Trigger Warnings

I am choosing not to post any trigger warnings aside from the tags of "Dark", "Torture", and "Psychological Torture". I will not be tagging any chapter specifically for anything in particular. While I don't think the scenes are terribly graphic in nature, I do want to stress that the scenes are present and aren't for everyone.

I did try to make the reactions and trauma realistic, following both real-world medicine / research and in-game universe canon (such as Angela's nanotechnology).

There will be multiple POVs per chapter - two sets for both Angela and Reaper as well as a fifth from an additional character.

Please, read at your own risk - and enjoy!

There's no pain that I won't go through
Even if I have to die for you

- Die for You [Starset]

Angela idly ran her fingers along a familiar storage container as she moved to her closet. It had been a long time since she had opened it to don her Valkyrie suit and carry her Caduceus staff, since she had been Mercy – and she wasn't changing that today. Instead, she tugged on a mismatched set of scrubs, a pair of boots, and her medical coat. Angela pulled her hair up off her neck into a tight bun before slathering herself with sunscreen. Her pale skin would turn red and blistered if she didn't take the precaution; she didn't particularly want to be more miserable than she already was here.

With a long-suffering sigh, she left her small apartment and stepped into the heat of the day. She missed Switzerland; it was so hot here in Cairo compared to her cooler homeland. But her comfort didn't matter – no, what mattered were that people were suffering here. They may scoff and scowl at her, growl that she was not welcome, but that didn't matter either. What mattered was that she could help these people, regardless of what they thought, and that was what she would do.

Immediately, sweat prickled along her skin, but she ignored it. She pulled out a tablet instead, swiping through the information there to determine how her day would pass. There were many patients to check in on, either to look over their bandages or to provide medication. She had a surgery planned for later in the day – some poor man was losing his arm.

All of this assumed that nothing happened to upset the delicate balance. No new attacks – terrorist or gang, it all ended the same for her – or significant accidents that left everything spinning out of control. Not that she would utter one word of complaint; these people deserved the best she could provide after all they had been through. It wasn't their fault that the world had fallen to pieces. No, that burden fell across her shoulders and all those who had been with Overwatch when it had collapsed. They had done much good, but they had also been the cause for so much horror as well.

Now, Winston was trying to resurrect the organization, to pull Overwatch back from the ashes. Her communicator – a relic from her past that she couldn't seem to let go of – had been blinking when she had returned home two days ago. In a different, better, lifetime, Angela would have carried it with her everywhere she went; now, it was an awkward paperweight on her kitchen counter that she sometimes remembered to pocket on the chance that one of her friends would call. She had been curious – who wouldn't be? – so she had watched his video message. Once it was over, Angela had sat back with her arms crossed, teeth worrying at her lower lip.

Did she want to go back?

Her life had been so much different since the fall. All her life's work had been taken from her by the UN and WHO to be distributed among others after Overwatch had fallen. She had become a pariah where once she had been much sought after for her prowess in both the research labs and operating rooms. Now, she faced scorn everywhere she went.

She had been the last defender of Overwatch, after all.

Angela had been one of the most visible members of Overwatch – her wings had made that almost a foregone conclusion, even if they weren't excellent PR material – and thus many recognized her, even outside of her Valkyrie suit. In the aftermath of the fall, Angela had stood in the spotlight to try to appease the masses.

Did she want to pick up the pieces and start over again?

All she had ever wanted to do was help people. Mostly, she had succeeded at that in Overwatch. Angela had helped minimize – and mitigate – civilian loss, both in the planning and execution phases of strike missions. As often as she was able, she had served on the front lines to help defend not only the agents of Overwatch, but the innocents caught in the middle. She had spearheaded innovative research that was, even now, being expanded upon to better the world.

Could she do it all again?

She wasn't sure her heart could survive a second round. It had nearly killed her the first time to bury the victims and support the survivors. Angela didn't even know where most of her friends were on most days. Genji had gone to Nepal and, as far as she was aware, hadn't left. Similarly, Winston had holed up at Watchpoint: Gibraltar to safeguard Athena and what files remained of Overwatch.

