I'm Alive! Yes, i know it has been a while, but you have no idea how much work I have had in uni and i really havent had time to write. anyway, here is the next chapter and im sorry i left you on a cliffy for like 3 weeks. well, enjoy! :)

Bella's POV

I knew that Jasper was excited about Peter coming to see him. He had never actually said anything about him, but I could tell how happy he was that he was coming. Jasper had never gone into depth about his past, all I knew is what he was made to do, and then he and Peter had to work together. Jaspers phone rang and it was peter saying that he was going to be here in a few minutes. I looked around the room and realised that something was missing. I had a crystal vase that I put in the dinning room, but I always moved it when I had the girls here, because I knew that one day they were going to smash it. So when Jasper said that Peter would be here soon, I decided that I should bring it back down, it did make the room look a little bit nicer and I wanted to make a good impression on Jasper oldest friend. I picked up the vase from the spare room and began to walk back down the stairs.

"Peter, Charlotte, I would like you too meet Bella Swan." I heard Jasper introduce me, but I didn't focus on what he was saying as I focused on the girl, who was standing in my hallway. I didn't need to think to know who it was. It was Charlotte. My Charlotte. My daughter who for the past 136 years I had been mourning over because I had lost her.

I couldn't help my reaction. I dropped my crystal vase on the floor, not caring as it shattered all over my floor and then I screamed. I looked at my daughter, into her deep red eyes. She didn't do anything but stare at me.

"Bella what is the matter?" Japer came and asked me. I would have responded to his question, but my gaze was fixed on Charlotte.

Suddenly, Charlotte hissed at me. The pain that went through me when she did that was indescribable. She hated me, that was the only explanation that I could come up with for that sound.

"Charl, what's the matter with you?" Peter asked, putting a hand on her shoulder.

"She is the reason I'm like this?" Charlotte said through gritted teeth.

"What are you talking about?" Peter asked her.

Charlotte pointed a finger in my direction.

"She is the reason I am like this." She gestured to herself.

"Because of her I am frozen like this! Having opportunities taken away from me. Not being able to live a life that I wanted." she screamed

Jasper looked at me, confusion and written all over his face.

"You, made her?" Jasper asked, talking as if he was speaking an alien language.

"Not in the sense that you are talking about." I whispered.

Jasper looked even more confused at what I had just said. And then finally it clicked.

"What?" Jasper asked again, even though he knew what I was saying. I looked over and Peter who was looking as confused as Jasper.

"She's my daughter." I said, just to confirm what Jasper was thinking and to get Peter on the same page.

"How can you blame me for this Charlotte?" I asked her, speaking for the first time to her.

"You have no idea how much pain you left behind. You left dad to raise two young children. He never understood why you left. He went out every night to look for you, and always coming back broken. Finally after years of looking for you, he gave up. Rebecca never understood where you had gone, she would always ask me where you were. What could I tell her? that our mother had to go away for a while or maybe the truth would have been better that she didn't love us anymore." Charlotte said, sounding like she would cry.

"I that what you thought? That I didn't love you? How could you think that Charlotte. I left because I had to. There was no way that I could have stayed around you and risked any of your lives." I told her.

"Yes I know that now, but when I was 6, how could I understand that? one day you were there and then when I woke up in the morning you were gone." Charlotte said looking directly at me.

I didn't say anything else to her, because what could I say. Everything that she said was true, I did just leave my family, but I had no choice. What did she expect me to say?

"Just because dad stopped looking for you, didn't mean I did. When I was 17 I started to go out looking for you myself. I never understood why you left and I needed to find you and ask you, but I never did. One day Rebecca wanted to come with me because she had found out why I had been sneaking out. I told her no because I didn't want her to get hurt if we saw you and you didn't look at us. But she insisted that she came. We were looking for a few hours in the forest where I thought you had gone when someone jumped us. I don't know who it was, I blacked out before I could see who it was. That's when the burning started. I lay on the ground in the forest for 3 days changing and when I woke up, the first thing that I saw was my little sister and my father dead on the forest floor. I couldn't stay there any more, I had to leave. I never forgave you for leaving us and I'm not sure I ever will!" Charlotte snarled at me. I couldn't move. I knew that I had hurt them, how could I not have. I left them suddenly, but charlotte must understand that there was no way that I could have stayed with them after what happened. When Charlotte had said about Rebecca going out to look with her, I suddenly filled with fear for her. I had accepted long ago that my children and husband were dead. I never thought that any of them would change like I did, so when I heard Charlotte said that Rebecca had died when she was looking for me, I went numb.

