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Summary: Why had she called him? There would billions of other people she could have called before him. L/L
AN: So, I've had this written forever and I figured I might as well post it. No time like the present, right?
So, enjoy… and if I get enough reviews I might consider making this a two parter.
Why had she called him? There were billions of other people she could have called, before him. There were billions of people she should have called, before him. Sookie and Jackson were together, but they would have come to help her out, and she knew that. She could have called Miss Pattie, she does raise chickens after all. She could have called Rory, she wouldn't have been that mad. She could have called Andrew, he did live around the corner.
She could have called anyone in that whole, stupid, little town and they would have come running. So, why did she call him?
She kept telling herself that it was only because she had just been with him. They had been picking out paint samples… The paint samples for the diner that she had suggested needed a paint job. The diner, which she agreed to help paint.
And she was pretty sure they almost kissed. Right? If Taylor and the rest of the town hadn't come knocking on the door, they probably would have. Right? And then, when everyone left and she turned back to look at him, she froze when she realized how close he was to her, and she freaked out and left. Because she didn't want to kiss him, right? Yeah, it was Luke. She wasn't supposed to kiss Luke.
So… She didn't want to kiss him, and she left the diner. But then, she called him, even though she could have called anyone. Why? Why did she call him?
Did she want to kiss him? No, this was Luke. She didn't kiss Luke. But, why not? Why couldn't she kiss Luke? He was probably a good kisser. Why couldn't she kiss him.
Because if you dated and broke up, we'd never be able to eat at the diner again.
Rory's words echoed through her mind. But who said anything about dating? And who said anything about breaking up? All she wanted to do was to kiss him.
Wait, she wanted to kiss him? She wanted to kiss Luke?
She wanted to kiss Luke.
Oh God.
No. She didn't want to kiss Luke. If she wanted to kiss him, then why did she freak out when he was so close to her? Why did she leave? Why did she go home just as he was about to lean in and close that remaining space between them? Why did she jump up and grab her coat, just as he was about to kiss her?
Because she was scared
She was scared because she could feel his breathe on her neck and it was made her stomach flutter. She was scared because he smelt so good. She was scared because of the way he was looking at her. She was scared because she really wanted to kiss him.
Sure, she had wanted to kiss a guy before. She had wanted to kiss lots of guys. But, something was completely different about wanting to kiss Luke. Maybe because she knew that if she kissed him, he wouldn't let her run away scared, like most guys would.
If she kissed Luke, that would be it. Their friendship would completely vanish and they would either be more than just friends, or they would be nothing.
So, would it be worth it? Would kissing him be worth it if it ended up ruining their entire relationship? She could end up having a really great kiss with Luke, or she could end up breaking up their great friendship, and also forcing her and Rory to eat elsewhere and possibly starve to death. Plus, the leaky faucet may never get fixed.
But, she wanted to kiss Luke. She really, really did.
But, why? It's just Luke. Luke. Luke. Luke.
She had seen him everyday for years, and suddenly she wants to kiss him? Why hadn't she noticed him before?
She had noticed him before. But why didn't she make a move? Why didn't she kiss him?
Because she was scared
So, when will she get over her fear? Will she ever get over her fear? Should she just face her fears and do it? Forget about the consequences and just kiss him?
No.
She can't do that.
She can't just kiss him.
There are consequences. There are too many consequences. And they wouldn't just affect her, they'd affect her kid, and her faucet.
If she kissed Luke, she couldn't just kiss Luke. She had to want more. She had to want a relationship. She had to want a serious relationship… with Luke. She couldn't just go over and kiss him only because she felt like it. She had to want something with him. She had to want something that was worth the possibility of losing his friendship all together.
So, did she want that? Did she want a relationship with Luke? Did she even like Luke?
Of course she did. She liked Luke. Even her mother knew she liked Luke.
But did she like him enough? Did she like him enough to possibly ruin their entire relationship?
Yes.
She sighed, and looked over at Stella who was sitting happily in her cage. She sunk into the couch, and looked over at the phone, who was for once, not lost.
After a little hesitation, she reached for it and found herself dialing the numbers.
"Luke's."
"Luke?"
"Lorelai?"
"Hey, Stella got out again."
Well, there you go. It was just a little something I wrote one night. It's been written for a while, and I figured I might as well post it.
If I get enough reviews, I might consider making this a two-parter… but only if I get enough reviews, so tell me what you think!
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You know you want to.