Heyyy everyone :) new chapter up. I have finished the next chapter (Nearly) so that will be up soon. But for now i am going to leave you with this chapter. Enjoy! :)

Bella's POV

Jasper picked up his shirt and pulled it back over his head. I still couldn't divert my gaze from the small crescent shape scars that were scattered all over his body. I sat on the bed next to him and waited for him to start talking.

"I didn't have the same start into this life as everyone else in my family had. I had a totally different life to what I have now. I was born in Texas in 1843. By the time I was 18 I had joined the army and was eager to go to war. By the time I was 20 I had worked my way up the ranks and was one of the youngest majors in the state. One night I was put in charge of evacuating women and children out of a very dangerous area. I came across three women who I had never seen before and to my eyes then they were the most beautiful creatures I have ever seen. I tried to get them to leave and get away, but they didn't. two of them turned and left while the other women stayed where she was. I had never believed in mythological creatures, but I knew that the women who was standing in front of me was not human. After smiling at me she leaned in as if she was going to kiss me, but she bit me and I turned me. When I woke up I saw that the same three women were with me again. I learned that their names were Marie, Nettie and Lucy. At the same time that the humans were having a war, vampires were having one at the same time. They were all trying to build armies of young vampires so they could control a larger area. When I was turned I was placed with more newborns, I think there was around 20 of us that Marie had changed and only the strongest ones survived. We fought amongst ourselves and many of them were killed. I was one of the best fighters that Maria had so I was able to feed more often than some of the others. I soon discovered what my ability was and that I was able to control and feel the emotions of those around me. As soon as Maria found out about this I was upgraded. This time I was in charge of choosing vampires that would be strong enough to help Maria take over the territories that were around us. The weaker ones would be…disposed of" Jasper said.i knew instantly what he meant. I instinctively moved away from him slightly but Jasper grabbed me and pulled me back.

"I wont tell you this if you don't want me too Bella." he told me.

"No I'm sorry, I want to know." I told him.

Jasper sat back on the bed with his back against the head board and he pulled me so that I was sitting with my back to his chest. I know I shouldn't have felt as comfortable as I was like this, but I was.

"You can obviously see that my job wasn't easy. I got attacked and bitten every day. This went on for years and I've actually lost count on how many vampires have tried to kills me. After years of doing this, I left Maria and went my own way. I tried to hunt like I was use too, but you have no idea what it like feeling how scared someone is before you kill them. I stopped hunting unless I was desperate at one point. That was when I met Alice. She was on her own too. Little Pixie told me about the visions that she had and told me that we would have a better life if I went with her. I didn't have much of a choice after that. Me and Alice stayed together until we met the Cullens. And this is where we have been ever since." He told me. When he finished his story, I turned around to face him.

"Jasper I'm so sorry." I told him kissing him lightly on the lips.

"What are you sorry for. That is what my life was like, and nothing I can do now can change that. I would never go back to that lifestyle now, it would hurt my family too much if I did." He told me.

"I know, but it just sounds so horrible." I said to him.

"It wasn't the best. This is why I find it so hard to live the way that everyone else does. I do it because I know that it is the best thing to do, but I know that if there was even the tiniest drop of human blood around here I wouldn't be able to help myself." He said and I could see the sorrow in his eyes when he said this. I leaned in and kissed him again. He kissed me back lightly, moving his hands so that they were on the small of my back. I moved my kisses down to his throat and started kissing the scars that I could see on his skin.

"I don't think you would loose control." I told him.

I could feel his incline his head towards mine, as I continued to kiss the scars that were scattered on him.

"And why do you say that?" he asked.

"Because these scars just show how strong you are. I know you would be able to stop your self." I told him looking him in the eyes again.

Jasper smirked at me.

"How can you be so sure about that?" he asked me.

I shrugged my shoulders.

"I don't. But I do know how good a person you are and that you wouldn't let yourself slip like that." I told him seriously.

"Do you realise, that you are the only person in this whole house who believes in me? Everyone knows that I am the weakest when it comes to human blood and I know they would all help me if I did slip, but no one has ever told me that I'm strong enough not to do anything. Thank you." he told me and kissed me again. This time I wrapped my arms around his neck and held him too me. I don't know what had gotten into me. I decided as he had shared his past with me then I could at least do the same for him.

"Now that you have told me about your past, I think it is only fair you learn about mine." I told him.

"You don't have too if you doing want to darlin'. I can feel how much it hurts you to talk about it." He asked, rubbing small soothing circles on my back.

