Chapter 1

As always, I do not own criminal minds just the OOC…As always it is femslash….It is set after Ian Doyle…Also I have changed their ages on this story….Please Read & Review.

Location; home

Month: January

The morning around came too soon, the light filtered into the bedroom through a crack in the curtains, I moved to curl into my wife's loving arms as she pulled me close, she placed a loving kiss on my forehead "Too early" I mumbled into her neck, I could feel her chuckle slightly as she pulled me closer "Well if someone would have gone to bed early" her voice trailed off slightly.

"I'll go and make us both a coffee" she gave me one last squeeze before I reluctantly let her go, "Okay" I said with a slight yawn, she gave me a soft loving look before she threw the sheets back, her soft skin seemed to shine with the soft light which caught against her flesh causing it to glow slightly in the light, I watched as she drew the dressing gown around herself. The wound, which laced her abdomen, had fully healed and left a scar in its place. It had taken me months once she had come back home, to get her to allow me to see her naked and that was over a year ago now.

I was in slight shocked that our children had not woken us both this morning the house was silent which with our two was not a good sign. The door creaked slightly as a small blonde haired child snuck into our room "Mama?" his voice so soft it again melted my heart "Mama is down stairs sweetheart" I watched as he shook his head "Want mama" his voice was laced with hurt and sadness.

I moved slightly so that I was sitting up in bed, I motioned for him to join me, which he did. Even though Emily had been back a year Henry would often worry that, his mama had gone again. It had taken months for me to get caught pregnant with him, Emily had attended every appointment, she held my hand when I had been told it hadn't took, and we both rejoiced when they told me I was pregnant.

They both have such a strong bond much as I have with Amy, I sit running my fingers through his hair as we wait for Emily to return with the much needed coffee. It has always been our morning routine since we got together, she is the protector and carer of our family and she just pampers me. This is what she loves to do though.

I smile softly as the door handle turns again "Ma?" I sighed as I patted the bed "Making me a coffee sweetie" I said softly as she curled into the other side of me.

This had been our routine for years even before Henry was born. Only we normally woke up with Amy curled into my side. I ran my fingers through her long dark hair; she really is Emily's double.

"Can one of you open the door for me" Emily called as Amy jumped off the bed, with Henry following luckily I managed to grab him so he was not able to tackle Emily whom was holding scolding hot drinks. He huffed slightly as I pulled him back as I waited for Amy to get the tray off Emily before I could let our son go to her.

I watched as her arms wrapped around him, he giggled in delight as she tickled his stomach, this was the Emily I know and love. Kind, caring, loving and full of mischief, which Henry was starting to follow her, she doted on both children.

When I look back to the time she first came to the BAU, shy, a total nerd which she still is and I fully love that quality about her, but this side of her only me and our children see.

Amy may not be mine through blood but she is my daughter it took her a few years to fully trust me but the day she called me Mom, I ended up crying with pride and joy for over an hour in Emily's arms, she had finally accepted me into her life fully and our bond only grew stronger from there.

Amy would turn 13 in a few months and me and Emily have it all planned out, well so have the team they all dote on our children like we do with Jack, we are a family and we have been through a hell of a lot but we seem stronger for it now.

However, if you had asked me that when I had to pretend my wife was dead to everyone including our children. I will just say that the team did not feel like a family too me for months.

Our wounds from that had nearly healed, Declan comes around once a week as long as we have no cases and I know deep down Emily wishes he could live with her full time, but we both know it still is not safe.

Location: BAU

I watch on as Emily and Morgan throw the rubber bands at each other, I shake my head slightly before heading into the office "They are worse than our children" I muttered under my breath to which I heard someone chuckle behind me.

"Have you only just come to that conclusion?" Hotch asked me, I laughed slightly as I shook my head. "No I worked that out over five years ago, though they do both test me even now" he raises an eyebrow at me. "Is everything okay JJ?" he asks as I close my eyes slightly, in truth everything was perfect well aside from the file, which seemed to appear on my desk like a red-hot poker digging into my side.

