Hello everyone :) new chapter up. Right something i didnt tell you in my last chapter in this story Bella is as close to myself as i could possible get her. she is still going to be Bella i would never change one of SM characters but she is going to have the same interest as me, same qualifications as me ect. hope you dont mind :P Well anyway as everyone loved tha last chapter in Jaspers POV here is another for a while :P enjoy
Jaspers POV
After me and Bella had come back from out hunt, we went back to the house and sat with everyone in the living room. Of course, Carlisle was interested in what Bella had been up too since he had seen her last. She had already told me when we were out hunting that she worked with young children so it didn't surprise me when she said she had got numerous qualifications and degree's to work with children. As soon as Bella said what she did for a living, Rosalie showed her interest in working with children. Even though Rosalie always seemed to be one of the most difficult people on the planet, she had a strong maternal side. The chance to be a mother had been taken away from her when she was changed, and we all knew that she wished for nothing more than to be a mother, so having the opportunity to work with little children made Rosalie very happy.
We carried on talking about everything that we had done while we had gone to school and what we had done when we went to university and colleges and stuff. I listen as Carlisle spoke with so much pride about us and what we did. I noticed that Bella suddenly became quite uneasy around us and she was hit with a sense of loneliness. We sat there for a few more hours, before Bella excused herself and went out into the garden. I watched her as she left the room. I felt the urge to go after her and see if she was ok, but I held back. I didn't know the women so I felt like I would be stepping out of the boundaries if I followed her.
"Go after her Jazz. I know you want to." Alice encouraged me.
"What if she doesn't want to be followed?" I asked Alice.
"Well then just go see what is wrong. Its not going to hurt is it." Alice persuaded me.
I sighed before I got up and walked out of the living room and into the garden. Bella was lying on her back in the middle of the lawn. Her hair was all spread around her head as she rested it on the grass. I lay on the ground next to her and asked her what was wrong.
She turned her head to the side and smiled at me.
"Nothing. I'm just not good with big groups of people. I have been on my own for so long now, that big groups make me feel uneasy." She told me.
"I know. You don't have to be uneasy around us though. No one is going to hurt you." I told her.
"I know that, but after being on my own as long as I have, can you blame me fore being nervous around people. And what do you mean 'you know'?" she asked me.
"I'm an empath, I can feel your emotions and manipulate them if I wanted too. I could tell that when Carlisle was talking about us, you felt alone and uneasy. I would have manipulated you, but I don't know how you would have reacted. Not everyone likes to have their emotions manipulated." I told her with a smile.
"Well thanks. I wouldn't have noticed it was you, but I'm glad that you have told me now. So if my mood every changes suddenly, I'll know who to blame." She giggled.
"So, is there anyone else who has special skills?" Bella asked me.
"Alice can see the future and Edward can read minds. We are quite a gifted group." I told her, sitting up. Bella was still laying on her back on the grass, her dark brown curls sprawled around her head.
"Wow, Carlisle has been busy. Did he change all of you?" she asked.
"No, me and Alice are the only ones in the group who weren't changed by Carlisle." I told her.
"Can you do anything out of the ordinary?" I asked her.
She gave me a very wicked looking grin on her face.
"Oh yes I can, but id rather show everyone at once. If they want to know that is." She told me.
I stood up from the ground and held out my hand for her to take so that I could help her off the ground. She took it without hesitation. As soon as our hands met, it was as if a jolt of electricity was shocked through my body. Bella must have felt it too because she gasped as soon as our skin touched.
"Come on lets go back inside." I walked back into the house, without realising that I was still holding Bella's hand in mine.
Before we got into the living room I dropped Bella's hand from mine. I didn't want to let her hand go, but I knew that if we went into the house holding hands, then people were going to notice. I had no idea why I was feeling like this. I mean, I had known the women a few hours and I was more comfortable around her than I was with most members of my family.
As soon as we got into the living room every ones eyes shot up to us.
"Are you ok Bella?" Alice asked when we came back.
"Yeah I'm good. Just needed a bit of time on my own that's all." She told Alice, glancing at me slightly as she walked back to sit down on the sofa again. I sat next to her again where I was before.
We all sat in the living room and talked for a few more hours, until it was time for school. I was glad that it was my final year at school, because I don't think I could cope with it anymore. It was just so boring. I would much rather go to university (again) and come out and get a job for a few years. We all left Carlisle, Esme and Bella in the house so that we could leave. I left my eyes linger on Bella a little while before I actually left the house.
Once we were in the car, Alice jumped into the seat next to me. Normally should she would go in the Volvo with Edward while I drove the jeep, so Alice sitting in the seat next to me was a little strange.
"Why aren't you going with Edward today?" I asked before I started the car.
"I wanted to talk to you." she said with a huge smile on her face.
"About…" I pressed knowing that she was going to burst if we didn't start having a conversation soon.
"Bella." she said simply. The car stalled when she mentioned her name. Alice's laughter filled the car before I started it again.
"What about her?" I asked as I finally got the car to pull out of the garage.
"You like her. A lot, and don't lie to me Jasper I've seen the way you are around her." she pointed at me.
"Alice I have known her for a few hours. I don't know anything about her. From what I've seen of her, she seems like a good person, but that's it." I told her.
"Stop lying to your self Jazz, I can see the way you look at her. You have to at least feel something for her?" Alice continued to press.
I knew that there was something there that I felt for Bella, but I didn't know what it was and I wasn't ready to tell anyone yet, not even my future seeing sister. I could tell that Alice was glaring at me all the way to school. When I finally pulled up to the school car park Alice got out of the car, not saying another word to me and walked over to the others.
