A/N - This idea came few days back when i saw some weird news about upcoming season 4. (Not gonna watch it so idk why i bother with this. Most of you won't read this, anyway)

Anyway, this is a CO-OP project. I want to ask you people to work with me. So we can make a huge Nalex story where we can have lots and lots of Nalex one-shots. Take this project as a haven for those who wanna read sweet Nalex stuff, but they are tired from the Salex/Mikita bombarding everywhere. (Not a hater, just saying)

Just PM me if you wanna join us. So far we are three that are working on this project. Wanna add your story/idea ? Want to share it with us ? PM or email me. You don't need to be a writer to be a writer to have ideas ! Believe me ! Everyone will be credit, don't worry.. I wont steal your idea and say its mine lol...

Want to thank Nikalex and Ayushi95 for agreeing to help me. Love you girls so much.

Anyway, this is my official part 1 of this story. Enjoy it, if you can.

Today was a strange day indeed. Alex realized that when she looked into the calendar. Her hands started shaking with fear, since her memories replayed every bad thing she had to do on this day, few years back. She felt so bad..

On her own birthday..

A day. Nothing else. Day that..brought dark memories. Everything did. Every one day did. But her birthday was somehow.. much worse. Not because no one remembered, or told her sweet words of congratulations, but because of one simple things. She was alone. Her family dead, her friends dead. Nobody left to talk to her. Other girls tried. They really did but.. It was not the same. It never was. One man however always remembered. One man always brought gifts. More drugs. More work. Those were her gifts. She honestly hated this day to the bone..

But now..

She wondered if Nikita remembered ? A great question. She always did, few years back since her training began. But now ? She's been running out without telling her, going when the sun came down, and going back when it raised up again. Alex realized that things were never going to be like they used to.. They won't just sit in front of the plasma TV and watch horrors or maybe even comedies. It was few weeks before her insertion into Division, and so..Alex realized that maybe, Nikita was more concerned than she was. She saw it in her eyes, every time they talked about it. So, maybe Nikita did forget, but what about it ? She gave her more than anyone before her did. She gave her safety, a perfect friendship, home... But secretly, Alex wondered if Nikita could give her one more thing..

Love..

Lost in her thoughts, Alexandra never noticed those perfect hands on her belly, the sweet breath on her neck, then her ear. She smiled, both embarrassed by her daydreaming, and happy to see and feel Nikita in this way. Her entire body suddenly relaxed to her touch, her eyes closed to enjoy this heat and warmth Nikita's body was radiating. She felt so safe in her arms..

She always wondered if the Legendary Nikita felt this too. But, why should she ? Why would anyone ? She was just a ex-junkie, anyway. With nothing to offer.. Nikita would never-...

But maybe she would. The way she held her.. As if protecting her from everything. Partially even from herself.. Maybe there was a chance after all ?

No..

This was an act of friendship, nothing more. She had to remember that, no matter what..

Suddenly, Nikita's grip hardened. One of her hand pointed at today's date. "You know i could never forget.." she whispered, as her hand went to touch Alex again. The poor Russian girl had to fight hard to keep her head cool, and her lust at bay. She needed to stay calm and in control. But it was so damn hard..

Alexandra smiled wildly when she heard those words. She knew Nikita would never forget. Never. But still. She surely had her own plans. "Its just that.." she tried to say but her voice was suddenly broken, and her throat dry. Nikita giggled a bit, a sound that Alex enjoyed and..loved.

"Shh..We're gonna enjoy tonight alright ?" Nikita said, letting Alex go. She went to pick something from the fridge. Alex wanted to scream from joy. She couldn't believe this. Another night together. Nikita was done in the fridge, taking a bowl full of grapes from it. As she saw Alex's smile, and her happy, almost childish look, she smiled too. She slipped one berry into Alex's mouth, caressing her cheek. "Really ?" Alex said when she was finished with the grape. She loved when Nikita was like this. It felt so good to feel her touch like this. Even though it was just a simple friendly act..

Nikita couldn't believe how a simple night could mean so much for her student. It was a while since she saw her this happy. "Yeah.. Just us, like always. If you want ?" She knew this question was utterly not-needed. She knew her answer the second she asked. Alexandra, as if the devil himself possessed her, hugged her Sensei tightly, squeezing every tiny little breath out of her perfect body. "Of course !" Alex screamed and Nikita couldn't even breathe.

