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Chapter One - Used
The long-haired demon slayer held her tearful friend close. "Kagome, he's not worth it. You shouldn't shed one tear over him."
"I know, Sango... I keep telling myself to just forget it. I shouldn't love someone if he's just going to use me and then run blindly back to Kikyo every time she calls his name. I honestly thought he returned my feelings when I told him everything. He looked me straight in the eye... and kissed me... and I don't even want to talk about what happened after that. I was so stupid," she spat out between sobs.
Sango hushed her dear friend. Inside, she felt disgusted that the hanyou would use Kagome in such away. He lured her into a false sense of security and probably would have mated her, had Kikyo not called out his name in the middle of everything. It was that demonic voice of hers that pulled Inuyasha from Kagome. If only... if only the golem would just send herself to hell already.
"Kagome. It's not your fault. You honestly believed that Inuyasha meant everything. And in some ways, I'm sure he did. But it's not your fault that he still cares for her. I know exactly how you feel every single time I have to watch Miroku place his hands on another woman. At least you had the strength to tell Inuyasha what was in your heart. Just give it some time... maybe he'll get some sense inside that dense head of his," the demon slayer whispered.
The young girl wiped her eyes with the back of her shirt sleeve. "I guess you're right. I shouldn't blame myself for this. I just hoped, with all of my heart, that he had finally moved on from her. But I guess deep down, I know that I will always be second. When I think about it, though, it's really his loss. How often does a girl practically throw herself at someone, willing to give away all of her virginal rights?" She laughed for a second, "You know, I bet if you threw your virginal rights at Miroku, he'd keep his hands off other women for at least one night!"
Sango blushed a deep shade of crimson. "Uh--umm--Kagome! You know that I won't do that until marriage! And especially not with someone like that stupid, perverted monk!"
Kagome giggled as a soft hand reached from behind Sango and landed on her breast. Sango's blush turned an even darker red and her eye began to twitch.
"You know, Sango, I'd be very gental with you, seeing as how it would be your first time! Wouldn't you please reconsider the premarital sex stand, just for tonight?" the violet-eyed monk half-heartedly pleaded.
Before Miroku could blink, Sango was holding her boomerang and looking at him through slitted eyes. "Miroku, I'll give you until the count of ten to start running. 10. 9. 8--"
The monk turned and bolted from the campsite, leaving an embarrassed Sango and a teary Kagome sitting alone. Sango snorted, "Well, I better go give that hentai a good smack or two in the face. You know, there's a hot spring a couple of miles to the west, if you want to go relax for a bit. But it's really close to the Western Lands, so be careful. THREE, TWO, ONE, MIROKU HERE I COME!"
On that note, the demon slayer sprinted off to the east after her Miroku. Kagome sighed. Taking a bath always did relax her. Plus, she could use some time to think, and the couple-mile walk would be relaxing. She smiled and gathered her bag and set out for her nice relaxing walk.
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Jaken screamed. "MASTER! Your eyes, they are red! Are you feeling okay?"
Sesshomaru growled out a response, barely able to control himself. "Take Rin and go back to the castle. NOW."
Rin looked up at her Sesshomaru. "Sesshomaru-sama, what is wrong? Rin doesn't want you to hurt! Stop being in pain!" The small girl began to tear up.
Sesshomaru snarled out another, "NOW, JAKEN," before turning and almost flying out of their campsite.
He was in heat. It rarely occurred, but right now, it was bad. Worse than ever before. He needed something, ANYTHING, to stop the pain. He clutched his face as his fangs barred. In the past, he had always settled for killing, as he always thought of mating as unnecessary and something only weaker youkai needed to soothe their demonic instincts. Just a handful of bodies would always be enough to satisfy his lust. This time, however, he felt as though he needed to massacre a village or do the unthinkable. The village seemed like a better option.
Snarling again, he sped east, hoping to leave his lands by midnight and find a small village on the outskirts he could do away with. After all, he didn't want to destroy one on his own lands, as they may feel their ruler is untrustworthy in protection and slightly insane.
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Kagome hummed to herself as she approached the spring. She loved bathing at night under the stars, especially on a clear, beautiful night such as this. She had cried during her long walk. The wear and tear on her body from her emotional onslaught was horrible. Never in her life had she felt this weak and tired. The bath would be an incredible relief. She dropped to the ground and took her shoes and socks off. She opened her bag and pulled out some shampoo and soap, both smelling of lavender.
She unbuttoned her blouse and skirt and folded them neatly into a pile. Looking around to make sure nobody was near, and then checking the auras of the surrounding forest, she removed her bra and panties. Satisfied with her preparations, she moved into the warm water and sighed. Never in her life had a bath felt this relaxing. Completely comfortable, she began to sing to herself.
Kagome's eyes began to tear up again. For once, her mind thought about how she may have even hated Inuyasha. She thought about the previous nights events while she washed her hair and continued singing.
"What is it you're trying to say, Kagome? Just spit it out," Inuyasha said. It was night and he hadn't ate all day and could use some food. If only she would just shut her face and cook it.
She blushed slightly and whispered, "I think... Inuyasha, I love you." Prepared for rejection, she closed her eyes and tears began to swell up.
The hanyou jumped at this. She loved him? That was unexpected. She was a good member of his pack and he liked her and all. He found her attractive and enjoyed the nice talks they had, when they weren't fighting, of course. He couldn't say it back to her, though... he still loved Kikyo. But he had to do something. He couldn't just let her sit there and without a doubt cry for expressing herself.
Kagome felt her chin being lifted up by a warm hand. She looked up and into the half-opened golden eyes of Inuyasha. Was he... kissing her? She closed her eyes and their lips locked. He was rough and somewhat sloppy. It was not at all what she had expected. Kagome had always imagined her first kiss to be loving and incredible. This was better than nothing, though.
She returned his kiss, struggling to keep up with his pace. His tongue forced its way into her mouth and explored every little detail. All Inuyasha could think was, 'Wow, she doesn't taste as good as Kikyo.' Kagome could only think, 'Does he really mean this?'
Inuyasha pressed into her. Her knees gave out and they both went down to the ground. He pinned her down with his body and she felt a hand go up her shirt and grasp her breast. The hand pressed hard and unpleasantly, but she tried to enjoy it. After all, it was Inuyasha, the one she loved. She gasped as his hand roamed from her breast and was shoved under her skirt, slipping into her panties. Her eyes opened quickly as he placed a finger on her bundle of nerves. She felt him growl against her. He continued his massage, which was a little rough but felt good all the same. She began to moan between their kisses and stared up at the face of her loved one. It was then that she noticed that he had never once opened his eyes to look at her.
The hanyou pulled his hand out of her panties and began to undo the sash on his robe. He wasn't sure about what he was going to do, but the only thought he had was 'Kikyo is dead... and Kagome is as close as I can get to mating with her."
The raven-haired Kagome gasped as Inuyasha pulled down her panties and pulled out his member, which she couldn't even see because he was still on top of her. She felt it rub along the entrance to her womanhood, and gasped as she prepared to feel it enter.
And then he stopped. She looked up at him and he was staring wide-eyed at the forest to the north. Kagome then heard it. "Inuyasha... Inuyasha..." It was Kikyo.
Quickly, Inuyasha jumped off of Kagome, and without a word ran to the forest after his beloved. Kagome felt used. She had almost given herself to Inuyasha. Had it been one second more, he would have been inside her and mated her.
And now she hated herself.
She hated Kikyo.
She hated him.
