This is my first story I have posted...This happends to be only the first page out of eight, So let me know if you want me to keep posting if it catches anybody's fancy. I hope you enjoy it.
For the first time in my life it feels like I have to concentrate just so I can keep my heart beating. My chest is so heavy with all reminders of how I have impacted so many lives just because I won the generational doppelganger lottery. My Aunt was sacrificed, Sacrificed for god sakes, Jeremy had to have his memory altered and sent across country just so he wasn't killed. Caroline was killed and turned into a vampire even though her mother hunts vampires. Bonnie's mom ran out on her, because fifteen years ago Michael came looking for me and she used her magic to bind him in a crypt somewhere, just to have Bonnie find her for a week before Abby was killed and turned into a vampire so I wasn't killed. Stephen had his free will taken away from him because he was trying to protect me from Klaus. I am the one who deeply wounded Damon by my words now I am might have pushed him over the edge and Matt lost his sister who was the last family member he had who gave a crap about him.
I was still sitting in my car after I just left Bonnie's house, Caroline said she didn't want to see me and she was waiting for her mother to make the full transition to vampire. I can understand why she doesn't want to see me. I am pretty sure they all blame me for what happened this evening. No one knows that Elijah already knew that I lied to him at the ball, would anyone even believe me after I spent most of the day worrying about signing Elijah's death warrant anyway? I wouldn't if I were them. It was all just too much for me to handle anymore. Sitting in my driveway unable to find the motivation to walk inside my empty childhood home somehow made all of this worse. My thoughts hadn't slowed down enough for me to be aware of my surroundings so when I heard my passenger door open I jumped so violently that my seatbelt dug into my collarbone.
"It seems you have had an interesting day there love" Klaus said while he shut the passenger door of my car.
"What do you want Klaus?" I said in an exasperated tone, I knew I should sound afraid but I was too exhausted for it to come out that way.
"Well it seems that it is time for you and me to talk. My siblings have taken off, well all except Rebecca and so it is time for us to come to another arraignment. Firstly I am going to need to make some more hybrids so you can take off to the hospital right after we are done here. What I really want to tell you is I think it is time to start the next generation of Patrovas and since you seem to only fall for vampires I will be glad to find someone for you but I will give you a few days to get started and in return I will guarantee that you and your linage will be safe from any harm" He finished while smiling like he offered me a million dollars.
"And what If I don't want to continue the Patrova line?" I knew that if I had a child eventully another doppelganger would come along and her fate would be sealed, I could never do that but I knew Klaus would never take no for an answer.
"Well love, you don't have a choice, I was just being nice saying that you had a choice. So I guess if you don't find a partner I will for you with or without your consent" He said as he opened the car door and stepped out. "Oh, they are waiting for you to give a donation at the hospital go ask for a girl named Megan." With that he closed the door and disappeared into the night.
I don't know how long I sat there just sitting in my car but I knew one thing. I had finally reached my limit and I could feel something inside of me brake. I didn't even know what I was doing until I left the hospital with a bandage over the inside of my elbow that was holding a cotton ball in place. Driving back to my house was a blur and when I pulled back into my driveway I saw the clock say 11:49. In a complete daze I have noticed that I walked into my room and when I looked around I had knots in my stomach and I was finding difficult to breath, I couldn't stay here. Next thing I registered was me running back out to my car with a small bag in my hand. Half aware that must have packed a small bag but for the life of me I couldn't say what was inside. Putting my car in reverse, I slammed on the gas and just drove as fast as I could.
I didn't have a destination in mind, I would have gone over to the Salvatore mansion but I couldn't face either of them, I think I had a sneaking suspicion that it was because I couldn't stand rejection or indifference at the moment. Just the thought of it pushed all the air out of my lungs, I was about to lose it. I didn't know where I was going until I pulled up to the small house and turned off the car. It was approaching one in the morning. While I was debating if this was a good idea I saw the kitchen light turn on and someone walking around. With a deep sigh I got out of my car and walked up to the door. I was half aware that I have had tears running down my cheeks ever since I left the hospital. As I raised my hand to knock I saw that my hand was shaking violently. Why haven't I noticed? I still was unsure if this was a good idea but I had to talk to someone. When the door opened I must have miss judged how bad I looked by the slide show of emotions that crossed Matt's face. Surprise, fear, concern and shock with sadness winning out.
"Can I come in" I asked uncertain with a shaky breath.