An: updated chapter one. I fix some spelling etc

The sun is at the end of its setting, and she can see the moon out of the window shield. Her driver Haku's phone is in its stand navigating GPS as the pink service light shone in the dash. Her eyes travel from the fark pink light, and she opens her gum wrapper from earlier to write down sexy pink lights. The woman's inspiration is short-lived looking out the window at the repetitive scenery.

Hinata has become the trees bitch. The oxygen providers are on each side of her swallowing the car. Trees and the pavement under the wheels that's all its been for four hours and she's sure she lost her mind seventy miles ago. Her indigo eyelashes blink from the backseat behind the oversized circular glasses as the air hit her from all sides, annoyingly so on her half exposed neck from the new hair cut, she looks up at the driver. Haku's clad in black everything and looks irritated as if his ass hurts for having to drive her four hours out of Konoha City border into the sticks and he's about to kick her out of the moving vehicle to cut his loses. Hinata remembers when she walked out her studio she checked the plates four times before she moved her reluctant legs to get in the 50,000 yen ride that she reluctantly had to accept from the sweet Sakura because she reluctantly is broke just to go where she would have to sit and talk reluctantly with the only man she has ever loved and his new bride.

Sakura isn't his bride, but she is a newly-wed too. Two years off the market with none other than Sasuke mother fucking Uchiha. His best friend. Hinata had to watch him chase after Sakura and Sakura get the man of her dreams. Sakura was the fucking Athena and Aphrodite. Hinata couldn't even be jealous at some point. Some girls have all the luck. Options like those don't come to people that was a once in a lifetime fucking phenomena your two best guys friends offering you themselves so raw. The lucky Queen. A fucking legend among women. Sakura of course picked Sasuke. Hinata were 19, a freshman, and in college when she saw Sasuke literally post Sakura as the only post on every last one of his socials.

Hinata later learned from Sakura after some serious cherry popping he declared his love and wanted to never wanted to let her go. All she could do was laugh at the irony because that's how she's pictured it for herself and him. Hinata could still remember his journey after his best friends started going at it like rabbits, she smiled at the memories he would hang with their crew and complain about the headboard bumping and the noises. He had even personally told her that him, Sasuke and Sakura had a heart to heart and they let him down easy. There was lots of tears on Sakuras part but apparently they all joked about it. He sat next Hinata at the ramen shop on campus smiling as he admits this and Hinata knows his heart has been liberated from clutches of the haired woman.

"I'm relieved in a way. I'm going to find the one for me believe it and I'll bring her to Sakura Chan and that bastard, and we're going to have couples night like a bunch of douche bags".

Hinata never in her life wanted to be a douche bag until that moment. She recalled him speaking of the future and how he was optimistic and anything could happen.

Hinata was overjoyed Naruto was set free and accepted he and Sakura would be no more or nor less than what they already were best friends. For a year her and their friends all helped Naruto to move on. Naruto even was the instigator for the monstrous hooking up of Shikamaru and Ino. Although, it ended messy wingman Naruto is the life of the party. After witnessing the purity of Ino and Shikamaru hot and heavy two months he knew he was ready to get out there and date and it seems he did it privately because when he brought his date for Homecoming just when Hinata would ask him to go with her is when he fell in deeply in love with the girl he took to homecoming. Shion Kamu. She was a pretty girl Blonde with dark violet eyes.

Hinata couldn't hear those headboards and noises, but she imagined them everyday all day as the months past she spent a year thinking of every way he was making love to his girlfriend. the thoughts drilling her brain, driving her into silent madness, as Naruto and Shion made a year mark in their relationship. She somehow lived with it. It was normal for people to date she thought. Maybe if she could just wait it out and see where it goes and see if she'll tell him how intensely and dangerously she's in love with him soon.

Their friends all knew her feelings but accepted his girl into the circle they weren't assholes. Nonetheless Naruto dragged Sasuke and Sakura into his fantasy of their double dates. Their approval of his women mattered. Hinata knew Sakura would have to support him. She understood. She did. Didn't make it hurt less though.

It was the engagement that destroyed her. She transferred campuses and cities moving to Sand State which is on the borderline between Suna and Konoha making it close enough to be by Hanabi. That was three years ago. They just got married a year ago, and she's somehow got through it. Hinata accepted the cards that she was dealt she could've tried to give Naruto what Ino gave Shikamaru and it could've all crumbled leaving her with a broken heart and him with her virginity. However, that scenario would've been way worse. To have a taste then have to let it go. Although a darker part of her buried deeper wants a taste even if it's just a bite.

Hinata took a deep breath as the GPS voice announced an exit taking her back to the current reality. Hinata couldn't comprehend she's about to be around the man she's secretly yearning for. She smiles to herself. She had to find the humor in it. She's been trying to find a random new man for two years she's been ready to rid herself of her virtue. The fairy tale of Naruto Kun being her first was over. He was married and she was desperate to feel something. They were never dating, she never confessed, they were only friends and could only be friends. Hinata knows that now. Plus she is on the prowl but only in her mind. She laughs out loud and her driver Haku looks annoyed. Her eyes glisten over at the pretty boy that's been driving her. It's funny because now she's seeing her driver with blue eyes, spiky blond hair and foxy whiskers pulling over the car and ravishing her under the pink light like some plot in a rom com.

