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Chapter 1
It was a cold and dark morning the sky was grey and the sun refused to shine. Emma hadn't been able to sleep after everything that had occurred, for the last seven days she had broken the curse and before she could notice she was saving Regina's life from a crowd of infuriated fairytale characters and after that she tried to rip everything she felt for the woman from her heart but she couldn't. The anger that was ripping her from inside she launched it towards the brunette and now that she thought about what had happened, she said things that she shouldn't have, she crossed a line that probably could never be repaired again. Trying to push her feelings down and out of her mind she decided to go for a run to clear her head, but her mind was always filled with the brunette's broken figure in front of her.
When she opened the door she saw a wooden small box and a letter on top of it. The envelope had her name on it, she immediately recognized the beautiful handwriting. Not wanting to go inside again she sat down against the wall and took the letter from the envelope.
Emma,
It's been seven whole days since I last saw your face, seven whole days since I felt your lips, seven whole days without your embrace, it's been seven whole days that my heart has been filled with pain. I can't erase from my mind the look on your face when you finally believed in Henry and broke my curse. You only believed because I pushed you to. I needed to know if you could really love a woman like me and sadly I was right you can't, no one can. I can't forget the words that you said that day but the one that keeps ringing in my head is "Monster" you have no idea of how that broke me, you shattered everything that I was beginning to build for you, I was changing for you, for Henry, you made me want to be better. You took my heart away and I couldn't do anything about it, but now with the curse broken and the fact that now magic is here I can literally give you my heart so you can do whatever you want with it, you can make me suffer or you can simply crush it either way it doesn't matter, I'm never getting you back or Henry so disappearing seems to me the obvious choice and I'm giving you my heart so that you can terminate this life of darkness that haunts me.
I know that you don't believe that I actually feel something deep for you but in the name of whatever it was that we had I'm asking you to do what your family and the whole town wants, kill me, if I must go then please concede me my last wish, I only ask that it's you the one to do it.
Once and certainly forever yours,
Regina
"No, she can't be serious." She was shocked she couldn't, she refused to believe the words on the letter. "she can't seriously have taken her heart out…" she reached for the box, she took several deep breaths and finally she opened the small box, as she opened it she started to hear a rhythmic sound "bum bum, bum bum" her eyes automatically swam in tears, softly she caressed the beautiful organ that belonged to the woman that filled her dreams, her soul, her whole heart. She couldn't yet forgive her, forget everything that happened, but she sure as hell couldn't and wouldn't kill her nor would she let anyone touch one single lock of hair of the precious brunette.
Once more rage built up inside of her, she grabbed the box and went running to the 108 Mifflin Street house. As soon as she arrived she began punching the door screaming. "Regina I know you're in there, open the god fucking forsaken door before I break it down, Regina…"
Regina was seated in the middle of the staircase, unable to move, she desperately wanted to see Emma but she was afraid of what was going to happen in the minute that she pushed the door open. Breathing deeply she encouraged herself up and she went to the door. As soon the door began to open Emma burst inside the house.
"What the fuck were you thinking Regina? Are you fucking kidding me?" her eyes were so full of rage that Regina didn't even recognize the beautiful green in them, the green had completely vanished and there was a dark cloud in its place.
"Emma…" she tried to talk but the blonde didn't let her.
"Do you really think I want to kill you? I might not want you in my life right now but I don't want you dead and for the record no one is going to kill you either because if someone tries to I'll put is sorry ass in prison faster than a blink of an eye." She was exploding so fiercely that she had to stop to breathe, she could feel her heart beating in her head. After filling her lungs with air she continued "Here take it back." She extended her arm with the small box in her hand "I don't want it and definitely I don't want to use it to kill you. What the hell were you thinking to rip out your own heart?"
"It's not mine anymore and at least while it is out of my chest it doesn't hurt as much…" Emma stepped closer.
"Put it back in." Regina looked at her in the eyes and just whispered "No."
"God damn it Regina put it back in." She opened the box and due to her rage she grabbed the brunette's heart a little too strongly giving it a squeeze. She only noticed what she had done when Regina put a hand on her chest and fell to her knees. Her instinct to protect the woman kicked in and she knelt in front of her.
"Shit, I'm so sorry Regina I didn't mean to do that." She could see the pain mirrored in the brunette's eyes and she felt ashamed, that happened because of her. "Please put it back in." Regina grabbed Emma's hand and looked at the blonde deeply.