But the rest? Last she had heard, Lena was prowling around England, and McCree had racked up an enormous bounty in North America. Reinhardt had convinced Torbjörn's daughter, Brigitte, to follow him across Europe as he continued to protect the weak. Torbjörn had told her about it a few months ago, grumpy in his worry for the two. Two of her medics, Remington and Daigneau, crossed her path occasionally. They had followed in her footsteps – or steps just like them – and had joined the Doctors Without Borders.

Angela wondered which, if any, of them would answer the call

Angela wasn't sure she would. This wasn't a decision she could make lightly. One would make her a criminal – Overwatch was disbanded and forced into inaction by the PETRAS act. The other would make her – what? A coward? She wasn't sure. All she knew was that if she didn't answer, her life would continue as normal. It wasn't glamorous – quite the opposite, in fact. It was hard and dirty, but she would be helping people. If she answered, her life would change again. And this time, there were no guarantees – Overwatch was rising, starting from nothing to try to safeguard the world once more.

Angela wasn't sure what the right path was – so she left the blinking "Y / N" unanswered.

/-\

For once, her day went mostly as planned. Usually, some sort of emergency occurred, throwing off her day and putting her timetable into disarray. She thrived in the chaos: hurriedly reprioritizing patients and rushing around, trying to keep everyone alive and comfortable, made it easy to forget the nightmares and the heartbreak that was her life. Not that her day wasn't busy, even without interruptions or surprises – it just was orderly.

She opened the door to her apartment with a sigh, rubbing at her back with a free hand. Maybe she would take a bath tonight and try to force her body into some semblance of relaxation. Angela locked the door before flipping the lights on and striding further into the small space she currently called home – and then froze, eyes widening. It was only her years of combat experience that kept the keys within her suddenly numb fingers.

The Reaper was here.

He was settled on her only couch, lazily reclined as if this was his home and not hers. His face, hidden by a bone white skull mask, had turned to regard her. Despite his casual pose, his very presence was menacing – and that was before she took in the shotgun on the cushion next to him. She wasn't fooled; Angela was confident he could have it in his hands and fired before she could reach the door. Her hand dropped to her waist automatically, where her blaster used to sit – but she hadn't carried the weapon in years.

Angela knew that she should have started carrying it again after the cryptic phone call she had received a week ago. It had been a warning of impending danger and that she should leave Cairo to find help before it was too late. The caller had had enough information about her to make her nervous, but she hadn't been willing to allow it to drive her away.

Danger? Ever since she had joined Overwatch, that had been her life. Angela had served as the Medical Director, a powerful position made even stronger by her will and sheer genius; there were very few Overwatch operatives that were more valuable than she was. Then, she had enlisted as a combat medic and protected their strike teams – and she had the scars to prove it. Now, her life wasn't much different from that of her time in the field; uncomfortable lodgings, dangerous surroundings, long work hours, and generally ungrateful patients that laid the blame for their troubles at her feet.

She should have taken precautions when she had stayed. Angela should have called one of her friends – her protectors – about the warning, but she hadn't wanted to get them worked up over what was probably nothing. She should have carried her weapon, but she had worried that it would bother her patients – and she already had enough trouble with that. She could have even moved to make it a little harder for an enemy to find her, but she barely had time to eat most days.

Besides, she had believed that it was probably little more than a prank. Even now, years after the fall, people still grumbled about Overwatch. She'd had her fair share of curses thrown her way, and, in the early days, she had received plenty of prank calls that varied in nature. There was little to make her believe this was more than that. Angela had been safe – from terrorists, anyway – for years; there was no reason to think that had changed.

Angela cursed her pride. She had become complacent, thinking she knew best. Now, she would pay the price for her hubris.

"Well, well," the man growled, leaning forward to rest his elbows on his knees, clawed fingers steepled before him, "I was beginning to think you wouldn't come home, Mercy." Angela grimaced. She hadn't answered to that name for years; it was a callsign that was as dead as the organization that had coined it.

"That is not my name anymore." Angela corrected automatically; it was a habit so ingrained she couldn't stop the words from falling from her lips. She kept herself from wincing at the foolish declaration and instead donned an air of cool detachment. Her pride demanded that she keep her fear hidden from him, that she could show no weakness before her obvious predator.

