She has no idea where her feet are dragging her but she doesn't care anymore. She doesn't care about anything anymore.
Why?
Why is it happening to me?
She stumbled from a rock at the sidewalk. Passers by stares at her, asking if she's okay as she falls at the ground. She ignores them. No, I'm not okay!
I want to scream. I want to yell at everyone. I want to die.
She stares at the concrete in her hands as she can no longer hold the tears.
I love you. Why did you do this to me?
A week before.
January 20, 9:15am. Friday.
"New Caledonia again? Aren't you sick of that place yet?" Yi Jeong asks as his best friend announces their destination over the phone.
"It holds a special place for Jan Di and I so stop complaining, it's not like we're there everyday!" Jun Pyo exclaims as he screams through the mouth piece of his phone.
Yi Jeong shakes his head. He likes nature and New Caledonia is a paradise but he easily gets tired of things. Maybe that also explains why he never had a steady girlfriend.
"And pick up Ga Eul-yang to the airport."
He sighed after ending the call. He doesn't get why he's always the one designated to accompany Ga Eul every time the whole gang will go out. he get that he's the closest one to the girl but their history is not a clean one either and Jan Di doesn't even want her best friend to be left alone with him but giving her a ride and dropping her off her house is fine to her. He sighed once again. Those two best friends are the weirdest girls he had ever met.
"Yo what's up my man!" Woo Bin hangs his arm around Yi Jeong's shoulders the moment he and Ga Eul arrived at the airport. "Don't tell me Ga Eul-yang is your date for our weekend trip?"
"YAH!" Jan Di shrieks so loud Jun Pyo covers his ears. She left him and ran towards Ga Eul who's pulling her luggage behind her. "Big NO! Yi Jeong sunbae and Ga Eul will never happen and besides Ga Eul already has a boyfriend."
"Oh yeah, that guy who treats her like his personal maid. You're still with him Ga Eul-yang?" this remark earns Yi Jeong a glare from Ga Eul. He's been provoking her to bring out her feisty side from the time she picked her up from her house. Her silliness and stubbornness always amuses him.
"You don't have a date too Woo Bin-ah." Ji Hoo reminded his best friend.
"Who needs a Korean date when I can find a New Caledonian local beauty, right Yi Jeong?" he and Yi Jeong grins to each other.
Ga Eul would not agree to come to this weekend vacation trip if it weren't for Jan Di. After all the hardships she and Jun Pyo had gone through, it is just fitting to celebrate their long awaited freedom. And this is also a celebration for their engagement so she sacrificed a weekend date with her boyfriend to be on this trip.
It's her second time at New Caledonia but the breathtaking beauty of the island still captures Ga Eul's heart. And like last time, she intends to take as much pictures as she can.
They dine and had fun throughout the day. After dinner, they set up a bonfire at the seashore, reminiscing memories together. After awhile Woo Bin disappeared, Ga Eul last saw him with two ladies. They're probably busy right now. Ji Hoo followed, he announced he will retire early in bed. Jun Pyo and Jan Di went on a bickering argument first before heading at their villa as well.
Ga Eul stood up from the log she's sitting on and wished Yi Jeong and his date a good night before heading to her villa. They nodded their heads but not really paying attention to her, both are busy flirting with each other. It didn't go unnoticed to Ga Eul his hand which are inching dangerously closer to his date's inner thigh.
She brushed that image off her mind as she settles in her bed. With a pen and her notes in her lap, Ga Eul tries to think of the best way to celebrate her upcoming one year anniversary with Su Pyo. They could go on a dinner at his house like they always do or spend time at a club like that one time he persuaded her on going. But this is their anniversary, she wants to make that day remarkable.
When nothing creative is coming to her brain, she got up and went outside for fresh air. The cool breeze of midnight always calms her and the peaceful ocean in the horizon could help her come up with ideas.
She closes her eyes, enjoying the cool wind brush on her face when a faint sound joined the quiet night. She tries to ignore it but the repetitive sound keeps getting louder and more disturbing.
Out of curiosity, she followed the sound. Blood started rushing to her face when she had finally identified what the sounds are. She looks up at the number of the door where the sounds are coming from. Her hand covered her gaping mouth as the realization sinks in.