"Just crush it, please. Please put an ending to this pain I can't take it any longer." She begged the blonde.
"No, I told you I don't want to kill you. I'm just going to tell you this one more time put it back in, now." Regina nodded but she didn't grab her heart, she putted it back in her chest using Emma's hand and as soon as her grip diminished on the blonde's hand Emma fell back "Jesus Regina did you have to do that?"
"I'm sorry…" Emma didn't give her time to keep talking, she couldn't explain what she felt when she placed the brunette's heart inside her chest, her judgment was clouded and she acted on what she desired to do, she launched herself towards the brunette and smashed their lips together, she kissed her roughly, consumed by desire and lust. She pushed Regina to the floor and remaining on top of her she violently raised the woman's pencil skirt, she needed to possess her, feel her one more time.
Regina was overthrown with all that was happening, she didn't want this kind of love making with Emma but she knew that this was going to be their last time together, so despite of the way it was happening she let the blonde take what she wanted. She enjoyed every harsh kiss, every bite on her neck, she even enjoyed the forceful way Emma pushed inside her with two fingers, maintaining a fast rhythm.
They were so lost in their feelings that they didn't notice the smooth white light surrounding their body.
Emma knew that the woman was almost reaching her orgasm by the way her center began to tighten around her fingers so she pushed one more finger inside and almost instantly Regina came on her long fingers, lifting her back from the floor and then slowly coming down, Emma kissed her one more desperate time because she wanted to remember the softness of Regina's lips.
Getting a hold of her emotions Emma finally opened her eyes and pushed herself up and locked her gaze with Regina "I'm sorry I shouldn't have done this." And she walked away not looking back even once. Regina was so broken that she embraced herself in a fetal position and stayed there on the floor crying.
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Kathryn decided that despite everything that had happened, curse included, she knew Regina, the brunette had truly become her friend, she had seen in firsthand the brunette change, she saw her cry, she had been her crying shoulder many times, she saw her honestly smile but most importantly she had seen Regina fall in love with the Sheriff. She had been there through all the changes, from cold hearted to a melting loving heart, from a regal posture to an almost hopeless person.
With all that in mind she decided that she wouldn't abandon her like everyone else had done and that was what made her go to Regina's house that day.
When she got there her heart jumped with fear, the front door of the house was closed but she could hear someone sobbing and she knew that since the curse had been broken the only one inside the mansion had to be Regina. She immediately thought that someone could have gotten inside and hurt the woman. So not wasting any more time to dwell on it she simply opened the door and made her way in, closing the door behind her.
As soon as she turned her back to the door she saw Regina laying on the floor, trembling and crying like she had never seen before, her body was coiled up like a baby in its embryonic state. Regina looked so small and fragile, Kathryn never thought that she would ever see such a powerful woman in that condition, completely broken.
She approached the slim body on the floor and she sat cross-legged right behind her and she pulled the trembling body up from the floor and onto her legs. For a couple of seconds Regina looked at her and in that moment she was expecting the brunette to push her away or even scream at her but none of those reactions came, instead Regina let her hold her.
Regina curled her body even more and she let the blonde woman give her some comfort, some kind of affection, she didn't know why but she trusted Kathryn. She couldn't deny that she was surprised that the blonde woman was there but right now she just needed her friend, the friend she had before the curse broke, they could talk later about everything or anything Kathryn desired but in this moment she simply wanted her friend even if only for a couple of minutes.
After ten minutes Regina was finally able to stop sobbing and got her tears to stop flowing. Feeling a little more in control of her emotions and her mind she didn't know how to speak with Kathryn, what could she say to the woman that was currently comforting her? Most importantly why was the woman even doing it? She was absolutely sure that she didn't deserve such kindness. Her reveries suddenly came to an end when she heard Kathryn's voice.
"Are you feeling better?" Kathryn asked tugging a lock of dark hair behind Regina's ear.
Regina couldn't voice her answer so she simply nodded and slowly she began to pull her body apart from the blonde woman.
"Want to tell me what happened to you?" the blonde woman asked kindly.
Regina was getting more confused by the second, not only had Kathryn comforted her but she looked really worried about her and she seemed genuinely concerned about what might have happened to her, she blinked a couple of times before she was able to voice her doubts "Why are you here? Why do you even care about what might have happened to me? Help me understand your presence here because I can't think of a single reason for you to willingly be here."