"Can't breathe.." Nikita managed to whisper, slowly tapping Alex on her shoulder. The Russian princess immediately loosened her grip, smiling, maybe even laughing in the process. "Sorry.." she said as she placed the lonely strand of hair behind Nikita's ear, still laughing. And Nikita couldn't help it too. She had to laugh with the princess. She simply had to. "Hey, relax okay ? This is your day, after all.." she said, placing another berry into her mouth. She knew how much Alex enjoyed the sweet taste of the white grape. When she was finished, she simply nodded, shaking her head.

"Thank you. I mean it" Alexandra simply smiled, that warm smile on her beautiful smile. Nikita never noticed just how much her student had grown up, until now. She's becoming more and more beautiful by every day. It felt so strange to be this close to the person that was so...Perfect. In her own way.

She knew that Alex desperately missed their nights together, just sitting on the sofa, watching movies. She knew it very much. Nikita missed them too. But, things had to be done. And her birthday gift had to be prepared. So, for the last time, Nikita needed to leave their apartment, knowing very well that Alex will be partly sad. "Need to go pick some stuff but..after that i'm all yours" she said, slowly caressing her student's cheek, smiling in the process.

Alexandra was, for the first time, entirely sure that there could be something for them. Nikita was the woman she desperately loved, and that would never change. No matter what. Her Sensei was acting very strangely today. All those touches and..sweet words. It was almost as if..

No. It was simply because of her birthday. There was nothing else..

Alex quickly shook her head, nodding wildly. She knew that her Sensei had other things to do. She couldn't just sit here all day with her, like old days. Alex smiled, understanding the situation she was in. "Yeah, yeah.. Gonna read some stuff until you're back" she whispered, and Nikita could see that tiny part of disappointment in her eyes. But she let it slip, for now. She had much bigger plans for them tonight.

Alex left to the living room, back to read her book. When Nikita was sure that she couldn't hear her, she silently whispered to herself, her arms hugging herself tightly. "If you only knew how much i love you.."

It was true. Nikita secretly, but very strongly loved her younger student. And she felt no shame for that. The girl was so beautiful and energetic, so full of life and.. Even though guilt played a huge role in her mind when she decided if she should really love this girl or not, she simply tried to ignore it. If things would end well, she would tell her the whole truth. She felt that no matter what, she should really tell her..

Nikita had no right to keep that information from her, after all. No matte if it would cost her her own life. When Nikita saw her student reading that old book, her fingers played with the paper, her lips full and..surely so soft.. she realized that no matter how this night will end, she will tell her how she feels. She had to. It was eating her brain since the time she found her dying on the floor.

Maybe, if she was lucky, things would end well.

And maybe not.

Nikita was...Well, Nikita. She tried to fight her feelings for her student, just like she always fought everything standing in the way of her revenge. But..She just couldn't. Not anymore. Not after seeing Alex so happy and.. She always wondered if the girl had the same feelings as she did. She wondered if her younger student loved her the way she loved Alex. Because if this was nothing but a simple need, simple lust, it wouldn't make any sense.

And so, when Nikita picked Alex's gift from the jeweler, her hands were shaking. Not because of gigantic amount of money she had to pay for it, but because of the fact that tonight, she would confess. And because of the fact, that she feared rejection, maybe even more than death. But... She had to get it out of her mind. She had to confess..

Nikita looked at the gifts she ordered, and her friend, a forger, smiled, shaking his head. "Its a pretty detailed work. Pretty expensive too.." he packed the things he managed to create into a pretty gift box, and Nikita simply laughed. Placing her money on the counter, she shook her head, not thinking about the enormous value. Her Princess was worth it. "That's alright.." said Nikita as she placed the gift box into her pocket.

The forger laughed as he counted now his money. "Hope its worth the money.." the forger said, going back to his separated room. And as Nikita was leaving the shop, she smiled, putting her headphones on, switching her iPod to her favorite tune.

"She's worth far more.." she whispered, disappearing into the crowd.

