A/N: I don't own this, we all know who does. If I did, Rpattz would be washing my hair and shaving my legs for me today. He'd do that pretty much every time he visited... :)

This is unbeta'd, so any and all mistakes belong to me. FYI I'm hungry. Stomach growls could equal missed spelling errors. Sorry if that happens. :D

This is for my wifey, Mrs. Robward. She chats so pretty, talking to me about very naughty, bad things. :D Yeah, we talked about our stories today. :D

Thanks to Luxure & EdwardsBloodType for prereading this. They're both seeing Breaking Dawn when it comes out in November...but not with me. Maybe someday...

**disclaimer **

This story is a bit taboo. Things are coming out. Just wait...

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… Chapter Nine - Positive … Bella …

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The plastic stick in my hand is my undoing.

Positive.

Years ago I would have been elated. If this were a different world, I'd be joyful.

I hate whatever is growing in me.

He'll know. He'll know it's not his.

It can't possibly be his.

"What's that?" he asks, surprising me.

In shock, I hold it out for him to see.

"Pregnant? But, I had a vasectomy, Bella. What's going on here?"

His eyes are questioning, accusing. I'm sure he's heard the rumors. Rumors about me.

No matter how good or kind I am, I know the gossipy bitties at church are talking about me.

If only they knew how true it all was. If only they knew the father of my child was the boy they all prattle on about each week. If only they knew what you were really like when you are alone. Alone with me.

I know they want you. Age does nothing to hide lust, desire. If they had a chance with you, they'd jump at it. I'm no fool, I see it in their eyes.

"Bella? How are you pregnant?" he asks, demanding an answer.

"It's a miracle. A miracle sent from God. I can't believe this."

He looks at me, his hands framing my face. I wish they were your hands.

"Truly? We are blessed, my Bella."

His lips find mine, and for a moment I wish he were enough. I wish the man standing before me could be all I needed. I wish I'd never known the feel of true love, passion, want.

But I do know those things, and he's not all I need. He's not enough.

He never will be.

I hug him, letting tears burn my eyes.

What do I tell you?

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A/N: Oh yeah...just wait.

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