I do NOT own any rights to InuYasha or any of the characters. They are the sole property of Rumiko Takahashi. I do own all the episodes and movies on bluray, a few keychains, a couple of plushies, a Sesshoumaru body pillow (that my husband is jealous of), a mug set with Sesshoumaru and InuYasha on it. A puzzle, some wall hangings. A couple of tee shirts, and a Sesshoumaru Jacket. That's about it...LOL!

Rain

by NikkiS71

A bad day...

"It's raining." He says as we leave the hospital parking garage, and merge onto the city street. "It looks so cool," he says as he pulls the bulky jacket he's wearing tighter around himself. It had been raining all morning, but this is the first time the 3 days we've been in the hospital that he'd seen the outside. I look over to him, but he's not looking at me. He is sitting on the passenger side looking out of the window. Watching us drive through the streets, but seeing nothing. My heartbreaks every time I look at him. But, I have to be the strong one now. He would NEVER admit to it out loud, because that's who he is. That's who I fell in love with all those many years ago. But, he needs my strength now more than ever.

I look back to the road, and try to think of something to say to him. The words of my Haha-ue and Ka-san come to mind as we sat together outside his room. Waiting for the nurse to bring the release forms for me to sign, 'be supportive, my son', is what my Haha-ue said. 'That's all you can do'. Her face a mask of cold calmness, while her eyes convey the sadness in her soul as she comforts me in her own way. 'Let him know you will always be there.' While she speaks, Ka- San, Babe's mother holds my hand in both of hers. Gently stroking the back of mine with her thumb. Her eyes red from crying. 'Just be the shoulder he needs when he needs it, my dear. You'll be fine, dear boy.' Great words of advice, but for some reason I can not for the life of me think of anything to say. What do you say to your mate at the lowest point in their life? What do you say to your mate when their life has been turned upside down, with NO answers or real explanations as to how or why. What do you say to stop the tears that have been falling for the past 3 days? What? "Yeah. It's been like this for the last few days now."

He sighs heavily, before I hear, "hmm..." Nothing more is said.

We are stopped at a light about 4 blocks from our home. "Hey, are you hungry? You haven't eaten much in the last couple of days?" I look to him as I'm trying to gage his mood, "We aren't far from Stash's. We could get a couple of full racks of BBQ ribs, maybe a couple of pizzas? We could have Chinese? Peking Gardens is open now, we could get a couple of dinner plates to go. What do you say, Babe?" He still doesn't look at me, he just slowly shakes his head no. I sigh heavily again, looking down at the steering wheel. A sudden thought snaps in my head, looking at my watch I look back in Babe's direction. "I know! We could go to Ka-San's", I suggest with a smile. "It's 10:30, you know the mothers are at your parents gossiping and watching those silly talk shows", I chuckle as I think about our mothers. They've had a steady routine of morning gossip and TV shows over coffee and snacks, ever since my parents moved next door to Babe's family. Babe and I practically grew up together. I watched him grow from an adorable little wide eyed tyke with long twin braids, and an infectious laugh. To an ackward teen with braces, and 2 left feet and a lot of questions. To the sexy innocent angel that set everyone ablaze with those bright golden eyes and soul stealing smile. "We can probably make it in time to catch Judge Judy or Mathis, or whatever's about to come on."

I turn my head towards him when I hear a way too quiet "No" come from him. "I know. Why don't I call the girls when we get home? You know Sango, Kagome, Ayame, and Rin have been blowing up the phones wanting updates." I laugh a bit. "Especially, Kagome. That girl has been calling non stop for..."

"DAMN IT! I SAID NO!" Babe snapped, as he finally turns in my direction. Eyes wide and glazed with unshed tears. "I'm not hungry! I don't want to see Ka-San or Haha-ue! I don't want to talk to any of our friends! I just want to go home! So, please just...", he pauses taking a few shaky breaths, trying to get his emotions back in check. I watch as those cute downy soft ears disappear into the thick mass of white at the top of his lowered head. "I...I just want to go home. Just please. Please take me home." He pleads as he looks back towards the window. Watching the rain fall a just a bit harder on the glass. "Please, Sesshou."

My heartbreaks as I watch him. I've never felt more useless in all my life. I've always been able to help him. I've always known what to do. How to make him smile. How to make his world all better, when life knocked him out of loop. I have always been able to say the right thing to make him feel everything will be alright. But, not now. I don't know what to say to him.

I stretch my hand out to him and caress his soft cheek. 'What can I do? What I can say? How can I make things right again? What can I do to bring back your smile, Babe? What can I do?' I am jarred out of my thoughts when I hear several horn blaring behind me. I look up to see the light has changed. I pull my foot off the brake and hit the gas, continuing on our way towards our condo.

About 15 minutes later I pull into one of the 2 spaces assigned to our place, right beside babe's red Jeep Compass. Cutting off the car, I reach behind us and pick up the small weekender sitting on the seat. Undoing my seat belt, I hop out the car closing the door behind me. I do a quick walk around the car to open his door, only to find that he's already out of the car, and walking to the front door. "Babe, wait up", I call out to him jogging to catch up to him. "InuYasha, you should at least put your hood on your head", I say as I pull his jacket hood over his quickly dampening locks. Plastering his hair to his head. "It wouldn't do for you to catch a cold now." I say to him as I sift through the keys in my hand, trying to find the key to the front lock. I quickly find it and unlock the door. As I open it and move aside to let him in, I hear him say as he passes by me. "Like it matters now?" I stare at his retreating form as he walks up the stairs to the main floor of our condo. His steps sounding like his feet were encased in lead shoes on the hardwood floors. A moment later I hear the sounds of clawed paws on the hardwood floor, as a soft yip reaches my ears. The voice that greets our 1 yr old golden labrador is low, almost inaudible, and sad. "Hey Gorudo". I turn my gaze back towards the sky, as the rain starts coming down harder. I close my eyes and let the wetness run over my face as the wind lifts my long ponytail like a banner in it's current. After a moment more, I bow my head as I hit the car locks and alarm on my silver Dodge Charger. I turn and walk into our home. Hoping, wishing, praying for Kami's guidance. 'Kami, please help me. Give me a sign. Tell me... What can I do to? What can I do?'


I'm not sure if I will do another chapter to this or just leave it. It will depend on how it is received, or how I feel about this.

I dedicate this to 2 important people in my universe. My good friend Gayle Nighingale for keeping me sane (which is a very hard thing to do) with her stories. And, her encouragement to start writing again. Thank you my friend. Your friendship has been invaluable to me!

And the most important person in my life. My living Sesshoumaru. My husband, Jorge. Who gave me his permission to write this. I don't think I would have been here to this day if not for him. My best friend, my mentor, my muse! Thank you love of my life!

Love you all!

B reading U!