The day was... interesting. Nikita cooking was something Alex never hoped to even dream about. Seeing how she's frustrated about how one thing is burning and the other thing is still raw, Alex nearly cried from laughter when her Sensei flipped over the bowl of already done spaghetti on the floor. Seeing the disciplined and always calm Nikita, the woman who could move a fucking mountain if she would have wanted, screaming and yelling over the ruined food. Priceless. Simply priceless. And even though Alex asked if she needed some help, Nikita simply waved he away, stating that "She had everything under control". Silly Nikita. But Alex understood. She wanted to do everything herself, mainly because of Alex's birthday. And so, when Alex asked "Should i leave you for a few hours ? You know, so you can be alone and everything..", Nikita was more than grateful. Finally, she would have some privacy. And finally, she could think of a perfect plan to confess her growing emotions..

And Alexandra ? She, too, was rather happy to leave. At least, she could think in peace. About everything. About her life. She felt, deep inside, that Nikita was way out of her league. One so perfect would never want to have something with an used tool. No matter how hard, or painful it is, the Russian princess just knew the truth. But..Nikita was acting really strange today. Like, really, really strange. She's distracted by mainly everything, as if she was planning some bank heist or something. It was strange to see this side of her Sensei, Alex though.

Few hours later, it was already dark. Alexandra wandered the streets, keeping her head down, thinking. The iPod Nikki bought her few weeks back provided her with enough tunes and enough sweet and encouraging words that the Princess made her decision. She will tell her Sensei tonight. She had to. This secret was eating her brain. However.. Rejection. She feared it more than her relapse. And Nikita WILL surely reject her. There was no doubt about that. But maybe.. Maybe there was a small glimpse of hope. Maybe.. Just maybe..She decided that she wanted to see her Sensei. She missed her far too much now. Alexandra wondered, just how hard it will be after the insertion. She wondered just how exactly will she handle the separation ? It felt strange to be attached to something other than drugs..

When Alex entered their apartment, the lights were out. On the floor, there was a small path made by the candles, leading towards the living room. Leading towards her waiting Sensei and the table full of delicious looking meals. From simple cupcakes, to very interesting looking meals. Alexandra was more than surprised. At fist, she wandered if her Sensei really cooked all this by her own. But when she saw her bandaged fingers, she realized that... Nikita had to make this on her own.

It was all so sweet and perfect. Alex couldn't speak properly. Words were stuck in her throat, her eyes fixed first on the beautiful table and then at her Sensei. She was looking so beautiful. The Princess was so amazed by this beauty. This Goddess that was standing in front of her. It felt so strange to.. See her like this. Relaxed and..waiting for her. Like a lover would wait for her love. Wife waiting for her..wife.

When Alexandra saw the concerned look on her Mentor's face, she tried to say something, but it was futile. Words were stuck in her throat. "Nikita..." Alexandra tried to say more, but she couldn't. Nikita was even more concerned. "I know its not perfect but-" Nikita tried to apologize, even though there was no need, but Alex quickly interrupted her by hugging her tightly, never wanting to let her go. Never. Her embrace was exactly what the Princess needed.

Nikita hugged her back. She always did. No matter if it was wrong, no matter if it hurt in the end. Nikita will always hug her princess back, no matter what. Alexandra, still lost in her thoughts about this perfect woman in her arms, realized that Nikita was was surely surprised. "Its perfect.." she whispered, very slowly loosening the grip on her Sensei. Nikita laughed, placing the lonely strand of hair behind her ear. Just like she did this morning. Nikita smiled happily when she saw those beautiful blue eyes smile in their own way. It was simply too cute and too beautiful to ignore. "Anything to make you happy.." Nikita said, slowly stepping back when she felt her hand wandering on places she had no access to. And when her own eyes focused on Alex's lips, thing were even worse. She needed to calm down..

She needed to.. But Alex looked so damn beautiful. She always did, that was the harsh truth. Lust and passion played their nasty games on Nikita's mind, as they both sat near each other, looking at the delicious food lying in front of them. Alex was mesmerized by the beauty in front of her, and the Goddess sitting right next to her. She was finally feeling fine, after all those years of servitude, she was finally feeling free. However, Nikita looked more than anxious. Scared and.. tired as well. Alexandra thought of something that could lighten the mood a bit. "It actually looks eatable !" she said, taking one of the cupcakes, very slowly tasting it, as if testing the waters.

