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chapter 1: who am I?
who am I? I'm Izumi Midoriya, but no one knows that except for me. How you ask? Well, it all started when I was just a little girl, I looked up to an amazing hero named All Might. A hero who could save hundreds of innocent and defeat thousands of villains, I practically worshipped him well I mean, he was the number 1 hero. I always dreamed of getting a quirk that was amazing and flashy so I could someday be a hero just like he was. One day my mom told me that she had made me a doctor's appointment so we could see what my quirk was rather than waiting for it to show up on its own. After they took my X-ray with a blood sample and then left me and my mom in the doctor's office to wait for the results. I was so excited to know what my quirk was... I was completely oblivious to the possibility of disappointment.
"Sorry for the wait."
"oh, it was no-"
"what's my quirk!? What's my quirk!?"
"Izumi, calm down!"
"oh it's fine ma'am, this little angel has the right to be excited because she has a very special quirk."
"Really!?" I was so excited to find out what my quirk was that I thought of hundreds of possible quirks like super strength, flight, laser eyes, skin harden, object levitation, or maybe screech. Whatever it was I just knew it was good enough to make me a hero... of course hope never got me anything good though.
"your tests have shown that you have a rare and amazing quirk that give you the power of... eternal beauty!" I cheered for a second but then got confused since I had no idea how a quirk like that could help me be a hero.
"Is this true doctor?"
"sure is Ms. Midoriya your daughter has truly a unique quirk, she can grow up to be a very successful model!" my mom was filled with joy and went over to Izumi and hugged her out of joy but then stopped when she saw Izumi's confused face.
"a model? But what about a hero?"
"a hero? you wouldn't want to be a hero with a quirk like that, it would be best to leave that to people with more combat-ready quirks, besides why be a hero when you can be a princess." Afterward, we went back home and I was watching another video of All Might saving people from a disaster, my mom was passing by my room and saw me watching the video in the dark.
"Izumi? Are you alright? Why is your room so dark?"
"momma?"
"yes dear?"
"can I be a hero? just like All Might?" I turned my chair to face her, I was smiling but was also about to cry but since the room was so dark my mom couldn't see my tears. so instead she just nervously said that it would be better to think more realistic and walked off, not knowing I started crying. That was the last day I had ever smiled again; the next school year started but I wasn't really ready to go out, my mom would have been furious with me but she could clearly see I was sad about something so she just went to my school and collected my homework for the day. It took a few hours but I eventually started my homework however, I did feel horrible getting out of bed so I went to the bathroom to wash my face. I never understood how washing ones face could make them feel better but it worked out well for my mom so as a kid I figured that it would help me too. However as I got on my stool and looked to the mirror I saw someone I didn't recognize, it took me a few seconds to find out that it was me. Turns out my quirk not only makes me pretty if I'm happy but I get ugly when I'm upset. My curly green hair tuned spiky and death black, my skin turned pale, and my eyes turned from bright greed and full of life to dark green and tired. I was no longer the little girl I once was, now I was an ugly brat that didn't care about anything anymore.
My mom was clearly struggling with the drastic changes I went through, she tried her best to make me feel better, but I never changed. I ended up missing an entire year of school and my mom wasn't having it anymore and politely demand that I go back to school. I was getting bored being home all day anyway so I decided to listen to her but rather than getting a girl's uniform I decided to pretend to be a boy by wearing a boys uniform and keeping my hair short. of course, my mom was uncomfortable with my decision but I told her that wearing a boy's uniform made me feel better about my self. The real reason was because of my hatred for my quirk so this was an act of revenge toward it, I'm not sure if she knew I was lying but either way, she let it go. On my way to school, I passed by the park and saw a kid getting beat up by three others. Oh yeah, that was the day I meet Bakugo: the asshole that makes my life suck more than it already did. I was just going to keep walking and let the poor kid have it but then for some reason, I suddenly remembered something All Might had said. A TRUE HERO WILL ALWAYS RISK THEMSELVES TO SAVE OTHERS! HAHAHA! I then put my backpack down and went over to defend the boy from Bakugo's fury.