"It is hard for me, but you have shared something about you and now it is my turn to share." I said. I moved back from his embrace and built myself up so that I would be able to tell my story.

I told him everything. About Jacob, my two little girls, about the life that I had before I was changed and how much I loved it. He sat still and listened intently to what I was telling him. When I got to the part where I was attacked and turned into what I am now, I could physically see Jasper tensing up. I took his hand and relaxed him. As I carried on telling my story, I could feel my emotions getting the better of me and I could feel tears building up in my eyes when I spoke about my girls. I could tell that Jasper wanted to comfort me, but I could also see that he was fascinated by the little drops of liquid that were coming out of my eyes. Soon though Jasper decided that he was going to comfort me. I used his thumb to wipe away the tears on one side of my face while he kissed the tears on the other side away. I had to smile when he did this. When I had finished telling hum about myself before I was a vampire he pulled me too him again and kissed me. This was the third time he had kissed me in under a hour and I never wanted him to stop. When I released myself from him he spoke to me.

"Thank you. I know how hard that was for you." He told me. I smiled at him.

"Its not difficult for me to tell you. I've only ever only told two people about my past and both of them live here." It told him.

"That's what you had spoken to Esme about when I saw you in the garage the other day?" he asked me.

I nodded my head.

"It feels good to have someone who understand me and knows how I feel." I told him.

"I know how you feel." Jasper said grinning at me.

I giggled when he said that.

"Yes I know that, but Esme understand why I feel this way. She went through nearly the same as me. That's why she is such a good mother figure to you." I told him.

"She isn't just our mother figure, she is our mother. I may be older than her but that doesn't stop her from hitting me if I do something wrong. And I listen to her. I love her to pieces, but sometimes she scares me a little." he said while laughing.

I looked out of the window into the forest behind the house. I didn't realise until now that I needed to hunt. Jasper saw the look on my face and asked if I was ok.

"Yeah im fine. Just getting a little bit thirsty that's all." I told him. Jasper got up off the bed then turned to face me, holding his hand out to me.

"Lets hunt then." He said. I smiled at him and took his hands before leaping out of the window with him. We ran for a while until we were under more cover of the trees. As we were running, still holding hands, I noticed that Jaspers eyes had gone very dark. He was obviously thirsty. I then realised that maybe that was why he was leaving the house when I decided to throw rain onto him. I laughed to myself as we continued to run. Jasper looked over and me and slowed to a stop.

"What is so funny?" he asked me as I continued to have a little giggle fit.

"Its nothing. I just sort of realised why you were leaving the house when it started to rain." I said.

"You mean when you made it rain." He said coming closer to me.

"Well yeah. That." I said. Jasper was now really close to me. I back up a little until I was against a tree.

"Could you make it rain now?" Jasper asked leaning in and kissed me. I would never get enough of this mans lips.

"Don't you think we should go hunting first. I don't fancy hunting when my clothes are soaking wet." I said when Jasper moved his kissed down my throat.

"That sounds like a good idea. I don't want to change my clothes again." Jasper told me.

I bit my lip, remembering just how good Jasper looked when his shirt was soaked through. I thought about it and came to the conclusion that maybe rain wouldn't be such a bad idea after all.

Me and Jasper hunted together and ended up taking down half a herd of deer between us. I didn't realise how thirsty I was until I realised that I was draining my 4th deer.

I looked over at Jasper who had finished a few minutes before I had and was watching me.

"If you were so thirsty, you should have come out a while a go." He told me.

"I'm know, but I was terribly distracted by something." I winked at him and walked towards him. He smiled at me before wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me towards him.

"You didn't seem to be complaining Miss Swan." Jasper pointed out.

Just as I was about to answer him I heard his cell phone go off in his pocket.

"Yes Alice." Jasper answered. I could hear Alice's high voice over the other end of the phone.

"Jasper. You and Bella have to get back to the house. There is a storm coming so Edward and Emmett want to go play. I take it you and Bella are coming with us." Alice asked over the phone.

"Yes, ok we will be there now." Jasper answered her. Just before he was going to hang up Alice spoke again.

"I knew you would. Now hurry back, I need to find something for Bella to you later." And with that Alice hung up the phone.

"What is Alice finding for me?" I asked, after hearing the conversation.

"There is a storm coming so the guys want to go out and play baseball while we can. Alice has obviously decided that everyone is playing, so come on we need to go to get changed." He told me smiling. Taking my hand he started pulling me back towards the house.

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