There was no world for Elena if there was no Damon.
Everywhere she looked, there were reminders, even if only miniscule that caused memories of him to surface. Just when things were getting back to normal, when she was nearly back to her regular, controlling self, something would pop up and send her spiraling back down into her longing, empty, endless depression.
There was no world for her if there was no Damon.
Anything could set her off. From the sound of a crow outside her window at dawn, or the sight of a blooming rose. She would ache to have him near again, his lips on hers, his velvety voice purring in her ear, but it never came. All that came was the familiar pang of loneliness; loneliness that no one, not even Stefan, could subside.
There was no world for her if there was no Damon.
There were nights, beautiful nights, where it would be like he had never gone. She would dream of him; dancing with him at balls where their clothes where all tinted a reddish shade from the never setting sun in the Dark Dimension; kissing him in the bleachers of the high school gym; sleeping close to him in her bed in Judith's house, feeling completely safe and protected under his watchful dark gaze.
But then she would wake up. Wake up to the same room from her dream, only the comforting warmth was gone. She would find herself alone in her bed, the room chilled with emptiness, and she would crumble. She'd curl up in her covers and weep, whispering and calling out his name, begging to whatever deity would listen that her Darling Damon would be returned to her.
But he never would.
There was no world for her if there was no Damon.
Eventually, she reached a state where it wouldn't take anything at all to set her off. The agony of him not being there would hit her by surprise, and she would fall apart for days on end, locking herself in the nearest bedroom, be it her own at Aunt Judith's, or one at Mrs. Flower's boarding house. The pain was just too much to bear. She simply… couldn't do it.
There was no world for her if there was no Damon.
