Disclaimer: I don't own anything. Not even Chuck Bass or Humphrey.. or Blair.


Part I


Serena rolled out of her bed to the sound of water running down the sink; she quickly glanced at her phone to check what time was it: it was even barely seven. Why would Blair even be up this early? She rubbed her eyes and walked to the bathroom knocking lightly on the door. However when she got no response, she pushed the door and peeked inside. There the brunette was standing in front of the sink furiously washing her mouth and running large amounts of water down her throat. She was wrapped up in a pink towel and her skin glowed from the heat of the shower she just walked out of.

"B, What the hell are you doing?" Serena asked sleepily.

"Serena!" her reflex was immediate, she rinsed her mouth before speaking again. "I am just-" she felt a sudden pang of guilt when she saw her best friend looking so tired, clearly. "Everything's fine?"

Serena walked over to Blair, so they both were looking into the mirror, she grabbed the toothpaste tube then looked at Blair exaggeratedly "B! You finished the whole tube!" Blair quickly snatched it back and slammed against the sink. "Seriously Blair, what are you up to?"

"Nothing! Utterly nothing!" she cleared her throat and checked herself in the mirror as in to tone down her anger. "Why were you late last night? Did you and Be-"

"No," Serena quickly said "Ben and I broke up."

"Oh my God," Blair now completely turned to look at her best friend "Are you okay?"

"I don't know, I will be." The blonde said not hiding the pain in her voice. Blair pulled her into a comforting hug. "Chuck was looking for you all night," Serena said after she pulled back and looked into Blair's eyes. "he shut the whole party down and he was defiantly not okay, I tried to make him talk to me but he wouldn't. He wanted to talk to you only."

Blair's eyes swam but she held it back and waited for Serena to continue talking. "He was very wasted though, I wasn't sure if you would be able to talk to him. You've been doing really great this week, you looked happy. I couldn't- So I took him to the palace. He passed out on the Eric's bed after repeating your name." Serena's voice carried dread, sadness and bewilderment. "When I got here, I thought you would be up so we could talk, but you were asleep then, so I just ended up tossing and turning on my bed all night." Serena finished wretchedly.

"Serena, I am so sorry-"

"Don't be. I am actually kind of glad you weren't involved in any of last night's events, you seemed really happy, B." The blonde then pulled the brunette into a tight hug. "It's just that I am going to miss Ben so much-" she hiccupped.

"Shhh, it's alright.." Blair who felt guilt sulk her down, was at a loss of words. She hated no one as much as she hated Dan Humphrey at the moment. She wasn't sure she could look into Serena's eyes after what she had done. The kiss hasn't transpired to anything more, that's true but it wasn't an innocent kiss either, it might have lasted longer than she thought. The point is! It did not mean anything to her! –or so-she-says to convince herself. She had practically kicked Dan out immediately after that one kiss it's true but it didn't stop her from thinking about it; leaving her sleepless and baffled all night. And while Chuck (clearly from what Serena had said) was in a terrible state the previous night and needed her the most her mind was elsewhere, far away than ever. Crossed over the bridge all the way to Brooklyn- who would ever thought?

"B.."

"I am alright." Blair reassured pushing back a tear as she looked in the mirror disgusted with herself. "Have I told you I hate Dan Humphrey?" she gritted her teeth and squeezed the toothpaste tube on her tooth brush once more as she started to furiously clean her mouth.

"Seriously, what the hell are you doing?" Serena asked suspiciously. Blair who chose not to reply proceeded cleaning her mouth like her life depended on it.

"I am stopping by to see Chuck before I got to college. See you there?" Blair inquired peeking into Serena's room.

"I am not sure if I am going to college today, but yeah good luck." Serena smiled back at her roommate as she looked up from a book she was reading.

Blair didn't feel right about going to see Chuck, it wasn't because her mind was off thinking about Humphrey, it certainly wasn't, It can't be! It was just how guilty she had felt about it all. She cannot face Chuck now. It would be not fair to Chuck or ( who she stupidly admitted wasn't fair to) Humphrey. The cab driver now asked her for the third time for the place she wanted to go to.

She sighed irritatingly and asked him to stop a few blocks from where she was, where her favorite coffee house was located. Her phone rang as soon as she got off the cab. To her annoyance it was Humphrey. She angrily ignored the call and walked to get her coffee.

As soon she walked in the coffee house, she was greeted by the sight of Humphrey sitting there a coffee in his hand. What was he doing here? She might as well have consumed that he was stalking her. She barged in and rested her elbow on his table to nudge him of her presence. He looked up from his phone surprised. "Excuse me, what are you doing here?" She screeched. "No one can see me here!" she said loudly to herself as she was about to leave. Dan caught her arm.

"Blair, wait! Don't you think that we need to talk?"

"Let go of my arm, Humphrey!" she shook his hand off "There's nothing to talk to you about! I am leaving."

"Is that toothpaste on your face?" he mused as Blair frantically rubbed her chin off. There was hint of a smirk on the dark-haired boy's face. "There." He reached over to wipe the diminutive smear off her chin.

Blair's abrupt response however was slapping his hand away. "Humphrey! You cannot pull off anything like this! Especially not where anyone could see me!" She looked around anxiously, carefully using her words, she didn't want to slip and say a word that would get the boy hung up on her. As much as she wanted to stop being uptight about everything , as much as she wanted everything between her and Dan to go back to where it was before they kissed, when she could speak to him as a friend to let out all her emotions out. She couldn't. She has been pushing him away, and she will probably keep up doing that. She was far too scared of the idea of her and Humphrey developing any kind of relationship more than friends. She was even more scared to even talk about what happened last night, to anyone but especially to him. At one glance, she looked into his eyes and she saw something that might have pulled her in, like the first time she poured out her heart to him and he listened to her without disruption. But instead she broke the contact, and turned around to leave.

Once again, Dan stood in the way. "Blair! Don't think we're done here!"

"Oh yes, we are." She said after snatching the coffee in his hand and storming out.