Nikita simply laughed. She admitted it herself that cooking wasn't something she was talented in. And Alex, like always, simply smiled at this. It was fun to see the perfect Nikita being imperfect in something so trivial as cooking. When Alex tasted the sweet little thing, at first, she made a strange face. Nikita stared, confused and partly afraid. It surely wasn't that bad right ?

Right ?

Alex quickly shook her head, smiling and laughing as she very eagerly ate the tasty sweet. Nikita, both annoyed and frustrated with her young Princess simply, very gently smacked her to her shoulder, making that 'I will murder you in your sleep' face. Alex couldn't help but laugh. "Not funny !" Nikita said, taking her own cupcake, slowly tasting it. "I was cooking it the whole day !" and with this, Nikita quickly ate it, wanting to prove that her creations were eatable. She had hoped. Alexandra's belly just hurt from the amount of laughter. And this night just started ! This was gonna be fun ! Alex found another way to tease her Sensei a bit. "I know right ? Sensed the burned stuff all day.." she said, taking another sweet. But this time, instead of eating it herself, she slowly placed it into Nikita's mouth, tracing the pattern of her upper lip with the whipped cream. Nikita hungrily tasted it, enjoying the fact that her younger student was feeding her like this. It felt so good. But she wanted more. Her lust for the Russian girl was overgrowing all her senses..

However, she had to control herself. This could wait a few more hours. "It actually tastes nice.." Nikita said, cleaning her mouth with the tissue. She looked at the rest of the food that was lying on the table, and Alex laughed, seeing another way to make fun of her Sensei a bit more. "I'm sure it does.. And if not, well.. We can use it against Division one day !" Alexandra laughed, eating another sweet. Nikita couldn't believe this. Her student was making a total fool of her. She was still acting so childishly..

But her beauty. So beautiful. So perfect..

Nikita could never be angry at this perfect woman..

"I'm just gonna ignore this.." Nikita said, drinking her glass of wine. Alexandra stared confused when she saw the glass of milk in her glass. She wanted to say something, but the look Nikita gave her was enough for her. This was simply out of pure fun. Alexandra shook her head, slowly tasting the sweet, almond milk. "Ah, i know you love it.." she whispered, placing the glass of milk back on the table. Her eyes were focused on the perfect looking meals in front of her.

Nikita flinched when she heard the word love, coming out of Alex's mouth. It felt so strange to be afraid of this one, simple word. "That's..Not the only thing i love..." Nikita whispered, sipping a bit more from her wine. Since Alex was focused on the food, she didn't heard her. "Huh ?" she asked with a raised eyebrow, smiling and partly laughing. Nikita quickly shook her head, smiling too. A bit embarrassed by her sudden lack of control.

"Nothing, nothing. Lets start.." she quickly said back, taking the fork into her hand. She was more than excited to taste her own creation. Alex looked a bit skeptical however. Nikita wanted to ask what was wrong again, but the Russian princess quickly raised from the table, running towards the bathroom

"Will wash my hands first.. Be right back !" she yelled back at her Sensei, closing the doors behind her.

Nikita couldn't help herself. Fear attacked her broken mind, as she reminded herself those few simple rules she made few years ago. She was never supposed to fall for her student. She needed to train her, not love her. This was all wrong...

But seeing her like this, happy and at peace. Nikita couldn't help herself.

And so, when Alexandra came back from the bathroom, happily running back to the table, Nikita was simply...mesmerized again.

The night was.. Perfect. The food was perfect. The atmosphere was perfect. Everything was just perfect. Alex knew that Nikita made extra sure that this night will be forever marked in her memory.

And it worked rather well.

After the fancy dinner, which was actually pretty good, they both argued about what movie to watch. While Nikita wanted to watch something with a deeper meaning, Alexandra just wanted to scream from terror. So, she picked the first movie she saw. And it was a total disaster, simply because the movie sucked so much. So, after few more minutes of watching, she utterly forgot about the movie, and her eyes silently begged her to look at her Sensei. She saw the determination in her Mentor's look. Determination to understand this nonsense of a movie.