And he was a predator. The Reaper was well known for his violence; terrible, mutilated bodies were left in his wake wherever he went. More than one ex-Overwatch member had been his victim. That he would appear here, before Overwatch's guardian angel – their Mercy – meant she was in his sights now. She wondered what it was he wanted from her – and if she would give it. The doctor was fairly sure that he wasn't here for her blood. After all, why speak to her if all he wanted was to kill her?

"That's too bad." He rose, grabbed the shotgun, and aimed it at her in one singular, fluid motion. "It's Mercy I am looking for." It had been a long time since she had stared down a barrel of a gun; she had forgotten just how terrifying it was. Angela forced herself to stiffen her spine and raise her chin slightly in defiance. If she were going to die, it would not be cowering.

"What do you want from me?" She demanded, somehow managing to keep the words steady. That he hadn't pulled the trigger meant that he was willing to overlook her verbal misstep earlier. It meant that whatever he wanted was more important than spilling her blood – right now.

"Information, of course." The gun remained trained on her, but Angela forced her eyes to move past it to his body. Hopefully, should he decide to pull the trigger, she would see it telegraphed in his body language and escape. It was a dubious hope, considering his kill sheet, but it was all she had to hold on to now.

"I haven't been active in years," the doctor deflected. "I could not possibly have any information you need." Angela knew it was a lie even as the words fell from her lips. She had information that would be valuable to the wrong organizations. Locations of prominent members – such as Genji, who had, for all appearances, fallen off the map – was only the tip of the iceberg.

While she had been removed from research by the UN and WHO, she still was one of the greatest medical minds of their time. Under her guidance, medicine had improved by leaps and bounds; it was a pity she no longer could continue such works. They had relegated her to the sidelines, only contacted for advice or ideas. Reaper clicked his tongue disapprovingly.

"And here I heard you were a genius." Nothing could have kept her still when he started stalking across the room towards her. She backed away, keys dropping to the floor, until there was nowhere left to go – and then he was barely an arm's length away from her. "You expect me to believe that Overwatch is on the rise, and no one told you?"

"Overwatch is dead and gone." The words did not tug at her heart, did not cause any emotional response at all. She had long since come to terms with the closure of that chapter of her life. Angela would not acknowledge the call that had been put out, would not confirm or deny that Overwatch was trying to reform. While she had not decided if she would return, she would not risk the safety of those who answered.

"That's not what I've heard." Resolution filled her. This man, monster, wanted information on her friends; she would not – could not – give it to him. Even if it killed her, she would protect them. They were still hers to shield, whether she was with them or apart. That was her last, final burden from her days with her Overwatch, and it would be hers to carry until she died.

"Then you clearly know more than I do." Angela lied easily. It surprised her that Talon already knew of the recall. They must have intercepted the transmission; the idea of any prior member of Overwatch turning to Talon was a hard pill to swallow, even considering how the organization had fallen.

"Lying will only make this worse for you, Mercy." Her callsign was a taunt, bait that she refused to take a second time. Pure terror had flooded her veins; it was only an act of sheer willpower that had kept her knees from giving out underneath her. This was the worst she had faced yet, but she would face it standing.

"It is not a lie," Angela insisted. "Overwatch is dead." Even if she rejoined under Winston's banner, she was certain that she would always consider Overwatch – or at least, her Overwatch – dead. How could it exist in a place that her friends, her family, did not?

"Last chance." He warned; it surprised her that he gave her one at all. Even so, Angela did not consider, not even for one moment, to provide him with the information he wanted to protect herself. In defense of others, she was at her most stubborn and determined. That cost had come to her in the form of bullet wounds and nightmares when she was with Overwatch; here, that cost would – hopefully – be her demise.

She was all too aware that there were many things worse than death.

Angela remained silent, her eyes staring a challenge at the slits where she knew the Reaper's eyes peered from. If he would not accept her lie the first two times, it would be pointless to voice it again. After a long moment, the man let the gun drop so he could crowd her against the door. One clawed hand rose to grip her throat, tilting her chin to look up towards the mask that hovered above her.

"Just remember, you brought this on yourself." He growled, rebuke and glee twisted around the words. He increased the pressure, cutting off the blood flow to her brain; despite the futility of the action, Angela's hands raised to try to pry his fingers away. Her vision swam as she desperately clung to consciousness. It was a useless effort; within moments, she was unconscious.

