Edited: 4/2021
Warning: Drug uses
Father.. even Zero always warned me about getting into a relationship with an older woman. But I didn't listen... And I got myself involved with a perfect creature, who was in her early thirty by her appearance, and I was fresh out of high school. I never liked school, unlike my twin. So going to college was never in my future.
I floated from job to job. Moved in and out of friend's places... Party all the time... Then I met her at a nightclub I was working at. My pretty face drew in the customer and her, like a flower blooming out of season. She completely captivated me.
I wish I could say everything was perfect when I went back to her place and never left. However, no matter how much I tried, it wouldn't work. It was never going to be perfect... My heart would explode first...
"Please just hear me now." My words broke out another one of her episodes. One more screaming and yelling fit as she lashes out at me. Shizuka is the only woman I know who can completely wear me out... Mentally, emotionally and physically.
"No one ever hears me out, Ichiru. We're done! We are completely and utterly over!" she screamed at me; we drove back to our place.
So she can calm her rage most naturally. With a few puffs... Instead of making misery, we were on the flooring having the best break-up sex than the night before.
Maybe I am sick, twisted, yes, even somewhat disturbed... However, when she screams at me, 'I hate you.' Her nails feel way better as they dig into my flesh. When she moans, 'I'll miss you when you're gone, Ichiru.' The goosebump reaches all the way to my toes.
Without any doubts in mind, the break-ups very worth the sex. Laying on the cold floor, wrapped in the kimono she was wearing. Watching her take a few more hits... Knowing with every fiber of my body, another one of her episodes will break out... Just like the night before... Causing another around of her bitching and yelling things she doesn't mean. I could only look forward to the outcome of what happened after that.
So I can handle all the Shizuka baggage she carrying. I don't mind that I'm always worn out from her. 'Don't worry so much, Father. Everything alright now.' I thought to myself, watching her get stoned once more. So we can make love rather than misery...
"Ichiru, stay with me forever."
"As you wish."
My relationship isn't perfect, no matter how hard I try. Shizuka, not the type of woman you bring home for any holidays or family events... But I love what she does to me.
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A/n: Inspired by the Hinder song 'get stoned.'