"Can you look at this file please?" I ask without explaining any further before making my way back into the bullpen. "Have you guys even started on those files yet?" I ask looking directly at my wife. "Does a line count?" Morgan commented from behind me, I sighed loudly before shaking my head and walking back to my office.

Morgan looked at Emily in confusion, the slight worry flickered across Emily's eyes, "What was all that about Prentiss?" he asked as my eyes tracked up to my wife's office, "I have no clue" I offered, my confusion mirrored his "I best go and check on her" I said as I tried to rack my brain as to what was going on, everything had been fine this morning, and I knew I had made her, her coffees all day, had I forgotten something?

I knocked softly on the door and I winced internally at the tone held in her voice "What" I look at her, the blue swirling orbs that allow me to see into her soul, seemed blank and void as though something had slammed down in front of her. I had never seen her like this in all the time I had known her. The only thing that came into my mind as I looked into her eyes where that they seemed in pain.

"Jennifer," I say softly though she doesn't seem to fully reply or realise it is me "don't call me that" I swallow slightly as I move towards her slightly guarded. "JJ?" I tried again this time slipping back into the name I use to call her before I fully admitted my feeling for her. Her eyes seemed to look straight through me as though I was not there as though I was a ghost in the room filled with a mountain of files and she was unable to see passed them.

I still get no response as I make my way around her desk; I slowly reach out my hand, before I flinch, one because of the sound and second because of the pain against my cheek. "Jennifer Prentiss" I scold this time, this was not my wife in front of me this was someone whom was angry and hurt and seemed unable to understand that the person she loved was at her side "don't touch me" she whispered.

I backed away slightly unsure what I was meant to do, was my wife breaking before my eyes, had the pictures which were laid before her been, all consumed in her mind and that was all she was able to see. "My sweet girl" I whispered as I moved out of her personal space unable to think what I was meant to do, I needed to either snap her out of this state or let her come to me.

Her eyes seemed haunted and it broke my heart, the soft knock pulled me away from looking at her, I think it is only the second time I have seen him worried as he entered the room closing the door behind him, Hotch the master of hiding his emotions seemed worried and slightly in shock. He gave me a slight but kind smile as though he was trying to reassure me that things were okay. Though looking back at her I had my doubts.

"What's going on Hotch?" I asked my eyes focused on my wife as I spoke. He sighed slightly as he moved towards my wife I could not help the hurt, which laced my eyes as he placed a file into my hands.

"JJ" Hotch said his voice kind but firm, though the only reaction he got was a sideward glance as she whispered "Is it true?" the words were so hushed that I almost missed it. I heard the venom and anger in my sweet loving wife something I had not seen before.

He turned and looked at me "Read the file Emily" he said with a sigh as he carefully made his way over to my broken and haunted wife.

I read the file slightly taken back with what I read; it was a letter and a case from five years prior before I joined the unit.

How did I not know about this why did she never tell me? I read the case over taking in each detail. I knew she had been in a long-term relationship and her partner had been killed but she had never told me she had been murdered.

My heart broke for her as I read that the person that had done this was going for early release and by the looks of it, it was going to be granted.

I wanted to hold her, to wrap my arms around her and tell her it was going to be okay, but I knew they would fall deaf on her ears right now; she was in turmoil as though she was reliving it again. Though what shocked me is the fact that some of our team had worked the case and no one had ever mentioned it to me or even warned me. He had been given a life sentence I couldn't understand how this was possible.

"We will fight this JJ" Hotch said or more like promised, he was protective of the team and he had always seen JJ as a daughter to him an extension of his family, the caring uncle to our children, I felt out of place unsure if I should offer comfort to her or if she wanted me anywhere near her.

Her eyes seemed to lock with mine the full concept that I was standing in the room with them I heard the slight gasp that came from her lips as she looked at my reddened cheek "Emily" I could only give her a comforting smile as I made my way towards her, catching her as she threw herself into my arms her face hiding within the crook of my neck, I felt the tears fall onto my neck as I held her tight in my arms offering protection from everything around her. "Take me home," she said in a choked breath I looked at Hotch who in turn nodded at the request.