"wanna say that again you little punk!"
"Aw come on man! You know it's true! You just need to face facts!"
"Shut Up! Or I'll burn your face off!"
*in male voice* leave him alone." I decided that if I'm going to dress like a boy I might as well talk like one as well so yeah, anyways Bakugou then let the boy go and back off while I walked over and stood between them. I don't know why but Bakugou was looking at me like I was something straight out of his nightmares, I mean, I know I wasn't at all good looking but I'm not a monster.
"w- who the hell are you?" Damn, I didn't at all think about a new name and I couldn't use Izumi, I had no idea what to call myself so I just went with a simple one close to my original.
"I'm Izuku." For some reason that really got him angry.
"you think you can tell me what to do Izuku?"
"I just know what your doing isn't right." Bakugo was staring at me with lots of anger but he then calmed down and smiled sinisterly toward me.
"so how are you gonna stop me huh? do you have the quirk to make it happen?" Bakugo's hands made an explosion and a bald fat kid behind him released dragon-like wings from his back while another kid behind him who was skinny with long black hair raised his hand and his fingers stretched out. I was about to say what quirk I had without thinking but I managed to stop myself however what I said instead wasn't exactly better.
"I'm quirkless." Bakugo was confused by this but then started laughing while taunting me.
"hahaha! Did you guys hear that?! This useless loser thinks they can take me! Let me tell you something Deku! You either have a quirk or you're a fucking nobody!" He called me Deku, in other words useless, I already knew I was useless but hearing it from someone else really got my blood boiling so I ran up and punched him in the face the very second he stopped talking.
"just because I don't have a quirk doesn't make me useless!" Bakugo was grunting in pain while the two body's behind him were shaking in fear, at first I thought they were scared of me but they were actually afraid of Bakugou going on a rampage. He didn't though, instead he did then next worst thing he could do to anyone, he ran up to me so fast that I couldn't keep up and quickly placed his hand on my right eye.
"yes, you are. DEKU!" That was how I got the huge scar on the right side of my face and that was also the first official day of my new shitty life. My mom freaked out when I came home with a large bandage over the right side of my face, and freaked out, even more, when it was time to take it off and reveal the scar. From that day forward every day up to today was the same go to school, do schoolwork, study heroes, get bullied by someone, get punched by Bakugo, go to nurses office or anywhere I can get bandages, go home, hide burns and bruises from mom, got to room and pretended to sleep or do homework, sneak out at night and go to the park and train. I don't know why but for some reason All Might and his words kept popping up in my head and as long as they did I just kept studying heroes and secretly training to be one. it was nice I guess but it never made me feel happy so I never changed I just stayed in my ugly form and never really changed back to my normal pretty form ever again. though, I figured that since All Might's words were what kept me going then maybe if I were to ever meet him or any other hero in real life then maybe be he could tell me whether or not I could truly be a hero.
well, that about wraps it up for now or I guess forever, I'm 14 now and I still dress and sound like a boy, I keep on training, and fighting through the pain and tears every day, but in all honesty, I'm getting tired and can't really see the point in trying anymore. I haven't entirely made up my mind yet but I did make sure to get some rope on my way to school and will probably make a noose when I get home. So if I decided to just end it, then whoever manages to find this diary will know what happened to me and why I did what I did. Oh, and as my last will, I would like my mom to have everything I own... and to know that I'm sorry for being a failure of a daughter. Anyways I'm just going to live out today and see how things go, who knows maybe something will drop in my life and save me... yeah right. Like that would ever happen.
Izumi then closed her diary and pulled out her hero research book Vol. 13, she was looking through her latest notes while ignoring the rest of the class. The teacher was discussing the way how quirks allow people to become heros and was praising everyone for showing off their quirks.
"Ha! Show off all you want! The only one that's ever going to be a hero *points to self* is me!"
"oh come now Bakugo, everyone has a chance to be a hero."
"everybody except Deku!" a student, who had a quirk that allowed his neck to grow, faced Izumi and smiled mockingly at her.