The Reaper watched as Angela regained consciousness through the single window into the concrete room that was now her home. She looked insubstantial, almost ethereal, under the lights meant to keep her blind to her surroundings. The woman was hanging from chains in the precise center of the room. She barely had enough slack to rest her weight on her feet properly. While she had been unconscious, her wrists and shoulders had held that weight entirely in a way that was designed to be painful.

Gabriel watched through the Reapers' eyes as she pulled against the chains that held her. Saw the confusion play across her face as she heard the faint clanking, which turned to pain as she realized the stress her wrists and shoulders had been placed under. Then, her eyes fluttered open, blinking painfully in the too-bright light, before futilely trying to look up at the chains. He saw the curious detachment turn to stark panic before smoothing away into a neutral façade.

He was unsurprised that she didn't test the bonds further, that she didn't call out, and kept her noise to a minimum. While Angela hadn't had any special training in this aspect of their lives – they had never expected anyone to actually succeed in capturing her, not with the number of people willing to lay down their own lives for hers – she was a smart woman. Angela knew the grim reality she now faced. She had to know that the chains were the least of what she would meet in that room of gray and white.

The Reaper supposed he should alert someone that she was, finally, conscious.

Still, he lingered for a few minutes longer, relishing in her helplessness. After so long, he was going to see her pay for what she had done. The Reaper had fantasized about this day for years. Slowly, agonizingly, they would exact his revenge upon her flesh. He would drink down her pain and agony until, finally, the angel before him was no more.

He had been tempted to be the one to break her – to split her flesh and flay her heart. It would be the least that she – that he – deserved after the pain she had inflicted. The council had even offered it to him, knowing the history that lay between the two. It surprised Gabriel that they hadn't ordered him to do it, to prove his loyalties yet again to the terrorist organization that he had once fought against.

He wasn't sure if he felt rage or relief that they had not taken that choice away from him.

Instead, Gabriel had found the strength to decline. The Reaper, usually the stronger of the two after so long, had been forced to accept his decision. They would observe, either from this little room or through the security feeds, whenever their other duties allowed.

The Reaper, the dark, violent portion of his soul given life, would like nothing more than to tear apart, piece by piece, the woman who had turned him – them – into this. He would revel in the blood and agony, far more than any other member of Talon would. It was only fair, after all. Knowingly or not, she had condemned Gabriel to an existence that was the antithesis of everything he had once stood for. Everything she stood for.

Gabriel wanted her to hurt, to feel what she had done to him – but he couldn't be the one to do it.

He knew that, should he go in there and break her, he would also break himself. The last, tenuous grasp he had on his humanity, on Gabriel and not the Reaper, lay within the blonde doctor trapped in the room before him. She had grounded him, had reminded him of his purpose, even while she was completely unaware of the shadow that stalked her.

Even now, after everything, there was a part of Gabriel that loved her. There was a part that still remembered the promises he had made her – that they had made each other. He had given his heart to her, long ago in a place that he had destroyed, and she had never returned it. Instead, she had ripped her own from his grasp and left him with nothing but darkness and pain. All that remained was a monster that consumed the living with a terrible hunger that was never sated.

On that dark day in Zürich over five years ago, Gabriel had destroyed her world. On that same day, Angela had forced the shadows upon him and shattered his psyche. He wondered if it had been a purposeful act, a punishment for the pain he had wrought, or a mere accident of science. That she hadn't sought him out, had said nothing about the Reaper and who he might be, made him believe it was the latter. That Moira, a geneticist who – within her specialized field of study – could outsmart even Overwatch's miracle worker, could not replicate it only reaffirmed that belief.

That did not slake his anger in the slightest.

The Reaper turned and stalked out of the small observation room, eager for them to begin his revenge. He was ready to drown in her blood and pain. The Reaper's only hope was that she put on a good show before she eventually broke.

Angela wondered, vaguely, how long it would take for people to realize she was gone. Then, once her absence was noted, how long would it take before they realized it was by force rather than by choice? How long would it take for someone – anyone – to come looking for her? And, when they did, would they even be able to find her before it was too late?

She tried to recall the last time she had spoken to any of her friends. There was no set schedule – sometimes she could go months without hearing from one or more of them, leaving her to worry that perhaps this time they had actually died and she would never hear from them again. Had she spoken to anyone recently? Stressed as she was, Angela couldn't remember.

