So this fic is an idea i had while talking on the re zero discord, and i thought it would be cool to put the hypothesis into an actual fic

I can't promise regular or frequent upload time as IRL and my own unreliableness come into play but in any case if i come to quit i ll try to at least warn readers, and in any case feel free to take on the concept at any moment(as long as you don't copy everything i do, but i m confident you wouldn't want too anyway)

of course criticism and reviews are apreciated even negative ones(long as they are respectfull)

Edited(7/3/2021)for grammar and missing words


"I ll leave Subaru in your care Rem"

Upon those worlds a single girl prepared to leave.

To me of course she wasn't any girl. She wore white clothes, covered by a cloak of the same color, the half elf took my hand

"Subaru...I won't ask for much...Please let me believe in you" she asked with her ever sincere amethyst eyes

I already knew what she wanted, although no one would give me a prize for that. I wouldn't want them to, I was already told time and time again.

The only exception to that state of things would be the maid that stood at my sides,of about one head smaller than me, Rem looked at the both of us professionally.

I had no choice.

"I-I know. I live to answer your expectations!" I shout, trying my best to convince her

I hated it. I wanted nothing more than to deny her request, to beg her to let me accompany her. But I can't refuse her anything. Not face to face.

She gives me a wry smile and thanks me "I believe in you".

Leaving me no choice to gaze at the silver hair on her back, Emilia leaves and closes the door


With nothing else to do, I was sitting in the office present of the luxurious hotel room, working on a writing exercise given to me by Ram("So your brain don't rot as much as it usually does")was a vast room boasting only quality furniture, and, were I not a butler, I would be in awe simply by being here...

Is what I would have in truth even if this day was my first in this world, my current state would have made me fail to notice any of this.

I promised. A man must follow his promises. I know that.

Even so, all I wanted was to disregard it all and run to her side.


"Are you worried about Emilia-sama?"

Of course, the blue-haired maid knew that, but it didn't matter as her goal was to try and reassure me

"The castle security is the best there is. In addition, even so, she will be meeting her opponents, it wouldn't benefit anyone to try anything rash" she adds.

I knew that. Of course I knew that. Frankly having to be reminded this was insulting, but I am the kind of idiot that needs those useless reminders.

"It's not about the security. I don't like not being able to be with her when something important is happening!" I finally spat

"..."

Ever since I have been summoned to this world, I could never stop myself asking those questions "Who? Why?". Even though I acted with not a care in a world where I first came here, even if it looked like I took it in stride, the truth is that I was in an internal panic the whole time.

Even so, through the hardships that I went through to get to this point, even if everything, from what I thought I knew to who I can rely on seemed uncertain, there was only one constant, only one anchor I could rely on.

"I want to protect Emilia"

This is my one wish. The sole purpose I could find for myself.

"There are definitely people in the capital hostile to Emilia. I don't know when they will come, but they will"

That is the truth. I have experienced it in my flesh. I saw her fall. I never want to see this again.

Even so...

I know I am wrong. I want to forget that I am wrong. I want to convince myself I am right.

"That s why I want to be at Emilia's side during these trouble-filled times!"

I shout this wish to the master maid. Rambling that much about another woman to her face, I am truly nothing more than a failure.

She looks at me pensively, before looking at the ground, before sighing

"Truly...It cannot be helped, I suddenly have an intense desire to test some new the amount of concentration required, I would probably not notice anyone leaving the room"

Staring into space, such nonsensical words are uttered. Their meaning is clear, even for a loser such as myself.

"I always seem to be spoiled by you" I admit

The facade has to be maintained however

"Spoiled? Keep studying until I come back all right?"

As she leaves the room, my accomplice turns back one last time

"After all, women like men who keep their words"


With this, she leaves the door open and walks out loudly, making it clear to the both of us that I can leave.

I finish writing an excuse letter to Rem. It's the least I can do.

I know I shouldn't do this. This cannot end well. I would only cause problems to rem, even maybe to... No there's no "maybe". It s a fact that she will be troubled as well.

A man must keep his promises. Dad drilled it into me enough. I am not enough of a child to think he was wrong.

But I am a failure. I am not a real man. I cannot hold this promise.