"a quirkless loser like him could never be a hero!" Everyone in the classroom was now mocking and laughing at Izumi, even the teacher was laughing but tried to hide it. Izumi was used to this however and just tried to ignore their laughing while continuing to write in her hero research book, but then the noodle neck got her book and held it in the air.
"hey look the loser even made a hero wannabe book!" now Izumi was getting angry so she punched the noodle neck in the face and his body fell to the ground with his neck still stretched out. this actually made everyone quiet because it was one of the only times that Izumi ever defended herself from bullies.
"Everyone shut the hell up! I already know I barely stand a chance! I don't need the opinion of you losers to remember that!"
"barely?!" Bakugou then appeared right beside her and punched her desk, releasing a small explosion as to get her attention. She was instantly scared and started to shake in fear while raised her arms to protect herself. Bakugo smiled he could always break Deku's will so easily, sometimes just by glaring at her was enough to break her will and fill her with fear.
"what the hell do you mean barely?"
"I- I j- just think t- that I-"
"listen up Deku! Out of everyone in this room! You're the real loser! Sure all these extras have lame Quirks but unlike you! They can actually be called unique! Now tell me Deku! What makes you unique?"
"N- Nothin-"
"Nothing!" Bakugo then slammed his fist on Izumi's desk and released a huge explosion.
"Your Nothing! With NO chance of ever being a hero! And that's never going to change, Deku!" Bakugou then went back to his desk feeling proud of himself while Izumi remained silent.
the day was about over so the teacher dismissed all the students. Bakugou was about to go but then saw a weird notebook that was on Izumi's desk, when he grabbed it to see what it was he became extremely angry.
"Deku, What the hell is this!"
"Ah! T- That's just, uh, notes and other t- things on my favorite h- heroes." Bakugou then flipped through the pages and seemed to get a little angrier by each page.
"quirk types, fight styles, and... possible weakness?! You trying to find out how to defeat people with quirks?!" Izumi then dropped out of her desk and onto the floor while backing away from Bakugou.
"W- What?! N- No! I- I would n- never do t- that! I- I don't even s- stand a c- chance against p- people with q- quirks! Y- You know t- that!"
"First, stop talking like a toddler! second, do you really think I can't tell when your lying!" Izumi now had her back to the wall while trembling in fear.
"I'm not lying! I swear I'm not! I would never lie to you Bakugo!"
"that better be true Deku. Or else I'll take the other side of your stupid face!" Bakugo then went over to the window and looked again at Izumi's notebook.
"it's just a notebook you use to fanboy over heroes you'll never be right?"
"Y- Yes! That's it! Nothing else!" Bakugo then smiled and burned the book with one of his explosions and threw it out the window, Izumi ran to get it but by the time she reached the window the book had already fallen out of reach. Before Izumi had the chance to pull her head out Bakugo grabbed the back of her head and forcefully made her face the ground.
"if you really want to be a hero, you should just kill yourself and pray to get a quirk in your next life."
Bakugo then let Izumi go and went to go catch up with his friends while Izumi just fell to her knees and started crying. It took her some time but she eventually found the will to get up and get her book back, after she got her book back she decided to go straight home; about halfway she passed through a tunnel and remembered Bakugo's words.
"hm... maybe Bakugo is right, I did consider ending my life today."
"is that so." Izumi's heart sank at the sound of that voice, she turned around to see a green sludge villain forming its body while looking at her. Izumi was now shaking with fear but then calmed down and faced the villain with an emotionless face.
"Y- Yeah, it's true, w- who's asking?"
"hehehe, don't really got a name or a body... and yet here you are, a young and available suit for me to wear." Izumi figured that this villain wasn't going to let her run not that she actually wanted to, besides she was going to hang her self anyway so what was the point in trying to run.
"*sigh* will it hurt?"
"hm?"
"stealing my body, will it hurt?"
"hehehe, only if you struggle." The villain then licked his teeth like a fat guy ready to chow down on an all you can eat buffet, the thought made Izumi sick but still, she closed her eyes and opened her arms, welcoming death.
