Chapter 1: Why

Author's Note: This is my first Criminal Minds fanfiction. This starts on season 7x14 during the 200th episode. While most of this chapter will be based off this episode, it is vital that you read it because of the minor changes that I will put in here. I know it is boring to read something you have already watched, but please bear with me for this chapter; it sets up the basis for this story. This is a ReidxJJ story, but it will be filled with angst and mentions of WillxJJ.

JJ's head pounded. The blinding pain ripped through her veins as she felt cold chains tightly wrapped around her wrists. She smelt something… off, yet vaguely familiar. She dared herself to open her eyes, and she allowed the bright lights to enter her vision. When she did, she did not expect to feel the rage that entered her at the site of her sworn enemy. Askari. She tried to jerk the chains off her body, but the restrictions were too strong. She sneered at the man who put her country and so many lives at risk, and he had the audacity to sneer back as he injected the drug into her veins. She fell into the darkness.

When she awoke, she gasped in horror when she saw her former colleague and friend, Mateo Cruz. The sickening man, Askari, held her neck at an odd angle, forcing her to watch her friend suffer.

"They're trying to access integrity. We can't let them HA!" Matt said hurriedly. The words sent fear through JJ.

"You've forgotten: I know exactly how to get what I want." Askari boasted. JJ screamed in pain as the chains were yanked, but the pain was internal more than external.

'I am going to die,' JJ thought. 'My team will never get to me. They don't know anything about the classified work. And Will. Oh, Will… Oh, god, Henry. I will never see either of my boys again.' JJ had to fight the tears at her rambling thoughts.

Minutes later, liquid was burning JJ's flesh. She gasped and screamed in pain. Askari started saying something, but she didn't hear until the end.

"…the sooner this will end. Say yes if you understand." Askari said. JJ's red-rimmed blue eyes gazed up at him in disgust, and JJ bit down on his hand. Hard.

'Eat that, bastard.' JJ thought. She let a small smirk appear on her lips in victory. 'Just please, Spence, Hotch, someone find me.' JJ silently prayed to herself.

She kept getting tortured. She was drowned, and then she was revived only to be drowned again. She just kept holding onto her team and her boys at home looking for her.

She shook violently on the chains as she heard the doors slam. Askari's hands suddenly yanked her hand up.

"Soon." He said. Askari forced her head back down and left the room. JJ was still shaking in anger.

'Soon is right. You will be dead soon.' JJ thought to herself before blacking out.

She felt the electricity course through her veins, and she screamed through her teeth. She gasped in pain, and she saw people carry Cruz away into a room.

"No." she whispered.

"You have five seconds to give me what I want." Askari warned.

"5...4...-"

"You kill him; your plan is ruined." JJ exasperatedly explained.

"3...2..."

"Stop. Counting. No please."

"One."

"No." Gun fire. JJ heard someone scream before realizing it was herself. She sobbed at the thought of her now-dead friend.

"Let her down." Askari said as she gasped in trying to control her sobs. The chains fell to the ground with her. She heard doors slam, but she was sobbing in despair. Mateo was dead. She passed out.

Emily. She stroked her hair.

"JJ. God, you're freezing." Emily said. JJ gasped in relief, and she smiled at her friend.

"Emily," The gasp escaped her lips. "How did you find me?"

"It doesn't matter." Emily responded worriedly, her brown hair dangling around JJ.

"Yeah," JJ made herself nod. "He's taken everything. He can't… I think I might break." Emily's head turned to the side.

"You have to break." Cruz's voice replaced Emily's loving one.

"What?" JJ asked, confused. She then blinked, and Cruz's beaten up face replaced Emily's.

"This has to end." Cruz explained.

"Gosh, I thought-I thought you were dead." JJ managed to gasp.

"I know. They're trying to break you." Cruz explained more.

"I'm seeing things." JJ rubbed her eyes as if to find clarity within them.

"You have to break. You can't take much more of this." Cruz responded.

"No." JJ whispered.

"The time has come to give up your security codes." Cruz told her.

JJ bit her lip as the tears pooled in her eyes.

"I know." She was surprised to hear herself say.

JJ crawled over to the computer, and she cried to herself when she saw the codes were ready to be entered.

"It's okay. It's okay." Cruz's voice assured her, and she looked over at him in the chains. She shook her head, and she entered a code.

"The code's confirmed. Now we just need the second user." A man said after he yanked the laptop violently up.

"I guess we don't need you anymore." She heard Askari say. She didn't even have time to revel in the trick she just pulled on Askari. It was a code, but it wasn't the code. She gasped in sheer fear and horror.

"You kill her; you'll never get my code. Ever." Cruz promised.

"Your code. Now. Or this time she loses more than just a baby," Askari began. "YOUR CODE!" Askari yelled with malice. JJ was incredulous.

"Did you tell him I was pregnant?" JJ asked, distrust seeping through her voice.

"Of course not," Cruz promised. "I never told anyone."
"Okay," JJ shook her head. "That's enough. Come out." JJ demanded.