I know this girl's strength: she is someone who never stops trying, who always pushes herself. For the "me" who disregards her wishes, only insults come to mind

Even so I cannot bear this. I don't want her to fight alone.

Even if she can do it, far better than I can ever do. I want to fight with her, and cheer with all my heart.

This is my purpose. I cannot live otherwise. I need to help her.

So that's why I will go.

I write the last glyph on the letter in front of me I stand up, grab my vest, and open the door.

However, I can't take the last step

It s not that I am getting cold ridiculous and embarrassing myself is as natural as breathing to me.

Unusually for me, I couldn't help but stop and think of rem's words


"After all, women likes men who keeps their words"

The tone was the first part, it wasn't the ironic indulgence she clearly afforded me, those words were the warnings of a friend, the type of friend who is there no matter what, but is honest when it comes to talking about your mistake.

Of course, I m not clueless enough to think a promise is worth nothing, but ultimately, I d rather live regretting breaking my words than regretting not doing what needs to be the spirit, not the letter, such is my nin...

But is it even what am I doing?

I know that Emilia won't die in this matter how absurd this world is, killing her in a public meeting is just not gonna happen.

I want to cheer for her but what good would my cheers do? I m just a fool who doesn't know the first thing about this country, and she would be so angry with me my cheers would just anger her, not give her courage.

Words...Emilia made me swear a lot of promises ever since I met her, especially today.

Of course no one thinks promises have no value, but the focus she has on them...it's something else

When she asked me to stay...she was really put her sincere trust in me keeping my words.

Honestly, I still wanna go. I want to ignore this uneasy feeling, barge in, get yelled at and get forgiven. I think this would be for the best

The hero doing face palm-worthy things to ultimately good results is a common trope, right?! How many times have I seen characters getting good results purely because they dared?

But...I m not a hero. This world has consistently been reminding me. Rem too know that this is not my place

If I go I may stop some unease in me, and I may help a bit, but she will hate me, and I may not achieve anything

If I don't go...What am I even good for?...

What should I do?


In a bathroom of an hotel a single maid was washing her course she never went to the kitchen, but she had no illusion the boy had believed that lie.

She remembered the words of her master, prior to the journey

"if Subaruuuuuuuuu kun insist on going to the palace, let him go, no matter what Emilia-sama says"

She could not understand the reason behind that order. Aren't Roswaal-sama Emilia-sama's allies? What good can come in overriding her?

However, her own doubts don't the head maid of the Matters mansion, as such, the words of her master are absolute. In addition, the head of the Matters family, in particular, is one that has managed to get ahead in life multiple times through paths no one understands, a fact Rem witnessed many she was convinced here too he was not mistaken

In addition...the truth is that she wants to abide by that boy's wishes...From the short time they have lived together, and the even shorter time in which he overturned her suspicions and stole her heart, she came to admire his, almost obsessive need for heroism, for being useful.

And most of all, she cannot see herself refusing him anything

Even so...While both her duty and heart made her give him leeway, a quiet, but an annoyingly persuasive voice told her to show him another this time his inaction would be more valuable than driving himself mad with effort, that following her master s plan might be painful for that man she values so much.

As she couldn't deny the voice had a point, she obliged and tried to subtly convey Emilia-sama's dearest wish. It's not that Rem and Emilia are deep friends, though they did grow closer over the last month, but spiritualists' passion for contracts is well known, and Emilia in particular is a shining example of that.

It doesn't matter has given the boy enough he will listen to his instinct, as he always does, and most likely prove her fear wron-

Blinking, then rubbing her eyes, Rem's composure breaks down as she sees Subaru sleeping on the bed attributed to him. This is indeed the sleeping face she has grown accustomed to staring at.

On the office lied two sheets of paper, or rather one, and another completely torn apart, for the one that remained it read

"Thanks for being indulgent with me, but thanks to you I reflected and I think staying here is for the best. I don't trust myself to not change my mind so I went to sleep. Please don't report this to nee-sama, she would have my skin

The writing was messy, probably made in a hurry, which meant the words were as honest as they come: The mean-eyed teen probably hurried writing the letter before forcing himself to sleep.

"You truly are a handful Subaru-kun"