"Did you talk to him?" I heard Edward asked her as she went over to him.
"Yes, but it is being stubborn, as usual." Alice told him back. I watched as they walked into the school together. It was only after Alice had left my car that I started to think about Bella, and if I actually did feel anything for her.
I got out of the car and decided that I would think about what Alice had spoken about in the car. Did I feel anything for Bella? I got out of the car and went into school and now because of Alice the only thoughts that were going through my mind were of Bella.
After school was over, I went back to my car on my own. Alice decided to go back home in Edward's car. I had been thinking about Bella for the majority of the day and I had to be honest. It hadn't gotten me anywhere. I hadn't sent enough time with her to know how I felt about her, but the way that Alice had suddenly ambushed me this morning, it made me wonder if she had seen anything about Bella. I'm sure if Alice had seen something, she would have told me. Or would she? This whole situation was starting to get very confusing.
I was the first one to get home. I drove up to the house and put the car in the garage. When I got there, I noticed that Bella was sitting on the hood of what I assumed was her car. I looked closer at her face and it looked like she had been crying. I got out of the car and went over to her.
"Are you ok Bella?" I asked. When I got over to her, I could tell that she had defiantly been crying. The tear stains were running down her face and her eyes were all puffy. But how? Vampires cant cry. Or shouldn't be able to anyway.
"Yeah I'm ok. just had a bit of a emotional day that's all." She said, wiping her eyes.
"I know this is probably the wrong time to ask this, but would you mind explaining the tears? How can you cry?" I asked.
She shrugged her shoulders before she answered me.
"I don't know, I've always been able to cry, but only about certain things. I don't have a total emotional breakdown all the time." She told me laughing a little. She looked down at her hands on her lap, I then realised that I couldn't stand to see her upset. It physically hurt me to see this.
I put my finger under her chin and lifted her head up so that she was looking at me.
"You know you can talk to me if you want to. I don't like seeing you like this." I Told her, holding her face so that she would keep looking at me. I couldn't bare it if she looked away from me.
"Its ok. I've been talking to Esme this afternoon. We actually have more in common than I thought." She said trying to laugh it off again, but I could hear the pain I her voice when she spoke.
I let her chin go thinking that she would look away the first chance she got, but she didn't. She kept looking at me as if I was still holding her face.
"Are you sure you are ok?" I asked. She nodded her head before getting off the hood of the car.
"Thanks Jasper." She said with a smile on her face. She stood on her tip toes and kissed me on the cheek before she walked away. I stood there in the garage and watched her walk away. Did this women know the effect that she had over me, or was she just like being so amazing without even realising it.
Bella's POV.
The morning after everyone had left for school was quiet. Carlisle had to leave to go to work at the hospital. I did not surprise me one little bit that he was still a doctor. When I first met him he was working in a hospital, and he loved his Job, that much was apparent. He loved to help people and heal them. I knew that I had good self control, I had to, but Carlisle was in a whole league of his own. I worked with humans and young babies, but Carlisle had to work with injured people with free flowing blood and I didn't understand how he resisted such a temptation.
Esme was in the house when everyone had left. She had to be the nicest person that I had ever met. We spoke quietly to each other while we were alone about nothing. She told me about how everyone had joined her family. Edward was with Carlisle before Esme was changed, then Rosalie was changed and then Emmett was found and joined them. Jasper had told me that he and Alice were the last to join this coven so I already knew that. When she had finished telling me about her family, she told me that he had some errands to run. She said that I was welcome to stay in the house while she was gone, but that made me feel strange to be in someone else's house while they were gone. I then remembered that I had not gone to get my car and that it should still be where I left it when I went hunting.
I made sure that my car keys were in my pocket before I left the house. I ran back to where I had left my car. Thankfully it was still there. I made sure that everything was still in the boot of my car and the back seat before I started to drive back to the Cullen's house. The Cullen's had a pretty large garage, so I knew that I would be able to fit my car into the garage. My car was a Audi A3 convertible, so it was only small compared to the other large cars that I had seen in the garage. As soon as I got back to the house, I could tell that Esme was not back yet. I got Child development books out of the back of the care. As I was opening a Crèche when I got to Boston, I decided that it would be a good idea to brush up on some milestones and Developmental ages. I already knew it of course, but I hadent worked in a crèche for over 40 years so I thought it was a good idea.
I had been reading and taking notes in the living room for about a hour when I heard Esme come back into the house.
"Hello Bella. What are you doing?" she asked as she walked past me.
"Oh nothing. I went to get my car so I decided to brush up on some development as I will be going back to work soon." I told her. I noticed that Esme was reading over my shoulder. I was looking at the page with the reflexes of a new born baby. I could tell that she was looking intently at the pictures of the babies in the book as much as I was.
"Are you ok Esme?" I asked her.
It looked like she was going to cry even though I knew it was impossible.
"I'm fine." She answered in a shaky voice while smiling at me. I closed the book as Esme walked past me and sat on the sofa.
I went over to her and sat down next to her.
"Did you have children Esme? Before you were changed?" I asked her. The look on her face gave me my answer. I put my hand on her shoulder to comfort her, as she was obviously upset.
"I know how you feel." I told her. Esme looked at me confused by what I had said.
"You have told me so much about you and everyone here, but you know so little about me. Would you like to know?" I asked her. she nodded in response. I knew this was going to be a very emotional conversation for the both of us.
I know. Rite another thing about Bella, she can cry. but that is the only human thing she can do i swear. I have a pretty good power in mind, but let me know what you think it should be by reviewing :) you know how i love them haha. hope to hear from you all soon.
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