I heard Jasper trying to grab my attention, but I couldn't feel anything at the moment, not even the sound of Jaspers voice could pull me from where I was now. Then I fell. There was too many emotions that I was holding inside me. I clasped onto the floor and let the tears that had been building up loose. Jasper wrapped his arms around me and tried to sooth me, but I didn't really register that he was there.

I looked up at Charlotte who was looking down at me confused by the tears that were running down my face. I glared at my daughter before getting up off the floor and turning to Jasper.

"Jasper, would you and Peter go out for a while, I think me and Charlotte need to talk alone." I said to him.

"Are you sure that is a good idea?" Jasper asked me.

"I need to talk to her and I cant do that with a audience." I said.

He leaned in and kissed me lightly before grabbing Peters arm and removing him from the house. I turned around and walked toward to living room and I knew that Charlotte would follow me. I sat down on the sofa. Charlotte stood at the end of the sofa and looked at me.

"How can you cry?" she asked looking at me as I rubbed my eye to get my tears to go away.

"I don't know. it is the only thing left of my humanity that I have left. And I never thought you would be the one to make me cry like this." I said gesturing at my face. Charlotte had had her screaming fit and now it was my turn to say my piece.

"How can you think that I would leave you willingly! Did you think I was that bad a mother that I would leave my children without an explanation! I had to leave Charlotte or I would have put all of you in danger. You obviously know how hard it is to be around humans when you are thirsty." I said to her looking into her blood red eyes.

She looked down at her feet.

"How I live my life has nothing to do with you." she snapped back and for the first time since she has come into the house, she didn't sound angry.

"I didn't say it did. But you know you cant be around humans when you are thirsty without wanting to drain them. Do you think I would put my children and husband in danger?" I asked her.

She didn't say anything else to me, but she sat down on the sofa next to me. Even though I didn't show it, the action made me so happy.

"No." she said.

I knew I was pushing my boundaries by doing what I did next, but I moved closer to her and reached out for her hand that was on her lap.

"I never wanted to leave you Charlotte. You are my little girl, you always will be. Just because I wasn't there it doesn't mean I stopped loving you. I missed you so much when I left. I had to talk myself into not going back, because I was so close to coming back to you." I told her and I could feel my tears building up inside my eyes. I could tell that Charlotte wasn't angry with me any more. She held my hand that was in hers.

"Ive missed you too." she told me, before moving so that I could hold her. I wrapped my arms around her and held her close to me. I had missed my family so much and now I had my baby girl back with me. I stared to cry again as I held her in my arms. Stroking her hair and whispering to her how much I had missed her all these years. I don't know how long we stayed like this, but it must have been long enough for Jasper and Peter to come back from where ever they went.

"Is everything ok?" Jasper asked when he came in though the door. I turned my head on Charlottes shoulder and looked at him and smiled. He smiled, back at me knowing the answer to his question.

Charlotte let go of me and went over to stand by Peter, and I went over too stand by Jasper. He opened his arms for me and I willingly went too him.

"So, I know I caught the gist of what is going on here, but would one of you please explain to me what the hell is going on?" Peter asked.

"Peter I'd like to introduce you to my mother." Charlotte said looking over at me.

"Well I gathered that Charl, but I don't know why it has taken you so long to find her." Peter said.

"Because I didn't know she was alive. Well, you know what I mean." She said.

We didn't say anymore about the fact that it had taken us so long to find each other, because we both knew that we still had some issues to work on about that, but I knew, at the moment that I was just happy that I had my daughter back, and knowing after all these years that she was safe.

"Are you ok darling?" Jasper whispered in my ear.

"I'm just trying to take all of this in. Thinking my daughter was dead for nearly 140 years and then finding out she is a vampire, it is a lot to take in." I told him.

"I know. Should I ask you the question later when you have had time to absorb all of this?" Jasper asked me.

I nodded my head into his chest.

We ended up sitting back on the sofa and Peter told Jasper what he had been up too since the last time they had seen each other, and Charlotte and I talked about our lives.

My cell phone rang soon after we sat down on the sofa. I looked at the little LCD screen and smiled to myself.

"Hello Alice."

What are we think? yes, the cullens are coming back soon and they are all going to find out about all this :P. its gonna be a good chapter.

Anyway. i will try and update as soon as i can, but i dont know how long that will be. i finish university in 3 or 4 weeks and then i will be free to write and update as often as i can, but until then you will have to wait. Rite, im going to sleep now cos it is late here. Oh and remember to review, otherwise i wont update any quicker.

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