"NOT SO FAST MONSTER." Both Izumi and the villain turned to see All Might standing there and smiling at them both.
"WORRY NOT YOUNG MAN! THIS VILLAIN RAIN OF TERROR ENDS NOW!" All Might then raised his fist and readied himself to throw a punch at the villain.
"TEXAS SMASH!" All Might then threw his punch and the gust of wind that came from it was strong enough to vaporize the slug villain's body and blow Izumi out of the tunnel. Izumi's body felt sore from the blow but she could still move around but instead, she was trembling a little out of everything escalating so quickly. she then slowly sat up to see what had happened but then a large hand was placed on her shoulders to help keep her up, when she looked up she was shocked to see All Might stand right in front of her.
"ARE YOU ALRIGHT YOUNG MAN?"
"*in female voice* A- A- All Might!" All Might then back off a little from the surprise of Izumi's voice and her sudden change of look that Izumi didn't notice yet. She did however noticed she let her female voice slip and tried to cough it off and make herself sound like a boy again.
"*in male voice* I- I- I- I'm so sorry! my voice cracked, I- uh... I'm just so excited to see my hero!" Izumi then couldn't help but smile at All Might, it had been the first time she had smiled since she found out what her quirk was.
"are you alright? Your whole look just changed drastically." Izumi was confused by All Might's question and reached in her bag for her mirror. When she looked into her mirror she didn't recognize herself at all, her hair was green and curly, her eyes were bright green and full of life, and her skin was no longer pale; she felt her skin and it didn't feel dry and rough like it always did instead it felt soft and hydrated like proper healthy skin she even cried a single tear of overwhelming joy because of it.
"HAHAHA! WHAT AN INTERESTING QUIRK YOU HAVE! BEING ABLE TO CHANGE YOUR LOOK AT WILL! SOMEONE LIKE YOU COULD BE A GREAT UNDERCOVER HERO!"
"wait! really?!" All Might then coughed and seemed a little shaken but then waved Izumi goodbye and was ready to jump into the air. Izumi wanted to know if what he said was true so she quickly ran to him and grabbed onto his leg before he jumped.
"now to get this villain to the- HEY, YOUNG MAN WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING?!" Izumi was holding tightly onto All Might's leg while keeping her eyes closed from the wind hitting her face.
"I- I NEED TO ASK YOU A QUESTION!"
"CAN'T THIS WAIT? YOU REALLY MUST LET GO OF ME!"
"ARE YOU CRAZY?! AT THIS HEIGHT I'LL DIE!"
"YOUNG MAN, THAT IS... AN EXCELLENT POINT- *coughs blood* shit."
"WHAT?!"
"I'M GOING TO LAND ON THE TOP OF THAT BUILDING, HOLD ON TIGHTLY!" When they landed All Might stood tall while Izumi was shaking and trying to keep still while standing.
"well now that your safe, I'LL BE ON MY WAY!"
"wait, stop!"
"I'M SORRY YOUNG MAN BUT I MUST GO!"
"but I need to ask! *takes a deep breath* Can I be a hero? Even with a useless quirk?" All Might stopped and turned his head back to Izumi.
"Useless?"
"yes, my Quirk doesn't really do anything other than make me look pre- uh, pretty good or ugly... that's all I can do with my quirk, nothing else... that's why I have to ask, can I still be a hero? Even with a useless quirk?" All Might was silent for some time but then turned his who body to Izumi and stood tall with his smile.
"What is your name young man?"
"Izum- Izuku Midoriya!" Izumi's heart was racing and a smile was threatening to form over her face.
"young man, I think you-" can be a hero! Izumi thought to herself, i- is he really going to say it?! n- no way! I think he's really going to say it!Izumi was getting her hopes up but right now she didn't care because she felt like that for once she could have something to look forward to, something to bring purpose and hope back into her life. However, she was proven wrong extremely fast when All Might had shriveled into a short man, made of skin and bones.