She knew these thoughts were just a byproduct of her fear, but that did nothing to stop them – or to keep them from affecting her. There was nothing but pain and terror for her now. Either she could imagine the horrors that would be inflicted upon her in this room, or she could worry about the rescue that would never come. Angela was a firm optimist when it came to everyone but herself. She could hold on to hope that she could save others, but she did not believe anyone would save her. How could they?

Angela was going to die in agony in their defense – and they would, probably, never know it.

Or, perhaps, Talon would take pity on them. Maybe they would dump her mangled body for some poor soul to stumble upon. The media would go crazy – the last of the old guard, Overwatch's angel, had perished – and her friends would mourn, but there would be closure. It wouldn't be a mystery, whose answer had only been assumed after so many years of silence, like the deaths of their Commanders.

Her friends. Her family.

Despite her determination to show no fear for as long as she was capable, the door slamming open made her jump. The motion made her sway unsteadily on her feet, her shoulders complaining at the movement. Angela would welcome the distraction from her thoughts if it weren't for the fact that it heralded far worse than what her mind could conjure.

The blinding lights, shining hot and bright from the ceiling somewhere above, kept her from seeing her captors as they entered the room. There were at least two – perhaps three – sets of footsteps before the door slammed shut again. Suitably warned of her audience, though she was confident that someone was watching her even when she was alone, she kept her chin up and her face schooled in a calm veneer. It was a well-used expression that came easily to her after so many years of practice.

Silence.

Angela wondered if they expected her to break it, to demand answers that she would never receive. Perhaps, were she standing on her own ground, she would challenge them, but here? She was positive that she had never been more aware of her fragility. Of her mortality.

She didn't know what game they were playing, what tactics they were using. It didn't particularly matter; Angela had plenty of patience. While she wasn't certain her silence would bring a better or worse outcome – she wasn't versed in interrogation (her mind skittered away from the more horrible word that applied to her situation) techniques – she would remain silent, regardless.

Angela wasn't under any illusions that she would escape this unscathed. She didn't even believe she would escape at all. Still, her pride demanded that she make whatever stand she could. She was Dr. Angela Ziegler. She was the last bastion of Overwatch, their Mercy. Angela could – would – rise to the challenge and don the mantle of a hero one last time.

A hand yanked her head back by her hair suddenly, turning her vision a blinding white before she could screw her eyes shut against the light and pain.

That was when the demands began. Where were the prior members of Overwatch? Who would answer the call of reformation? Where would they make their home base? They enumerated names – Jesse McCree, Howard Remington, Wilhelm Reinhardt – throughout, asking for specific information on every person she might still be in communication with. There were questions about her medical research, words awkwardly shaped by mouths that didn't understand what they were asking.

Angela refused to answer. Every time a question was met with silence, they would strike a blow. On her chest, just below her collarbone; her back, mere inches above her kidneys; her stomach, choking her as she gasped for air and swallowed back bile. She had never experienced violence, not personally, without her Valkyrie suit. She lamented its absence, wishing for the pain relief it brought.

Instead, she had to grit her teeth and bear it. She reminded herself firmly that she had suffered before. Angela had been shot multiple times on varying occasions, had a building collapse on her, had darted through flames – but she'd had the Valkyrie suit to support her through it. Without it, those experiences were minimal compared to all that would come in this room. Her head bowed, hairs that had come loose from the bun she had tied just this morning – was it still the same day? She didn't know – fanning around her face, and her eyes closed as she forced herself to do nothing more than grunt in pain.

As they methodically dealt blows to her, she could feel the nanites within her body, putting her back together. They were her miracle, her salvation, her devastation. Angela's body would heal much quicker than any human could naturally heal – though not anywhere near instantaneous – and prolong her agony in this terrible place. If they waited long enough, her body would be just as whole as it was when they brought her here; they wouldn't have to lift a finger in her care.

Angela didn't know how long they stayed in the room with her. With her medical prowess and combat experience, she knew that they had done no lasting harm in this opening act. There were bruises, but they had broken nothing. They had taken care to avoid her kidneys and spine when they struck her back – and they hadn't once touched her head at all after they released her hair at the very beginning.

They were only warming up.