Every man she comes in contact with she thinks how sexy she could be if she could just tell him what she wants, and he agrees then she immediately thinks of him being Naruto. It doesn't matter if it's the bag boy at the market or the hottie in English Lit. She pictures herself being screwed by him on the desk in front of everyone mid lecture, and then he turns into him.

She knows she's need help but these fake day dreaming sex scenario have helped her come into her own. Not only has she been able to accept she wants to rid herself of such frustrations but its gotten her a segment at the campus radio station. Its poetry about sex to promote safe sex every Saturday night at 1 am her lips is to the microphone, and she's telling 2 million people at school and in the community what she wants to do to a married man. As crazy as that seems, she's a hit and made some good money. She feels sexy. She feels liberated of her pent up desires of wanting one person for almost two decades. Of course father disowned her. She wonders how long for... this time. Hanabi's think she's Hot and Neji knows nothing when he writes. She hasn't told the crew because she's sure KU has its own student radio even with the Borders so close to Konoha the radio frequencies don't mesh she guessed. Plus she doesn't speak to them much anymore. Sakura had gotten her email by messaging her little sister.

The poems helped her. They saved her after his marriage and in a way its like he has saved her again.

She smiles as she sees the cabin nearing the night sky is sparkling as the sun is gone.

She can live knowing he could never be hers now. He's still here, and he's still helping her even when he doesn't have to try inspiring her poems maybe she could get some new inspiration by seeing how sexy he has gotten. She didn't go to the wedding so it would be nice to say hi and see the actual women who's actually living the life she wants again. If Sakura Uchiha is a Queen then Shion Uzumaki is a King.

The driver parks and helps her get her black designer plastic luggage out of the trunk. Its amazing she hasn't sold this on eBay yet like all her other name brand stuff since dad cut her off. She's more reluctant to spend her own money these days.

She sees a luxury white ranger is parked in front of her and someone's getting out

"Its freezing tits" the girly voice yells and Hinata laughs knowing that could be only one person.

"Looking good Yamanka" Hinata says and Ino eyes lights as she sees its Hinata

"Yeah well I don't swing that way"

Ino eyes look at her looking around she notices Hinatas alone. Hinata notices Ino is alone. Relief flooded them both. Ino has her blonde hair pulled into a high ponytail with a fat silk white scrunchies. She's wearing an oversize tan sweater. Hinata guesses she has shorts underneath with thick chunky white sneakers. Hinata wore a white Bralette with and white tube bra underneath to hid cleavage sure a good amount of her belly was still showing, so she wore a jean button up over it leaving it unbuttoned. Her bottoms were windbreaker cargos that hugged her hips and ankles. Also, her feet were stuff in chunky white sneakers. Her new shoulder-length blunt cut with bangs grown out cuffed her face as the sliver circular globes sit of her nose. Hinata step to her and wraps her arms around her the blonde does so back. To say Hinata doesn't come around was an understatement but Ino understood why they pull away as Ino opens her trunk to get glittery iridescent white poo emojii shaped purse with pastel patterns of LV spread across. It had eyelashes on its eyes and lips that would give kylie a run for her money. She brought one purse for 5 days ?

Ino smiles taking note of Hinata's appearance while nodding. "You look good Hyuuga"

"Thanks Ino"

Ino smiled. She could notice the change in Hinata. The confidence. She however couldn't help but feel nervous. Shikamaru will be here and all she could think of was their 62 days together of making love and breaking up. Taking a deep breath. She was willing to stand up the hottie she has been texting for two weeks now just to see him and hopefully.

She looked over at Hinata with two big cases of luggage and frown. "There's a house filled of meat they can come get your bags put them in the trunk.

"No it's fine"

Ino rolled her eyes and picked up one suit case and Hinata pushed in the other than closed the trunk.

"Come on lets go" Ino encouraged

Hinata smiled and they gravitated up the driveway. Gravel crunching under their feet. "So how long it's been over 2 years ?"

Hinata sighs "yeah I couldn't make our annual trip twice"

"I get it I didn't go last year's either and I guess that's why those assholes all flooded me with messages to go this year even Sakura made Sasuke message me. It was only the address and date to the cabin but still".

Hinata gasp. "They got you too ?"

"I guess they think we're their lost children who never visits them anymore because even Shikamaru sent some half ass message about wanting me here, and we aren't on speaking terms"

Hinata gulped. "I did get a message from all of them too. Well Hanabi did"

Ino sighs. "You have balls of steel"

They neared a bonfire and saw all their friends in chairs sitting and relaxing. Sakura was between Sasuke legs. Shikamaru smoking a joint in a fold out. Kiba and Akumaru on one log and there in a dark orange cashmere sweater and jeans leaning on his elbow with the fire glowing on his face and tipsy blue eyes looking up at her. There he was. Naruto Uzumaki.

She blinked at few times blankly.

Note to self.

Call a therapist when she gets home.