Nikita of course, her senses still up like the never sleeping raven, sensed Alex's eyes on her. She smiled to herself, stopping the movie for a while. Alexandra quickly shook her head, embarrassed that she was caught while staring. "This is weird.." she said, pointing at the now stopped movie. Nikita smiled, scratching her chin, thinking. "Well, it is a bit strange.." she said, laughing at her student. Alex, now feeling a bit stupid, tried to re-think the story."So basically, the woman killed herself and her baby..Because she was nuts..And now she hunts these two girls ?" Alexandra tried to explain the best she could, and after a while of thinking, Nikita nodded.

Alex was annoyed. Of all the good movies she could pick, she picked this one. "Oldest story in the book.." her palm hit her forehead, and she sighed heavily. She went to pick more popcorn from the kitchen, and Nikita couldn't help herself, so she stared at her perfect body walking away. She quickly reminded herself that this was no a part of her plan. "Well, you picked it so.." Nikita said as she regained her power back, switching the movie back on. Alex came quickly back, in her hands a bowl full of popcorn. "It looked good !" she yelled, staring at the TV. When another victim died, Nikita quickly shook her head, laughing. "Lets just...Finish it i guess ? I'm picking the next one.."

And the both agreed that it was the right choice.

After a while of watching all those horrid and so scary scenes, Alex notices Nikita in the moonlight, since they were practically sitting right next to the big windows. She was totally mesmerized by the sudden beauty her Sensei radiated. As she noticed Nikita's skin, bathed in the moonlight, she realized that her Sensei really looked like a Goddess. Pure and perfect, without a single flaw. A being so perfect and natural, that she instantly fell in love with her. So focused was the Russian Princess on her Mentor's ethereal beauty, that she didn't noticed that her own body was shaking involuntarily. She did not know if it was because of the excitement, or from the sudden cold. Nikita, of course, immediately noticed this."You're shaking.." she said, pointing at the goosebumps on her skin. Alex smiled, hugging her own blanket more tightly. "A bit cold.." she said, still not knowing if it was the truth.

Nikita, as the gallant Knight she surely was, raised her own blanket, tapping on the space right next to her. "Come over here.." she said, and Alex was more than happy to comply. Not only because of the cold, but simply because being this close to Nikita, under one blanket, was something she loved. It felt nice to feel her Mentor's body this close to her own. "Feels good..." Alexandra whispered, placing her head in the crook of Nikita's neck. Suddenly, it felt so natural. Nikita nodded, feeling the desperate need to kiss her student. She needed to taste those lips so badly..

She did something else. Her hand went to hug her Student through her waist, wanting to press her perfectly formed body closer against her own. "Is it okay if i..." Nikita tried to ask, but she was quickly interrupted by Alex's nod. The girl was simply perfect. "Yeah, sure.. Go ahead.." she said, her head still resting on her Mentor's neck. This moment, right here, was just so beautiful and perfect. Being this close to each other, touching like this. Alex knew that even though this will never happen again, she would be happy that it happened exactly on her birthday.

Suddenly all bad memories were gone. There was only this moment. Nothing else. There was no Division, no pain. Nothing. Just this moment. This feeling of perfection and total serenity. Alexandra never felt so safe. Being in her Mentor's hands like this. It was just perfect.. Everything was. Nikita, on the other hand, felt so nervous, it actually hurt. Alex was always this close, but now. It felt strange. Nikita would always calm and hug Alex after a terrific nightmare, or a simple breakdown. But now...The actual thought of Alex loving her the same way she loves her. That was what made this moment so strange. Partly even awkward. Because if Alex will reject her feelings tonight, moments like these will never be available. Not anymore. So, this was it. Nikita decided that she would wait no more. If this evening was to be destroyed, there was no need to wait any longer.

Nikita stopped the movie and Alex was confused. The ex-division agent felt butterflies in her stomach. A feeling she didn't felt like..forever. She clenched her fists, closing her eyes, taking a deep, deep breath. "Alex ?" she asked, her hands shaking wildly, voice stuck in her throat. Nikita never felt so nervous her entire life. Alex, trained well by her Sensei, noticed this rather quickly. Her eyes curiously scanned Nikita's face, looking for any clues for this sudden nervosity.