Kathryn was looking her in the eyes and she gave her a smile before answering "Regina whether you like it or not we were friend, we are friends, at least I would like for us to remain friends." She sighed but kept talking without breaking the eye contact, she knew that the brunette needed that in order to process her words and accept that she was telling her the truth. "I'm here because I care about you and I don't want you to feel alone or abandoned because you're not, you can count on me always." She grabbed Regina's hands and gave them a small squeeze "I know that with the curse breaking it's like all hell broke loose but I know you, I saw you change, you are not the same person anymore, you're better and I know that your heart is a hundred percent capable of loving. I saw you fall in love, I saw how you loved Henry and I know that in the beginning you weren't truly my friend but that changed along the way, you trusted me just like I trusted you. So I want you to know that I'm not leaving you to face all this alone and that you can trust me as you did before because I trust you and I truly care about you, you are my best friend."
Regina was completely stunned into silence, she didn't know how to react or what to say, for the first time she was out of words, so she expressed her thankfulness by hugging the blonde. After a couple of seconds she let go "Thank you. You have no idea of what this means to me. I need to tell you that I do care for you and I trust you too, I don't know why but I do and I'm so grateful that you found it in your heart the courage to forgive me for all I've done."
"Regina lets bury the past and move forward ok?" Regina nodded. "So are you going to tell me what happened? Someone hurt you?" the blonde asked preoccupied.
"I'll tell you but first let's move to the couch in the living room, we'll be more comfortable there." Kathryn nodded and they both got up from the floor and moved to the living room.
Once they were comfortably seated Regina spoke almost in a whisper, it hurt so much "Emma, Emma happened."
"What did she do to you? If she did something to you I guess it's time for the Sheriff and I to have a serious talk." Kathryn said getting angry.
"Please don't. Don't talk to her. It was my fault, I was so desperate and I wasn't thinking clearly and I just wanted it all to be over that I…" she stopped, she couldn't say it, the words got stuck on her throat.
"Regina, you what? What did you do?"
"I…I rip…" she closed her eyes and took a deep breath "I ripped my heart out and I gave it to Emma so she could crush it, so she could put an end to all my suffering. Nobody wants or loves me, everyone wants me gone, so what better way to get me out of their life's forever than to kill me?"
Out of the sudden Kathryn grabbed her by the lapels of her coat and screamed at her "Have you completely lost your mind Regina? What were you thinking?"
"That's exactly the problem I wasn't thinking. I was, I am hurting, I'm heartbroken I acted on an impulse…"
"Promise me you don't do it again. Promise me you'll fight for Emma's and Henry's love?"
"I can promise you that I won't let myself be killed but I won't promise you I'll fight for them. I'm tired Kathryn, I'm tired of fighting just to get some crumbs of love that vanish as soon as I get to hold them in my hand. I'm all out of hope, I'm done fighting for people that obviously don't love me back."
"Regina don't say that, you know that's not true, they love you, they are just hurt right now, but you will see that in time they will come for you, they are going to miss you and until then you have me." She stated, releasing Regina's coat.
"I don't believe that they will come back but I do appreciate your friendship and company." The brunette said with a small smile.
Kathryn was looking intently at her, she had the feeling that something else happened, something that Regina was hesitating on telling her "So are you going to tell me what else happened or do I have to pull it out of you?"
Regina looked at her surprised "How did you get to know that well?"
"I told you, I saw you change, you were learning to open up to me, to trust me. Now stop averting the issue and tell me what else happened." She could see that the brunette was nervous because she hadn't stopped fidgeting with her fingers.
"She was here this morning and she gave me my heart back, we exchanged some words and she was angry with me because of what I did and she ended up making love to me out of anger and I just let her take me, it wasn't what I wanted but I know that it was the last time, I know I'll never have again…"
"So you just let her use you? Really Regina? You're braver and stronger than that, you can't let her or anyone to get over you like a truck, you are a valuable person and you deserve better."
"I wish I could just believe that." She sighed.
"You will, in time." Kathryn said in an encouraging tone. "Now let's make you something to eat, you look to thin for my taste, I don't want you getting sick." And with that she jumped from the couch and pulled the brunette off of it and she guided them to the kitchen. She was going to help Regina, she was making it her mission, help the woman recover her faith and if she dare wish, help her recover the loves of her life.
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