"Who are you talking to?" Askari asked.

"Not to you, but to your boss. Come out and face me, you coward." JJ demanded with anger shaking in her voice. The tears were threatening to spill. The door slammed. The man who she suspected came through the door with a smirk on his face.

"How did you know?" Hastings asked.

"Askari couldn't possibly know I was pregnant. I didn't tell anyone, not even my husband. I only told Matt. Right before you came to give me that message from the BAU. How long were you listening before you approached?," JJ asked with a shake of her head. "The humvee attack proved I was right about an inside man," JJ said incredulously.

"And look what it cost you." Hastings snapped back.

"Why won't you kill me? Matt won't give you what you want." JJ said with tears of anger and betrayal evident in her voice.

"She's right." Matt agreed.

"Don't I know it." The man said before pulling on the chains causing JJ to be lifted back up. The man approached her.

"But I also know you, Matt, and what line you won't let me cross." The man said. His hands were on JJ's sides. JJ felt disgust course through her body.

"Jareau is your Achille's heel, and I don't blame you. She's… an attractive woman." The man said while he took JJ's face in his hands. JJ sneered in anger.

"Don't touch her, you sick son of a bitch!" JJ heard Cruz demand.

"Maybe I can make you one. Another one." The man said as he lifted her shirt to feel up her impressively toned stomach. She felt her blood begin to boil.

"Take your time, Matt. I've been thinking about this for years." The man said as he started unbuttoning her blouse. JJ shivered in disgust.

"Matt, don't. I'm fine. I'm fine." JJ tried to convince her friend.

"I'm fine. I'm fine." JJ quivered as she felt his disgusting fingers undo the button of her FBI slacks. Matt looked like he was going to say something to protest, but he was quickly knocked out by another man.

"Sadly, Jennifer, it looks like Matt won't be able to give us the code." Hastings said with fake sympathy as he undid the zipper of her slacks. JJ swung her body around, and she bared her teeth in effort to fight what was about to happen. Hastings smirked.

"Jeniffer, baby, save some of the kink for a minute." Hastings said cockily. JJ screamed in defiance, and she bit Hastings' arm. Hard. JJ also tried to pee herself for protection, but since she was so dehydrated, nothing would come out. She cried in despair as she felt the cool air hit her legs, and then her arms. Her undergarments were revealed to Hastings, and she noticed her liked it by the bulge in his pants. She wanted… needed to puke. She thrusted her body forward, and she body-slammed him hard, which knocked him back a few feet.

"Jennifer. Here." Hastings said with false-kindness in his voice. He stuck a needle in her arm, which sedated her. She could use her sense, but she couldn't move. She was about to be raped, and there wasn't a damn thing she could do about it. She felt her undergarments leave her body before the chains were undone and she was carried to another room. She was laid down on a table.

"Jennifer." Hastings moaned as he stripped his boxers and pants from his body. She felt the stinging pain as he violated her in the most intimate of ways. He was raping her.

'Spence. Where are you?" JJ wanted to scream. She could feel Hastings fill her with his semen, and she threw up on the floor before she blacked out.

The lights flickered, and JJ felt a rush of hope. She was fully dressed and hanging on the chains again.

'They're here.' JJ promised herself.

JJ gasped as she saw what Askari was about to do.

"No! Stop! Matt!" JJ yelled, but the knife went deep into his side. Askari walked over to her, but before he could finish her off for good, she heard the beautiful sounds of gunshots. Tears of relief streamed down her face.

"Ohh!" JJ gasped.
"Emily; I knew they'd call you. I knew it." JJ was crying. She'd never been so relieved in her life. Emily was really here undoing the chains that bound her.

"Alright, shh." Emily cooed to JJ. It was the most beautiful sounds she'd ever heard.

"Are you okay?" Emily asked.

"I'm fine. Help Matt, please." JJ begged. She bolted out of the room in blind rage. JJ ran towards the sound of gunshots. She saw Hastings, and she darted after him. She climbed stairs like a pro, and eventually, she got to the roof. She shot the man who had just violated her; the one who'd taken everything away. She missed. Emily came up next to her, and she fired some more. Emily ran off after him, and she climbed the stairs. Emily pounced at Hastings, and JJ was now on the roof with them. She kicked him, and she punched, and she eventually pushed him off the roof. She could feel her body starting to fall, too, and her heart was beating so violently she was surprised it didn't burst out of her chest.

'This is it,' JJ thought 'I'm going to die right now.'

"I got you!" Emily's voice promised. She felt Emily's hand on her arm, and JJ allowed a smile on her face. She looked down at Hastings' dead body before Emily pulled her to safety. JJ immediately embraced her savior into a hug.

The rest of the night was a blur of hugs and tears. She couldn't even remember her conversation with Matt in the ambulance. She just felt empty inside.

And that concludes the first chapter. It was brutal and graphic, I know. I will try to steer clear of that for the rest of the story.