"Yeah ?" she asked simply, that mesmerizing smile still on her beautiful face. Nikita had those words on her tongue. All that remained was to open her mouth and to say them. A futile chance. Why was is so hard to say I love you ? She said it countless times before. With her targets. With men she never cared about. And now when she wanted to tell these words to the girl she secretly loved since the beginning ? She couldn't. Fear took over, creating another version of the speech she had prepared. "Um..Your gift ! Yeah, that's it.. Stay here, i'm gonna get it.." Nikita said, instantly going up, not even looking back at her still confused student.

Calm down..Nikita said to herself. She eagerly searched for the gift that was crafted specially for Alexandra. It even had her name engraved into it. She smiled, slowly walking back to the living room. She cursed her weak mind for being so... weak. Unable to say these simple words.

Calm down..Alexandra said to herself, unable to think about anything else, but her Sensei. It was simply too hard to focus on anything else. She couldn't. She was so close to actually taste those velvet lips of Nikita's. She wanted to. So much. When she saw Nikita slowly walking to her, a beautifully packed gift box in her hands, she wanted to cry.

It all looked so sweet, and no matter what was inside, she would surely enjoy it.

Nikita was standing few inches away from Alex, offering her hand. The Russian Princess gladly took it, standing from the couch, her eyes fixated first on the gift, then on Nikita's beautiful cheshire eyes. Eyes that promised love and pleasure, even though their owner acted quite differently. "Here.. Hope you'll like it.." said Nikita, handling the gift to her younger student.

The smile she saw warmed her heart to no bounds.

"I'm sure i will.." said Alex as she very eagerly unpacked her her gift. Like a child on Christmas Eve, unwrapping its gift. Nikita laughed as those tiny pieces of papers were flying all over the place. "Lets hope so.." Nikita stated, sitting on the couch. She was quite nervous..When Alexandra was finished with unwrapping her carefully packet gift, she opened the small box, and inside it, was a necklace with the Udinov emblem on it, along with a beautiful bracelet that looked exactly same like the necklace. Alex immediately recognized the U letter. Her eyes watered with new build tears, her hands started shaking. She had to sit down. "Nikita.. Its.." she tried to ask, but her voice was too broken to work. Nikita gripped her hands, a silent comforting gesture. She planned this for a long time. Repairing Alex's one and only heritage left ? That was worth all her money. No matter the outcome.."Yeah.. I took it the day i found you. It was all burned and the chain was broken but.. A friend of mine managed to get it fixed.. He even managed to make a bracelet to it.." Nikita traced the U letter with her finger, smiling at Alex.

The girl however was in the loss of words. She just stared, her hand covered her mouth. "Oh my god.." she whispered, tears slowly ran down her still surprised face. Her Sensei quickly tried to comfort her a bit more. "Hope its not too much..I was going through my options and this seemed like a perfect gift for your birthday.." Nikita said with a smile, her fingers playing with Alex's hair.

Alexandra was, to be specific, totally shocked. She never thought she would see anything from her old life. And now this.. It felt so strange to hold her mother's necklace in her hands. The hard, yet very smooth platinum metal in her hands was just..perfect. She remembered the day it broke loose. When she destroyed it. And then the fire. She was sure it burned in that flaming inferno that caught and destroyed her house. But now, it was in her hands. With a bracelet no less. She simply couldn't believe this.

Alexandra was so caught in her memories and thoughts about her past, that she never heard Nikita's worried whispers."Alex ?" Nikita asked asked, tracing the pattern on her chin. No answer again. Nikita was getting more and more nervous. Afraid even. "Hey, Alex ? If you don't like it then we can pick something else. I don't want to-" her words were interrupted when suddenly, out of nowhere, Alex hugged her tightly, still holding her gift. She hugged her so tightly that Nikita had problems to properly breathe. But she didn't cared. Feeling Alex so close and happy.. It was worth it. Her happiness was worth anything..

