Bucky's POV

He'd regretted the words as soon as they left his mouth. He'd seen the hurt on her face and he wished he could take it all away. But he couldn't. He had said it and couldn't take it back. Of course, he didn't want her to leave. He was also so tired of hurting her, this time had been bad. Yeah, she could have healed herself and been fine, but she shouldn't have to. She shouldn't have to worry about her boyfriend trying to kill her in the middle of the night.

After he locked himself in the bathroom, he heard her come up to the door. "I love you. I love you with everything I have in me." Tears were falling down his face as he put his hand on the door. It took every ounce of strength he had not to fling the door open and take her in his arms. To tell her he was sorry and that he didn't mean it. He heard her rummaging around the room, probably for her things, then he heard the door shut.

Bucky didn't go back to sleep and was in the lab waiting for Shuri as early as he could. He told her what happened, and she smacked him upside the head.

"What was that for?" He yelped.

"Why would you send that amazing girl away! She loves you Barnes, so much." The princess told him. He knew this of course. "I just can't keep hurting her Shuri. She doesn't deserve this."

"Don't you think that it her decision to make? She knows what she can handle, Lord knows she has had to deal with more than the average person. She is strong. You took her choice from her Barnes." Bucky knew she was right, and he knew he needed to go home and apologize, but he couldn't until he was better, until he wasn't having nightmares anymore. He went to the lab every day that he could, even though Shuri made him take at least one day out of the week to rest.

His heart broke when he came back to his room after the lab to find his tags hanging from his doorknob. He put them over his head as a tear rolled down his cheek. He fucked up.

Two months had gone by since he told Ally to leave, and he had been working so hard with Shuri and today she told him that she was finished. The words Hydra put in him were gone and he could feel it. He felt lighter. He was still having nightmares, but that was because Ally wasn't there. They were never bad, mostly just him waking up and realizing she wasn't there.

He was gonna go home, he needed to see Ally.

We never should have let her go in the first place.

"Yeah, I'm aware." Bucky said out loud. He knew Winter was angry. At Bucky for telling her to go, at himself for what he had done to her.

Let's go get our girl and never let her go again.

"Okay."

Bucky wasn't sure what kind of welcome he would get when he got back to the compound, but he wasn't expecting Steve to meet him outside the jet and punch him in the jaw. He stumbled back and put his hand to his face, moving his jaw around to make sure it wasn't broken.

"What the hell are you doing here Buck. You have no right." He growled.

"I know. I fucked up okay? I know that now. I should have never told her to go, I was just so scared." Bucky sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. "How is she?" Bucky heard footsteps and looked up to see Tony, Loki and Thor walking his way.

Great.

Can we kill them?

NO.

"She was fine yesterday, has been fine for weeks. Working on her magic, hanging out with us, but this morning she locked herself in her dance studio and won't let anyone in." Steve told him.

"That may be my fault actually." Loki voiced. Steve turned and raised an eyebrow at him, while Bucky narrowed his eyes. "What happened?" Steve asked. Loki sighed. "Well, in the kitchen last night, I may have…well I kissed her."

"You WHAT!" Bucky yelled, grabbing Loki by the neck and slamming him into the ground. It took Thor, Steve and Tony to pry Bucky off him holding him back. Loki rolled over, coughing, before getting up and dusting himself off.

"I didn't take advantage of her if that's what your thinking. She kissed me back Barnes. She was fine until she wasn't. Something changed in her and then she said she couldn't do it." Bucky sighed and relaxed, and the other three men let go of him.

"Take me to her please." He pleaded with Steve.

"You have a lot of nerve coming back here Barnes." Tony warned. Bucky nodded. "I know."

Steve led Bucky down the hallway that led to Ally's studio. She looked beautiful. He had missed how beautiful she was. She was wearing leggings and a sports bra, bare feet on the floor. She put a song on and moved to the middle of the floor.

Oh no, here we go again, fighting over what I said
I'm sorry, Yeah I'm sorry
Bad at love, no, I'm not good at this, But I can't say I'm innocent
Not hardly, But I'm sorry

And all my friends, they know and it's true, I don't know who I am without you
I got it bad, baby, Got it bad

He watched her move around the floor with such grace. He had never seen her dance like this before. It was raw. Emotional. She let herself feel through every inch of her body.

Oh, tell me you love me, I need someone On days like this, I do
On days like this
Oh, tell me you love me, I need someone On days like this, I do
On days like this
Oh, can you hear my heart say?
(Ooh-ooh, oh, oh-ooh-ohh-ooh)
No, you ain't nobody 'til you got somebody, You ain't nobody 'til you got somebody

And I hope I never see the day
That you move on and be happy without me, Without me
Oh, what's my hand without your heart to hold?, I don't know what I'm living for
If I'm living , Without you, ooh

Bucky's heart was breaking, this was his fault. Steve had left him in the hallway, saying he would be in the living room if he needed him. Bucky watched as she ran at the window, but stopped just an inch shy of it, throwing her head back and spinning back to the middle of the room. He wished he had seen her dance like this before now.

All my friends, they know and it's true, I don't know who I am without you
I've got it bad, baby, I got it bad

Oh, tell me you love me (ooh), I need someone On days like this, I do
On days like this
Oh, tell me you love me, I need someone On days like this, I do
On days like this
Oh, can you hear my heart say?
(Ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh)
You ain't nobody 'til you got somebody, You ain't nobody 'til you got somebody
My heart's like
(Ooh-ooh, oh, oh-ooh-ohh-ooh)
No, you ain't nobody 'til you got somebody, You ain't nobody 'til you got somebody

He noticed the tears falling down her face as she moved around. She stopped and looked in the mirror, pulling her hands through her hair, holding her head, swaying to the music.

Everything I need (ohh), Is standing in front of me (ohh)
I know that we will be , Alright, alright, yeah
Through the ups and downs (downs), Baby, I'ma stick around (ohh)
I promise we will be , Alright, alright

Bucky watched in the mirror as her eyes turned white and her hands frosted over. Ally threw her hands out and the mirrors in front of her frosted over and shattered, sending glad everywhere but at her. She let out a strangled cry and fell to the floor, wrapping her hands around her knees. Bucky broke the handle on the door and ran into the room. Kneeling in front of her, he slowly placed a hand on her knee. Her head shot up and she looked at him with wide eyes, and they were no longer white. "B-Bucky?" She choked out.

"Yes, baby I'm here. I'm so sorry. I never should have told you to go. I was just scared. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I'm so sorry." Tears were falling down his face. This was all his fault. The person he loved most in the world was on the floor because of him.

"You hurt me Bucky." She whispered, so softly he almost didn't hear her.

"I know. I'm so sorry." She reached out her hand and placed it on his face. He leaned into her touch and broke down in sobs. He picked her up and placed her in his lap, burying his head into her shoulder.

"Please forgive me Ally. I'm so sorry. I love you so much. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." He chanted repeatedly in between sobs.