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This is my first fanfic I'm publishing that's not written in my own language. So pleeeease be gentle with me. I'll try to find a Beta ASAP. Hope you can still enjoy despite some grammar issues...

Breaking Walls

„Hey, Damon...hey!" Elena shouted, trying to get a hold on Damon's arm. But he pulled himself out of her grasp harshly. "Hey, listen to me!" She said again. Grabbing his face with both her hands forcing him to turn around and look at her. "We'll survive this!" She said looking him deep in the eyes trying to make him understand. "We always survive!"

He stared back at her. Unable to hide the raw pain showing in his features for sure. Everything had gotten out of hand...everything had went wrong. "Trust me!" she added then looking for any sign of him believing that she meant it.

Damon shook his head lightly. His forehead wrinkled in thought. "We'll never get Stefan back. You know that, don't you?" he asked her then. Looking at her as though he didn't want to hear the answer. It'll always be Stefan her words echoing in his head. Of course she wouldn't give up on him. Never. She wouldn't...

"Then we'll let him go...okay?" her answer putting a hold to his thoughts. "We'll have to let him go!" she repeated. Stressing the meaning of it. His eyes searched hers. Looking for any sign of her not being honest. Wanting to know if she really meant it. Her eyes never leaving his as he slowly nodded his head in understanding. Realizing that she was serious. Her hands still rested on his face. Both suddenly aware of how close they stood. Tension building up. His eyes darting to her lips and back to those dark, brown orbs. But before either one of them could do something, a vibrating sound ripped through the silence.

Elena let go of him instantly. Feeling as being slapped by the sudden intrusion of their intimate moment. Damon's expression twisted in anger as he picked up his phone.

"Not interested in the play by play of our failure right now Katherine!" Damon answered cold, after he'd recognized the number.

Elena turned away from him. Desperately trying to ignore the emptiness that she'd felt the second she'd let go of him. She was barely listening to what Damon said. Too absorbed in her own dark thoughts about the previews events.

Did she really believe she could let Stefan go? After everything they'd been through together, did she really believe that he was gone? For good this time? How could she do this to him? No wait. She thought to herself. I didn't do anything. He was the one who had left. For the third time, she reminded herself. This wasn't her fault nor Damon's. They had not let him down. He did. It had been his choice and she would accept it. Yeah...she would let him go. In fact, she wondered if she hadn't done it already. Only realizing it now.

"Take care of yourself Katherine!" she heard Damon say. Turning back to him her face was full of concern. She searched his features. Desperately trying to read his thoughts. But he wouldn't let her. Instead he just looked at her blank. Not saying any thing, he hung his head and turned around. Leaving her starring after him in confusion.

Elena had crossed her arms watching him leave. Unable to move. She wanted to tell him that everything would be okay. She wanted him to believe her. To trust her. Just like she trusted him. It pained her seeing him like this. Broken. Hurt over the fact that his brother had betrayed them.

Hurt, knowing that Katherine had left him for good this time. Even if he'd never admit it, Elena knew that deep down he still cared about her. She turned her head, watching the flames trying to figure out what to do next. A big hole started to build inside her. Dark and cold. A shiver went through her and she felt a lump forming in her throat. She swallowed hard. Taking in a deep breath, fighting back the panic starting to overwhelm her. She wouldn't break down. Not now. She couldn't. He needed her. She couldn't leave him too. She wouldn't do that to him.

And that was when something cracked inside her. A wall that she hadn't been aware of being there. A wall in attempt to keep something hidden. Built by her own fear to give in. Held strong by the guilt that had ridden her whenever she had thought of him in a way she wasn't supposed to. Her eyes widened as the realization hit her...hard. Caroline had been right. Tyler had been right. Ric, Jeremy, Rose...Katherine...even Stefan. They all knew. Except for her. No, she'd known too, she just hadn't allowed herself too. But there was no need to deny it anymore. In fact it was selfish of her to ignore it. At this moment he needed her more then ever. He was alone and hurt. The people he'd cared about most had left him. "No!" she said out loud. "No, I did not!" and with that said into the silence of the room, she turned around and headed for the staircase. Getting more confident with every step. Knowing exactly what she needed to do next.

When she reached the door to Damon's room she nervously smoothed out her shirt and put her hair out of her face, behind her ears. She then took another deep breath in attempt to prepare herself for what she was about to do.

With one last calming stroke on her clothes she lifted her hand and knocked.

This is it for now! What do you think? Should I continue..;). I just wanted so desperately to continue where the show left us waiting...I hope it's not too hard to read, since english isn't my first language.

Please review ! and leave me your thoughts...and don't be to cruel about my possible language issues ;)

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