She feels her nose, expecting blood coming out of it.
Yi Jeong fished out his room keys from his side pocket, readying them to quickly open his villa. He's tired for the day especially he just had a round with his date at the bonfire but he stopped on his tracks when he saw Ga Eul. He checked his wrist watch. It's pass midnight, what is she still doing here outside?
He quietly approached her. She's covering her mouth with her left hand while her right hand is feeling her nose.
"Are you having a nosebleed? What are you doing here?"
Ga Eul jumped from hearing him. She quickly covers her nose. Maybe there really is blood.
Then the familiar sounds register at Yi Jeong's ears. He smirks at Ga Eul who's turning more red by the second. "I never thought you're the type who sneaks around and listen to their friends having sex."
Ga Eul squeals, clapping her hands on her ears. She's not a kid anymore but that topic is still not welcome in her mind.
Yi Jeong laughs at her reaction. "Well, you know what they say. It's always the shy ones."
She closes her eyes, she is not having this conversation with him. But then Yi Jeong probably just had sex with his date and now Jand Di and Jun Pyo are doing the deed, Woo Bin were probably finished by now while Ji Hoo just doesn't care but according to Jan Di, him and Min Seo-hyun, his first love and ex-girlfriend must have done it when they were in Paris. All of her friends had sex already leaving her behind. Is sex really that important?
Su Pyo had numerously initiated the act but she keeps on dismissing it. Always rejecting him, she loves him but sex is a totally different matter. She's overly self conscious on her body, she believes she's not ready yet.
When she remains frozen on her spot, Yi Jeong chuckles some more before walking pass her. "I'm going to pretend I didn't see this." He continued walking but stopped when she called him.
"Yi Jeong sunbae."
Ga Eul rotates her body to face him. "Is sex important to relationships?"
He turns to face her again. As much as he likes teasing her, Ga Eul is still one of his closest girl friends. He knows she's still innocent and pure and somehow, he has this urge to protect her.
"Sex is not but, love making is."
"Huh? Aren't those two the same?"
Yi Jeong shook his head. "It's like comparing a girl to a woman, a boy to a man. You're smart enough to see the difference, Ga Eul-yang." He turns around after saying that, leaving Ga Eul on her spot, the disturbing sounds forgotten.
January 27, 7:59pm. Friday
Yi Jeong never hated a person before like how he hates his father. He loathes him now more than ever. His mother's been committing numerous suicide attempts to get him back to her but he never does. She just won't accept he doesn't love her. He never did.
His fists are shaking on his lap, he chooses to leave after witnessing his father kiss some random student of his at the back of his studio. Again. He wanted to punch him so badly he can't stop his hands from shaking.
No matter how many times he caught his father in this act he still has this burning anger in him. He let out his frustrations as he took deep breaths to calm himself, this is not the first time.
After gathering his composure, he looks out of the car's window. He envies those commoners as they walk at the side streets. Yes, they may not have his luxurious life but at least they can live as simple as they can be.
His irritation is toning down when he caught a familiar face out of the crowd. Is that Ga Eul-yang?
His eyes followed her as the car continues to move. Why is she crying? Did she trip herself at the ground? Then why is she not getting up?
He scratches the side of his head as he sighs. Why does this feels familiar? "Stop the car."
"Ga Eul-yang, aren't you a little bit too old to cry on the streets?" he almost laughed at this. It was also like this when he saw Ga Eul crying over his good for nothing boyfriend back then. After years they had reconcile and ended up being together again, to everybody's disappointment.
She didn't even appear to have heard him.
He sighed again. This is not how Yi Jeong wanted to spend his Friday night. He squatted down, grabbed her hands and gently helps her up. He guides her to the bench near them.
"Alright, tell me what happened."
Ga Eul's vision is blurry. Her eyes are filled with tears. She felt someone removed her from the ground but didn't pay attention to it. Slowly she lifts her eyes up to the person in front of her, recognizing the face.
"S-Sunbae..."
And that's when she started crying her hearts out.