The men – she assumed they were all men, as the lights had been far too bright for her to make out any of their features – had filed out as quietly as they had come. Angela did not hear it lock, but why would it? She wasn't a flight risk; she couldn't even protect herself, much less stage an escape from these chains. The lights remained on as she stood, swaying slightly on her feet, in her cage. Her head remained bowed, and her breathing was coming in ragged gasps through bruised ribs.

Angela had told herself to be brave, to protect her friends and family unto death itself – but that was a simple decision when it was calm and still. It was so much harder when the pain was real, not imagined, and death was approaching one slow, agonizing inch at a time. Each blow that struck her body had also struck her resolution, battering against the walls she had erected around her heart and soul so she could be this last, final defense.

She could only hope that she could hold her conviction close in the coming days when things would be even more desolate. Somehow, despite it all, she must survive.

The Reaper had watched, arms crossed and face impassive behind his mask, as the doctor was beaten. Gabriel wasn't sure what he had expected to feel, watching her bite back sounds of pain and struggle to keep herself hidden away behind her aloof mask. The Reaper had no such qualms.

He held a vicious glee, born from the sight of her dangling helplessly from her chains. It wasn't quite the same as the euphoria he had felt when he had held her helpless form in his hands, but it had a terrible similarity. Her invisible flesh, hidden behind the scrubs she had been wearing when he had captured her, tempered the emotion. Though he was familiar enough with her body to imagine the mottled purple-black that would decorate her skin, it wasn't quite the same.

Indeed, he felt rage and resentment, ever-present whenever the Reaper looked upon the woman that had cursed them. It had grown, bottled up inside his dark heart, and was now finding some release as he took in her battered form. The relief was minor; without her blood, her bruised flesh, her screams, it was barely worth the effort of watching this first session.

Angela had taken many painfully calculated blows, but it had been gentle compared to the misery he knew those men were capable of. He wasn't sure if they had underestimated the doctor, as he had, or if they were just testing the waters. Gabriel had known that she would take blows – she was far too stubborn for her own good, just like another specter from his past.

What he hadn't expected was that she would remain silent the entire time.

The Reaper felt robbed, somehow. Cheated. This wasn't how it was supposed to go. She was supposed to break, to scream, cry, beg, do something other than hang there in near-perfect silence. Angela had never had the highest pain tolerance, relying heavily on the Valkyrie suit to ignore injuries, and yet she had endured with barely a sound. Even now, she was collecting herself, her labored pants turning to soft breaths as she hung there with her head bowed.

But maybe he was the fool. It had been years since he had experienced the power that was Dr. Angela Ziegler. He had forgotten how fiercely protective she was. Had forgotten that she forced her way onto battlefields to defend what was hers, because that was her duty. Had forgotten the iron steel that surrounded her heart, that she had to have to carry the burdens she so willingly shouldered. Had forgotten that she never showed weakness before anyone, that she always hid it away to deal with in private.

Gabriel had only forgotten because, at one time, he had been the only exception to her rule.

He had been the one she had turned to when everything – the research, missions, surgeries, nightmares, deaths – became too hard to carry alone. While Gabriel had never succeeded in taking the weight from her shoulders, it had been his honor to support her while she recovered. He had been the only one to see how terribly affected she was by everything. When she graced everyone else with steely eyes and gentle smiles, she had allowed him to see her nagging self-doubt and endless guilt.

He had seen her, all of her. From grief-stricken after Ana's death to worry when Jack had been airlifted back to Zürich. Her incandescent rage when Gabriel had demanded she stay out of the field to pure terror after he had taken a bullet for her. The stark relief when he returned home after a dangerous mission to mindless bliss within the safety of their bed. Everything that she was, he had seen – and could still see, even now.

Gabriel could read her better than anyone in the world. He knew the little signs, the tells that gave her away to him; even after all this time, she was still the same. Angela had a tight grip on her emotions – always had – but Gabriel could see the terror that she had masked behind the stone wall of her face. Others might miss it, think she was just as unfeeling as her reputation had claimed, but he knew better.

She felt more intensely and more purely than any other person he'd ever known. But, to survive as a child prodigy, as a medical genius ten years younger than her peers, she had to become more. As a girl and then a woman, Angela learned that the world would use her emotions as a weapon against her – so she had hidden them from sight. Even among friends – even alone with him – she'd had a hard time dropping those walls.