"Its beautiful ! I love it !" Alex cried out, still holding Nikita tightly, but she let go when she heard coughs and gasps for air. She quickly apologized, Nikita immediately shook her head, smiling in the process. Her hand was still forgotten on Alex's chin. "I'm very glad.." she said, her eyes focused on those ocean blue's. She could easily drown in them. Nikita loved to stare into them. Alex however was still playing with her gift. "Will you help me please ?" she asked, handling Nikita her old/new necklace. Alexandra turned back, showing her neck. And the beautiful butterfly tattoo. Nikita gulped, feeling like a wild animal when she touched her skin. "Y..yeah sure thing.." she said, locking the necklace tightly so it wouldn't fall anytime soon.

Then, Alex quickly put her new bracelet on her hand, looking at it and observing the perfect work. It even had her name engraved into the hard platinum metal. She turned back to Nikita, looking at the necklace on her neck. "Beautiful.." she whispered, smiling gently. And, suddenly, Nikita's resolve broke.

"Not as much as you.." she whispered, her gaze dropping at the couch. Alex, both surprised and glad to hear these words tried to let it slip. A simple friendly gesture, right ? But she couldn't. Something in her mind told her that this time, Nikita truly meant these words.

"You're very beautiful yourself you know.." Alex whispered, her hand, now fully self aware, touched Nikita's still confused and scared face, bringing her gaze back to her. They both smiled into each other's eyes, Nikita's hand joined Alex's, holding her on her face. It felt so good to feel her touch. Nikita's other hand went to caress Alex's cheek. Alex closed her eyes when she felt the sweet sensation. "No, not as much as you.." Nikita whispered, slowly moving closer to her younger student. Alex realized this and smiled, letting her hand fall down. Nikita's hand however never left her beautiful face. "This is a bit awkward..." said Alex, laughing a bit. Nikita suddenly stopped her movement, her eyes focused solely on those ocean blue eyes.

"I know it is..I can't help myself around you Alex.." she whispered, her hand still caressing Alex's cheek. "What do you mean ?" Alexandra asked, enjoying this perfect feeling. She dreamed of this moment from the very beginning. And it was.. It was finally here. Nikita however was embarrassed beyond any healthy measures. She had to leave. Like..right now. "I...I don't want to make things awkward between us.." she said, standing up but Alex, swift as her Sensei, quickly caught her hand, forcing her to stay in place.

"Hey..You can never do that.." she said, still holding Nikita's hand. This was far too important to let embarrassment destroy this. It was decided. She would see this to the end. Nikita laughed, still partly confused. Things surely weren't going as planned. "I just can't help it.." she said when Alex finally let go of her hand. Her gaze fell to the stopped TV that was now entirely forgotten. Poor movie was destined to never be finished. Alex smiled, her hand on Nikita's shoulder, gently caressing her. "What is it ?" she asked with sweetness in her voice. Nikita, at the moment, forgot about even the slightest part of embarrassment when she saw those ethereal, blue eyes.

With a huge sigh, she tried again. "I've been..having these strange thoughts about you and.." her voice was stuck again. She just couldn't get everything out. Alex however, as smart and clever as she was, tried to help her the best she could. Her fingers silently played their game on Nikita's face, and the ex-agent let out a soft, yet a pretty loud moan. Alexandra was more than pleased. "Thoughts ?" she asked, teasing her Sensei a bit.

So, Nikita tried again. "I just.. You look so beautiful and smart and everything and.. This is really ridiculous but.. i guess i'm falling for you pretty badly.." she said, closing her eyes to enjoy the moment of Alex's hand caressing her face. It felt too good to be true. "Nikita.." Alex whispered, enjoying these words far too much for her own good. Nikita, seeing how her words were affecting her younger student, continued. "You're just perfect. I can't help it.. And i know that its a bit awkward for me to say things like these but.. When i see i just.. I can't think straight. I wanted to bury these feelings for good, but when i saw how happy you were this morning.. I just couldn't help it.. And i can't help it right now, too.." Nikita's own hand ghosted its way to touch Alex's neck, slowly massaging her.

Poor Alexandra never felt so much pleasure from a simple touch. "Nikita..." she moaned again, enjoying the sweetness and the pleasure. Finally, Nikita wanted to entirely end this masquerade. So, with the last deep breath, she closed the distance between them, their lips barely touching, their eyes focused on each other. It was so hard to breathe for both of them. "And i just.. I can't help it, but i want to lie you down on that bed and worship both your body and your mind because when i see you i just... I can't think straight when i see you. I'm afraid of this, because its making me nuts when i'm not here and i don't see you, and i know that it will be a lot worse when you'll be in Division but.. I can't help it, Alex. Simply because i..." Nikita's hand went upper, slowly caressing Alex's cheek. Her other hand followed.

