Bella
One year later…
Despair.
Despair?
I didn't know the meaning of the word, but I was sure it was such a depressing definition that I didn't want to look it up.
I shoved a brush through my hair. I had recently cut it to even out the edges. It felt good to take care of myself.
Jake was there as usual and digging through my fridge. Charlie must've gone to work already. He peeked his head out of the fridge and gave a wolf whistle. Being a wolf, I saw the irony.
"Check out the new Bella." He grinned, saluting to fingers out to me. I blushed, but gave a confident smirk. It had taken a year, saved up money, and guts to finally shop for clothes. Jeans, shorts, different types of shirts, and 've been so proud.
"Okay, let's check." Jake walked closely to me with a serious look and grabbed my shoulders in his big hands, shaking me slightly.
"Edward." When I didn't flinch or blink, he smiled, "Edward. Edward. Edward! Edward! Edward Mother Fucking Cullen, bitch!" I broke into giggles, slapping his chest. He pulled me into a big hug, "It looks like the day has come. You're officially over him! I think this calls for a celebratory kiss." He pulled back and puckered his full lips towards me.
I laughed and pushed him away, "I don't think Leah would like that." At his imprint's name, his face formed a goofy smile.
Over the year, I had gone through so much. I fell into a depression, got shipped off toPhoenixfor summer break, then came back feeling much better than usual. My mom helped a lot and told me to let it go. I tried and finally succeeded. I went through therapy and finally said good bye to my first love, Edward Mother Fucking Cullen. I stayed behind with Charlie and promised to move out as soon as possible then go to college. He said he wanted me to stay. Not possible.
"So, how do you want to celebrate?" Jake asked, bringing me out of my thoughts.
I sighed, "I don't know. Why don't you go and have fun at La Push? I'll meet you there later." I suggested. He smiled and slowly back away while removing his sleeveless white shirt.
"See ya, Bells." He quickly turned into that giant wolf I loved and fled into the woods. I sighed and unbuttoned the long sleeved plaid shirt and let it hand loosely on my body. I started cleaning up the house, humming a tune in my head.
A soft meow broke me from my thoughts and I looked up to see Lucy. She was a slender little thing with soft gray fur and yellow, green eyes. Her tail waved behind her and her ears held high as she stared at me. I had found her awhile ago and was glad she was still alive. I had never kept another animal alive for longer than a few days. She hated Jacob and refused to come out when he was around.
"Hey, Luce. Has Charlie fed you?" I picked her up, crooning the words at her cute face. She slapped a playfully paw at me and purred. I loved this cat. I filled up her food bowl then grabbed an apple out of the fridge.
My life was not planned out. Honestly, I had no plan. I didn't know where I was supposed to go or do. I was around and the wolves were getting tired. I felt guilty because it was my entire fault. Well, Edward's too, he killed the guy. Not me. So what the fuck?
When I thought of Edward now, I thought of perfection. I don't even know how I thought I had a chance. I was not perfection. I was far from it and it hurt to think that. He had probably found another mate and forgotten fully about his little pet.
…
"Dad," I groaned, "I suck at this." He turned to smile at me and took a swig of his beer. We were fishing on the deck, my feet splashing in the cold water. Charlie tugged on a strand of my hair, "Ow!" I whacked him with the end of my fishing pole.
He laughed, "Kid, you gotta be quiet for the fish. You're scaring them away."
I rolled my eyes, but shut my trap, glaring at the still waters, "Fucking fish."
"What was that?" He raised his brow at me, holding back a smile.
"Nothing." I replied quickly, "I got the acceptance letter."
He paused and I could sense him grow tense, "Yeah?"
"Yeah," I sighed and tucked a lock of my hair behind my ear. A nervous trait, "UW sure likes me. But…" I turned to him and his eyes were wet, "I'm not ready to leave."
He wrapped an arm around me, pulling me against his side, "I'm not ready for you to leave either, Kid," He scratched the back of his head awkwardly, "I-I, um, love ya, Kid."
I laughed, my cheeks flaring, "I love you, too, dad. Even though you're clumsy and awkward. I've always wondered where I got it from." He chuckled and shook his head.
"I'm gonna miss you, Kid." He held me close.
…
I threw off my muddy tennis shoes and stripped off my jacket, placing it on the stair's rail. Charlie had gone to La Push to have a giant lunch with the Black's. I sleepily walked up the stairs, Lucy trailing after me.
After taking a shower, I put on a baggy graphic t-shirt Jacob had given me awhile ago. I refused to put on any pants, it was too hot. I rummaged for a hair brush, and when I couldn't find one, I put it in a high ponytail on top of my head. I started to brush my teeth and searched the bathroom for Lucy. Usually she would wait for me to be finish and scratch at the door.
Was Jacob here?
I spit out the toothpaste and peeked my head out the door, clicking my teeth for Lucy to come. She didn't. I stumbled down the dark hallway and walked into my room as the hairs on the back of my neck stood.
Please not Victoria.
If it was her, then Lucy was a major bitch. She just ran. I took a deep calming breath and pushed open my door, flicking my light on. My eyes widened and my shield flared. I could feel a whirlpool of emotions start to gather inside me and, before I could stop it, my shield shattered the windows and cracked my mirror. It was getting harder to control my shield when it became stronger.
My mouth was ajar slightly and I was staring into the vampire who tried to kill me a year ago. The first thing that came out of my mouth was stupid and rude, but I couldn't help it, "Did you kill my cat?"