Here is the start to my new fanfiction. The first few chapters are going to be a bit angsty, but that is also something I want to work on and better. I know not many people do Miroku and Kagome pairings, and that is why I am trying my hand at it. I have a lot planned with this story, and I am hoping ai will have plenty of readers. This fanfiction will be following the same posting schedule as my others. That means, every Monday. And yes, this coming up Monday will have another update.

Chapter 1

Kagome let out a laugh, looking over the fire at Miroku. She knew what he was doing. He was trying to cheer her up without making it obvious. Though he had never been good at hiding his thoughts from her, much like she couldn't hide hers from him. She could see the sympathy in his gaze. If she was on the outside looking in, she would have the same look upon her face as well.

InuYasha had ran off again. He claimed to be patrolling, but he couldn't meet Kagome's gaze. He was guilty about leaving and that meant he wasn't patrolling at all. He was meeting Kikyou for one of their tryst. It had been happening more often lately. He tried to hide it, but often times he would come back with love marks on his neck, and one time even a scratch on his back.

The only strange thing about InuYasha's tryst that was different from all the others was the lack of soul collectors. Normally the group would at least see them when Kikyou was around, but that hadn't been the case. InuYasha wouldn't even look out to the woods as if she was calling him. He would simply say he was going patrolling and then leave.

Miroku let out a sigh, the quiet around them calming. Shippo and Kirara were curled up in his sleeping bag and sleeping. Sango had left to use the restroom. That left Miroku and Kagome to sit and think on their future.

Soon Naraku would be defeated. All of the shards had been collected aside of Kouga and Kohaku, and now they were mostly waiting on the spider to strike. They had no idea where he was, and that meant they were left needing to wait. It was trying, but all they could do.

Miroku already had a plan in his head. The moment Naraku was defeated, and his wind tunnel was gone, he was going to settle down. Sango had already agreed to become his wife some time ago, and he intended to hold her too that. They would marry, and then create the family he had always desired. That was his ultimate plan, and one he looked forward to more the closer they came to killing Naraku.

Kagome felt the same way, but with InuYasha. Although, she didn't know if her plan was fool proof. After all, he was currently with Kikyou, and not with her. She wanted to marry InuYasha, but what if he didn't want to marry her. The truth was, she knew if Kikyou came back to life, he would choose the older miko over her.

She couldn't help but to feel foolish about wanting to marry someone who didn't want her. She knew realistically that her dreams wouldn't happen. It hurt so much, constricting her heart in a vice grip. But she just couldn't let go. How could she? It had been three years since she fell through the well and five hundred years in the past.

Three years that she loved InuYasha.

She didn't like the idea of wasting that much time on one person. Because of that, it made it difficult to let go of InuYasha. She wouldn't get those years back. Maybe it would be easier if he didn't give her hope. One minute he would be with Kikyou, the next he would be with Kagome, acting protective and flirty. She didn't understand it.

His whispered words and promise's were another reason she couldn't let go. He told her that he cared about her, held her hand, and even kissed her, but then ran off to see another woman. The moment she finally started to think it would be best to get over this love she held for him, he reeled her back in and lost once more.

Pulling her legs to her chest, she wrapped her arms around them, resting her chin on knees. "I'm an idiot." She really was. She knew how this was going to end. She knew he was going to pick Kikyou, but she was too weak to stop it.

"The heart is a fickle thing, Kagome. At least at times." Miroku scooted closer to her, wrapping an arm around her shoulders. She sniffled, trying to fight the tears that were stinging her eyes. He looked up to the stars, thinking on his friend, and how he could hurt the poor woman the way he was. "The heart wants what it wants. Sometimes, we just can't fight it."

"His heart doesn't want me." Hiding her face, her entire body tensed as she kept her sobs at bay. She was tired of crying over him. She didn't want to shed tears anymore, but he constantly forced her to do so.

"He does. I see the way he looks at you." Miroku squeezed her tighter, looking out at the tree line. He had half a mind to go find InuYasha and make him see the error of his way, but he didn't want to leave Kagome alone. "His mouth is cruel, but his eyes are gentle."

"Only because I'm Kikyou's copy. Maybe I should just go back into the well when Naraku is gone." She looked up to her friend, meeting his violet eyes. She could see the anger he felt towards her situation, and it calmed her. As selfish as it may be, she was glad at least someone was on her side. "I don't belong here Miroku."

"If you didn't belong here, the Gods wouldn't have brought you back five hundred years." He held up his free hand, a single pointer finger straight while the rest were folded. "Plus, there is this. You are one of the strongest Miko's I have ever seen. You said there is no power in your time. Why would you receive so much spiritual energy if you weren't meant for this here and now?"