Here, those walls would be put to the ultimate test. The Reaper intended to see them fall, brick by brick, until there was nothing left but a quivering human in the place of the angel. And then, once she had been brought back to Earth, he would kill her like the mortal she was.

Jesse frowned down at the communicator in his hand. He had called to check in on Angela the afternoon before, but he hadn't heard from her. That was unlike her; since the fall of Overwatch, she had always answered – or called back if she truly was incapable of answering – when they called.

He knew she worried about them, the family that she had been the heart of, even now – perhaps especially now – when they were no longer her responsibility. Angela would drop nearly everything to go to one of them if they called, no matter how far the distance. Jesse knew that he – and many, if not all – of the others would do the same for her.

She was theirs just as much as they were hers.

The cowboy wondered if it was Winston's message, sent four nights ago, that was keeping her silent. Perhaps she thought one of them would try to talk her into – or out of – recreating the organization that had brought them together. That didn't sound like the Angela he knew, though. Jesse thought she might be more likely to receive a call right now. She wasn't one to avoid a conversation just because it might be uncomfortable. It was that knowledge that had him dialing another number.

"Hi there, McCree," Winston's voice filled his ear. At least he knew it wasn't technical difficulties keeping him from hearing from their doctor. "I wasn't sure I would hear from you." If Angela hadn't gone dark, Jesse wouldn't have called in at all – not yet, at least. He hadn't decided if he wanted to go back, to try again after everything that had happened.

"Hey there, big guy." He and Winston weren't close – their paths hadn't crossed much during their time with Overwatch, given that Winston wasn't exactly stealthy – but they were amicable enough. "I'm not callin' 'bout Overwatch, not right now, anyway." He admitted, quickly changing the subject. "Have ya heard from Ange in the last coupla days? I can't seem t'get ahold'a her."

"Dr. Ziegler?" Jesse rolled his eyes. Angela had been Winston's first friend and champion – had gotten into quite a bit of trouble over the gorilla, in fact, if he recalled correctly – and Winston still didn't call her by name. "I haven't heard from her since I sent the recall out. Athena," Winston turned his attention away from Jesse for a moment, "did Dr. Ziegler view the recall?"

"My files indicate that she viewed your message one hour and thirty-seven minutes after you sent it." A digitized feminine voice replied after a moment. It had been a long time since he'd heard Athena's voice. She was an AI that his friend, Dr. Liao, had created, and now served as Winston's assistant and advisor after Overwatch had disbanded. She was amazingly smart and had been a great asset for all of them – just as Dr. Liao had once been.

"So, she got th' message," Jesse mused. "Wonder why she ain't answerin' then." Clearly, it wasn't a problem of technology. She simply wasn't answering or returning calls – at least, not his calls. Just because Winston hadn't heard from her didn't mean she wasn't calling people. "Can Athena tell if she's talked t'anyone?" Winston relayed the question.

"I do not show that Dr. Ziegler has made any calls since Winston sent out the recall. I show that she has received three calls – two from Jesse McCree and one from Lena Oxton. None were accepted." The amount of information Athena could access was terrifying. All their electrical equipment – communicators, comm systems, probably Angela's staff for all he knew – were connected to Athena since before Overwatch fell. Most had left those systems alone, though he was pretty sure some people had disabled it.

"That ain' like her." Now Jesse was even more worried. He had hoped it was just him – either she was avoiding talking to him for some reason, or their communicators were just busted – but she wasn't talking to anyone. Before the fall, he could maybe see Angela getting distracted enough to forget to return a call or two, but now? Since the fall – since they'd lost so much – she had always answered and made time for them.

"No, it isn't." Winston agreed gravely. There wasn't much either of them could do about it, though. Jesse was hunkered down in an abandoned house in the middle of Arkansas, trying to let the heat die down. His bounty, somewhere in the ballpark of seventy million the last time he'd checked, made it hard for him to get around sometimes. Likewise, Winston was stuck in Watchpoint: Gibraltar – though he might be moving since Talon was aware of his location and he was trying to raise Overwatch back from the dead.

"Her communicator is still at her last known address. The Valkyrie and Caduceus systems are down." Athena added helpfully as the two tried to figure out what to do. "Last known location is also her last known address." That wasn't like her. Angela didn't go off the grid – she was the goddamned grid. Everywhere she went, she made waves, whether she wanted to or not.