Yi Jeong was shocked. Ga Eul suddenly started crying so loud and got the whole street's attention. "Yah, Ga Eul-yang stop crying! They're looking at us!" he bends down shaking her shoulders, can't believe it's happening again.
"You bastard! Stop molesting her!"
"Call the police quick!"
Yi Jeong kneels in front of Ga Eul. "Yah, Ga Eul-yang stop crying they think I'm harassing you. Ga Eul-yang! Ga Eul-yang!"
"Stop touching her!" Yi Jeong's reflex kicks in. He dives just in time before a guy can land a punch on him. He stood up and catches the guy's fist on it's second attempt. He looks around, people had started gathering around them. He twisted the wrist to inflict pain but not too hard then he throws him away.
"I'm not harassing her. She's my friend. She lost her phone that's why she's crying." He announces to the crowd.
"Is it true?" the guy who attacked him asked Ga Eul.
Ga Eul's still crying softly but the sudden commotion at least stopped her from weeping too loud. She glares at Yi Jeong.
He widens his eyes at her. You better confirm it or this will end up in the newspaper tomorrow!
Very slightly, she nods her head.
Yi Jeong released a frustrated sigh, he went back to Ga Eul and pulls her up despite of her crying. "Come on, I'm taking you home."
A cup of tea was served in front of Ga Eul. She's still crying but Yi Jeong's grateful she's not whining anymore.
"And you were crying because of that? You should be happy, now you know he's not your soulmate. And this time can you please shut him from your life for real?" On the word soulmate, two big drops of tears landed at his table, joining the pool of tears that has already gathered at the surface.
He shook his head, pushing a box of tissues closer to her. No matter what he say her tears just keep coming down her face. He hates seeing woman cry in front of him, he'd witness a lot already every time he ends his flings but seeing Ga Eul shedding tears is something else. He suddenly had the strong urge to punch someone again and it's not his father.
After almost an hour of pure crying, Ga Eul finally had calmed down. She took a handful of the tissues and blow her nose; the box is almost empty now. She looks up and was surprised to see Yi Jeong in front of her. Her eyes roams around her surroundings. "Where are we?" she said through hiccups.
"My house."
"What am I doing here?"
"Would you rather let your parents see you in this condition?"
She shook her head and took a deep breath. Her senses coming back to her. "I should go home."
"In your state, I don't think so. You can spend the night here. Give me your phone, I'll text you parents." He laid out his hand at the table.
"I'm okay now." She said quietly.
Yi Jeong raised his brows at her. Her hair's messy, nose as red as the traffic light, her hiccups are not ending and she had the most swollen eyes he had ever seen in his entire life. Yeah, she's okay.
He stood up and ask for her phone again.
"I don't have it with me."
"You really lost your phone?!"
"I ...I left it ...h-his h-house..." another round of tears started coming.
Yi Jeong rubs the bridge of his nose. "Nevermind. Come on let's go to my room." He helps her up and guides her to his bedroom, she's so heartbroken she didn't even object. He flicks the lights on and sits a still crying Ga Eul at his bed then he went to sit at the foot of the bed.
"Get some sleep. I'll give you a ride home tomorrow." He said to her after making a quick call.
Ga Eul lifted her face to look at him. She's surprised their location had changed. "How about you?"
Yi Jeong flashes her his signature smile as he pats the couch he's in. "This buddy will not let me down." he lay on his back, crossing his arms and closes his eyes. "Now go to sleep. You might feel better tomorrow."
*89*
Greetings loves!
Have you ever been heartbroken?
I'm 99.69% sure that you have. You wouldn't even have the slightest interest on looking into this book if your eyes had never shed a tear due to heartbreak.
We're all familiar with that pain. There's no point in denying that in a certain period of your life, you've experienced that excruciating heartache. That moment when it's just too painful you just let yourself cry to sleep and when you woke up all you want to do is to go back to sleep because reality sucks.
We all went through that.
But if for some miracle you haven't then you must be the luckiest person alive ...or you could still be an infant.
Either way, whether you have a pure, innocent heart or a shattered one, I'm going to tell you ways to survive a heartbreak.
This is Moving On 101.
You better not miss a lesson.
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