Kagome sniffled, rubbing the back of her hand over her eyes and nose. Miroku had a point. She wouldn't be able to use her reiki in the future. Not that she used it much in the past. She still had no control over it, and only called on it when she didn't have a choice. She didn't want to take a chance of hurting the demons in their group. Miroku had offered to train her, but InuYasha said no, stating that he would protect her.

"Thanks, Miroku. I feel a little better." He rubbed her back one last time, and then moved back to his spot across the fire. She could still feel him watching her and knew he had more to say. "Go ahead and say it, I won't get mad."

"You know, Kagome, that he will choose Kikyou." Miroku hated saying it, especially when the younger woman flinched, but he didn't want to see her hurting anymore. She was so sweet and kind, and her heart didn't deserve the onslaught of pain it was constantly receiving.

When she nodded once, he sighed, continuing on. "Perhaps you should seek another? You deserve someone who will care for you as he does her." She shook her head, a small sad smile on her face. He knew why she refused, and he didn't blame her. Still.

"I know I need to let go of him. But he makes it so hard, Miroku. He does these things when he comes back from seeing her that just keeps my hope alive that he would choose me, but…" She sniffled again and shook her head. "He won't choose me. Not unless she dies, and then I will just be his way of having Kikyou. I don't want to be a copy. I want to be Kagome." She looked up to the sky, her hands clinging to her bare legs. "I have no idea how to let go of him. I know I should, but actually doing it is so much harder."

"I can offer my assistance. Any time I notice InuYasha starting with his behavior, I could interrupt him. Would that help you?" Miroku was willing to do anything to help Kagome move on from InuYasha. He hoped that one day she would find a love like he and Sango shared.

"He would try to hurt you." She smiled, a true smile. It was small, but he was glad to see it replace her tears. Kagome was a woman that radiated when she smiled, and the world needed to see it in all of its glory. Lately it had been harder and harder to get her to show any happiness.

"The operative word, is try." He flicked a finger on his staff and then held up his hand with the prayer beads. InuYasha didn't stand a chance if Miroku pulled out his wind tunnel. Of course, the monk wouldn't actually suck up his friend, but he could use it to get his point across.

"Thanks for listening to me." Kagome stood suddenly, wiping her tears away for the final time. "I'm getting tired now, so I think I will change into my pajama's." She ruffled through her yellow bag, grabbing the clothing she needed and walked off to the forest.

Miroku really had helped to cheer her up, and she was thankful for it. Lately, she had felt alone. She couldn't talk to Shippo about how she felt, and Sango seemed to be pulling away from her. That and she was always leaving camp to go to the bathroom. She would be gone for some time as well. Kagome couldn't help but to wonder if her sister was pregnant, and that was why she was always having to go to be alone. Maybe she was suffering from morning sickness?

Kagome was worried about Sango. If she was pregnant, she didn't need to be fighting against Naraku, but she didn't know how to bring it up. So far, Sango hadn't mentioned anything. Quickly changing into her pajamas, Kagome stashed her day clothes in the tree. Maybe she could confront Sango while she was getting sick. If she did that, Kagome could persuade Sango to tell her what was wrong.

Mind made up, Kagome turned and walked deeper into the forest. Over the years of being in the feudal era, she had learned a little bit about tracking. She could see Sango's footprints, and followed them. She stopped when a second pair suddenly appeared next to the slayer's feet. It was deeper, as if the person jumped out of a tree and landed in that exact spot. They didn't wear shoes either and had claws.

InuYasha.

Maybe he had heard or smelled Sango getting sick, so he went to check on her. He was brash, but she knew he worried about his friends. If he had run across Sango getting sick, he would want to make sure she was alright.

Smiling, she continued to follow the tracks deeper into the forest. She had no idea Sango had come so far, but if she was keeping her pregnancy a secret, it would make sense. Kagome couldn't help but to excited about being an aunt. She wasn't going to have kids any time soon, so she would love Sango's babies with everything she had.

A sound she had never personally heard before, but one that she knew without a doubt ghosted across her ears. She froze, even her lungs seizing as she heard it over and over again. Her time was filled with sex, from books movies, to porn. She had been immersed into sex at a young age, even if she had never experienced it. She knew the sound when she heard it.

She hadn't meant to stumble across InuYasha and Kikyou. She hadn't even been looking for the hanyou this time, and yet, she still managed to be in a place that she didn't want to be. It wasn't fair. She didn't want to hear this. Having the knowledge of them having sex was bad enough. Now she had the sound effects burned into her mind.

And then InuYasha's voice said one thing. One little word that shattered Kagome's heart and trust. One word, and she was devastated, ruined, and broken. It was a word she never would have expected, a word that she assumed would never be used against her, and yet, there she stood, hand over her mouth trying to hide her sobs as she realized the horrific truth. Then, as if to drive the knife deeper into her back, InuYasha said that name once again.

"Sango."