"Lemme make a call, see if I can't get someone to go look in on her." Jesse only knew of one person in that part of the world. Hopefully, she'd be willing and able to get away long enough to help them out. He disconnected and dialed a second number. "C'mon, pick up already." He grumbled under his breath as it rang and rang.

"You have reached Captain Fareeha Amari of Helix Security International." Of course he'd be sent to voicemail; that was just his luck. "Please leave your number and a detailed message, and I will get back to you as soon as I can." There was a brief pause, and then a beep indicated that it was his turn to speak.

"Hey there, Fareeha, it's Jesse." He worried about leaving his name on her voicemail – he didn't want her to get in trouble for associating with a criminal. "Y'might not remember me, but I used t'work with your mom. Couldja call me back, soon as ya get this? It's real important." He left his number and hung up, hoping he hadn't made a mistake. Now came the waiting.

/-\

"'lo?" He answered groggily, shoving his hat back into place and rubbing at his face with his free hand. It had been hours since he had left the voicemail; he wasn't sure if he would even get a response today – or ever.

"Jesse?" Fareeha's voice was quiet, like she was trying not to be overheard. That was fair – he was a criminal with an enormous bounty on his head. Someone like her – a Captain, taking after her mother – shouldn't be seen interacting with someone like him. If it hadn't been for Angela, he never would have called at all.

"Yeah – yeah, it's me." He sat up, more alert now. Jesse had forgotten what a pain time zones were; he'd probably called her in the middle of the night, just like she had. At least he had woken up. "Sorry for callin' outta th' blue like this. Doubt ya even remember me." He'd spoken to her a few times before everything came crashing down, but Ana had tried to keep Fareeha separate from Overwatch as much as possible.

"You let me wear your hat, once." Her voice was wistful, reminiscent of her younger days. "My mother took a picture; I have it somewhere." Huh. So she remembered him, after all. Now he felt a little guilty, not calling and checking on the younger Amari. Ana would have wanted him to do that.

Angela had, he knew – but she checked on everyone.

"What's happened?" God, she sounded so much like her mother. Ana always cut to the heart of the matter, too, rarely tolerating idle chit-chat when there were things to be done.

"It's Ange. Uh," she probably didn't know Angela by that name, "I mean, Angela. Dr. Ziegler – Mercy." The names tumbled over each other awkwardly; it had been a long time since he had used any of them. "We can't seem t'get ahold'a her. I was wonderin' if you could maybe go check in on her?" It was a long shot, but it was the only shot he had. If he had to go, it would be days before he reached Cairo.

"I don't know if I can get away," Fareeha said after a moment of consideration. Jesse relaxed a little; she wasn't going to blow him off. "Where is she? If it's close, maybe I won't have to ask." Jesse pulled up the address and read it off to her. "Hmm, too far." Fareeha sighed. "I'll see what I can do." It wasn't much, but it was better than 'no' at least.

"I really appreciate it, Fareeha. Really." He tried to pump as much sincerity into the words. Fareeha didn't have to do this for a stranger from her mothers' past, but she was willing to try, anyway.

"She's my friend, too." She hung up before he could respond. That blade of guilt twisted in his heart again. He was an ass. If they were both alive at the end of this, Jesse would make up for it. Do what Ana would have done for them, what Angela did for them.

He looked at his silent communicator, blinking the time – it was just a little past three in the morning. With a sigh, he set it back onto the floor next to him. Jesse leaned back against the wall and pulled his hat down over his face once more.

Maybe they were all overreacting. Maybe something had kept Angela busy these past days, so busy she came home too exhausted to do more than crawl into bed. That was something he could see her doing – she was notorious for it – but wouldn't she call back in the morning? It just didn't sit right with him. Jesse closed his eyes and tried to get comfortable on the hard floor so he could get some rest. He had a feeling he was going to need it.

Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
And only surrender will help you now

- Again [Flyleaf]

I'm sorry it took three days to post this - I somehow managed to forget it was January and now here we are (at 4:52 am because I have no control over my life lmao). I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed slaving over it.

I've posted this same story on tumblr [handle thebrighteye]; it has a pandora playist for this story if anyone is interested!