Alexandra was breathing so loud and hard that it was painful. It didn't mattered though. This moment right here was totally worth it. And then, the moment finally came.

Those words, both of them needed to hear for so long.

"I think i love you.." Nikita said, closing her eyes, bracing herself for the voice. But, nothing came. Nothing but that desperate silence that ate her soul and mind away. Her hands, free of any restrains, touched Alex's lips, tracing the patter of her lower one. "And.. I know that i can't ask something from you on your birthday but... I would like to ask you something.." she whispered with her eyes still closed. Alexandra was still totally silent. Her mind was still trying to accept the fact that Nikita just said those sweet and ethereal words. Alexandra for a second wondered what could her Sensei want from her ? A release perhaps ? Was this all about the release ?

Nikita destroyed those doubts in a second. "I would like to kiss you, if that's ok ? Even if its for the first and last time. I just need to taste those perfect lips of yours Alex because...I'm just going crazy.." she laughed, her eyes fixated on those beautiful lips. Alex, as happy as she was to hear what her Sensei wanted and needed, still couldn't entirely believe this.

"You want to..." she asked, but Nikita's breath on her skin interrupted her. She wanted that kiss so badly. "Yes. I would really, really like to kiss you..If that's ok with you ?" Nikita confessed from her need, and Alex simply smiled, shaking her head. "No.." she said with a slight laugh, and Nikita was confused and partly sad. "Please Alex.." she tried again with a desperate, broken like voice. It amazed her just how stupid she sounded.

Alex then, very swiftly but very gently too, grabbed her face, staring directly into those beautiful eyes. It felt as if the time itself stopped, so they could both enjoy this moment. Alex smiled, brushing her lips against Nikita's. "You don't need to ask such things from me. I wanted to kiss you ever since you started training me.." she said, closing her eyes leaning in to kiss her Sensei. Her hands roamed all across her body, touching everything they could. Desperately seeking skin for them to touch.

Nikita couldn't believe this. After planning every step, every possible outcome, was surprised as hell. She never thought that Alex will be the one to start this. It felt so good though. She could feel her hands on her body, and she did the same. Her own hands touching Alex's, pressing her against her, deepening the kiss. Their tongues swiftly found each other, battling for dominance.

This moment, right here, this simple kiss, made Nikita realize just how much she loved her student. So, so damn much. It was as if the Goddess herself was kissing her at the moment. These feelings were just.. out of control.

After a long, long moment, Alex had to end the kiss because of the simple need for air. Out of breath, both gasped for air, smiling and laughing in the process. It was so long since Nikita was kissed like this. With hunger and love and everything else.. "So good.." she said, touching her bruised lip. Alexandra was rather aggressive. And she loved that. "Nikita.." Alex whispered, wanting, needing more. It was as if she was addicted again. She rested her forehead against Nikita's, still gasping for breath. "Even better than i dreamed.." Nikita managed say as her hands held her student tightly on her hips. She wanted so much more..

"Never thought it would feel this good.." Nikita stated, closing her eyes again. Alex could feel the need and passion growing larger and larger. It felt as if her body submitted itself to this new addiction. And she was very glad to do so. Nikita was so worth it. "Well..How about some more then.." Alex's fingers now playing with Nikita's lips, their noses practically touching.

"Very good idea.." Nikita said as her lips, once again, tasted their dose of this new addiction. She lied her student down on the sofa, slowly, very carefully pealing her clothes down. Alexandra did so as well. Her hands gripping Nikita tightly against her own body, encouraging her to be far more aggressive. To try new things. To stop testing the waters.

Alexandra had to admit to herself, after the heated love making that lasted more than five hours. As much as she hated her birthdays, Nikita changed this simple fact forever. By these gifts she gave her tonight, she changed her whole life. The bracelet ? She never took it down. The necklace ? Never came down from her beautiful neck.

But the most amazing, the most wanted and prettiest gift she got from her ? It was her love.

A/N - A bit weird, but i hope you enjoyed.